A Gift from the Goddess

1... 2... 3… In… and out. 

I sat outside in the fresh air amongst the trees, breathing carefully as I focused on clearing my mind. I‘d been working on these techniques over the last two weeks, and it was coming along nicely. Or at least, it seemed that way. How well it held up when it came time to actually use it, I couldn‘t be sure. 

However, I‘d definitely been getting better. Creating distance had seemed to have worked a little since every day that passed, I felt her presence a tiny bit less. Almost enough to make me wonder if it was possible to just wait it all out until I was completely free of her. The only thing was that, unfortunately, at the rate I was going, that might be maybe months or even years away. Something we probably didn‘t have time for, much to my disappointment. Settling for just strengthening my mind would need to be enough in the meantime. 

But... there were also some downsides to my improvement too.... 

I got up from the ground and brushed myself off, walking back towards the cottage. It wasn‘t that I didn‘t like going there, but I‘d be lying if I said it hadn‘t been getting... difficult. 

Upon entering, I immediately took off my shoes by the front door and was about to shout out that I‘d returned, but something caught my attention before I could do so. 

There, laying on the couch, I saw that Aleric had fallen asleep and was looking so peaceful. 

What I wouldn‘t give to walk over, curl up next to him... feel his warmth around me… taste his lips against mine. 

I quickly shook my head, pushing away that idea as far back as possible. These thoughts were becoming more frequent these days the more I regained control of myself. Similar to the negative emotions Thea had instilled inside me, my own natural ones were causing me issues of my own now. 

...Not that it probably mattered anyway. 

Over the two weeks that had already passed, I couldn‘t help but notice how it seemed almost as if Aleric was avoiding me. He would sit and chat for only small periods of time before abruptly leaving, either to his bedroom or on another patrol. Truthfully, it was starting to feel a little lonely. 

And whilst I had promised myself not to get romantically involved with him, it didn‘t seem to stop me from thinking about him that way. A part of me was craving his attention, even if that was only a little bit. Hell, even some proper eye contact once in a while would have been nice. 

‘Yet it seemed stupid to think he was trying to get away from me... right? I was surely just overthinking 

things, even if he did literally leave mid-conversation a few days ago... and start eating in his room more often... or rarely initiate conversation unless he had to.... 

I sighed and sat on the armchair opposite the couch, watching him. 

What the hell was I going to do about this? It was making my training more difficult with all these added uncertainties in my head. 

Giving in and confessing seemed selfish... especially when these days it seemed like he didn‘t really want anything to do with me. Did he miss home maybe? Resent me for having to play babysitter? If I did tell him the truth and I got what I wanted, would it just be a reaction from the mate bond opposed to what he actually wanted? That was the main question I‘d been asking myself for weeks now. One that still weighed heavily on me. 

...But then, what was one more selfish deed in the pile of things I‘d already done in this life? If it was just 

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one final time to do something I knew I shouldn‘t... when it would feel so, so good... surely that would be okay, right? 

I‘d accidentally seen him just after he‘d had a shower the other day, catching a glimpse of his chest before he‘d tugged on a shirt. It was times like that which made it difficult to do the right thing. Especially when I could still recall how he felt pressed against me, how perfectly I fit there.... 

“...Why are you staring at me?” he suddenly grumbled out, eyes still closed. It caught me off guard enough to make me jump in surprise. 

My chest began racing as if I‘d been caught doing something I shouldn‘t, even though I‘d just been sitting there silently the entire time. 

“1–... I um, I just got back from... uhm training,” I stuttered out, my cheeks burning. 

He sat up and started rubbing his eyes with one hand, ending each movement by pinching the bridge of his nose. It seemed like he really had been fairly deep asleep if he was acting this tired. 

“...And what are you doing now?” he asked, still not looking at me. 

Was it actually all in my head when it seemed so apparent that he was annoyed at me? Had I done something since coming here to piss him off maybe? 

“I‘m... ah, I‘m sitting here?” 

He nodded his head quietly. “Alright, I‘ll go on another patrol before dinner then.” 

And with that, he got up and headed to the door. 

“W–wait, you just woke up. You don‘t need to rush out yet. You seem tired.” 

He didn‘t turn around or respond in any way though as he started putting his shoes on. Odd since I would have thought that he‘d prefer to shift for a patrol. Something he wouldn‘t need shoes for. 

But his blatant disregard for even acknowledging what I said sparked a mild annoyance of my own, one I‘d purposely been pushing down these last few weeks believing I was just overreacting. Clearly, I wasn‘t making it up if he wouldn‘t even reply to me anymore, 

“Aleric, seriously,” I said, getting up to approach him. “Is something bothering you? Ever since we came here it‘s like you can barely even look at me.” 

Considering everything going on at the moment, I didn‘t exactly expect him to give me any sort of courtesies but at the very least I thought we could hold a conversation. He hadn‘t been acting all that strange when we were still at the Winter Mist. This felt like something more specific to us coming here. 

“Aria, leave it,” he said, still without even turning back. 

But I was tired of this. Tired of living with a brick wall. 

“Aleric.” 

And I grabbed his arm so he was forced to turn around and look at me. A sight that almost made me jump back as I caught a glimpse of his face. 

Or, more accurately, a glimpse of his eyes. 

me that his wolf

taken aback

my scent. He didn‘t

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out. “I‘m trying to

turn of events. I could feel the warmth coming off his

limits a little bit too far now. I don‘t know what‘s going on in your head lately, but I‘m pretty sure it‘s not Thea since my wolf has been clawing at me

The mate bond. 

because of

didn‘t that mean....

that he‘d been able to sense how much

he‘d been running to get away from me.

sorry.” I said quietly. “I... I forgot that you‘d be

a strained exhale as he took a step back, rubbing his

to your own room? Just meet me halfway on that one. That‘s

...Cai? 

ended up here. “Why would you assume I‘m thinking about him? We‘re not... we‘re not like that anymore.”

two made up before we left? I saw you two together under the tree, remember? Cuddled u p saying you love

he‘d missed the most important part though; the bit where

love Cai but... we‘re just friends. It didn‘t mean anything beyond that.

what have you

realising I‘d now dug my own grave. It seemed like there was no way to avoid the topic

literally anything

about... how I wish things between us had been fixed before I‘d ruined everything,” || answered. “About how you‘re now connected to me regardless of whether you

to let me make that choice? I understand your situation, Aria, really, I do. You feel like you have a responsibility because of the things you’ve experienced; because you once saw a future where similar scenarios ended badly... but I‘m not a kid. Let me make up my own mind and make my own decisions – good or bad. I don‘t need you to be responsible

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as an excuse because you‘re

there, meeting his gaze as all my fears of

It was proof of how, once again, he was able to read me so well. That, despite the absence of the mate bond for me, that there was

honestly this time..,” he said, bringing

jaw so I wouldn‘t turn away. Not that doing s o would have even crossed my mind for a second. In fact, I wanted nothing more than to melt into his touch entirely, to finally give in and stop feeling guilty for wanting

about these last few weeks,” he whispered, his face moving in closer t o my

blank as his proximity sent another

they were right there. Promising to give

“Aria.” 

into focus again, looking back

he

*Thump.* 

how much I wanted you.” ...And those words ended up being the last thing I said before everything turned into a

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him, and his lips enveloped my own. It was like we‘d both been starving as we hungered for the other, everything happening so quickly. A response probably resulting

weight as I clungt o him. With one of my arms around his neck, the other

myself over to my yearnings completely, I‘d never felt more in control than I did i n that moment. That there was not even

him, repeating the words he‘d wanted

for so much more than just

kissing me along my neck, but the sensation was making me grow impatient. I couldn‘t take it much longer. I‘d thought about this

Now. 

just enough to look at me with

even a question?

say that Aleric held my life in his hands and, though different, that still held true in this timeline. He possessed a power over me unlike any other, supporting me

desires just to make me happy, despite receiving n o respite or recognition for doing so. If he wanted me after all

my very reason to keep going. I could walk through fire for him a thousand times and it still would not be enough, knowing I was only alive because of what

and through. No matter what

I breathed against him.

me off the wall, taking us over to the couch; the closest piece of furniture

off,” I demanded, grabbing at his shirt.

other, only taking small moments of slowing down t o admire the other. A sight I revelled

have been from this timeline originally, but there was no question that this was my* Aleric. That I was always meant to find my way here,

arms supporting his weight over me, he began placing small kisses all over my body, sending shivers through me where he touched. And I watched him as

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his head. I had so many scars and bruises these days that

answer that I had not anticipated, feeling that it was so far from the truth.

he said, his gaze quickly coming

was looking at me, so serious in its intensity… it was the same way that I‘d come to learn meant he was being completely

fact alone ignited my restlessness once more, no longer able to endure the agonisingly slow pace we‘d

I was done waiting

against him, and hoping he‘d get the hint.

urgency; his

me. The small feeling of relief finally being granted under