A Gift from the Goddess

Chapter Forty-Eight Now it was my turn to drop my cutlery, almost choking on my food. “I‘m sorry? No. I did not have feelings for Cai,” I said, still coughing a little. I took a sip of water to clear my throat. “It was you who had feelings for Cai, remember? And Cai doesn’t have feelings for me either… unless you‘re talking about the kind of feelings that find him inside a girl’s skirt for a day.”

“Bullshit, Aria!”

I quickly looked up to meet Myra’s fiery eyes. It was the first time I’d ever heard her swear or even sound so angry. I was completely taken aback. “Myra...?” She closed her eyes and composed herself for a second. “Sorry, sometimes I think you’ve rubbed off on me a little too much.”

My lip twitched in a smile. It was nice to see Myra standing up for herself so confidently for once… even if she was passionate about the wrong thing in this case.

“Look, I didn’t have feelings for Cai,” she stressed. “You need to realise our lives aren’t the same, Aria. I’m not anyone special. I don’t have a rank, my parents aren’t famous, and I don’t have any cool marks or prophecies about my future mate… I’m just an average pack member, trying to contribute where I can.”

“Myra-.”

I went to disagree with her about not being anyone special, but she just held up her hand to indicate she wanted me to let her finish.

“I‘m not anyone special, Aria,” she insisted. “Without intervention, I most likely would have lived and died without ever having met a ranked member my entire life. I would have become o f age, become mated to an average joe just like myself, had a few children, and then died. But then one day I saw you in the library at school, just like I had every other day prior, except this time you seemed different. You had stood up to Braydon that day, something so o character for your reputation back then… but it was more than that. Truthfully, when I saw you that day, you looked almost... sad. And so, despite all my better judgment, I still went and spoke to you for the first time.” It was hard to hear her say these things about herself, especially since I cared for her so deeply. But I didn‘t dare to interrupt her. It felt like something that had been weighing on her for a while and she needed to speak.

“Honestly, talking to you that day in the library was the most nerve–wracking thing I‘d ever done. And then, by some miracle, you, the Beta‘s only child, and Cai, an alpha heir, saved me... and suddenly I‘m in a new world where, not only are two incredibly important people talking t o me, but they want to be my friend?! I didn‘t understand why. Like... why me...?” 

She looked up to me finally and I could see her eyes had gone watery. And it hurt me to see her like that. She didn’t understand how important she was to me. How much I had needed her

over these years. It was because of her I had started to trust others again. “So, no, Aria,” she said, “I don‘t have feelings for Cai in the way you may think. I don‘t have feelings stronger than any of the other non-ranked girls in this entire pack… or any other pack for that matter. An Alpha heir speaks to me, is kind to me, and you think I‘m in love with him? Hell yes, I am! I would probably act the same if it were Aleric, too. You’re all goddamn celebrities in our eyes! But I know my place, and that‘s not with an Alpha. I‘m not meant to become a Luna or any other ranked member’s mate.”

the conversation back. She was trying to take the attention off herself. “But I think you already know that. I also saw how you used to look at him, how you were around him, and I know you don’t have the same excuse as me as to why you acted that way. So, I think we both know he’s not the issue here. No, I think your real problem is with yourself, Aria … not Cai.” I frowned. “No... but I told you, remember? He was with that girl, Iris, the other night. And it‘s so much more complicated than that, Myra. My position complicates it.” “...But

just been grateful to spend time with you. But if

not true! I’m close with you, Myra,” I

can tell, it looks to me as if you’ve rejected the idea of being with Cai for the same reason you were so sad in the library that day. Because of whatever this pain is

I‘d thought I had been keeping that part of myself hidden from her well since she had never mentioned it, but this entire time it was actually just because she didn‘t think she was worthy

was. That there wasn’t actually any reason to feel so distant from me. “I’m sorry I’ve let it get to this point,” I said finally after some time. I could hear the waver in my voice as I struggled to not become too overwhelmed by my own emotions. “I should have told you the

a little. “I didn‘t say all of this to guilt you into telling me. I’m just trying to give you my perspective on this whole situation. I know you care about me, even if you‘ve

saying… but you don’t fully understand and that’s entirely my fault,” I said and stood up, digging around in my wallet for some money to leave on the cafe table.” You

then she would stop putting

It was time. Myra had been the one thing in my life I could depend on and yet I had failed to do the same for her. How long had she been hurting because

issue was how she would react. Would she become afraid of Aleric just as I

feelings I may have

managed to live long enough to get that far. I’d

had no doubt that I’d be marked as a traitor and would ignite a war in the process. A war that would maybe end with Cai dead on that battlefield again.

worth that. Not to mention the countless lives that would be lost due to war. Hadn’t I just seen with my own eyes how my selfish actions could  complete your eyes more hurt innocent people around me? Thousands of people out there, just like Myra, who would be caught up in the whims of people who

lost in my thoughts that I‘d completely forgotten where I’d

I saw it. Or, more accurately, I saw her. Immediately, I moved fast to hide behind a large tree we had stopped next

…Because Thea was here.

in the open, across the street and… appearing to be doing shopping, of all things.