A Gift from the Goddess

Chapter Fifty She was dead. Myra was dead. 

The words kept repeating themselves in my head but I was struggling to come to terms with it being real

Unfortunately, I had only remained unconscious for a few minutes before Aleric had managed t o wake me up. I found myself on the couch inside and answered all of his questions as best I could, though albeit very robotically. By the time I had finished describing where Myra was and her current state, Aleric had quickly left to go get the patrol team scouring the area for rogues. I told him about my dagger that was used, the one from the cave I’d left behind, and even about Thea. What she looked like, where the two of them had been, and that I’d told Myra to talk to her. No one really listened to me after I’d mentioned the rogue knife though. They all immediately went on to high alert mainly looking for them, not Thea. Everyone had thought since my missing dagger was used, that it was the rogues trying to retaliate for killing their comrades. And so, I sat on the couch, just watching the chaos ensue around me for hours.

People running in and out of the house, giving status reports and confirmations about Myra’s body. People becoming frantic as they tried to find leads. An argument between officials over who was going to inform Myra’s family. I felt sick just listening to it all.

But I couldn’t move, let alone function enough to be of any help.

I just sat on that couch… and watched. Silently. The entire time just feeling dead inside. As dead as Myra now was because of me. And I knew it had been my fault. Everything. She’d said so herself; it was because of me that her life had become so abnormal. Maybe she might have lived long enough to have that average life she’d mentioned. She might have had that ordinary mate… those children… and died of old age. Died naturally.

Not dead now because of me.

But I hadn‘t known. I hadn’t known asking her to talk to Thea would lead to this. I hadn’t known her life would be in danger.

“…Miss,” a voice suddenly said in front of me. I realised then that I’d been staring at the torso of someone standing in front of me for Goddess knew how long.

I looked up slowly, blinking several times as my eyes came into focus, and saw Lucy there.

“…Miss, I’m here to take you home,” she said gently.

She looked worried and I didn’t need to guess why. It didn‘t make me feel any better though. “…I saw Thea,” I answered quietly, ignoring whatever she’d said. My voice sounded far away and still very hoarse. She flinched in surprise, almost in disbelief at what I’d just told her. “What...? Thea?” 

“...Yes.”

She sighed. “That might explain a few things then.” “… Like what?”

She paused, unsure if she should answer that, but she did eventually speak. 

an hour ago what happened to our private investigator,” she said. “He was killed a couple of months back in a neighbouring territory. The pack there have been trying to contact us so they could ask about his last case, but

exhaustion this new development brought.

suspected as much, but hearing this news now only made

had been the one to kill

me. She just had to follow your trail all the way back here. The investigator’s death was most

she know about me then? She must have been watching me since even before the Golden Blade attack. If that was the case then she probably knew all about me… about Myra, and possibly even about Aleric and Cai too. And that silver knife? Was she working with the rogues as well then? Was Thea

have taken her for someone who could do this though. A cunning, power hungry bitch? Sure. Physically murderous and violent? ...Not

death until I saw her smirking right before my conviction. Her style had always been to act the innocent and win the hearts of the people. It made me wonder what her plan was now and whether she was still looking to become Luna. Didn’t she realise I could pin part of the blame on her for Myra‘s death? That I could tie her into the whole mess and accuse her of working with the rogues? It seemed unlikely that anyone would let her into the pack one day with an accusation like that against her. But… then there was my silver dagger. I needed to realise that the

likely that no one would believe me if I said it was Thea without proof. The only real evidence I could provide was that Myra had been with her last… and that the Pl

only lead to questions that I couldn‘t answer. It would mean telling

anymore. A future that I was suddenly so blind to. And it occurred to me that I’d been completely helpless this time to save Myra. I hadn’t seen it i na vision like I had two years ago. So why hadn’t I seen it?

focusing on getting physically stronger to fight this whole time, I should have been spending some time learning about my mark and how it worked. I had always acted as if I never wanted any free handouts from the Goddess and had been trying to reach my goal without

to me that she was all-powerful and that I needed her in some way to

saw Lucy had been watching me the whole

said, realising I’d last left her last thinking she was to blame for not knowing about the PI. It was true that Thea most likely followed her to me, but I knew I was to blame just as much. “We should have been checking in more regularly to avoid this. Please ensure

puffy and sore to give any real expression. “Me..?” “Yes… how are you going

not,” I finally replied after a small hesitation. “I don‘t deserve any solace for what I

all, Lucy. I will drive myself home so your assistance won’t be necessary tonight.” She reluctantly bowed her head and I shakily got to my feet. It

a voice called out to

I recognised it too

he left to contact the patrol teams and hadn’t expected to speak to him again before leaving. He was helping to orchestrate the entire search party so I knew he was incredibly busy. “…Home,” I said quietly as I kept walking. “Like that? At least stay and clean up first. You’re still... ah.” ‘You’re still covered in Myra’s blood, ‘I said in my head, finishing his sentence. “It’s fine. I’ll clean up at

he stood next to me. I couldn’t meet his eyes though, choosing to focus on anything else around me. “I don’t

had been staring at me over the last few hours, all while they walked through

if I stayed like that from now on. “Really, it’s fine, Aleric,” I said,

place a bit as if