A Gift from the Goddess

Chapter 54

Chapter Fifty–Four 

“Kiss me,” I said. 

“...What...?” 

After leaving home, I‘d headed straight to where I knew they would be. Somewhere I knew that I definitely shouldn‘t be. 

But there was no hesitation as I‘d confidently walked up and knocked on their door. And when Cai had answered, I‘d ignored his confusion and demanded the one thing I knew could make me feel better. 

Because if it felt anywhere near as good as the first time, then maybe it would be enough to make me forget for a moment that everything was falling to pieces around me. 

“Kiss me,” I repeated. 

His eyes were wide, stunned at my request, but he wasn‘t moving. I could see he was still in the same attire he‘d been in earlier; the formal clothes making his body somehow look even more fitted. 

I quietly sighed impatiently whilst his head tried to comprehend exactly what was happening. 

“Aria–.” 

However, I didn‘t wait for him to finish his sentence. It wasn‘t words I wanted right now... it was him. 

I walked up and pulled on the collar of his shirt until his face was within reach of my own. 

“Please, Cai...,” I whispered, as I looked up slowly from his lips to his eyes. 

He was so close now that it caused a shiver of anticipation to run through my body. I needed this, I needed him, and I could see in his eyes that he wanted me too. The tension between us was becoming so intense that it felt tangible. 1 

The cold night breeze swept around us and it only made the warmth coming from him even more inviting. I loosened the hand I had hooked onto his shirt and ran it all the way along his chest, feeling him under m y touch, until it rested on his broad shoulder. I wanted him closer, his body still feeling too far away. 

My heart jumped a little when I saw him finally lean in closer and place his hand on the side of my head, his thumb resting against my cheek tenderly. And instinctively, I closed my eyes as I moved towards him, preparing myself for what would happen next. 

But instead of feeling him against my lips, I felt him shift away... and kiss my cheek instead. 

“No,” he said quietly. “Not like this.” 

I snapped my eyes open to look at him. 

“No… no, please, I need this,” I said and grabbed onto him tighter. “Please, Cai... I want you.” 

He closed his eyes and looked pained, almost as if he was internally having a battle within himself. 

“Aria–” 

“No, you said you wanted me,” I said, my voice becoming more frantic. “Why are you doing this now?” 

“Because I honestly don‘t know if it‘s me you want right now, or if it‘s just you finding an outlet for your grief.” 

I could feel as my cheeks began to burn in humiliation, my eyes tearing up, and instantly I dropped my 

side as if he‘d just stung me. His words left me embarrassed and hurt over his rejection, and... angry. Angry that everyone was choosing to disappoint me today of all days. 

Chaptei Hity Out 

sick of hearing people saying that to me today. I‘m fine! This

look at me today and yet somehow you‘re now on my doorstep begging for me. Excuse me if I‘m

wanted, right? You just wanted

tried to grab at his hands but he took a step away, creating a small distance between us. I couldn‘t help but flinch at his movement to get away

deep down, you do actually want me too... but the way you‘re acting

“There‘s nothing wrong with

see it is part of

calming

a friend. But I have more self–respect than to sit back and let you use me because of the feelings I have for you. Because I do want you... and I honestly want nothing more than for you to tell me right now that I‘m wrong about all of this. But from what I can see, you need help, Aria, and I‘m happy to oblige... but not

to speak, to tell him

he pressed. “Tell me that I‘m wrong and it‘s me you actually want. Or tell me that you want my help, and I‘ll help you.”

head. This wasn‘t the sort of on the spot decision I

he said

deal with this right now.

several steps away but Cai called out to me. His expression changed to one of worry and I could feel he was about to chase after me, but I held up a hand to

wait, where are you

him. There was no point in staying any longer. I was already at

you‘re

not really knowing where I was going but I knew I needed to

hold it in. I screamed out

had hoped would act one way, had ended up doing the opposite when I‘d needed them most. I had needed Aleric to believe me, to take my side. I‘d needed my father to push

the thoughts out of my

Everything had been fine before she‘d shown up. Myra would still be alive and I wouldn‘t be fighting with Aleric and my father. I wouldn‘t

to crumble around me, signs of the past starting to repeat.

then that if Aleric and my father weren‘t willing to do what needed to be done, then maybe would just do it myself.

Fuck it. 

purpose towards the one place I could get my hands on somethingt o inflict as much

silver blade she used to kill Myra. I would make it agonising for her and ensure that she‘d suffer an

wasn‘t happy with my intention to defy the order given to me. I winced,

got worse; I was determined to keep going no matter the cost. It was as if a car

late to stop me.

head, I repeated the words I needed to tell myself; that I was marked by the Goddess, chosen, a Saintess, and no order should be able to

unbearable pain it caused, until they finally broke off me like chains... and, instantly, I

...I was free. 

going until, finally, I came to the building where the evidence was kept locked up. The silver knife would be in there I knew, guarded by

like I was seeing it in a completely new light given how dark it already was outside.

ahead. A room guarded by

Ray.” I greeted cautiously in a flat voice, approaching

“Beta heir? Why are you here

me to pick something up. It‘s

going to help with solving the issue of Myra‘s murderer

Chesterbrity Fou! 

looking uncomfortable, and probably realised

kept shut until daylight hours. The warriors are Alpha ordered to

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