A Gift from the Goddess

Chapter Fifty–Eight 

‘So handsome,‘ I thought to myself as I watched Cai sleeping next to me. 

I wasn‘t sure how long I‘d slept for but I‘d woken up to find him by my side. He looked so peaceful; his hair had tousled into a mess as his chest softly rose and fell. I could have watched him for hours. 

I lost track of time as I recounted the events that had transpired the evening prior but soon Cai stirred next to me. In his slumber, a strand of hair fell across his face and I couldn‘t help but reach out and gently brush it away back into place. It was so silky to touch. 

As my eyes drifted back to his face though I froze, realising he was now awake and watching me. 

“Morning,” he mumbled sleepily, reaching out to pull me close to him. 

Thad fallen asleep in one of his t–shirts but could still feel his warmth through the fabric. If not for the confusion of his words, I would have melted myself into his touch willingly. But the nagging in my mind prevented me, forcing me to pick up on the oddity. How could it still be morning when I knew I‘d slept for a t least a few hours? 

“...Morning?” I asked slowly. “How long have I been asleep?” 

“Just over a day. You were dead to the world, completely comatose.” 

I tensed up immediately realising that, if that were true, then I‘d disappeared without notice for over an entire day. Were my parents freaked out? I knew I was exhausted from using that newfound authority but I hadn‘t realised I‘d be out cold for so long. The tax it took on my body must have been far more severe than I thought. 

I sat up and knew I needed to leave as soon as possible. If they already had people out looking for me then this was the last place they should find me. 

“Why didn‘t you wake me?!” 

I tried to squirm off the bed but he held me back, his arm around my waist. 

“Relax! I already handled it all. I told your attendant you were safe but had a rough night and were staying with a friend.” 

I turned back to look at him. “...No one can know I‘m here, Cai.” 

With a sleepy sigh and completely unphased by my stress, he shifted into a sitting position to tighten his grip on me. “I already figured you‘d say that so I told her to be discreet with the information.” 

It took a few seconds to fully process his words but finally, I exhaled in relief knowing that Lucy would make up an adequate excuse to appease my parents. At least there was no search party out looking for m 

“Come on,” he said, guiding me to lie back down again. 

He pulled me up against his chest once more so we were face–to–face and softly kissed my forehead between my knitted brows. I could already guess what he was thinking. 

“You worry too much,” he grumbled, confirming my suspicion. 

“You need to take this seriously, Cai,” I said quietly. ‘Do you realise what would happen if word got out?” 

“I‘m aware,” he replied, much to my surprise. 

“...If you know then why did you pursue me in the first place? ...Why come back to the Winter Mist?” 

wanity Light 

His eyes were serious, a sharpness to them I rarely saw. He was like a different person when he was this focused, so contrasted to his normally playful manner. 

“Because it‘s avoidable,” he said. “The issues are surrounding our positions and Aleric, right? There are ways around it.” 

of this so well then he was just as insane as m e for trying to pull this

being with me really worth starting

deep in thought. “...Maybe,” he said distantly.

of my future status, then maybe I‘ll just... let it go. Personally, I think I‘ve missed my

joking, I still stared at

just abandon

seems overrated but okay, sure,” he said, not even trying to hide his smirk anymore. “But who said I‘d want you as my Luna anyway? You‘d probably be terrible at it.

amusement.

“it doesn‘t bother me. If it means being with you then I‘m happy to do whatever,

“This is literally the worst decision I‘ve ever made and I‘ve done a lot of dumb shit

shrugged. “Possibly,

see a way where we

of time to argue about whether we go public or not. And besides, it‘s not really much of an argument when I could just....” He started kissing his way up from my chest, along my shoulder... up until I could feel his

of my neck, the exact spot where a mate mark would go, and a shiver of pleasure spread throughout my whole body. I could picture it so clearly and knew how amazing it would feel

requirement for showing full commitment and becoming one. But a mark had its own complicated downsides; one of which was that if we were to go through a mate rejection post–marking, the process would potentially kill us.

a mark meant that there could be no other mate until one of the bonded died. It was unquestionable, final. And whilst the normal death of a mate was painful, it did not mean

would be fully tied to Cai and, by extension, his pack; something that Tytus would want to prevent at all costs... And yet a

because by that point it would be too late. By taking the choice away, it would

he continued to kiss me along that area of m y neck. “... Stop that.” It was

me,” he replied.

the excitement it caused was involuntary. That feeling of knowing it was so wrong that it made it feel even better; as if tempting fate.

towards my chest. These feelings he gave me, this... intense… desire to be close to him, as if he were a force of nature pulling me in via gravity... It was intoxicating. The more he

forcing my body to feel unimaginable highs, I knew I was only falling down a rabbit hole

once more, wrapped in each other‘s arms,

“doing anything at all right now in a perfect world, where would you be? What would you be

was no such thing as a perfect world, just one

thought about it...,”

two lives but it feels like

What would

few

living as far away as possible from the pack and all associated responsibilities. I would be living a quiet life where no one knew me or was looking for me... and where I wouldn‘t need to worry about abandoning the people I care for because there would be no impending doom or warrant

thoughtfully as he took it all in. “Living in a house? Whereabouts?”

enough for me that no one would find. I‘d be sure to spread rumours of a

enough for you? No partner?” he asked, hinting at

want to join me in my little cottage? I thought you‘d be too busy in this alternate reality, living up a more exciting life.

no one will come

build some extra rooms then. I‘ll definitely need the extra space if it

up having kids then the extra space is

felt sick, the unwelcome reminder assaulting me over something I‘d become uncertain

I started hesitantly, unable to meet his eyes. “I need to tell you... I‘m not sure... ... -” 1

my forehead to interrupt me. “It‘s okay, you don‘t need to explain. I already had a feeling based on the things you told me about Thea. There are other options though if we really wanted... or maybe

at the tears stinging in my eyes before nodding my head, grateful he was so understanding. But I didn‘t have the heart to tell him yet about my suspicions. Suspicions I‘d been thinking for a while now regarding a certain dead rogue doctor in a cave. However, if it turned out to be irrelevant

could be doing anything right now in a perfect world, what would you be doing?”

as he thought. “...You. I‘d be