A Gift from the Goddess

Chapter Fifty–Eight 

‘So handsome,‘ I thought to myself as I watched Cai sleeping next to me. 

I wasn‘t sure how long I‘d slept for but I‘d woken up to find him by my side. He looked so peaceful; his hair had tousled into a mess as his chest softly rose and fell. I could have watched him for hours. 

I lost track of time as I recounted the events that had transpired the evening prior but soon Cai stirred next to me. In his slumber, a strand of hair fell across his face and I couldn‘t help but reach out and gently brush it away back into place. It was so silky to touch. 

As my eyes drifted back to his face though I froze, realising he was now awake and watching me. 

“Morning,” he mumbled sleepily, reaching out to pull me close to him. 

Thad fallen asleep in one of his t–shirts but could still feel his warmth through the fabric. If not for the confusion of his words, I would have melted myself into his touch willingly. But the nagging in my mind prevented me, forcing me to pick up on the oddity. How could it still be morning when I knew I‘d slept for a t least a few hours? 

“...Morning?” I asked slowly. “How long have I been asleep?” 

“Just over a day. You were dead to the world, completely comatose.” 

I tensed up immediately realising that, if that were true, then I‘d disappeared without notice for over an entire day. Were my parents freaked out? I knew I was exhausted from using that newfound authority but I hadn‘t realised I‘d be out cold for so long. The tax it took on my body must have been far more severe than I thought. 

I sat up and knew I needed to leave as soon as possible. If they already had people out looking for me then this was the last place they should find me. 

“Why didn‘t you wake me?!” 

I tried to squirm off the bed but he held me back, his arm around my waist. 

“Relax! I already handled it all. I told your attendant you were safe but had a rough night and were staying with a friend.” 

I turned back to look at him. “...No one can know I‘m here, Cai.” 

With a sleepy sigh and completely unphased by my stress, he shifted into a sitting position to tighten his grip on me. “I already figured you‘d say that so I told her to be discreet with the information.” 

It took a few seconds to fully process his words but finally, I exhaled in relief knowing that Lucy would make up an adequate excuse to appease my parents. At least there was no search party out looking for m 

“Come on,” he said, guiding me to lie back down again. 

He pulled me up against his chest once more so we were face–to–face and softly kissed my forehead between my knitted brows. I could already guess what he was thinking. 

“You worry too much,” he grumbled, confirming my suspicion. 

“You need to take this seriously, Cai,” I said quietly. ‘Do you realise what would happen if word got out?” 

“I‘m aware,” he replied, much to my surprise. 

“...If you know then why did you pursue me in the first place? ...Why come back to the Winter Mist?” 

wanity Light 

His eyes were serious, a sharpness to them I rarely saw. He was like a different person when he was this focused, so contrasted to his normally playful manner. 

“Because it‘s avoidable,” he said. “The issues are surrounding our positions and Aleric, right? There are ways around it.” 

incredulously. If he knew the ramifications of this so well then he was just

me really worth

eyes as he remained deep in thought. “...Maybe,”

my future status, then maybe I‘ll just... let it go. Personally, I think I‘ve missed my calling in

joking, I still stared at him in disbelief. He

you can‘t just abandon your pack like

who said I‘d want you as my Luna anyway? You‘d probably be terrible at it. Only those with

shoulder and started to play fight him much to his amusement. He quickly restrained me within his arms though, laughing the entire

“it doesn‘t bother me. If

“This is literally the worst decision I‘ve ever made and

shrugged. “Possibly,

see a way where we can ever be

have plenty of time to argue about whether we go public or not. And besides, it‘s not really much of an argument when I could just....” He started kissing his way up

so clearly and knew

one. But a mark had its own complicated downsides; one of which was that if we were to go through a mate rejection post–marking, the process would potentially kill us. Our wolves were unlikely to survive the intense heartache associated with rejection from a mate already fully bonded; a rejection considered more painful than the death itself.

bonded died. It was unquestionable, final. And whilst the normal death of

extension, his pack; something that Tytus would want to prevent at all costs... And yet a part of me wanted him to

being with Cai was okay because by that point it would be too late. By taking the choice

internal battle inside me raging as he continued to kiss me

he

here and definitely not today, but the excitement it caused was involuntary. That feeling of knowing it was so wrong that it made it feel even better; as if tempting fate.

close to him, as if he were a force of nature pulling me in via gravity... It was intoxicating. The more he was near

body to feel unimaginable highs, I knew I was only falling down a rabbit hole I should have walked away

wrapped in each other‘s arms, I couldn‘t help but want

anything at all right now in a perfect world, where would you be? What would you be

as a perfect world, just one where death was lurking

thought about it...,” I

do but couldn‘t? You‘ve lived two lives but it feels like you‘ve

to think. What would I want to be doing...?

few moments, I

as far away as possible from the pack and all associated responsibilities. I would be living a quiet life where no one knew me or was looking for me...

it all

forming on my lips as I envisioned it. “In the woods. A small house just big enough for me that no one would find. I‘d be sure to

he asked,

busy

meant I got you to myself. In this world maybe no one will come looking for me too. I don‘t exactly enjoy the responsibilities involved with this

should probably tell the house planner to build some extra rooms then. I‘ll definitely need the extra space if it means putting up

up having kids then the

I felt sick, the unwelcome reminder assaulting me over

eyes. “I need to tell you... I‘m not sure... ... -”

feeling based on the things

heart to tell him yet about my suspicions. Suspicions I‘d been thinking for a while now regarding a certain dead rogue doctor in a cave. However, if it turned out to be irrelevant then I didn‘t want to give him false hope prematurely... and besides, it was way too soon to be thinking of anything like that. We shouldn‘t even be together right now, let alone thinking of possibly having

of silence. “If you could

he repeated as he thought. “...You. I‘d be doing