A Gift from the Goddess

Chapter Seventy Five 

...I could just ask her,’i thought to myself, staring in the mirror at my reflection

After that night, Aleric and I had agreed that we needed to come up with a plan on how to free myself from the collar… as well as remove Tytus as Alpha in the process. For obvious reasons, allowing him to proceed with marking me was out of the question, regardless of the terms Aleric and I were on now. And so we’d conceded that it was time. Time for Tytus to step down, allowing for proper change.

…But now that just left us with having to think of a way to actually achieve that.

I’d spent hours already pouring over different ideas, but was mostly coming up empty. All of them either wouldn’t work or were morally questionable.

… Which was how it eventually led me to be staring at my reflection, contemplating something I normally never would have considered.

To ask my former self for her help.

The girl I hadn’t heard speak to me in months, yet was still a part of me. No, wait… that wasn’t quite right… She *was* me. Just a part of me that my brain had conjured up, creating a separate entity for me to be able to live with myself and everything I‘d done. 

‘She would be better suited for this,‘ I thought, touching my cheek. ‘She always had an idea or strategy to resolve stubborn problems in the past. And time deadlines just made her work more efficiently.‘ 

…But did I even want her help? 

She had been an instrument of chaos that was wielded by a madman. The only thing she truly knew was how to succeed by any means possible. No matter the cost. No matter who it killed along the way. So long as her Aleric would just acknowledge her existence. 

I didn‘t want things to go back down that route. Just because Aleric and I were working together again, it didn‘t mean that I would allow for things to repeat. I’d already learnt the hard way that sometimes the easiest solutions in politics were only going to weave further conflicts later. 

But he had given me an oath. I needed to believe that he would keep his word. It was true that I still 

osolutely certain that he wouldn‘t suddenly switch one day, but didn‘t I technically know this Aleric better? Couldn‘t I at least give him the benefit of the doubt? We‘d now spent more time together in this life than we ever had in the past. I had been able to learn first hand of his capacity for patience, for kindness, for doing what he thought was right, even if it hurt him. I‘d learnt his humour, his laugh.... 

They were little luxuries I‘d never been permitted to see before this life. Things that made him suddenly much more human instead of the monster I used to perceive him to be. 

And so I sighed, stepping away from the mirror.

No, I needed to do this on my own. 

But how did I ever manage to think of such elaborate plans in the past? I‘d brought an entire country to its knees… and yet I was struggling with one Alpha? Was it because I still felt tied to Tytus, my Alpha, even after everything he‘d done? 

But I knew that wasn’t true. I’d been thinking about it for a while now but, the night I had broken free of Aleric’s Alpha order to stay away from Thea, had been the same night I might have inadvertently freed myself a little from Tytus too. I definitely still felt the connection to the pack. It‘s just that his hold over me was now… lessoned. A quirk of my marking, I was sure.

Documents were sprawled all over my dining room table, bits of information i’d asked Aleric and Lucy to

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acquire for me since I was no longer up to date with the current affairs in the country. Or maybe it was just that some of my information wasn‘t quite relevant yet, the incidents having not yet occurred, 

And so i stared at the pages before me, contemplating over the very familiar layout I hadn’t geen in such a long time.

…And, finally, I thought of the answer to the question i’d asked myself earlier.

Like a game.

She used to look at war and politics like a puzzle, something to be solved that held a reward for her at the end of it. Night after night she would sit at her desk… imagining it all in her head … being able to see and predict how certain people would react… where they might move. She would utilise everything and everyone available in order to get her the result Aleric wanted.

…But I didn’t want to do that. I’d already vowed once to never fall into that mentality again after the last war; the war that made me realise Aleric had just been using me the entire time. The war that made me realise that my pieces on the board were actual living, breathing people.

So was that why I was holding myself back still? Fear of the damage I was capable of? Of becoming ther” once more?

It was true that, since coming back, I had dabbled in petty strategy now and then, but I hadn‘t done anything near the scale I used to do in the past. Since returning, I‘d tested Lucy‘s loyalty with ‘poisoned’ tea, exploited governments, set up minor traps for potential spies. But I hadn‘t done anything overly significant. Not really. And I think a part of the reason may have been because of that promise to myself… that promise to not let myself become that person again.

I sat slowly down at the desk in front of me, my eyes scanning over all the documents before me, my hands moving over the pages. It felt almost exactly the same as in the past, the words calling out to me, offering to help me see what I needed to. Think what I needed to. 

...But we could do it the right way this time, right? Find a solution that didn‘t entail hurting everyone else in the process to just get what we wanted?

And so I closed my eyes... and broke yet another one of my promises to myself. 1

“...Do you know what wolfsbane is?” I asked Aleric, a few days later.

We were walking in the garden outside, the sun high above us, both of us enjoying the fresh air.

I’d sent him a personal request asking that he take a walk with me today. Though that wasn’t to say didn’t have other reasons for the abrupt invitation either. 

“...You mean like... the poison?” he asked confused, looking at me with concern.

I smiled. “Yeah, that‘s the one.” 

“...Are we still discussing the plan to remove Tytus as Alpha?” 

I laughed. “Yes, we are. Don’t worry, it‘s not what you think. Are you familiar with what it actually does? Wolfsbane?”

“Do I look like a doctor?” he replied rhetorically. “All I know is to avoid it. It literally says everything I need to know about it within the name.”

“Okay, well, I‘m not the greatest with herbalism, so don‘t quote me here, but the interesting thing about wolfsbane is that it slows your heart down… to the point of being lethal if not careful,“ | explained. “In werewolves that lethal point is a hell of a lot quicker, which is why it’s so dangerous for us. But in small doses, it actually works similarly to silver. It moves inside us, slowing us down, making us weaker.

Making us more.. compliant.”

“That‘s your plan? You want to poison him?” 

“Well, no... that’s not my plan. Not the entire plan, at least,” I corrected slowly. “Just a part of the pan.”

“You just admitted to me, right before suggesting this, that you weren’t great at herbalism,” he pointed out. “And you want to somehow administer him with a dosage so accurate that it doesn’t kill him…just weakens him? And then what?”

“Just wait a second, okay? I’m getting there,” I said, taking a moment to touch one of the flowers we were passing. It was coming into autumn so I knew they’d all be dying soon. The colder air was already coming in much sooner than anticipated, as evident in how it cooled the metal collar around my neck.

“You said that you weren’t a doctor, but let‘s not forget who is,” I continued. “For my plan to work, we have to involve more people than just us. It’s impossible not to. At the very least to take over we’d need the general support of the pack but, in particular, there are also several individuals who are critical for helping us reach this goal. Like for example, in this instance with the wolfsbane… someone like my mother would be required.”

He stopped in his tracks to look at me, frowning. “Aria… are you sure? Your mother? What happens if something goes wrong?”

I chewed the inside of my cheek, thinking about it again. “She is the best person for the job… maybe the only person given her position as head doctor. Besides, even if I tried to get someone else, she would likely just insist on doing it anyway. We also can‘t forget that we need to stick exclusively to people we can trust. The only way I foresee my plan becoming dangerous in any way at all is if someone leaks it too soon… hence why we need my mother.”

He held my gaze for another few seconds before finally looking away, continuing to walk. 

“Okay, fine… So then how will that work?” he asked.

“I‘ll have my mother send out a memo to Tytus requesting his presence at an annual check–up; something that is mandatory for Alphas if issued,” I proceeded. “According to the documents you managed to get your hands on for me, he hasn‘t had his yearly check–up yet. Once he arrives, my mother will then administer the wolfsbane, which will hopefully be mixed in with something else to prolong the effects a little bit. This will then mean that, come the next day of my eighteenth birthday, he will be weakened. But just a small enough dosage for what we need it for. It‘s important he doesn‘t instantly feel a noticeable difference.”

“Your birthday? You really want to wait until your birthday in a few months to remove him? Isn‘t that… cutting it a bit close?” 

“Unfortunately, we don‘t have a choice,” I said. “The only plan that guarantees Tytus will get out of this unscathed revolves around me having my collar removed first; something that is going to be impossible prior to my birthday. He keeps the key on him at all times so the only chance we‘re going to get is in that small moment between him removing the collar... and when he expects you to mark me.”

“…And then what?”

face him directly. “...And then I order him to revoke his title and hand the pack over to us. Maybe even exile him to live out

last time you tried ordering someone. It took you several attempts and it left you almost

little guilty for forgetting to mention

it still surprised me too that I was capable of accessing the

still do it, or rather, I can still practice it. It’s just that I’ll need to have the collar taken off first before… before I can remove the funnel and harness the dam instead, if you

it gets leaked? You‘re literally betting everything on the small

but you’re also incorrectly assuming a little here. I never said that I was betting everything on this. I’m not stupid enough to put all of my

face,

that there was only one plan which guarantees Tytus abdicates the position unhurt. Unfortunately, Plan B

actually mean–.”

need to challenge him directly,” I finished

nuts? You want me to

Alpha, they state you are only required to incapacitate him. It‘ll be even easier because of the wolfsbane too. But, in the event that I can‘t pull off the command, then you‘ll need to challenge him, Aleric. There‘s literally no other choice. If you don‘t then I doubt he‘ll even permit you to go through with the original punishment of marking me.

he was slowly realising that what I was telling him was the truth, that it really was the only viable backup plan. And, whilst I also knew their relationship wasn‘t the greatest, it was still something wished I didn’t have to ask of him. Because

I‘m only agreeing because I want to put my faith

thoughts like that,” I said, brushing off the pressure he was trying to place

We‘d almost returned to the main area where other people would see us.

more… forceful methods of title succession. We‘ll need to start preparing the narrative as soon as possible so it won‘t be as negative once the time comes. The goal is to show people that removing Tytus early is the right thing to do. To help them see our side. That’s

accurately, the only way they’ll

here today then,” he said before his eyes lowered to

morning. I‘d stood by my door for the longest time, trying to find any reason to put off leaving without my scarf. But we were running out of time, and

Saintess who did nothing wrong. He

hardly innocent… and you don’t even believe that Goddess crap. You

to know that. They just need to believe it. Honestly, the more pious

packhouse then and proceeded to start heading back upstairs to where our quarters were. Along the way, several curious faces of pack members had turned to look at my new accessory, something that fed perfectly into my plan.

still worried about that?” he asked. “About… if something

still worried whether he would betray me. The answer was, of course, yes. How could I not be? It was something that was on my mind

the very trust I was putting in him to help me execute this strategy was already too much. After all, the second

the alternatives, and it gave me

then look at him, my expression becoming more serious than any of the prior

answer to

quickly, I continued walking up the stairs, not wanting

next thing I can help with?” he asked once we’d

my door, pushing it open. Only Lucy, Aleric and I had access

letters out, but… here,” I said and handed him a large

he asked, inspecting the

of things that may happen in the future. I’ve also sorted it by date order. Not in the way you’re probably thinking though. What I mean is that I‘ve sorted it in the order of things that require your attention right now, through to

are things only you can accomplish right now since I don’t presently hold any rank within the pack. There isn’t a way for me to justify my

You managed to do all of this in a few

think of it. For now, at least, it’s a starting point. If we can tackle some of the bigger items then

attention behind his head, making me lose my train

them. Almost as if a whole shelf of

dust despite you having nothing to do,” he said, a little awkwardly. “I don’t know… was just a bit weird since I know you liked

give me a gift. Or… sort of. It was a gift, in a weird ‘probably stole these from the

recognised all the titles immediately, could even almost remember exactly where they would be placed on

sentiment was there and I appreciated it. Building good rapport with Aleric was only going to work in my

you,” I said, giving him a small smile. “I‘ll be sure to

eyes

too,” he stated, exposing

great, thank

trying to find something in the pack I haven‘t already read. Once upon a time, I had more free time than I knew what to do with. It doesn‘t mean that I

has to be something,” he said, adamant on following through with this.

was there actually anywhere else that had books I hadn’t

suddenly a thought came to me; a way to solve one of the issues I‘d been mulling on. Something that I needed to confirm before I could start working on the next

just handed me the perfect way to do it. “Actually…,” I said, speaking slowly in thought, “...there is one

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her,’i thought to myself, staring in the

as Alpha in the process. For obvious reasons, allowing him to proceed with marking me was out of the question, regardless of the terms Aleric and I were on now. And so

now that just left us with having to

spent hours already pouring over different ideas, but was mostly coming up empty. All of them either wouldn’t work or

was how it eventually led me to be staring at my reflection, contemplating something I normally

ask my former

of me. No, wait… that wasn’t quite right… She *was* me. Just a part of me that my brain had conjured up, creating a separate entity for me to be able to

be better suited for this,‘ I thought, touching my cheek. ‘She always had an idea or strategy to resolve stubborn problems in the past. And time deadlines just

did I even want her help?

madman. The only thing she truly knew was how to succeed by any means possible. No matter the cost. No matter who it killed along the way. So long

things to go back down that route. Just because Aleric and I were working together again, it didn‘t mean that I would allow for things to repeat. I’d already learnt the hard way that sometimes the easiest solutions in politics were only going to weave

me an oath. I needed to believe that he would keep his word. It was true that I

technically know this Aleric better? Couldn‘t I at least give him the benefit of the doubt? We‘d now spent more time together in this life than we ever had

luxuries I‘d never been permitted to see before this life. Things that made him suddenly much more human instead of the monster

sighed, stepping away

I needed to do

entire country to its knees… and yet I was struggling with one Alpha? Was it because I still felt tied

been the same night I might have inadvertently freed myself a little from Tytus too. I definitely still felt the connection to the pack. It‘s just that his hold over me was now…

table, bits of information

current affairs in the country. Or maybe it was just that some

before me, contemplating over the very familiar layout

I thought of the answer

Like a game.

that held a reward for her at the end of it. Night after night she would sit at her desk… imagining it all in her head … being able to see and predict how certain people would react… where they might move. She would utilise everything and everyone available

after the last war; the war that made me realise Aleric had just been using me the entire time. The war that made me realise that my

still? Fear of the damage I was capable of? Of becoming ther” once

I hadn‘t done anything near the scale I used to do in the past. Since returning, I‘d tested Lucy‘s loyalty with ‘poisoned’ tea, exploited governments, set up minor traps

moving over the pages. It felt almost exactly the same as in the past, the words calling out to me, offering to help me see what I

do it the right way this time, right? Find a solution that didn‘t entail hurting everyone else in the

my eyes... and broke yet another one of my promises

you know what wolfsbane is?” I asked Aleric, a

the garden outside, the sun high above us, both of us

with me today. Though that wasn’t to say didn’t have other reasons for the abrupt invitation either.

the poison?” he asked confused, looking

that‘s the one.”

the plan

what you think.

rhetorically. “All I know is to avoid it. It literally says everything

but the interesting thing about wolfsbane is that it slows your heart down… to the point of being lethal if not careful,“ | explained. “In werewolves that lethal point is a hell of a lot quicker, which is why it’s so dangerous for us. But

Making us more.. compliant.”

want to

the entire plan, at least,” I corrected

at herbalism,” he pointed out. “And you want to somehow administer him with a

were passing. It was coming into autumn so I knew they’d all be dying soon. The colder air was

who is,” I continued. “For my plan to work, we have to involve more people than just us. It’s impossible not to. At the very least to take over we’d need the general support of the pack but, in particular, there are also several individuals who are critical for helping us reach this goal. Like for example, in this instance with the wolfsbane…