A Gift from the Goddess

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Warm. 

It was so warm. 

Everything around me felt like it was burning, our skin already flushed enough from the training just prior. 

...And I wanted more. 

With one hand tangled through his dark hair, my other was tracing slowly down the front of his chest, feeling every muscle under my touch. And Goddess was it flawless. His body moulded against mine perfectly, as if it had been made to fit there. 

... This is wrong,‘ a voice whispered inside. 

And yet that thought only seemed to excite me further. 

It felt a million times better than I thought it would, his mouth moving hungrily as it responded against mine. His lips softer than I would have ever imagined. 

...Stop... 

There was a sense of urgency, a sense of need as I clung to him, pressing myself up against him closer, desperately searching for as much contact as possible. 

... You need to stop.’ 

No, I really shouldn‘t have wanted this, wanted him, but it was like a flood gate of buried emotions unexpectedly poured out, mixing with new ones I hadn‘t even noticed before. And the result was a desire shooting through me that felt insatiable. 

His body then shifted under me, trying to sit up and I moved back to allow it, giving him the space he‘d need to get himself free without leaving too much distance. 

But it was as he tried to bring his hands out to touch me, probably having momentarily forgotten the cuffs were even there, that I suddenly realised what was happening. 

As the metal from the silver dagger loudly sounded out against the handcuffs, it was as if someone had just thrown a bucket of cold water over me. 

....ENOUGH! 

....And I immediately pulled myself away. 

“Give me a second...,” Aleric said quietly as he began to free himself. He hadn‘t even realised my abrupt change in mood yet. 

But, without waiting, I quickly stood up and took a few shaky steps backwards. 

“...Aria?” Aleric asked, looking up at me now confused. 

“I–I made a mistake,” I said, my heart still pounding heavily, my head cloudy. 

...And I knew I‘d messed up badly. 

Because nothing about our situation had changed. I still didn‘t know his future, I didn‘t know what would happen to him, or if there was some sort of trigger that would set him down the same path... I still couldn‘t trust him implicitly. Not entirely. 

In fact, the only thing I‘d learnt about our situation over the last few months was that there were now even more factors from both inside and around us that were completely unknown. Especially that one ever 

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nagging issue.... 

Power, 

I‘d already once seen what his drive to achieve that had cost. Seen just what he was willing to sacrifice in order to reach that status. 

...Who was to say what he‘d eventually be willing to do this time? 

Was it just waiting inside his core, ready to change him into that power–hungry man once more without 

any moment‘s notice? When dealing with the abilities of a Goddess, who could say for sure? 

I‘d made a deal with him to keep our relationship professional for that exact reason. A way to avoid any conflict of interest should the worst–case scenario happen in the future. 

somehow I‘d already

another mistake, one that could have also had severe impacts on the pack... just

he said,

mean... I shouldn‘t have done that. That‘s not… That‘s not something

“Seriously?” 

want to get into that argument now. No, I just wanted to leave. There was nothing good that would result from talking about any of this the day before my birthday.

turned around to walk away...

don‘t get it, Aria. I really don‘t,” he said, frustration thick in his voice. “You made it clear that you wanted nothing to do with me in that way and I understood why that was. I completely respected it. I didn‘t question it because, given everything you‘ve apparently been through, it would be stupid of me to think that I‘d ever have a chance. How could I when some bastard already well and truly fucked

kept walking. I needed

tiniest bit? ... How the hell do I just let it

yelled, turning back around. “I–I don‘t even know what I want... but I know being with you potentially jeopardises this pack if one day I can‘t make an impartial decision between you or their best interest. I‘ve already seen a future where I‘ve given myself to you and

is what our future will look like together? Barely trusting one another, silently wondering if the other person will rip the carpet out from under them

lip but remained silent, not

said, taking a step back. “I‘ve done everything humanly possible to prove to you that I‘m not *him* That I’m worth your trust and respect. And now.., this? You lead me on and

body furiously, my anger now tipping over the edge. It was fueled only more on from the emotional rollercoaster that had

“So then am I taking this as your confirmation that you no longer want to manage the pack together? Because you should tell me that

sooner. Because if I‘d wanted to make yet another catastrophic mistake by sleeping with someone, Aleric, I could have just run away to the Silver Lake pack

to do it.

made any lower ranks fall to

low blow. In fact, I instantly regretted what I‘d said. Somehow, I couldn‘t seem to help it though. It had left my mouth before I

manner... well, it only succeeded in sweeping a sense of calm throughout my body. Immediately, all my anger left me

that was that I was making the right decision.

point,” I muttered and quickly turned around, walking out the room before

second the door closed behind me, an onslaught of anxiety and guilt immediately

hell had I just done

danger to himself and others,‘ the voice inside reminded

Oh, great. 

of events earlier... but it appeared she was back, having taken the most opportune

would have just stayed gone since now was definitely not the time for her to be filling my

thank you,‘ I hissed back internally, continuing on my way. I needed to cool down before deciding my

quarters I found Lucy walking about, organising a few things for me before tomorrow. She was kept extremely busy these days so

looking up in surprise at my

to anyone about it yet was the last

bag and dagger from the gym at some point today? I left

thankfully kept quiet,

a while, now exhausted from everything that

wasn‘t remotely called for, especially when

I didn‘t even know if it was him I was so angry at. I had been keeping a barrier between us, purposely ensuring that I didn‘t get that* close, and now

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at any excuse to keep that distance, even

me. Blinded to even the smallest possibility that I might have been getting too close.

then... what even was that? Just a momentary lapse in judgement or...? When had I even begun to see

how it felt. Remembering how

burning flushed

After tomorrow. 

For now, I just needed to cool off for a bit before I go and apologise to Aleric. I needed to fix what I‘d messed up

of just how tired I‘d already become, my eyes quickly becoming heavy against my own will. I should have

Okay, fine then. 

small nap...

hallway roused me from my sleep, waking me up to find myself

darkening, early night beginning to fall already outside as was evident from the few windows I could

I even

find Lucy walking,

I called out

No reply. 

seemed as though I

to catch up to her, I then followed behind, letting her lead me to whatever it was I needed to see, but it didn‘t take long for us

even make it to the door, suddenly it was pulled

Lucy said, having jumped a little from his abrupt