A Gift from the Goddess

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Warm. 

It was so warm. 

Everything around me felt like it was burning, our skin already flushed enough from the training just prior. 

...And I wanted more. 

With one hand tangled through his dark hair, my other was tracing slowly down the front of his chest, feeling every muscle under my touch. And Goddess was it flawless. His body moulded against mine perfectly, as if it had been made to fit there. 

... This is wrong,‘ a voice whispered inside. 

And yet that thought only seemed to excite me further. 

It felt a million times better than I thought it would, his mouth moving hungrily as it responded against mine. His lips softer than I would have ever imagined. 

...Stop... 

There was a sense of urgency, a sense of need as I clung to him, pressing myself up against him closer, desperately searching for as much contact as possible. 

... You need to stop.’ 

No, I really shouldn‘t have wanted this, wanted him, but it was like a flood gate of buried emotions unexpectedly poured out, mixing with new ones I hadn‘t even noticed before. And the result was a desire shooting through me that felt insatiable. 

His body then shifted under me, trying to sit up and I moved back to allow it, giving him the space he‘d need to get himself free without leaving too much distance. 

But it was as he tried to bring his hands out to touch me, probably having momentarily forgotten the cuffs were even there, that I suddenly realised what was happening. 

As the metal from the silver dagger loudly sounded out against the handcuffs, it was as if someone had just thrown a bucket of cold water over me. 

....ENOUGH! 

....And I immediately pulled myself away. 

“Give me a second...,” Aleric said quietly as he began to free himself. He hadn‘t even realised my abrupt change in mood yet. 

But, without waiting, I quickly stood up and took a few shaky steps backwards. 

“...Aria?” Aleric asked, looking up at me now confused. 

“I–I made a mistake,” I said, my heart still pounding heavily, my head cloudy. 

...And I knew I‘d messed up badly. 

Because nothing about our situation had changed. I still didn‘t know his future, I didn‘t know what would happen to him, or if there was some sort of trigger that would set him down the same path... I still couldn‘t trust him implicitly. Not entirely. 

In fact, the only thing I‘d learnt about our situation over the last few months was that there were now even more factors from both inside and around us that were completely unknown. Especially that one ever 

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nagging issue.... 

Power, 

I‘d already once seen what his drive to achieve that had cost. Seen just what he was willing to sacrifice in order to reach that status. 

...Who was to say what he‘d eventually be willing to do this time? 

Was it just waiting inside his core, ready to change him into that power–hungry man once more without 

any moment‘s notice? When dealing with the abilities of a Goddess, who could say for sure? 

I‘d made a deal with him to keep our relationship professional for that exact reason. A way to avoid any conflict of interest should the worst–case scenario happen in the future. 

I‘d already ruined it.

I‘d almost fallen into yet another mistake, one that could have also had severe impacts on the pack... just like it

you talking about?” he said,

I shouldn‘t have done that. That‘s

“Seriously?” 

want to get into that argument now. No, I just wanted to leave. There was nothing good that would result from talking about any of this the day before my

I quickly turned around to walk away... only his voice called out after

way and I understood why that was. I completely respected it. I didn‘t question it because, given everything you‘ve apparently been through, it would be stupid of me to

kept walking. I needed to remain strong

to convince myself that you don‘t want me now? Not even the tiniest bit? ... How the hell

with you potentially jeopardises this pack if one day I can‘t make an impartial decision between you or their best interest. I‘ve already seen a future

is what our future will look like together? Barely trusting one another, silently wondering if the other person will rip the carpet out from under them at

bit my lip but remained silent, not having an

worth your trust and respect. And now.., this? You lead me on and then rub salt

my body furiously, my anger now tipping over the edge. It was fueled only more on from the emotional rollercoaster that had just occurred.

taking this as your confirmation that you no longer want to manage the pack together? Because you should

sooner. Because if I‘d wanted to make yet another catastrophic mistake by sleeping with someone, Aleric, I could have just run

to do

have made any lower ranks fall to their knees.

fact, I instantly regretted what I‘d said. Somehow, I couldn‘t seem to

it only succeeded in sweeping a sense of calm throughout my body. Immediately, all my anger left me as I stood before him, looking him up and down. The only thing he‘d managed to do

that I was making the right

out the room

door closed behind me, an onslaught of anxiety and guilt immediately began to drown

the hell had I

he‘s a lethal threat. A potential danger to himself and others,‘ the voice inside reminded

Oh, great. 

of events earlier... but it appeared she was back, having taken the most opportune moment

time for her to be filling my head. No, I needed to figure

I hissed back internally, continuing on my way. I needed to cool down before deciding my

Lucy walking about, organising a few things for me before tomorrow. She was kept extremely busy these days so it

in surprise at my

about it yet was

please go and collect my bag and dagger from the gym at some point today? I left in a hurry and seem to have forgotten

she wanted to query me about it further but thankfully kept quiet, acknowledging m y request with just a

bedroom to rest for a while, now exhausted from everything that had transpired; including using my abilities. It was a room for privacy... and welling

the kiss. Lashing out at him for what he said wasn‘t remotely called for, especially when I knew he was probably right. Or, at least, he was justified in

was him I was so angry at. I had been keeping a barrier

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at any excuse to keep that distance, even though

I‘d been pushing him away so forcibly that I hadn‘t even realised what had been happening inside me. Blinded to even the smallest possibility that I might have been getting too close. And now I‘d found out in the worst possible way after giving in to the desire all at once. A shock to

judgement or...? When

my lips absentmindedly, remembering how it felt. Remembering how his mouth had

burning flushed through

After tomorrow. 

tomorrow. For now, I just needed to cool off for a bit before I go and apologise to Aleric. I needed to fix what I‘d messed

him out to talk, I became conscious of just how tired I‘d already become, my eyes quickly becoming heavy against my

Okay, fine then. 

small nap... and

hallway roused me from my sleep, waking me up to find myself

rooms were darkening, early night beginning to fall already outside as was evident from the

how did I even get

find Lucy

out to her.

No reply. 

though I was having a vision.

followed behind, letting her lead me to whatever it was I needed to see, but it didn‘t take long for us to arrive at our destination. Soon, my

Lucy could even make it to the door, suddenly

said, having jumped a little from his abrupt exit. “I