A Gift from the Goddess

Chapter Eighty Five 

Nebunang inside my head was enough to eventually snap me out of the vision and I fell to the ground, We the pain subsided. 

What i‘d just wen was indescribable. 

And not just seen but felt. I‘d felt what they had; what both Thea and Selene had gone through. Their pain, 

43s a universe spanning far beyond my limited knowledge, a timeline as old as time itself. 

And it has now been burned into my brain. 

Sene had been right. Only describing this story wouldn‘t have been enough. What I‘d just experienced gave me angrer understanding than just simply being told. 

that cont meanl accepted what this meant for me. For all of us. Something she was probably electing me to be lenient on given her status. 

* We don‘t mean anything ” I whispered to myself, still somewhat in a daze. “We‘re just... fodder. Pawns. Foot solders for you.” 

I locked back up sharply and met her eyes. She was staring at me with caution, taking in my manner. And sve probably was right to do so. 

This is why you didn‘t tell me earlier. Why you kept everything a secret,” I said, my voice slowly becoming stronger you knew that if I knew the truth, the real truth, that I would have immediately declined to come back We‘re not stopping a war to protect *us“, we‘re fighting it purely because of you. Because of your own selfish actions that began all of this. *We* didn‘t do anything to Thea. *We* didn‘t hurt her, betray her or even ask to be reborn with her powers. *You* made that decision. *You* put us in the front Ene to face your mother so you wouldn‘t have to take responsibility for your actions. And once we‘re cone Thea will just continue with her original mission for revenge. All because you couldn‘t accept losing something you loved again. Just like when your brother died. Tell me, Selene, how many more of my kind need to ce because you couldn‘t accept that fact?” 

My mentioning of her brother must have been a sore spot as I could feel the pressure start to exude off of . her, a nerve apparently now struck. 

Wy child, let us not forget–.” 

“But we‘re not,’ I interjected, shakily getting back up to my feet. “Your children, that is. Not really. We‘re bor of Thea‘s powers. She is, by technical definition, our so–called ‘Great Mother‘. Her powers gave us new life and we carry her blood. You are merely a surrogate, at best.” 

you carry a piece of me directly,” she argued, a tone of anger now obvious in her voice. “However you want to look at it for the others, that is your choice. But I, personally, gave you this new life. How dare you acı ungrateful.” 

And were the others grateful too?” I asked. “The ones who came before me? Because I know I‘m not the first one you have ‘blessed‘ with your mark. What happened to the other Saints, Selene? Did they die for you too? 

Her eyes narrowed, clearly not happy with the change in topic. 

* ..Were they descendants as well?” I prompted when she still hadn‘t replied. “From the other two lines that died? Are they gone now because of your actions?” 

Finally, she spoke, her voice low with the undertone of warning. 

“...They were.. mistakes. 

Mistakes? What did that mean? That they made a mistake... or that she regretted marking them? 

...What had she done to them if she thought that way? 

What would you do with something that failed to do its job?‘ The voice inside whispered. We were created only to benefit her, an organic tool to keep her mother trapped on the mortal plane. What do you think she‘ll do to us if we aren‘t useful?‘ 

She wasn‘t wrong but I wasn‘t sure what I could do about it. 

‘Think for a second,‘ the voice continued. ‘When she gave us a piece of herself, she was weakened, remember? She told us she was. Just as Thea was broken into pieces, she, too, broke off a piece of herself for us. What do you think she‘s going to do once Thea is gone?‘ 

And suddenly I realised what she was implying. 

‘If we truly want to survive this then... 

… Then I needed to be wary of Selene too. 

‘Not just wary,‘ the voice corrected. ‘There is little chance she‘ll let you keep that piece of her once we‘ve removed her biggest threat. She‘ll want it back – she‘ll want to become whole again. And who‘s to say what is even keeping us alive right now? What if that piece is the only thing sustaining us? We were meant to be dead. We don‘t even belong in this timeline.‘ 

...She was saying that Thea wasn‘t our only enemy. 

‘At the end of the day, it‘s you or her,‘ the voice said. 

But what was I meant to do? Kill Selene? That was insane. She was a Goddess. 

So is Thea‘ 

But I couldn‘t kill her. I wasn‘t strong enough for something like that. Thea was at least weaker. 

‘Do you honestly think you‘ll get a better chance than right now? Or do you want to wait until she comes back to rip that piece out of you? After we‘ve done her dirty work and we‘re tired from fighting against a different Goddess? What do you have to lose by trying?‘ 

per se but that didn‘t mean

going to die either way. You need to act

But 

‘DO IT NOW 

on reflex from her order, I pulled

is the

one goal as my hand came swiftly up, adjusting my

is the enemy‘

her throat...

is the enemy.‘

the enemy.‘

is the

“KNEEL!” Selene roared. 

I immediately fell to my knees before her,

but we‘d been just a second too slow. Just one second away from

that again. It meant that, like i t or not, we probably weren‘t going to survive this ordeal to grow old one day. She‘d made it clear that we

eve 

much so that even the rocks and dirt were

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ra 

her shoulder, just barely drawing blood… I saw where I‘d nicked her

mortal now and capable of bleeding. It may have been caused by the tiniest of pieces missing from her but it was enough. Enough for me to know Selene wouldn‘t want to remain this

given you everything, and yet you act this way?” she said furiously. “No, forget it. I have grown tired of this. You now have had more help than what any of the others received. Perform

into the forest, the ground still trembling as she left.

an *almost* complete

until it became full laughter. Almost hysterical as the adrenaline pumped through me from accepting my new fate. Something that caught Selene‘s attention enough for

down, a frown forming between her perfect

“A coward and a liar. The weakest creature I have ever met. You once told me I could choose my own fate... and yet you knew from the very beginning that such a thing was impossible. But I want you to know something… Even if I should fail, I want you to know that I‘ll live my eternity

she took in my words, her

into thin air, just

was more than just that, more than

have sworn I saw

was for just a split second, just behind the surface, but it had

moment... I‘d seen

days that followed felt... empty. Like I wasn‘t

shown the cold truth of my world from Selene, nothing felt as though it mattered anymore. I‘d already lost everyone! cared about, everyone

it was like I was

Chapter Eighty–Five 

could feel my expiration date looming above me; something that I‘d thought I‘d prepared myself for and yet having to suddenly acknowledge that made things feel so... pointless. Because the chances of killing not one, but two

sure, I had the pack... but even that didn‘t hold the appeal it

us. Uust so long as Selene survived. And

even the ones who hurt me, betrayed me, rejected and humiliated me.

what the majority of packs were still

should I concern myself with such standard definitions of right and wrong when the only thing that mattered was the results? Just as Selene had said, we were all children in this universe with our naive perspectives. But, unlike everyone else, I‘d been enlightened now. I knew that they didn‘t truly know what

she* had helped me to see too; my other self. She‘d shown me how all of these niceties to avoid war were pointless when none of these

them

held; how much ‘Goddess‘ was in your veins. The things Selene had shown me had given me a higher understanding of how all of this worked; probably more so than even all the Elders combined. It was

more power

didn‘t stop me from commanding loyalty and respect from the other packs. To force them into a submission that would ultimately be for the better good.

there would be no war with the Silver Lake. Nor would there ever

under my command within the month? Starting a war with the Winter Mist now would

helped to secure an inside source to notify me should Thea ever return there. I even sent Elder Luke to visit him and assist with his ailment. Because whilst I still didn‘t trust him, it didn‘t mean that I wanted her to retrieve her powers back from him either. She might not be able to physically hurt him but who knew what her

had passed, I‘d made sure everyone knew Thea‘s name, knew she was public enemy number one. And, without any further arguments from opposing forces, she quickly became the most

in one single goal; to find Thea.

a voice called out, making me look up from my desk.

expressing an urgency to it I hadn‘t seen before.

what could make a man like Elder Luke worried but I‘d be lying if said it didn‘t

Nothing had seemed to sway him during our work together over the past month, something admired about him.

I asked, straightening

himself but his expression didn‘t change,

Aleric,” he said, “He‘s