It has been two whole days since we got here, and I've managed to keep myself scarce.

We weren't supposed to start 'training' until next week, since this week was meant for us to get familiar with the place.

Only 48 hours and I wanted to leave the house already. If only I had listened to Aiden's suggestion about finding new housing arrangements, because now I know living here for four months will be nearly impossible.

My wolf has been nagging me which only led to a constant never ending headache. How will I ever stay focused on my mission when she wont stop being difficult?

He wasn't making it any easier either. Every couple hours he would walk past my room, stopping a few seconds before leaving again.

Last night, I could've sworn he was sitting outside my bedroom door. His scent was becoming suffocating, and I never thought it would be this hard to resist him.

I knew I was hurting him, and I'm sure it's ten times worse for him than it was for me. All I wanted to do was complete this mission and leave, but I couldn't help the part of me that wanted to make it all better for both of us too.

But I couldn't, and it was eating away at me.

I had to clear my mind.

I couldn't bring myself to talk to Aiden since I promised him that this wouldn't affect me, and I didn't trust anyone here enough to talk to them either. So I had to call the one person who I was sure will know exactly what to say.

"I told you this would happen! Now you have to deal with it" Jane snickered in the line. I rolled my eyes with a face palm at her amusement which I didn't understand.

"What do you mean I have to deal with it?" I whined. " I called you so you could tell me what to do. Not tell me that you told me so"

She can't be for real.

"Rox a mate bond is sacred. There's no way you can resist him that long. I give you three more days" She said, the smirk evident in her tone.

"Are you forgetting why I'm even here? Why are you joking about this? I'm supposed to come through for us all, not fall for the enemy" I sighed. "Jane, you know better than anyone how much this means to me. If I get involved with him there's no way I can complete my mission"

There was silence on the other end of the line after I spoke, and I knew I hit the nail on the head.

"I'm sorry Roxy, you know how mate talk gets me excited... But you're right, this is too important. Look, he's your mate and it's your choice to choose your priorities. I wouldn't judge you if you choose him" She sighed. "But if you're truly sure about this, the only way you'll survive is if you reject him. I wasn't joking about giving you three days.'' She ended and my heart felt like someone was squeezing all the blood from it.

I have to reject him? Just the thought made me want to gag.

I've heard stories about rejections. If the wolf that rejects their mate truly doesn't want him/her, it will be painless but the other wolf feels everything. How can I do that to him?

Plus, I knew deep down that I wanted him too somewhere behind all the ego, pride and determination. If it were other circumstances, I knew that we'd be together right now.

So if I should reject him, I would feel that pain too. But just the thought of hurting him makes my eyes water.

I couldn't understand my attraction to this man that I didn't even know. I barely talked to the guy yet here I am, ready to cry over him.

‘Just remember what they did to your people Roxy. Just remember the cause. You can do this,’  my subconscious urged. I have been listening to her for the past two days, but eventually she might lose.

"Roxy are you there?" Jane asked through the phone, reminding me that I was talking to her.

"Yea sorry. I just have a lot to think about" I admitted truthfully, running my hands through my hair in frustration.

"I'm sorry this had to happen Rox. You of all people deserve nothing but happiness. I hope you make the choice that will make you happy"

Oh and please don't tell anyone"

Take care love" She

Jane. She would joke around, but in the end she always knew what to do

move. My wolf was getting restless, threatening me with her growls. I knew if I went through with the rejection she will make it her duty to ensure

to the small balcony attached to my room that

calmness. I leaned against the bar, taking in the beautiful forest and land. The birds flew by happily as if they had no care in the world, and I relished

better. I watched in the distance as some pups play-fought, already building up their

up in a room for two days hasn't been helping either, so I concluded that breaking a little sweat was what I really needed. Working out

gear from my huge temporary closet and quickly pulled them on. I put my hair in a low bun and slowly opened the

praying that I wouldn't bump into him. I successfully reached the

at the kitchen island, causally

when I come down for breakfast or dinner, even though I

you want" Lilly offered sweetly. I

seemed shocked that I actually sat with them, and I realized that I was already failing my mission. We were supposed to get

ask someone to show me to the gym. I would like to have a

take you but you have to get permission from

I need permission from him?" I didn't see why it was necessary,

to know when you guys are leaving the house. If anything happens to you guys under his

myself" I bit

I have to obey his orders. He's in his office, I'm sure he won't

Okay matchmaker.

you ask for me?" I asked with a pout. I was trying really hard

noticed that they must've been wondering why I didn't want to see my own mate, so I

I mumbled as I turned

reached the door. I nodded, remembering when she told me that he was a

I figured if I was ever going get any better at this, I had to be able to be

best thing to do, but I knew that accepting him wouldn't be smart either. All I

be too hard.

the door that he told me I could find him at.

Roxy," he called sternly, and I

of the house. Everything looked so modern and in place. If Aiden and I will ever have to search through here,

it was me?" I asked

your scent Roxy. It was sketched into my mind from the moment I knew you were mine" My

table towards me, but I stepped back as he got closer. He caught my movement

grateful that he was so patient.

can I help you with? Are you finally ready to talk?" He asked with hope filled eyes. I simply shook

wanted to go to the gym for a workout, but Calum said I had to get your

for a moment, and I had to keep my feet in place so that I didn't do something to make this

lit up as if he

can take you there," he said suggestively, causing

you have work to do" I tried to convince him

really. It's not as important as you.

you to take me" I

permission" he

challengingly, but he simply mimicked my gesture. A

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