Alpha Leo and the Heart of Fire

41. You Don’t Know the Pain

LEO.

“Leo…”

She walked over to me, and the moment she touched my back, sending a rush of sparks through me, I felt a wave of calmness washi over me,

The fucking bond.

“I didn‘t mean it in a bad way. You know. Hrowing up, everyone called me a freak because I was born with the help of magic, so they found the word fitting. There were even a few people in the pack who refused to acknowledge me because of it. Heck, some still exist.... as I got older, I stopped telling my family because I didn‘t want to always cause them trouble...” She sighed, and I did my best to remain calm. Flaring anger rushed through me, and I wondered if that was why she was so cheerful because inside she was dealing with a lot.

“I know you always say I‘m the daughter of an Elite. Although my life is nowhere as harrowing as I‘m sure yours has been, I just wanted to let you know that things aren‘t always what they seem.” She moved in front of me, her hand running along my waist, before she placed it on my chest. “It‘s ok to be afraid. I sometimes am... like right now. I don‘t know how this will work... with this baby... us... What will we tell our child? Why aren‘t we together?”

She placed her hand on her stomach, and that intense urge to touch it once more tempted me, but I didn‘t.

“We‘ll figure it out...” I said quietly. We would... I would figure it out for all of you...

I saw the vulnerability in her eyes when she had told me her situation.

Tonight had felt like a snippet of the life that maybe we could have… Her, Corrado... our unborn pup... She‘d be the mother Corrado would love. Even if she wasn‘t what I would have expected, somehow, she had won him over, the perfect balance of wild, cheeky and mature...

I reached up, brushing her silky locks back. Her eyes fluttered shut for a second as my fingers grazed her skin ever so lightly.

These sparks... What were they?

So unexplainable…

She leaned into my touch, her head tilting up slightly, and that intense tension returned.

I wanted her.

“Yeah... maybe we will.” She responded quietly. We fell silent, but I didn‘t remove my hand from her hair, my thumb caressing her jaw. 1 knew what I was afraid of, but I‘d never speak it out loud... I was fucking afraid of us letting our guards down once more, only to be cast aside like always...

nightmares.” She whispered, her heart

she‘d have forgotten... I sighed, looking down into

she was trying to attain wasn‘t happening. Her magic never really worked on me as it did with Marcel and the others. I was just someone she never wanted to lose, yet someone she hated... I was only a pup who wouldn‘t be able to do any damage to her anyway, for now. But I saw it all, the beatings, the torture, the dark magic... Her sacrificing our own kind... her feeding the scraps of our people to our own. Creating the wendigos... it was sick. No one would hear me... because those who had a chance to do something...

I had a cigarette right now. “There is good in

thought were our heroes... our saviours, were allowed to storm into this pack and caused more suffering. I get the reasons, I fucking do. I know the pain when one‘s mate is hurt, but then I realised violence is dealt with, with violence. Was there a difference between good

I had secretly unlocked the cell and cleared the escape route for her. She never knew I had helped her back then, and I made sure no one saw me, but I had wanted to

punished if I was caught, but it was ok as long as I did the

I didn‘t really know.

were

as my people, including her. I wanted to protect them all... I was seven and I was burying the bodies of our dead with my bare hands. Endora would come for me, or Dad would take me to her. She‘d tie me up, and all I remember is the excruciating pain that she inflicted on me. I would wake up bleeding after blacking out on the floor, and I would just get up and get back to my sorry life.” I was unable to hide the pain and bitterness from my voice. “Do you know how it felt to drag the dead body of my mother to try to bury her? A body that I couldn‘t even recognise after her transformation into a Wendigo?” 4 She reached up cupping my face, her heart pounding and her eyes full of anger and pain. I was unable to stop myself from grabbing hold of her waist. My own emotions were

of the battle against the Djinn a decade

child deserved to be without his or her parents... I did it because it was the right fucking thing to do... not because of the bastard.” I replied icily. “Rafael Rossi... I want to believe that if he knew, he wouldn‘t have let

you have a good heart...

just showed that no matter what I did, it was never enough... Selene saw everything right? Were our

no one knows exactly what you suffered at her hands... you told me to speak to my parents, and I think you need to do the same... But regardless of that... Do you know what

a few sips. I never knew you were so easy to manipulate.” I replied mockingly. “Oh I‘m not, but jokes aside, you are a good person Leo, and I‘m lucky that you are the father of my child. He or she will be lucky to have you.” I fucking wasn‘t expecting her to say that.... not after the

that child

it. You don‘t need to be chums with them... but maybe putting it

do I give? When someone betrays you that deeply, there‘s no way to forgive that.” I replied, coldly glancing down into her dazzling silver eyes. 2 “There

half–brother, right? When he was just an innocent part of this

widening with surprise, before looking

“Are you challenging me?”

I‘m just trying to show

isn‘t enough.” She raised her eyebrow, her nails digging into my neck. What the fuck was with this girl and violence? 2 “Fine, I‘ll visit her grave... I will speak my mind and I will tell my parents how I feel about Indigo...and you, you tell Marcel how

and yanking her hands away from where she had

to do but forgiving isn‘t that

she grabbed my shoulders in reflex. Her

you for what you did to me... I‘m dealing with the fact that you‘re only being nice to me because of this pup! I‘m trying, and all I‘m

as I stared

Try...