Alpha Leo and the Heart of Fire

72. From His Lips AZURA.

His words cut like a knife. I more than anyone regret my time with Judah, but as a careless eighteen–year–old, he seemed to have understood me... I was the misfit, the odd one out, the freak... When I met Judah, it just felt like he didn‘t care about my past. He welcomed me into his arms with empty promises, and I fell for it.

“Azura!” Leo called, but I sped up, heading to our bedroom.

I broke into a run, entering the room, I ran straight to the bathroom. Locking the door, I stepped into the shower, switching it on making sure that my walls were up

“Azura.” I heard him trying the door, and I took a slow breath, wanting to sound normal.

“Yeah?!”

I heard him sigh, “Are you ok?” No, I‘m not “Yes, can a girl shower in peace?” I replied, feeling my emotions ready to spiral.

Everything that was happening was my fault, I get that... but he had tried so hard to make me believe that it wasn‘t my fault, but what he said now... Did he even mean it? Deep down he probably felt that it was my fault.

I kicked off my sneakers, slowly stepping under the cold water of the shower.

“Alright... don‘t take too long. I didn‘t mean what.”

“Like I said, can a girl shower in peace?” This time my voice sounded cold.

“Not when she‘s pissed, when a woman says she‘s fine she isn‘t.” 1

“Wow you‘re really so smart, aren‘t you? Give yourself a pat on the shoulder for figuring that out.” I growled, giving up on hiding my emotions. He didn‘t respond, and I leaned against the shower wall, sliding to the floor fully clothed. My white shirt was stuck to me as the cold water drenched me.

My fault...

Time and time again, I messed up and others got hurt.

I wrapped my arms around my legs, resting my forehead on my knees, feeling my tears on the verge of spilling. The last few days were already so hard... Seeing Kareena in that state, I was racked with guilt.

The run–in with Nikki earlier didn‘t help either…

(FLASHBACK).

I had just purchased some flowers, deciding to stop at the graves on the way back from seeing Kareena. Eric and Jax were with me as Leo wouldn‘t let me wander alone. I looked down at the graves after laying the flowers on them, silently apologising once more.

A shadow fell over me, blocking out the sunlight, and I tilted my head to look at the woman who was standing there.

What are you doing here?!” Nikki shouted, for once she was without makeup, her eyes puffy

and the hatred in them clear.

“Nikki. You are speaking to your Luna.” Jax warned, stepping in front of me defensively.” Leave.”

“This is my sister‘s grave!” She hissed venonjously.

“Nikki –” Eric began.

where I was crouching, placing my hand on his

head, “I don‘t think

Jax frowned as Eric slowly

his Alpha.” Nikki said, “The one you

tongue, shaking my head. “No, he was mine, he was always meant to be mine. You were just there, I‘m the one who belongs with him. When will you let that go, Nikki? Look ...

care? Or pretending to care! You‘re the reason she‘s dead! Deny it all you want! Everyone knows that the man

ex!”

that

am not afraid to have you

not manhandle a

woman. Take her, Eric, put her in for

killed her! You killed my baby sister!” She screamed as

because ultimately, she was a member of this pack... My pack. “Eric. Let her go.” I commanded as Jax looked at me sharply. “Jax... I‘m

clearly pissed when

her, she glanced at both Jax and I, before

floor. “Leo

“No, he won‘t because he won‘t know. He already

he doesn‘t need extra. Leave it be. No one is to relay this to him. Am I

looked down at his hands. “I understand that Luna... but she needs to

“I agree.” Jax growled.

head. “Not this

(END OF FLASHBACK)

would lose their lives because of me? I would be a fool to think no one... I wish I could heal Leo already. If

open, and I turned sharply to see

trend was to shower with your clothes on.” He said quietly as he walked over

something the new generation likes to do just in case pervy old men enter

shoes on and all, letting the water drench him. “I‘m sorry, I didn‘t fucking mean it like that.” He said

It was at times when we were at odds that I noticed her more. His embrace

said

turn, and I fought him – refusing to turn towards him. I growled as I shoved him. “For someone

filled with concern and so many emotions, that I didn‘t want to see. He‘d make me melt.” If you‘re angry, vent. Hit me, shout at me, do whatever the fuck you want, just

glare. “I don‘t, when I need to go take a dump, I do!” I snapped in response, although I knew exactly what he meant but I still came up with that lousy comeback. “Good to know.” The smirk returned, and I smacked his arm, my hand hitting the wet leather and making a loud sound. “I really didn‘t fucking

Maybe...

to grab my elbows and yank me close. He looked down at me, the cold water pouring down over both of us. “What the fuck did you see in Nikki?” I said bitterly. “She‘s a

my face, refusing to allow me to move away. “Honestly, I don‘t

my lips, I shook my head. He didn‘t need to prove anything to me. I could tell he wasn‘t lying, and I also knew I would trust him blindly no matter

Beautiful, yet terrifying too.

I never calmed down so easily, yet here I was, rather than lashing out, I was just...no longer angry. “Damn mate bond.” I muttered, stepping closer and fighting the urge to crush his balls. ‘I will crush

taunted, clearly finding this amusing. “You really do resort to violence every fucking time.” “Of course,

off, you‘re going to call me an old man?” “Yup, and

more noticeable now, but I was not going to show

I peered at him suspiciously. Was he seriously asking me that? I mean, he was meant to be smart, wasn‘t he? “Staple gun your dick obviously, give you a few more ladder steps.” I clenched my teeth, trying not to shiver from the cold

simply chuckled, crashing his lips right down on mine. Rivers of pleasure danced through me, as he

his breathy voice in my mind, making me freeze. His words were echoing in my

you... He said he