Alpha Leo and the Heart of Fire

72. From His Lips AZURA.

His words cut like a knife. I more than anyone regret my time with Judah, but as a careless eighteen–year–old, he seemed to have understood me... I was the misfit, the odd one out, the freak... When I met Judah, it just felt like he didn‘t care about my past. He welcomed me into his arms with empty promises, and I fell for it.

“Azura!” Leo called, but I sped up, heading to our bedroom.

I broke into a run, entering the room, I ran straight to the bathroom. Locking the door, I stepped into the shower, switching it on making sure that my walls were up

“Azura.” I heard him trying the door, and I took a slow breath, wanting to sound normal.

“Yeah?!”

I heard him sigh, “Are you ok?” No, I‘m not “Yes, can a girl shower in peace?” I replied, feeling my emotions ready to spiral.

Everything that was happening was my fault, I get that... but he had tried so hard to make me believe that it wasn‘t my fault, but what he said now... Did he even mean it? Deep down he probably felt that it was my fault.

I kicked off my sneakers, slowly stepping under the cold water of the shower.

“Alright... don‘t take too long. I didn‘t mean what.”

“Like I said, can a girl shower in peace?” This time my voice sounded cold.

“Not when she‘s pissed, when a woman says she‘s fine she isn‘t.” 1

“Wow you‘re really so smart, aren‘t you? Give yourself a pat on the shoulder for figuring that out.” I growled, giving up on hiding my emotions. He didn‘t respond, and I leaned against the shower wall, sliding to the floor fully clothed. My white shirt was stuck to me as the cold water drenched me.

My fault...

Time and time again, I messed up and others got hurt.

I wrapped my arms around my legs, resting my forehead on my knees, feeling my tears on the verge of spilling. The last few days were already so hard... Seeing Kareena in that state, I was racked with guilt.

The run–in with Nikki earlier didn‘t help either…

(FLASHBACK).

I had just purchased some flowers, deciding to stop at the graves on the way back from seeing Kareena. Eric and Jax were with me as Leo wouldn‘t let me wander alone. I looked down at the graves after laying the flowers on them, silently apologising once more.

A shadow fell over me, blocking out the sunlight, and I tilted my head to look at the woman who was standing there.

What are you doing here?!” Nikki shouted, for once she was without makeup, her eyes puffy

and the hatred in them clear.

“Nikki. You are speaking to your Luna.” Jax warned, stepping in front of me defensively.” Leave.”

“This is my sister‘s grave!” She hissed venonjously.

“Nikki –” Eric began.

from where I was crouching,

shook his head, “I don‘t think that‘s wise, let‘s

you, step aside.” My voice was clear, and Jax frowned as Eric slowly backed off. “Jax, let me handle this.

so he can report back to his Alpha.” Nikki said, “The

meant to be mine. You were just there, I‘m the one who belongs

care! You‘re the reason she‘s dead! Deny it all you want! Everyone knows that the

ex!”

had that even gotten

not afraid to have you

manhandle a woman!”

weak, innocent woman. Take her, Eric, put her in for a day. I‘m sure Leo won‘t

her! You killed my baby sister!” She screamed as Eric tried to drag her away, clamping his hand

words hurt but she was hurting too... I stayed quiet because ultimately, she was a member of this pack... My pack. “Eric. Let her go.” I commanded as Jax looked at me sharply. “Jax... I‘m

head clearly pissed when Eric

she glanced at both Jax

the floor. “Leo is going to be

“No, he won‘t because he won‘t

Leave it be. No

understand

“I agree.” Jax growled.

shook my head. “Not

(END OF FLASHBACK)

many more would lose their lives because of me? I would be a fool to think no one... I wish I could heal Leo already. If

and I turned sharply to see

knew the new trend was to shower with your clothes on.” He

off my face giving him a dirty look. “Yeah, it‘s something the new generation likes to do just in case

into the shower shoes on and all, letting the water drench him. “I‘m sorry, I didn‘t fucking mean it like that.” He said quietly,

through me, and I could feel my wolf fighting me as she wanted to give in to him. It was at times when we were at odds that I noticed her more. His embrace was comforting, and there was nowhere else I‘d rather be than in

I said I‘m

I fought him – refusing to turn towards

I didn‘t want to see. He‘d make me melt.” If you‘re angry, vent. Hit me, shout at

when I need to go take a dump, I do!” I snapped in response, although I knew exactly what he meant but I still came up with that lousy comeback. “Good to know.” The smirk returned, and I smacked his arm, my hand hitting the wet leather and making a loud sound. “I

Maybe...

grab my elbows and yank me close. He looked down at me, the cold water pouring down over both of us. “What the fuck did you see in Nikki?” I said bitterly. “She‘s a total bitch, with no class or compassion, yet you were with her for two

go of my arms and I was about to pull away only for him to cup my face, refusing to allow me to move away. “Honestly,

wasn‘t lying, and I also knew I would trust him

Beautiful, yet terrifying too.

had felt had washed away. I didn‘t get it, I never calmed down so easily, yet here I was, rather than lashing out,

“You really do resort to violence every fucking time.” “Of course, I have to! How else do I

going to call me an

now, but I was not going

staple gun?” He asked. I peered at him suspiciously. Was he seriously asking me that? I mean, he was meant to be smart, wasn‘t he? “Staple gun your dick obviously, give you a few more ladder steps.” I clenched my teeth, trying not to shiver from the cold water. His eyes flashed with surprise as he looked at me to see if I was serious. “Oh

crashing his lips right down on mine. Rivers of pleasure danced through me, as he claimed my trembling lips in a .

I love you.‘ Came his breathy voice in my mind, making

He said