Alpha Leo and the Heart of Fire

72. From His Lips AZURA.

His words cut like a knife. I more than anyone regret my time with Judah, but as a careless eighteen–year–old, he seemed to have understood me... I was the misfit, the odd one out, the freak... When I met Judah, it just felt like he didn‘t care about my past. He welcomed me into his arms with empty promises, and I fell for it.

“Azura!” Leo called, but I sped up, heading to our bedroom.

I broke into a run, entering the room, I ran straight to the bathroom. Locking the door, I stepped into the shower, switching it on making sure that my walls were up

“Azura.” I heard him trying the door, and I took a slow breath, wanting to sound normal.

“Yeah?!”

I heard him sigh, “Are you ok?” No, I‘m not “Yes, can a girl shower in peace?” I replied, feeling my emotions ready to spiral.

Everything that was happening was my fault, I get that... but he had tried so hard to make me believe that it wasn‘t my fault, but what he said now... Did he even mean it? Deep down he probably felt that it was my fault.

I kicked off my sneakers, slowly stepping under the cold water of the shower.

“Alright... don‘t take too long. I didn‘t mean what.”

“Like I said, can a girl shower in peace?” This time my voice sounded cold.

“Not when she‘s pissed, when a woman says she‘s fine she isn‘t.” 1

“Wow you‘re really so smart, aren‘t you? Give yourself a pat on the shoulder for figuring that out.” I growled, giving up on hiding my emotions. He didn‘t respond, and I leaned against the shower wall, sliding to the floor fully clothed. My white shirt was stuck to me as the cold water drenched me.

My fault...

Time and time again, I messed up and others got hurt.

I wrapped my arms around my legs, resting my forehead on my knees, feeling my tears on the verge of spilling. The last few days were already so hard... Seeing Kareena in that state, I was racked with guilt.

The run–in with Nikki earlier didn‘t help either…

(FLASHBACK).

I had just purchased some flowers, deciding to stop at the graves on the way back from seeing Kareena. Eric and Jax were with me as Leo wouldn‘t let me wander alone. I looked down at the graves after laying the flowers on them, silently apologising once more.

A shadow fell over me, blocking out the sunlight, and I tilted my head to look at the woman who was standing there.

What are you doing here?!” Nikki shouted, for once she was without makeup, her eyes puffy

and the hatred in them clear.

“Nikki. You are speaking to your Luna.” Jax warned, stepping in front of me defensively.” Leave.”

“This is my sister‘s grave!” She hissed venonjously.

“Nikki –” Eric began.

stood up from where I was crouching, placing my hand on his shoulder.

don‘t think

an eyebrow, “Both of you, step aside.” My voice was clear, and Jax frowned as Eric slowly backed off. “Jax, let

report back to his Alpha.” Nikki said, “The one you stole from

he was mine, he was always meant to be mine. You were just there, I‘m the one who belongs with him. When will you let that go, Nikki?

let out a bitter laugh “Are you for real? You actually care? Or pretending to care! You‘re the reason she‘s dead! Deny it all you want! Everyone knows that the man who killed her

ex!”

that

have you tossed in prison Nikki!” Jax growled,

manhandle a woman!”

You‘re a warrior, not a weak, innocent woman. Take her, Eric, put

who suffered! For an entitled princess like yourself! You killed her! You killed my baby sister!” She

pack... My pack. “Eric. Let her go.” I commanded as Jax looked at me sharply. “Jax... I‘m the future Alpha‘s mate ... My word holds more

head clearly pissed when Eric let

glanced at both Jax and I, before she

on the floor. “Leo is going to be

I sighed. “No, he won‘t because he won‘t know. He

Leave it be. No one is to relay

down at his hands. “I understand that Luna... but she needs to be

“I agree.” Jax growled.

my head. “Not this

(END OF FLASHBACK)

many more would lose their lives because of me? I would be a fool to think no one... I wish I could heal

open, and I turned sharply to see Leo enter, his eyes

never knew the new trend was to shower with your clothes on.” He said quietly as he walked over

brushed my soaking hair off my face giving him a dirty look. “Yeah, it‘s something the new generation likes to do just in case pervy old men enter without permission. “Iturned

me as he stepped into the shower shoes on and all, letting the water drench him. “I‘m sorry, I didn‘t fucking mean it like that.” He said quietly,

as she wanted to give in to him. It was at times when we were at odds that I noticed

said

go of me, forcing me to turn, and I fought him – refusing to turn towards him. I growled as I shoved him. “For someone who‘s dying,

smirk on his face, one that didn‘t reach his eyes, which were still filled with concern and so many emotions, that I didn‘t want to see. He‘d make me melt.” If you‘re angry, vent. Hit me, shout

meant but I still came up with that lousy comeback. “Good to know.” The smirk returned, and I smacked his arm, my hand hitting

Maybe...

of us. “What the fuck did you see in Nikki?” I said bitterly. “She‘s a total

arms and I was about to pull away only for him to cup my face, refusing to allow me to move away. “Honestly, I don‘t fucking know.

could tell he wasn‘t lying, and I also knew I would trust him blindly no matter what...

Beautiful, yet terrifying too.

I had felt had washed away. I didn‘t get it, I never calmed down so easily, yet here I was, rather than lashing out, I

most.” He taunted, clearly finding this amusing. “You really do resort to violence every fucking time.” “Of course, I

my eyes. “So, I take it that every time I piss you off, you‘re going to call me an old man?” “Yup, and make many more voodoo dolls. Just wait till I get that

noticeable now, but I was not

he was meant to be smart, wasn‘t he? “Staple gun your dick obviously, give you a few more ladder steps.” I clenched my teeth, trying not to shiver from the cold water. His eyes flashed with surprise as he looked at

right down on mine. Rivers of pleasure danced through

you.‘ Came his breathy voice in my mind,

you... He said he