Alpha Leo and the Heart of Fire

72. From His Lips AZURA.

His words cut like a knife. I more than anyone regret my time with Judah, but as a careless eighteen–year–old, he seemed to have understood me... I was the misfit, the odd one out, the freak... When I met Judah, it just felt like he didn‘t care about my past. He welcomed me into his arms with empty promises, and I fell for it.

“Azura!” Leo called, but I sped up, heading to our bedroom.

I broke into a run, entering the room, I ran straight to the bathroom. Locking the door, I stepped into the shower, switching it on making sure that my walls were up

“Azura.” I heard him trying the door, and I took a slow breath, wanting to sound normal.

“Yeah?!”

I heard him sigh, “Are you ok?” No, I‘m not “Yes, can a girl shower in peace?” I replied, feeling my emotions ready to spiral.

Everything that was happening was my fault, I get that... but he had tried so hard to make me believe that it wasn‘t my fault, but what he said now... Did he even mean it? Deep down he probably felt that it was my fault.

I kicked off my sneakers, slowly stepping under the cold water of the shower.

“Alright... don‘t take too long. I didn‘t mean what.”

“Like I said, can a girl shower in peace?” This time my voice sounded cold.

“Not when she‘s pissed, when a woman says she‘s fine she isn‘t.” 1

“Wow you‘re really so smart, aren‘t you? Give yourself a pat on the shoulder for figuring that out.” I growled, giving up on hiding my emotions. He didn‘t respond, and I leaned against the shower wall, sliding to the floor fully clothed. My white shirt was stuck to me as the cold water drenched me.

My fault...

Time and time again, I messed up and others got hurt.

I wrapped my arms around my legs, resting my forehead on my knees, feeling my tears on the verge of spilling. The last few days were already so hard... Seeing Kareena in that state, I was racked with guilt.

The run–in with Nikki earlier didn‘t help either…

(FLASHBACK).

I had just purchased some flowers, deciding to stop at the graves on the way back from seeing Kareena. Eric and Jax were with me as Leo wouldn‘t let me wander alone. I looked down at the graves after laying the flowers on them, silently apologising once more.

A shadow fell over me, blocking out the sunlight, and I tilted my head to look at the woman who was standing there.

What are you doing here?!” Nikki shouted, for once she was without makeup, her eyes puffy

and the hatred in them clear.

“Nikki. You are speaking to your Luna.” Jax warned, stepping in front of me defensively.” Leave.”

“This is my sister‘s grave!” She hissed venonjously.

“Nikki –” Eric began.

up from where I was crouching, placing my hand on

“I don‘t think that‘s wise,

voice was clear, and Jax frowned as Eric slowly backed off. “Jax,

his Alpha.” Nikki said, “The one

mine, he was always meant to be mine. You were just there, I‘m the one who belongs with him. When

real? You actually care? Or pretending to care! You‘re the reason she‘s dead! Deny it all you want! Everyone knows that the man

ex!”

had that even

it up and I am not afraid to have you tossed in prison Nikki!” Jax growled, grabbing her

manhandle a

You‘re a warrior, not a weak, innocent woman. Take

it‘s our pack who suffered! For an entitled princess like yourself! You killed her! You killed my baby sister!” She screamed as Eric tried to

pack. “Eric. Let her go.” I commanded as Jax looked at me

clearly pissed when Eric let go of

both Jax and I, before she

floor. “Leo is going

I sighed. “No, he won‘t because he won‘t know. He already has enough

Leave it be. No one is to relay this to him. Am I

his hands. “I understand that Luna... but she needs to be

“I agree.” Jax growled.

shook my head.

(END OF FLASHBACK)

to think no one... I wish I could

sharply to see

with your clothes on.”

“Yeah, it‘s something the new generation likes to do just

on and all, letting the water drench him. “I‘m sorry, I didn‘t fucking mean it like that.” He said quietly, pressing his

It was at times when we were at odds that I noticed her more. His embrace was comforting, and there was nowhere else I‘d rather be than

I said

to turn

didn‘t want to see. He‘d make me melt.” If you‘re angry, vent. Hit me, shout at me, do

up with that lousy comeback. “Good to know.” The smirk returned, and I smacked his arm, my hand hitting the wet leather and making a loud sound. “I really

Maybe...

He looked down at me, the cold water pouring down over both of us. “What the fuck did you see in Nikki?” I said bitterly. “She‘s a total bitch, with no class or compassion, yet you were

to pull away only for him to cup my face, refusing to allow me to move away. “Honestly, I don‘t fucking know. I can let my walls down and you‘ll see that I do not blame

would trust him blindly no matter what... I knew, going forward, he could kill someone right in front of me,

Beautiful, yet terrifying too.

anger and hurt I had felt had washed away. I didn‘t get it, I never calmed down so easily, yet here I was, rather than lashing out, I was just...no longer angry. “Damn mate bond.” I muttered, stepping closer and fighting the urge

taunted, clearly finding this amusing. “You really do resort to violence every fucking time.” “Of course, I have

smirked, his fingers brushing my cheeks as he gazed into my eyes. “So, I take it that every time I piss you off, you‘re going to call me an old man?” “Yup, and make many more voodoo dolls. Just wait till I get that staple

water was becoming more noticeable now, but I was

He asked. I peered at him suspiciously. Was he seriously asking me that? I mean, he was meant to be smart, wasn‘t he? “Staple gun your dick obviously, give you a few more

his lips right down on mine. Rivers of pleasure danced through me, as he claimed my trembling lips

I love you.‘ Came his breathy voice in my mind, making me freeze. His words were echoing in my mind.

said