Alpha Luka And His Human Mate

Luka's pov

One year later

"Luka dude get your ass up!"

I groaned in response as Caleb tried to get me out of bed for the umpteenth time today.

I grabbed a pillow and chucked it in his direction, successfully hitting him square in the face. A small smile took over my lips as I saw him huff in annoyance.

"Come on man. I'm taking you out of town to have some fun. You need it" He complained, and I knew damn well that he'd be back if I didn't oblige.

Sighing, I gave into his plea and reluctantly got out of bed. He gave me a victorious smile and I had to resist the urge to roll my eyes at his childish behaviour.

Over the past year, he has really been there for me. He kept me out of my darkest places as much as he could and I couldn't help but be grateful. However, that didn't stop the darkness when he was gone though.

It has been hard, harder than I thought it would be. Every time I was in me and Ella's room, I would feel emptier than usual. Her scent was everywhere and I couldn't stand it. I moved out of our room only three weeks after her funeral. It became too hard for me to even sleep and that affected everything.

My mom and little sister, Emma, tried to get me to move on way too quickly. I snapped at them one day and they have been staying away since then, only checking in with me to see if I'm still alive, I assume.

I was never the man that acted tough and emotionless. We all have feelings and nobody ever judged me for being sad. They became distant though, they wanted the old me back too fast and I just couldn't do that for them yet.

I don't even think I could do it for myself, ever.

My dad only sends Caleb to do his dirty work for him since he's the only one who can get through to me in some sense. That was because he understood and didn't push me to do things I didn't want to do. He was here to help me heal, not force me to act like nothing happened and be 'their Luka' again.

Maybe I was being selfish, but the break of a mate bond does a lot to you.

I made my way out to the living room after throwing on a white tee shirt and some jeans, not even bothering to fix my messy dark hair.

smaller brother's 'bluntness' as I

out of bed. Probably worried I would wallow in my own sorrow or something. You know, especially today"

in silence as he looked over some documents in his hands, I assumed it had

I actually missed being Alpha. It tears me apart every time someone calls me Luka instead of Alpha. It's not that I'm power hungry or anything,

to terms with the fact that she's gone, it really took a toll on not

it hurt like hell. It hurt that I was failing my pack. That pain plus the pain of a broken

one day and told them that I wanted to resign as Alpha. My dad wouldn't have it though, so he said I would simply take a break until I'm 'fit to resume my duties', like that

kitchen feeling somewhat refreshed, I slowly made my way back to the living room when I heard whispers from Ty and Caleb. I could

off Risella" I heard Caleb whisper to my brother, while my heart broke a little, or that's what it feels like given that my heart was no

been so long since I've heard her

You know, for helping Luka when he needs it. Sometimes I feel like he's gone off the edge" Ty whispered

even know how ironic that statement

I leaned against the doorway, and

I called it. He refused to tell me where

up at something that looked like a.... carnival? You've

you five!" I exclaimed, shaking my head a little

love the carnival when we were kids even

the memories. I really did like the carnival. And even though Caleb doesn't know this, it's where I brought Ella on our

liked to do things in a human way. I never complained

will seem like I'm

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fun. I knew it would be hard to say goodbye to everyone,

faces painted like seven year olds and cotton candy in our hands. I'll forever remember him for this. He's 

now or we can go wherever you wanna go. The night is still young" He said, wiggling his eyebrows suggestively with his goofy

the river. My wolf is a little antsy" I lied right to his face. He didn't