Alpha Niall And His Lost Mate

Niall's Pov

I knew what I had to do, and I wasn't going to let my mate fall asleep without me.

Valero gave me an encouraging smile as I got up and brushed the dirt from my jeans. I sat beside her at the bank of the river, but she didn't look at me once or acknowledge my presence.

Sighing, I scooted a little closer to her, keeping just enough distance as not to startle her. From what I've witnessed growing up, women are very snappy when they are angry, frustrated or sad, and I didn't even know which one Zoey was feeling--maybe all.

"Why did you leave Niall?" I was shocked to hear her small sweet voice asking me the question. I was still recovering from the shock that she actually spoke to me, that I took a while to answer her question.

"I-um..I came here to try and get more information about where your dad might've been from" I told her truthfully, totally unaware of how she would take it.

She removed her chin from the gap between her knees and her chest as she peered at me. She wasn't saying anything, and her face and eyes didn't give away anything either. It made me anxious to know what was going on in that beautiful mind of hers.

"Please say something Zoey" I sighed, feeling desperate for some sort of emotion from her.

"What am I supposed to say Niall? Thank you? I'm flattered?" Her tone caught me by surprise, and it killed me even more that she was this upset with me. "You could've told me Niall! You SHOULD'VE told me!"

It was then that I saw how much I really hurt her, but it was never my intention to do so. After I arrived, I learnt that they didn't know anything about him. I knew it was a long shot, so I decided to just leave right away without looking back. But when I was about to leave that same day, the mask I used to hide my scent wore off, and they all got so defensive after knowing an Alpha was in their territory.

course, that was a mistake.

I did a simple favour that they asked so that I didn't get caught up in a rogue war--especially against my Zoey. It took longer than I expected, so I decided to leave without helping them finish what they asked me to do, but somehow, someone knew who I

strongest in the country, but I performed treason going on their property, and when I didn't want to hold up on my end or

my panic, and it never eased until I completed the favour for them. I should've considered that it would've led her to me, thinking I

close, I panicked again as I didn't want her anywhere near that place. If only she had waited a little longer for me to reach the border like

on her. She was a worried wolf for her mate...I should've known not to try and get her to turn back. Now, her friend is dead and it was

my head down, too ashamed to look her in the eyes." I didn't want to tell you and have your hopes, only to have them crushed if I didn't learn anything. It wasn't supposed to last this long but they figured out that I wasn't a rogue and I might've mentioned that I just wanted information

me."It doesn't matter anymore...Did you, did you learn anything?" She met my eyes again, but I couldn't even hold on to that small hint of light

head. I wanted to hold her, I wanted to hold her so bad. But if I should so much as reach

I know now that I should've never done something this big without informing you. In my mind, I was just trying to do what's best for you. I wanted to protect you, and I thought that if I told you, you would've asked to come with me. When I didn't come home, it was all because I didn't want to put you in harm's way. I didn't want to tell you what my aim was, because I didn't want to see that disappointed look that you have right now. I just want you to be happy, that's all I ever wanted. It's why I do such preposterous things sometimes even if

she didn't answer, I continued

the rog- I mean, Clarissa. But I am so deeply sorry for being the reason why she um-died" I perked up when she actually turned to look at me again. But my heart broke when

bringing her along. I could've killed Valero too. If only

that I was there. "I know this is hard and you have every right to be upset with me. But this is not your fault Zoey. We are wolves. Our instincts are our sole driver of life next to love. Imagine having both

cried in my chest, causing my insides to plummet in grief, guilt and shame. All I ever wanted to do was make her happy. Now, I was the sole cause of her being so broken.

I thought she was hurting before, I

to her, nor did I know what to do. But I did know that even if I was her least