Alpha’s Regret-My Luna Has A Son

Macey POV 

Istared at Carter's body for god knows how long before I came back to my senses.I glanced around the room, and it suddenly looked a lot different.

It was depressing before, but now it was as cold and dead as I felt inside.

My nose still hadn't stopped bleeding, and vertigo washed over me as I stood up.I stagger, moving toward the bag Carter had brought back with him.

Undoing the zip, I rummage through it, looking for the key before remembering it was around his neck, and I glanced at his body tucked in bed as if he was sleeping.

Hesitantly, I move toward him before pulling the blanket back.My hand shakes as I reach forward, grab the chain around his neck, and yank it.

The gold chain snaps, and I quickly shove the blanket back up to cover him.

Tears spill over, and I wipe my eyes, trying to clear them when my vision turns red.

I blink, trying to clear them and rub at them furiously, to see my hands come back bloody, making me gape at them.I knew it would be harmful to kill a mate, yet I didn't consider myself dying beside him.I didn't want to die here.I wanted to see my little girl one last time, to at least tell her I love her, to see her face one last time.

However, looking at my hands, I didn't want her to remember me this way if this was going to be my future, my very short future.I choke back a sob and undo the chain around my ankle.

When a crack of thunder makes the world seem like its ending as the cabin rattles and the floor shakes with its violent tremor.It was now pouring down with rain, and I knew I would be walking blindly out there, especially since I wasn't sure if I could shift.

Something felt like it was rotting me from the inside out.

As if my soul was rotting as quickly as my body.I felt sickly, and I knew this was the consequence of me killing my mate.Yet I had to try.I may not be able to go home and see Taylor, but I needed to get somewhere my body could be found.I didn't want her growing up, not knowing if I abandoned her or if I was dead.No, I would at least give her a body to bury.

Glancing at Carter, so much anger boiled within me.

"I hate you!" I screamed at him before collapsing to the ground.

I punched the ground, my fist slamming into the shitty wood as I screamed my anguish, frustration pain.My knuckles bleed as they split, and I clutch my hair, ripping at it.I wanted to hurt something, anything, myself, for feeling so weak.

Thated him, hated him.

The man took everything from me.

Everything and everyone he touched was destroyed.He destroyed Zoe.

He destroyed me.

But I hated him most, knowing he had just destroyed my baby because she would have to grow up without the one person who loved her most.I knew Everly and Zoe would look after her, and I knew they wouldn't stop looking until they found what was left of me but no would love her the way I do.I may not be able to raise her, but they would for me.I choked on a sob, cursing at how fucked up this was.

How cruel life was that I not only lost a mate but my daughter too.

That saying, ‘you don't know what you have until you lose it" seemed to laugh at me.

Because I never pictured finding my mate and losing him.

Never pictured having my daughter and not being able to raise her.

Never thought I would die without watching her become the woman she is destined to be.I would have been content to be mateless as long as I served my purpose, to see her through to adulthood when she didn't need me anymore.

That was my life's purpose, to raise my baby, and now the only such purpose I had left was to get to a road so my body could be found, so she had something to bury.

I could not die peacefully, knowing she would wonder if I left her, abandoned her.

I am done destroying myself, I look at the fistfuls of hair

over me, cold and uncaring, as I inhale a shaky

the storm

my fight was gone, it left, and I was as dead as the bond

had

down my sadness as I take a

at the darkness outside before a low, deep growl vibrated throughout the cabin as an enormous wolf I recognized not only by scent but by his fur to be

inside, and my legs gave out from under me, realizing

reach my

I tell

the door open

bed, and I hear the

"That he is."

at Kalen,

on the floor?"

rolling

could joke

Kalen

an antler?" John asks, holding up the

at John before turning his attention

mess up," Kalen says, moving toward me,

in

killed my mate," I

Kalen whispers, but I shake

you did was brave.What I

little girl to get home to.And I

go back like this.I won't force Taylor to watch

to remember you, Macey because you are

had stolen a pair

Even if I miraculously survive, I killed someone in cold blood.He

won't be

me that was truly sad because despite everything J knew he was just broken and twisted, yet he wasn’t a complete monster, I had seen parts of him that proved

the courts and council won't see it

him.Just like you didn't kill Preston, I did."

my throat felt extremely

and

steps forward as I choke on my

to worry because I would

it doesn't matter," I tell them, holding up my hand, drenched in my

his eyes turn glassy, and he clears

as he rips me

or Kalen? Choose because I am not going home without

makeshift chair and John shoves

telling your daughter their mother is dead when we

choose one, either

these two old fossils, but not in that sense, and after feeling the bond with Carter, I knew what marking one of them would make me feel towards

inevitable and so gross! Yet I also had no

was my chance to

scissors, rock?" Kalen says, turning to