Alpha’s Regret-My Luna Has A Son

Macey POV 

Istared at Carter's body for god knows how long before I came back to my senses.I glanced around the room, and it suddenly looked a lot different.

It was depressing before, but now it was as cold and dead as I felt inside.

My nose still hadn't stopped bleeding, and vertigo washed over me as I stood up.I stagger, moving toward the bag Carter had brought back with him.

Undoing the zip, I rummage through it, looking for the key before remembering it was around his neck, and I glanced at his body tucked in bed as if he was sleeping.

Hesitantly, I move toward him before pulling the blanket back.My hand shakes as I reach forward, grab the chain around his neck, and yank it.

The gold chain snaps, and I quickly shove the blanket back up to cover him.

Tears spill over, and I wipe my eyes, trying to clear them when my vision turns red.

I blink, trying to clear them and rub at them furiously, to see my hands come back bloody, making me gape at them.I knew it would be harmful to kill a mate, yet I didn't consider myself dying beside him.I didn't want to die here.I wanted to see my little girl one last time, to at least tell her I love her, to see her face one last time.

However, looking at my hands, I didn't want her to remember me this way if this was going to be my future, my very short future.I choke back a sob and undo the chain around my ankle.

When a crack of thunder makes the world seem like its ending as the cabin rattles and the floor shakes with its violent tremor.It was now pouring down with rain, and I knew I would be walking blindly out there, especially since I wasn't sure if I could shift.

Something felt like it was rotting me from the inside out.

As if my soul was rotting as quickly as my body.I felt sickly, and I knew this was the consequence of me killing my mate.Yet I had to try.I may not be able to go home and see Taylor, but I needed to get somewhere my body could be found.I didn't want her growing up, not knowing if I abandoned her or if I was dead.No, I would at least give her a body to bury.

Glancing at Carter, so much anger boiled within me.

"I hate you!" I screamed at him before collapsing to the ground.

I punched the ground, my fist slamming into the shitty wood as I screamed my anguish, frustration pain.My knuckles bleed as they split, and I clutch my hair, ripping at it.I wanted to hurt something, anything, myself, for feeling so weak.

Thated him, hated him.

The man took everything from me.

Everything and everyone he touched was destroyed.He destroyed Zoe.

He destroyed me.

But I hated him most, knowing he had just destroyed my baby because she would have to grow up without the one person who loved her most.I knew Everly and Zoe would look after her, and I knew they wouldn't stop looking until they found what was left of me but no would love her the way I do.I may not be able to raise her, but they would for me.I choked on a sob, cursing at how fucked up this was.

How cruel life was that I not only lost a mate but my daughter too.

That saying, ‘you don't know what you have until you lose it" seemed to laugh at me.

Because I never pictured finding my mate and losing him.

Never pictured having my daughter and not being able to raise her.

Never thought I would die without watching her become the woman she is destined to be.I would have been content to be mateless as long as I served my purpose, to see her through to adulthood when she didn't need me anymore.

That was my life's purpose, to raise my baby, and now the only such purpose I had left was to get to a road so my body could be found, so she had something to bury.

I could not die peacefully, knowing she would wonder if I left her, abandoned her.

I am done destroying myself, I look at the fistfuls

cold and uncaring, as I

the storm as

left, and I was as dead as the bond I

had to move, I needed

down my sadness as I

at the darkness outside before a low, deep growl vibrated throughout the cabin as an enormous wolf I recognized not only by scent

floorboards creak as he stepped inside, and my legs gave out from under me, realizing I wouldn't have to

the stairs outside reach my ears

dead," I

pushing the door open more, and John shifts

moves toward the bed, and I hear the blanket

"That he is."

at Kalen, who nods at John's

you doing on the floor?"

rolling

numb.I could joke about my own

what death looks like," Kalen

an antler?" John asks, holding up the bloody piece of

before turning his attention

Kalen says, moving toward

crouches in front of

killed my mate," I

Kalen whispers, but

it,and I know it.What you did was brave.What I

to get home to.And

watch me die.She will not remember me this

to remember you, Macey because you are not

he had stolen a pair of Carter's shorts from the bag and

someone in cold blood.He

Carter won't be

was truly sad because despite everything J knew he was just broken and twisted, yet he wasn’t a complete monster, I had seen parts

but the courts and council won't see it that way," I

killed him.Just like you didn't kill Preston, I did." Kalen states, and I look at

throat

the floor and covers

forward as I choke

I stopped coughing, I knew it was pointless to worry because I would be dead long before

them, holding up my hand, drenched

eyes turn glassy, and he

almost angrily as he rips me

on us! So choose.Me or Kalen? Choose because

Kalen grabs a makeshift chair and John shoves me

us wants the job of telling your daughter their mother is dead when

them and saying nothing.If I choose one, either way, I would be Valen's new

but not in that sense, and after feeling the bond with Carter, I knew what marking one

inevitable and so gross! Yet I also had no

to go home to my

scissors, rock?" Kalen says,