Alpha’s Regret-My Luna Has A Son

Everly POV

We settled in the room, and I washed Valerian down with a wet cloth. It was a little too cold today for me to give him a bath right now. Once Valarian had settled and was napping, I had the longest, hottest shower in ages. Trying to wash the memories of last night away.

I found my mate, saw him, and he didn’t recognize me. But worse still was knowing he was with another woman. The agony that it caused as I ran home was heartbreaking as well as painful. When Marcus took me there, I hoped that he would recognize our son and get the help we needed, that maybe everything could be fixed, especially once I realized he was my mate. Allowing hope for the first time in ages, and I caught a glimmer of it only for it to be taken away, and now I was failing my son once again, that much I did know.

I was failing my son; he would never have a father. I would never again have mine and how I longed to go home, where I was loved and the cherished Alphas daughter. Instead, I am now ashamed and scum, forbidden to speak to my sister in my father’s eyes. Not even my mother would fight her grandchild or me. I knew she was hurting, but I could never choose anyone over my son, so how could she choose Dad over me?

My life had fallen apart; I didn’t think it could get much worse, but then it ripped my heart out too. I thought my luck was changing when he stepped into the bathroom. Every piece of me, screaming for him. I truly realized how powerful a mate bond is for the first time. Nothing thrilled me more, well, until I saw the look on his face.

The way he yelled at me and ordered me off his territory. Only to have my father toss me outside in the rain afterward. Forcing me to watch my son being looked after through a damn window out of reach because I no longer deserve Human decency from my own family.

I thought I could do this. I thought I was stronger than this but everyone breaks. Everyone has a breaking point, and I have reached mine, everything damn thing weighing me down suddenly becomes too much, and I break. At least no one could see how F*cked up I really was while I cried in the shower, letting the shower wash away my sorrow. Wash out the pain I felt until it brought me to my knees.

Making it startlingly clear how alone I was.

Loneliness was deafening and cold, no one to tell you it would be alright , no one to help you pick up the pieces, no conversation, and I had lost my sense of self. I was no one now, just a mum, just another rogue whore for everyone to look down at. Even though I am not. He is my mate, who didn’t see me. I realize how small and insignificant I am to everyone except my baby boy.

Hearing a knock on the door, my head jerks up from where it was pressed to my knees. I get up quickly, shutting the water off and grabbing a towel.

“Everly dear, open the door for me.”

“Sorry, just a sec,” I call back, checking Valerian before tugging a shirt over the towel to try to appear presentable.

I open the door to find Valerie standing there with a tray in her hands and two plates on it.

“Thought I would come to join you in here. The time must have slipped you by,” Valarie says. I quickly take it from her, and she steps inside, walking to the small table.

“Oh, I am so sorry, I didn’t realize how much time passed, ” I tell her, glancing at the old analog clock on the wall. Was I really in the shower that long?

“It’s fine dear, I could hear you were upset, so I thought I would come and be an ear to listen, ” she says, and my brows bunch at her words. She points behind me to the bathroom.

I keep meaning to get someone in to

‘m sorry. I didn’t realize; I hope I didn’t

I have been where you are, I would have put you in another room, but this is the nicest one left and is functional. The place is falling apart, ”

on; I will watch him. Isn’t that right, Sugar? Yes, I love me some baby cuddles, ” she says, smiling brightly down at him

and then we can talk, ” she says, and I nod, quickly digging through my bag and grabbing some clothes out before rushing to the bathroom. I dressed quickly and came out with

sweet boy,” Valarie babbles to him. He eventually drifts off, and she places him

what makes you

just got to be too much, ” I tell her

off my chest. I didn’t realize how talking to someone who listened could feel relieving. Valarie also told me she found her

to tell anyone because it would bring shame to her mate’s family. These days it was uncommon for someone to be so prejudiced over Ranking. The most heartbreaking

mates weakens us, yet I thought it was disgusting he

was better if he raised him. She said besides pictures, she hadn’t seen her son since he was a baby. He

of moving on?” I ask her,

She tells

ask her. I needed to know; I needed to know if I would be

I want to ask you

mate, he was with another woman. The pain… I mean, does it feel like that all the time? Will it feel like that every time he is with someone? ” She swallows, her eyes turning glassy. Valarie sits back in her chair, looking towards

endure it. After a while, even welcome

would I welcome

I love my mate, but I also hate him. Sometimes hating them hurts less than realizing you will never have them.

only thing that will keep you going, ”

the edge off, but if he’s anything like my mate, it is over quickly before the drugs set

he can’t F*ck right,” she laughs to herself, and I snort at her foul language, trying to hold my own giggle. She sighs, and I smile

next for you?”

probably go back to my car, see if I can get

not that much can be done to save this dump now” she

you think it is too much work? I could always burn it?” Valarie