Alpha's Nala

Michael Angelo

“Do you hear that?” Bear, my wolf, asks. I could tell his ears were standing up out of attention.

Feeling the sense of urgency from his tone, I put down my pen and listened for a minute. 

Nothing. 

“What am I supposed to be listening to...” I started, annoyed.

“She's singing again.” He cuts me off, fully alert now while I felt his tail wag in excitement.

Knowing what he meant, my eyes widened in realization. I quickly stood up from my seat and sprinted outside my office, heading towards the marble-tiled balcony — leaving pages of reports, from my pile of paperwork, flying to the floor. 

I don't know what to make sense of this reflex action, but I kept on doing this every time my wolf mentions anything related to 'her'. I know it is unusual but through the length of time, it became a bit of a habit, and guilty as I was, I don't know how to stop it now. 

I'm still expecting for a miracle, I guess. 

“Which direction?” I inquired, alert as well.

“Same place Mikee.” Bear stated. I felt him looking in the direction, quite awestruck at the second. 

Knowing already what lies there, I still directed myself to the West.

At first glimpse, you don't see much in that direction other than the vast trees and other wild vegetation. Also, large mountains where the sun sets in the evening and a wide lake... That's about it.

Desperate though, I did ask some of my men to scout the area once; to try and see what truly exists in that place, and to my dismay, they found nothing but pure soil, more plants, and a few riverbanks. 

It is pure nature out there...

I sighed heavily, thinking that he must be imagining stuff again.

He always does this whenever he feels like torturing me, or if he wants me to understand how devastated he was with the loss and how he deeply misses her.

I don't know if he's playing a dangerous game of delusion or just trying to ignite the false hope I have within me, but sometimes everything just gets out of hand; Bear getting reality and imagination all mixed up.

One thing's for sure though, both of us are all messed up...

“She's not there, isn't she?” He asked, much in wonder now.

I internally nod at him. 

“You must be hearing things again,” I responded to him, and he quickly dismissed it, like he always does whenever he was unsure of stuff. 

As for me, like the old times, I stayed there for a little longer. Just listening to my surroundings once more, and silently hoping to hear maybe a glimpse of 'her' pleasant voice. 

Oh, how I adore her voice.

I always love listening to her, particularly when she sings. I do remember how her soft, cool voice calms me whenever I'm in an irritable mood. Or how her sweet husky tunes, when singing nursery rhymes or plain ballads to the pups at the daycare, turns my frown into a smile. And let's not forget the soothing quality of her hums when she's doing lullabies for my sister, whereas it also lulls me to sleep.

Such peaceful, relaxing times, and now, I honestly long for it...

But unlike my wolf, I don't hear a thing; No singing mate for my ears to pick up.

cause sound was definitely calm today. A little whistling of the wind could only be heard,

sighed in

MATE was already gone... That

and here I am, still a broken

Who wouldn't be? 

and for what? For being a mere human

some random event and realizing she was the complete opposite of what I wanted for a Luna Queen, I

her away, that I ended

not just me though, but the whole Kingdom and pack needed her. Bear always reminded me that she was everybody's strength and oh how she proved that to everyone one day — most especially

took 'her' for

I'm still grateful and comforted in some way that my wolf can hear her, even after death. This just proves how deep we — werewolves, are connected to our mate, and how

an obsession for some reason — it's just how mate

she's guiding me. Hopefully, directing me to the betterment

for a second chance with her. I know it was wrong to pray for that, but I needed her here, to be with me at all times — To help me be

I remember her

attended mating balls and other occasions related to mate searching, but I still search for her scent.

doesn't exist anymore and no matter how hard

everything. If only I treated her

day. My wolf agrees with the punishment I was in, and just thinking about it now,

way he treats me now anyway, so I learned to accept

footsteps entering my room. When I turn around, I saw Lucky — my Beta, Rocky — my Gamma, and Jay —

but pauses when he stepped

here?” Rocky anxiously asks,

they always do whenever they suspected that I had a furious fit, privately RAMPAGED on things, or

don't do any of those now, hopefully never again.

I know... Though, not

heard her,” I confessed before they could even

singing?” Rocky asks,

nodded, walking inside the

be hearing things again, Sire.” Lucky stated while picking up the

told him that, and please don't be too formal around me. It's just the four of us.” I

Lucky snorted.

Jay frowned.

Rocky raised an eyebrow.

rather want our heads on, than be headless for disrespecting you Alpha King,” Rocky couldn't help but

at him, and they

keeps on hearing her? Are you sure he's not hallucinating,

Rocky snorted at him.

not 'drug high'. He'll be okay.” Rocky stated,

depression is one of the triggers for hallucination...” Lucky pointed out, crossing his arms in

Rocky raises another nonchalant eyebrow at

means Bear is dangerously depressed, and it's unhealthy for the both of them. Also, with the fact that Bear has been hallucinating about Nala for over a year now, kinda alarms me.” Lucky raised his eyebrow at Rocky, “Especially, this is the Alpha's mind. It could destroy them mentally, don't

answer back, but he did

knowing he was right, could only

up again, and their bickering continued. I almost wanted to kick

we really not that stable like Lucky

are depressed after losing our mate... but Bear, depressed to the point of hallucinating for

really that