Barely Breathing

I woke up as a loud sound of thunder blared to an earshot. By the sound of it, a storm must be outside. Sighing, I hold the blanket tuck securely right under my chin and buried myself more in it, enjoying its warmth. My body feels sore and I don't want to draw away from the comforts of my bed. It feels too good.

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...

Wait. Did I just hear the thunder roared in my bed? Another rumbling noise came out and I groan-buried my face on my pillow as realization finally settling in me. Yeah, guess there's no thunder outside, rather, inside of me. I'm just hungry.

Better to ignore it; too late I'm overly engrossed by sleep. Besides, I'm not a morning person and I'd like to keep it that way.

Wait. What's with that smell?

Hhhmmmm...

It smells like fresh raindrops on the forest's leaves, and soothing cold air after the rain, calming my senses and drowning me deep in it.

Since when did I smell like Xy...

Oh no.

I.. He.. us...

What's that again?

M-mate hunt.. shoot!

I facepalmed myself remembering the occurrences at the Mate Hunt.

Alpha Troy... the two other alphas... me fighting him, Xyrus and... and... oh berries and waterlilies... I felt my face boiled with embarrassment recalling fully well that I passed out naked on his arms.

That Alpha! I'm going to kill him this time!

one eye while hiding the other with a hand and peeking under the blanket hoping I still am

explains it... so that's where the smell is coming from. I was wearing his oversize navy-blue shirt, the one he likes to

Urgh!

wanna pull my

"Surprise!"

my best friend’s face. Which I may add, has her very I mean super-wide enormous gigantic smile that makes me want to bury myself deep down the depths of

"Tash."

a chocolate cake in her hand and her wide smile didn't

 Willoooo!!

for my best friend I'd rather forget I turned eighteen today. But to not disappoint her, I blew the candle after whispering a silent wish. She attacked me in a hug and a small smile crept on my

the hard way. But with Tash, I’m

the crap, you're making me

didn't notice I was crying. I wiped it and smiled at her. She scooped some icing and put it on my

"Happy birthday Luna."

Right. I knew it.

you don't wanna

changed her mind. Instead, she gave me that very, I mean

And I'm doomed.

***

whole day with Tasca in my room without any sign of Xyrus showing up. Not that I would ask Tash why he's not here nor if he'll be seeing

rituals. You see, she likes to make sure she looks beautiful before going to sleep. She used to say, her prince charming might come while she sleeps. But now, she has Gabbiel. Gabbiel, our beta claimed her as his chosen

forget the whole day. There were so many things running around my mind which left me confused. Confused as to why I wasn't marked as I should be: part of the chosen

when I took a bath and there was none. Only a few gashes I got from the fight, nothing more. And why he

know how to deal with him anyway. I'm still mad after all. Heck, I don't even know if I can forgive him. Maybe never. I do not know what is running around his head and I don't

become

making me feel vulnerable. No matter how much I hide it from Tash or deny it to myself, I still am broken.