Bashing Trinity

TRINITY

I felt insignificant. That’s what I felt earlier, but who am I to fight? When the head doesn’t want me, then so be it. I worked hard to be a part of the company, but my hardship and experience are all gone to waste. I guess I just don’t belong there.

There’s a little regret on the part of my brain. If I only follow my passion as an artist or an architect, I won’t be here alone jobless in the middle of these graves.

My heels dip in the soft green grass as I saunter toward Oli. I always came here when I missed him. Being with him, I find it comforting.

I wrap my arms around myself when the wind blows my hair. I slow my pace when I’m a few steps closer to Oli. The flowers I placed on the granite plate last week are still here, and they start withering.

Placing another grasp of white calla and stargazer, I set aside the old one. I wipe away the withered petals that fell on the plate. I trace my fingers where Oli’s name is engraved while feeling the pang inside my chest.

“Hey, Oli. How are you? Missed me, huh?” I sit down on the grass and lean my palm to support my weight. I tuck my hair behind my ear as I blow a breath.

“Guess what Oli? Remember my best friend that I told you? Well, he’s back, and he’s still mean, but he looks different though. More mature, I guess, but he’s still a bully.” I chuckle when I remember Bash called me goldfish.

“He doesn’t want me in finance, though. It’s sad, isn’t it? I guess I should start sending resumes and start job hunting. I’m sure Mom and Dad won’t be pleased with what I did. I kinda quit, eh.” I blow the strand of hair away from my face.

“I just quit the job that I worked hard for years.” I look down at his name, hoping he will tell me not to give up. My tears are running down my nose. I wipe them away with a sniff.

“I missed you so much Oli.” I sigh. “I wish you’re here to comfort me, you know. I’m so lost without you. I don’t know what to do anymore. I thought I’m so strong, but I know I’m not. I’m still the weak Kiara and never changed. I’m still the coward, the weakling, and a loser.” I lift my eyes and stare far for as long as my sight can reach.

“Take me Oli, I need to be with you,” I tell him slowly as I look back down.

“I’ll be here soon. I love you so much, Oli.”

***

I fish out the keys from my red Selena Grace coach bag. It’s from my best friend Lizzy because I can’t afford to have one.

I need a good rest before I start job hunting. I unlock the door open only to freeze in my place. “Jesus Christ!”

I cover my eyes with my bag, and I can still hear shuffles and clinking of the belt. My face heats with embarrassment.

“K, what are you doing here?” Luke is still panting.

“Since when are you doing that on the couch, Luke?” I groan, and I still can’t see their faces.

“Poor innocent eyes, K. We’re decent now.” Ryker sounds amused.

I lower my bag slowly with half-closed eyes just to make sure they have clothes on. Placing my hands on my hips, I glare at them. “Aren’t you two supposed to do that in your room? Do we need to disinfect that couch?” I love them both, and they never cross the line. We both respect everyone’s privacy, but I don’t know what to think after what I just witnessed.

“K, we’re not having sex,” Luke answers, rolling his eyes.

“Yet, but if I didn’t show up in like ten seconds, you might ruin the couch or worse, I need to call the sperm exterminator for the that!”

“We always did that in my room.” Ryker doesn’t say anything as he sits down opposite of Luke.

“But that’s not what I just saw a moment ago.”

Ryker chuckles. I scowl at him because they still think it’s funny.

“We’re about to go there. I swear. Why are you here early? To catch us?”

Ryker put your shirt on. No walking half-naked in this apartment.”

“Got to get another

a hint of a

I wrinkle my nose.

did that.” Luke laughs.

what?” I raise my voice a little bit. Okay, I did raise my

“Blow a dick, duh.”

widen. My mouth gapes. Unbelievable.

echoing in our living

any more of this conversation. I just cried at Oli’s grave, and now I am talking about sex with my

shirt is too small for me, K.”

frame, unlike Ryker, he’s bulkier and

past them to the hallway. My room is at the opposite end of our apartment.

the Hughes Building, but right now, it’s useless no matter how close it is. It has

answer my question, K? Why are

mess, guys!” I yell and

I change to my blue cotton short shorts and a white t-shirt with a glittery kitten printed in front. I head out to our kitchen after washing away the stain of tears on my face. I stop to halt when I hear Ryker is yelling in our leaving room. I can’t quite understand what it is about, but

or he’s lost? I faster my pace

for a few minutes, and now you’re all about to rip everyone to shred!”

of his arms on Ryker and Bash. Ryker

Ryker coughs. “This asshole was asking about Trinity. He pushed me off the door when I didn’t allow him to get inside,” he

Bash jaw clenches.

for the sudden interruption,” Edmund says

I already have no business with you, your office, and

taken aback.

you are the Bash Bash!” Luke

clear my throat. Seriously Luke?

you deserve to be part of the company, so who am I to judge you when

just apologize? What happened to the arrogant prick Bash I

hand on his mouth to suppress

you on Monday at your new office,” he adds with a tight

this douchebag fired you? That’s why you’re here early?” Ryker roars.

eyes fix on him.

“Watch your language, asshole!” Bash

is back on full alert.

your room, and

is still glaring at Bash. Bash is doing the same. Luke

“Bash, I’ll be outside. Don’t do—”

don’t need your daddy role here,” Bash grits

walks away after giving me a tight smile. I nod, smiling back at

room,” I say before I walk toward my room. I hear his footsteps following me.

wrong in the living room?” he asks, may be out

not gonna rape you, boss.” I look at him from head to toe.

He looks deliciously hot. Then he smiles.

Jeez, Bash! I just met my fiancé not

head to the kitchen

this time, there’s

to the kitchen without answering his question.

I offer. “I’ve got a Java coffee, and I think I have pastries here.” I open the cupboard where I stock the coffee canister