Bestfriends Shouldn’t Know How You Taste

bad not slept My backached from slouching, while sleeping on an uncomfortable chair byside late yesterday before his parents arrived, Ryn and Ace had arrived hours after the docierleitne in the room. Their faces full of grief as they peered at their son,

Darkness had soon taken over the room and the time for visiting hours had come to an end. Ryn and Ace did not mind that I wanted to stay overnight. They promised to come back early and went to stay at a hotel.

I groaned and narrowed my eyes when the glare of the sun assaulted them. A nurse with light blue scrubs pushes the pale blue curtains aside, opening them to let light in.

I sluggishly litt myself up straight on the sleeper sofa that was placed a few feet away from Blake’s bed. The nurse turns around, lips part into a bright grin. She must‘ve been brushing her teeth five times a day at the very least because her teeth were that white.

“Oh you‘re awake!” She vocalized then she smiled guilty when I let out a rather huge yawn.” Oh did I wake you?” She asked.

I shook my head no even though it was indeed her who had woken me up. My eyes flicker to the clock on the wall. Seven.

“No usually wake up this early.” I found it really difficult to smile but I did force the corner of my lips to stretch into a small one.

I was such a liar. These few months my schedule had not been the same it was a few years ago. I now woke up so late in the morning that Blake was now my alarm clock when he was not deployed.

“Great! Now I don‘t have to feel guilty for making so much noise.” She laughs, claps her hands and starts walking over to Blake. She checks him as I rise to my feet.

He still had not made a move or at least twitched his fingers. The doctor said it is to be expected but was it bad that I was impatient? I wanted to see his blue eyes again and hear his voice that always made a shiver run down my spine. I walk over to him.

The nurse looks up, her lips again parted into a bright smile. How could she be so bright this early tending to a patient? Her happiness made me mad, furious, jealous. But I swallowed the bitter feeling. It wasn‘t her fault, it was no one‘s.

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“oh I forgot, here.” She digs into her pocket and retrieves something tiny. My brows furrowed as I reached over to grasp what looks like a small photo. “We found it inside the pocket of his fatigues. I was supposed to give it to you yesterday but you were asleep and I didn‘t want to wake you,” she says softly.

our wedding night. My hair was tousled on the pillow, lips redder

in the late afternoon, when the sun had begun to set. The glow from the sun had casted a golden hue over me.

the moment

little mischief in bed. But then when I playfully ignored him, he had brought his lips to my ears

attitude and we had

sob left my mouth as tears spilt over and flowed down my face. “Oh I‘m sorry that I upset you.” The nurse rushes out. I drew my eyes back to hers

it‘s not your fault.” I spoke. Though my voice came out firm it was a huge comparison to how tangled my mind was. Honestly I didn‘t know if I‘d ever stop crying until Blake woke up. Was it possible for your body to

on him in ten minutes. There‘s a shower in

subtle way to tell me

look down at Blake. “I think your nurse just told me I stink” I joked and though I did

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my head to sniff. ‘Well I don‘t stink but I should probably go shower before your mom and dad

*Day 3*

of her dolls and dress you

an uncomfortable chair for hours until my

to do their normal check ups or when my phone rang. My family had been checking up on me and

that he would soon. Ryan on the other hand had been anguished and wanted to come here but

his words he‘ll force him to. Knowing Ryan he‘d do something that would probably have him fired and put

*Day 5*

new sense of hope. Hope that it would be

i end the night crying myself to sleep with his unmoving body at low

your voice so much. I