Blackmailed For Love

Kristian

 "Jenkins will meet you downstairs and drive you to the office." I hit send on the text and slipped my phone in my pocket as I picked up my coffee and drank the bitter burning liquid.

Last night, I had slipped a little.

Like a drunk fool, begging for her presence I had gone to her and brought her here.

And even though she hadn't been here for that long, I felt like she should be.

It was fucking pathetic considering she disappeared somewhere in the middle of the night without telling me.I didn’t know why I thought it would be better to take out my bottled up anger on her, that I will get a sense of peace after taking my revenge from her for what she did.

Maybe I should stop before it's too late, before I lose myself in her and get addicted again.

Maybe I should end this here and now, and let her go.I should give her back her job in the file room and get rid of her once and for all before she consumes me like she did in the past.

There was something about her big blue eyes that sucks you in and she makes you go crazy with an intense need to have her.

My phone pinged from an incoming text.I pulled it out and saw a text from my brother.

"You are still coming, right?"

"Of course, I am."

I put my phone on the kitchen counter and made my way to my bedroom upstairs.I swear I could smell her still and for that alone I wanted to rip the sheets off and throw them out, but a part of me wanted to sleep in those same sheets when I came back tonight in my empty apartment.

Half an hour later I was on the road in my new Buggati driving through the crowds of New York and exiting the city in favor of the countryside with small towns.

Three hours later I entered one of those small towns in which I had spent my childhood.

Black Mountain came into view, the streets, the shops and the houses all too familiar.

And with it came the haunting memories that outweighed the good ones.I sped through the narrow roads leaving the main town behind and into the part that was lined with forest.

down, I pulled up outside the

deep breath, I picked up the two red roses from the console.I opened my door and stepped out of the comfort of my

I took a familiar vice gripped my chest and taking a deep breath in became something that I couldn't do.I opened the small

green grass, the colorful flowers around the grave could never hide the pain that resided in these

here was someone's father,

A sibling.

or a

that all of these people were only distinguished by the name on_ their headstone and two of them bore

My parents.

their graves, orchids on my father’s and lilies for mother, which meant my

with me and closed my eyes as I brought an

had made her when I was losing her.I gritted my teeth against the rush of emotions and let

slight shuffle of footsteps reached my ears

he walked toward me.I gestured at his right

shoulder, still carrying the baby face of his teenage years, he looked boyish.He rubbed his knee as he said, "It’s the

at him as I looked him over, trying to see if there was

enough, but I wouldn't put it aside if he was hiding something from me.There was always that problem with him, he was always running away from

forgot.I

"Busy, doing what?"

a smile as he

head as I walked

not coming

go to New York for her college.I just didn't want him to be heartbroken when she finds someone else out there while my brother remains here in this small

his time to shake his head as he said, "She still

and be with her.I will get to see

"I like it here."

and touched my arm as he said, "Maybe, you should come back.I know you

in the middle that was visible from where we stood at the periphery of the cemetery.When I didn't say anything he

"No." I lied.

me to look for her and the answers that he thinks would