Bye, My Irresistible Love

Scarlett's POV:

 Every time I was alone with William, I felt uncomfortable.I knew that he loved me, but I just couldn't love him back.And no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't force myself to accept his love.When I went back to my room, my two babies were sleeping in their crib.

Every night, before going to bed, I would check their condition several times.

Looking at their pure, innocent faces reminded me of James.The three of them looked exactly like each other.

Each time looked at the twins, I felt as though I was looking at James' face as an infant, and it broke my heart.

And this awful pain reminded me that James' death was an unforgivable sin that Charles and I committed together.

"Mom! Mom, I'm scared! Help! Help me, please!"

'It's James! That's his voice!' I remarked inwardly.

I fell into an unprecedented panic.

"James? Is that you?" I cried.

"Don't be afraid, my love! Where are you? Mommy's coming! I'll be right there!"

Desperately, I ran into the depths of the fog.But for some reason, my little angel's voice was drifting further and further away.I looked around, anxious to find him.But sadly, he was nowhere to be found.

All of a sudden, I felt a scathing pain in my ankle, and then I fell into a vast sea.The turbulent tides drowned me and I kept struggling underwater.

Gradually, the water filled my lungs, and the lack of oxygen began to blur my vision.

In a trance, I hallucinated about James.

His little body was motionless, drifting into the cold tides.

And slowly, he sank to the boundless sea before me.

With every ounce of strength I had in my body, I desperately reached for my baby boy and shouted in my heart.

'Somebody save him! God! Please...save my boy!' 

"No!" I couldn't remember just how many times I had woken up from a nightmare similar to this one.

As I gasped for air, tears and sweat rolled down my face at the same time.

With trembling hands, I fumbled to turn on the bedside lamp, looking around in a fit of panic.

It wasn't until I saw my twins sleeping soundly in their crib that my overwhelmed heart gradually calmed down.

Now, I was wide awake, so I opened the drawer of the bedside table and took out my laptop to begin working.

was

money, but it was enough to keep myself

computer, the icon for

I found a message

why are you still up? Were you having

assigned so much work to me.I barely have the time

Nina found me through the periodical

had opened a small company of her own, and was doing some legal aid work.She hoped that

began writing some

maintained contact

consider

offline.She now had a family, so it was understandable that she had to focus

we were to continue talking, it would only impose on the time she should be spending

playing with the twins in the dining room and feeding them, William went downstairs.He approached me, bent down, and gently picked up one of the

"You're so cute!"

picked up so suddenly, the boy thought it was a game and

"Goo, goo, gaa, gaa."

to speak?" William

trying to say that he's

as well and took the child from him.As I held the baby in my arms, I couldn't help but

the same thing

made babbling noises, Charles would insist that James was trying to

thought crossed my mind, my heart ached because of

a deep breath, barely

I saw Tracy standing at the door in a

me, and for some reason she looked

she

smile on my face disappeared

remember Alice anymore, and I don't want

turned around and walked

study on the

Janet the moment I opened it.She was clinging to the windowsill, staring at

I'm here

"Oh, my God!"

scared for her safety that I grabbed Janet's hand and pulled her into

be afraid.I just really wanted to see you.How are your

down, especially

I last saw her.She had grown more

looked at her tearful eyes, my heart was filled with joy.I walked up to her, embraced her, and wiped

as reckless as ever.I'm doing fine,

for the

she was saddened by something