Carrying the Alpha's Heir

Chapter 23: Hope

I am sleep deprived. I couldn’t think straight while staring at the copper-colored ceiling of the four corners of our room. My head was aching, I just want to die.

I can feel myself shake every time I see Vigor. The trauma that inflicted me that night keeps coming back when I see him. Especially that I confirmed it 5 weeks ago.

I couldn’t leave the place; I am stock in here. I can’t even have a time for myself. My emotional health is unstable. Vigor can’t see me because I will shake in fear. The mixed emotion of anger, fear and pain never left my body since then. As I am trying to make myself understand that all of these weren’t normal, the pain of betrayal upon knowing that the man I love, was still in love with someone is killing me and the fact that the beast that almost killed me that night was the man I also love.

Am I that unlucky to deserve all these things?

I held my round tummy. Its harder to breath day by day plus my baby is heavy.

Sometimes, I would go to the balcony for some fresh air, but I couldn’t last long because my back hurts in too much standing. I would also think of…what will be my baby’s form.

Although I want to wake up from this nightmare, but those days that have past were enough already to collect my sanity and just accept the bitter truth that I unraveled, myself.

If… Vigor’s a beast. Does that mean my baby will be a beast too?

That fact brings pain on me. I am feeling so lonely. I am feeling so hurt, I am feeling so…lost.

I held my chest as my tears streamed down on the side of my eyes, I just want to die to remove all this pain I am carrying.

I wiped my tears away when I heard a knock on the door.

“My Lady, I will get inside to assist you.” She heard a soft voice from one of the clan’s women.

I didn’t bother to answer because I know she will still come inside though.

When she’s inside, she’s holding a basin and a white cloth. I can also see the signal light coming from the notification of her cellphone.

I sat on the bed and have let her remove my clothes off my body. When she did, she started wiping me from my neck and arms.

Maybe if I grab that then I will be

the same. Cold eyes without any hope. Like a robot or a slave that’s

let out a sarcastic smirk. Well, maybe that’s it.

that my parents will get confident about my stay here, where in fact, they

Vigor. I will make him regret everything

fell again, I will

baby? Yes I won’t harm my child, and I

panicked, “Leave me

but then

to pass before

away because she might wonder and find

but they were out of

panicking, so I dialed Miho’s

answered

greeted, panting and

She said from the

even though I know she couldn’t

I-I have so many things to

She asked,

Vigor’s area. I uhm, I am here in

deep breath, “I’m

told her an abrupt plan. She will come here naturally so it wouldn’t be so obvious that we planned

someone. I am feeling so alone these past few days

anxious the whole night. I didn’t expect Miho to come exactly this time because we planned it tomorrow. But I really want to get out of here as soon

early, and because I was sleep deprived these past few weeks, I can compare

tried my best to

the bathroom when I heard