Carrying the Alpha's Heir

Chapter 23: Hope

I am sleep deprived. I couldn’t think straight while staring at the copper-colored ceiling of the four corners of our room. My head was aching, I just want to die.

I can feel myself shake every time I see Vigor. The trauma that inflicted me that night keeps coming back when I see him. Especially that I confirmed it 5 weeks ago.

I couldn’t leave the place; I am stock in here. I can’t even have a time for myself. My emotional health is unstable. Vigor can’t see me because I will shake in fear. The mixed emotion of anger, fear and pain never left my body since then. As I am trying to make myself understand that all of these weren’t normal, the pain of betrayal upon knowing that the man I love, was still in love with someone is killing me and the fact that the beast that almost killed me that night was the man I also love.

Am I that unlucky to deserve all these things?

I held my round tummy. Its harder to breath day by day plus my baby is heavy.

Sometimes, I would go to the balcony for some fresh air, but I couldn’t last long because my back hurts in too much standing. I would also think of…what will be my baby’s form.

Although I want to wake up from this nightmare, but those days that have past were enough already to collect my sanity and just accept the bitter truth that I unraveled, myself.

If… Vigor’s a beast. Does that mean my baby will be a beast too?

That fact brings pain on me. I am feeling so lonely. I am feeling so hurt, I am feeling so…lost.

I held my chest as my tears streamed down on the side of my eyes, I just want to die to remove all this pain I am carrying.

I wiped my tears away when I heard a knock on the door.

“My Lady, I will get inside to assist you.” She heard a soft voice from one of the clan’s women.

I didn’t bother to answer because I know she will still come inside though.

When she’s inside, she’s holding a basin and a white cloth. I can also see the signal light coming from the notification of her cellphone.

I sat on the bed and have let her remove my clothes off my body. When she did, she started wiping me from my neck and arms.

the lights on her cellphone. Maybe if I grab that then I will

eyes without any hope. Like a robot or a slave that’s only alive

it. I am only a vessel. Not a

he married me so that my parents will get confident about my stay here, where in fact, they want me

fucking hate Vigor. I will make him regret everything that’s happening

again, I will fucking make him

cry, Miss. It’s not good for..” I cut her off. “For the baby? Yes I won’t harm my child, and I don’t care if I die!!”

“Leave me alone.” I

but then followed

time to pass before grabbing her

to make a call right away because she

parents’ number, but they were out of coverage.

so I

answered after few

immediately greeted, panting

She said from the other

I know she

me please, get me out of here. I-I have

down, calm down. Where are you?” She asked, it seems like

here in Saint

her took a deep

naturally so it wouldn’t be so obvious that we planned all of these. She will then ask permission to go shopping with me because

and relieved upon knowing that I can rely on someone. I am feeling so alone these past few

expect Miho to come exactly this time because we planned it

was sleep deprived these past few weeks,

up early. I tried my best to get up

the bathroom when I