Carrying the Alpha's Heir

Chapter 23: Hope

I am sleep deprived. I couldn’t think straight while staring at the copper-colored ceiling of the four corners of our room. My head was aching, I just want to die.

I can feel myself shake every time I see Vigor. The trauma that inflicted me that night keeps coming back when I see him. Especially that I confirmed it 5 weeks ago.

I couldn’t leave the place; I am stock in here. I can’t even have a time for myself. My emotional health is unstable. Vigor can’t see me because I will shake in fear. The mixed emotion of anger, fear and pain never left my body since then. As I am trying to make myself understand that all of these weren’t normal, the pain of betrayal upon knowing that the man I love, was still in love with someone is killing me and the fact that the beast that almost killed me that night was the man I also love.

Am I that unlucky to deserve all these things?

I held my round tummy. Its harder to breath day by day plus my baby is heavy.

Sometimes, I would go to the balcony for some fresh air, but I couldn’t last long because my back hurts in too much standing. I would also think of…what will be my baby’s form.

Although I want to wake up from this nightmare, but those days that have past were enough already to collect my sanity and just accept the bitter truth that I unraveled, myself.

If… Vigor’s a beast. Does that mean my baby will be a beast too?

That fact brings pain on me. I am feeling so lonely. I am feeling so hurt, I am feeling so…lost.

I held my chest as my tears streamed down on the side of my eyes, I just want to die to remove all this pain I am carrying.

I wiped my tears away when I heard a knock on the door.

“My Lady, I will get inside to assist you.” She heard a soft voice from one of the clan’s women.

I didn’t bother to answer because I know she will still come inside though.

When she’s inside, she’s holding a basin and a white cloth. I can also see the signal light coming from the notification of her cellphone.

I sat on the bed and have let her remove my clothes off my body. When she did, she started wiping me from my neck and arms.

if I grab that then I will be able to seek help and contact

hope. Like a robot or a slave that’s only alive because I

a sarcastic smirk. Well, maybe that’s it. I am only a vessel. Not a wife

married me so that my parents will get confident about my stay here, where in fact, they want me to give birth here

Vigor. I will make him

fell again, I will fucking make him

for..” I cut her off. “For the baby? Yes I won’t harm my

panicked, “Leave

but then followed my

pass before grabbing her phone

because she

but

so I dialed Miho’s

answered after

panting and excited

said from

though I

I-I have so many things to tell you.” I am already

down, calm down. Where are you?” She asked,

I am here in

heard her took a deep breath, “I’m coming.”

also told her an abrupt plan. She will come here naturally so it wouldn’t be so obvious that we planned all of these. She will then ask permission to go shopping with me because she didn’t attend my

upon knowing that I can rely on someone. I am feeling

the whole night. I didn’t expect Miho to come exactly this time because we planned it tomorrow. But I really want to get

early, and because I was sleep deprived these past few weeks, I can compare that

next morning, I woke up early. I tried my best

of the bathroom