Carrying the Alpha's Heir

Chapter 23: Hope

I am sleep deprived. I couldn’t think straight while staring at the copper-colored ceiling of the four corners of our room. My head was aching, I just want to die.

I can feel myself shake every time I see Vigor. The trauma that inflicted me that night keeps coming back when I see him. Especially that I confirmed it 5 weeks ago.

I couldn’t leave the place; I am stock in here. I can’t even have a time for myself. My emotional health is unstable. Vigor can’t see me because I will shake in fear. The mixed emotion of anger, fear and pain never left my body since then. As I am trying to make myself understand that all of these weren’t normal, the pain of betrayal upon knowing that the man I love, was still in love with someone is killing me and the fact that the beast that almost killed me that night was the man I also love.

Am I that unlucky to deserve all these things?

I held my round tummy. Its harder to breath day by day plus my baby is heavy.

Sometimes, I would go to the balcony for some fresh air, but I couldn’t last long because my back hurts in too much standing. I would also think of…what will be my baby’s form.

Although I want to wake up from this nightmare, but those days that have past were enough already to collect my sanity and just accept the bitter truth that I unraveled, myself.

If… Vigor’s a beast. Does that mean my baby will be a beast too?

That fact brings pain on me. I am feeling so lonely. I am feeling so hurt, I am feeling so…lost.

I held my chest as my tears streamed down on the side of my eyes, I just want to die to remove all this pain I am carrying.

I wiped my tears away when I heard a knock on the door.

“My Lady, I will get inside to assist you.” She heard a soft voice from one of the clan’s women.

I didn’t bother to answer because I know she will still come inside though.

When she’s inside, she’s holding a basin and a white cloth. I can also see the signal light coming from the notification of her cellphone.

I sat on the bed and have let her remove my clothes off my body. When she did, she started wiping me from my neck and arms.

the lights on her cellphone. Maybe if I

the same. Cold eyes without any hope. Like a robot or a slave that’s

Well, maybe that’s it. I am only

he married me so that my parents will get confident about my stay here, where in fact, they want me to

fucking hate Vigor. I will make him regret everything that’s

fell again, I will fucking

“For the baby? Yes I won’t harm my child, and I don’t care if I die!!” I shouted and cried

woman panicked, “Leave me

hesitated but then followed my

pass before grabbing

call right away because she might wonder and find her missing phone in no

parents’ number, but they were out of

am panicking, so I dialed

she answered after

I immediately greeted, panting

She said from the

though I

me please, get me out of here. I-I have so many things to tell you.” I am already

calm down. Where are you?” She

at Vigor’s area. I uhm, I am here in Saint

heard her took a deep breath, “I’m

obvious that we planned all of

upon knowing that I can rely on someone. I am feeling

anxious the whole night. I didn’t expect Miho to come exactly this time because we planned it tomorrow. But I really want to get out of here

tried to sleep early, and because I was sleep deprived these past few weeks, I can compare that today was

I woke up early. I tried my best to

was in the middle of the bathroom when I heard a