Contraclockwise

"I'm killing my characters right now. Do you know what am I thinking? Can you read what's on my mind? I think, you can't how can you say I'm easy to read?" I just looked at her; she’s staring at me as if she’s waiting for me to talk. She threw my car keys on me and left. It’s been few minutes before I realized that I won’t be able to see her after. I was late, I wasn’t able to see run after her from the KTV, I just send the things she bought from the mall earlier, thinking I might be able to see her and talk to her but her mother said she left again and said that she might not be back right away. At that moment, I knew it... I will never see her.

I was stunned when I saw her on my graduation day. I didn’t expect her to come and do what she have promised that she’ll be on one of the important days of my life. We were on our garden after my graduation party when she gives something. I saw that she’s giving back the necklace I gave her when we celebrate our 5th anniversary. It seems she have read the question in my eyes why she’s giving it back to me. She smiled at me then left. I run after her but again I wasn’t able to catch up. “I wished that you end up this relationship with an anger and not with a smile. I wished you end it by cursing or punching me, not this way... you made a closure showing your sweet smile that I don’t deserve. You are too sweetly cruel, now how can I let go of you?” I whispered into the thin air.

I was so shocked when I saw her in our hospital. Dad was talking to her as if he’s guiding and giving her a tour in the entire hospital. Hospital tour? “Excuse me, do we have an international visitor?” I ask the head near on the lobby.

“No, Doc.”

I’m confused, she’s with my dad personally guiding her. “Who’s with them?”

“Uh... I heard that was the intern that they pull out from the government OJT just to be here.”

The confusion is now written on my face. “Why? What’s with her?”

“The news, the intern is really good. Every hospital wants to have her.”

“Hmm... why is that intern is here?”

that our resources here is

right?”           

However, the intern have a condition and that

now, she

patient and if she’s right, she’ll do the

she really didn’t change. “Where did you

lips.

from me just make sure that I’m the only one whom you talked to about it.” After four long years, I finally saw her again. She’s still beautiful and she was whiter than before but her body built didn’t change and it seems she got thinner than

a lot of enemies already? I only visit the hospital when I need to, I was force to study Neurology because of mom. I can’t see her often even though I want to. I’m about to enter the Neurological Department to get the things I forgot when I heard someone yelled inside

the department asks. “If only you listen to the intern,

eyes widen when I saw who it was, it was Abstract. She said something to the department head, which makes the person calm down. She

perfect. The patient is now okay and there’s no major problem at all.” She said. Dr. Heart went out first, he suddenly

I greet

I left the thing I’m doing earlier.” She said then immediately left. I felt my knees lost the strength from that smile. She always has the sweetest smile I’ve ever seen. It’s been years since I’ve regret what I’ve done however I still can’t forget the pain and bitterness I

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please help me... my mom, she can’t