Cruel World
Chapter 66: chap65
Chap 65
Sarah
Sarah shut her car door and took off her sunglasses, straighten her skirts and felt conscious about her appearances as she was overdressed for the session but she was already late, so without any further delay she enters Becca office and waited for her
Becca enters her office and greets her 'Hi Sarah how are you.. (she give a look) you look good at this outfit'
Sarah nervously laughed 'i know I'm overdressed but today we had a big conference that we need to attend ..it was a long drive to another state and since my father in law joined the business again it was basically for his honor to make him know whats happening...so I was really busy at that' she starts babbling
It was true after more than a month ago...Mr Grey was really in a good health and he wanted to join business again...when Sarah told him to rest.
His answer was that he really need to get out of this house and do something productive.....it was clear how much he miss Theo but he never show it and never ask about it and same goes for Sarah who was waiting every minute when theo will come back
Becca nodes 'well then you should take a rest...why you came here directly. I can understand you know'
Sarah blinked and came back from her trance ', yeah but I have already lost the previous session so I don't want to lose this one'
Becca casually walks to another table where coffee was placed and hold two cups and give one to sarah 'im happy that you took these sessions seriously and yes we lost I guess two sessions if I remember you got really sick isn't it...'
Sarah shake her head 'it was so bad...i got it from Ava she had eat something bad that led her to throw up for days ...i was worried she got food poising but luckily it was not that worse but then I picked the virus from her and you know rest'
Becca nodes 'i hope you checked the doctor'
Sarah smiles 'thanks for asking. I did actually....she said it was a normal virus...she did some test and hopefully I will get this week'
Becca nodes and observe Sarah keenly.
Becca, she said seriously 'Sarah why you here....what you want to talk about'
Sarah blushed was she that obvious she play with her hand 'you know why I'm here to, talk'
Becca smiled 'and we talk a lot...we have been doing that a lot after theo departure and I'm impressed how you open up more, you share your fears and insecurities more in details that's what I wanted and most of your fears are gone...but some are still holding you back isn't it, so tell me what you want to know'
Sarah winced, she has been getting better and she can feel herself but she has been restless for more than a month.
Sarah openly said aloud 'i want to know about theo...what he is doing..why he is still not contacted me....is he ok?' she was so concerned that it made her look so pale
Becca sighs 'so that what you want to know...you know its two-month therapy theo has gone to and it's only a month..'
Sarah lost it 'no I want to know something which I don't know...he is gone and I don't have any contact with him, his daughter keep on asking me where is daddy is his father don't say a word but his eyes are always looking at the door for his son and me...(she suddenly feel too emotional) me. I feel so alone and worried about him all the time... I know it's a prison for him and I live in one which was not good...so please tell me is he okay'
Becca's eyes become sympathetic 'Sarah....(she look down) ok I will tell you... I have been contacted with rehab to know how theo is doing...honestly speaking he is not that good...he has been there where he has to deal with some tough exerciser that checks his tolerance level ...his guilt and grieve consulting....which he lost it quite a time .....he also signed to kill the habit of smoking which is also not helping him ..so he had some episodes...he is better than starting days but still he is recovering...he talk lot...mostly about you and his sister Tina looks like he needed a deep grieve consoling too..but he doesn't want to write any letter to you guys as according to him he wants you to find him changed man when he comes back, not like this'
Sarah's eyes were not blinking and drops of water start falling...she gasped the armchair....she felt her tears and wiped them 'sorry it was little overwhelming....thank you for telling me'
but inside it was killing her...when she heard how theo is surviving
Becca note down something 'but why Sarah, you have been in the worst situation then theo...so why you feel bad for him..why you miss him.'
Sarah looked her like it was obvious 'because I don't want anyone to go through this pain..i have been too....in the past few months we have been ...(she don't know how to say this) we have been friends...so I miss him' she sounds unsure what she really want to say
Becca give her a knowing look 'i can see that how much you miss him...but the thing he has done with you made you forget everything or let me rephrase will you ever forgive him for the things he did to you...will you ever love him ...again?'
Sarah was uncomfortable with this change of topic. They never talk on this before not even when Theo was here
Sarah was quite then Sarah looked her 'i will never forget what he did to me. I just can't but forgiveness....forgiveness is something which is earned and now I don't know what you think of me but I think he earned it and I'm willing to forgive him and maybe move on someday....'
Becca gaze doesn't leave Sarah 'what about love...can you ever let your fear go away completely and confess your love for him?"
Sarah took a deep breath, she rubbed her temples 'why we are having this intense talk' she tries to avoid this question
Becca shrugs 'well you know it was coming so why not now'
Sarah looked lost ...she was gone to those moments when she was stupid enough to confess her love to theo when all the time he was planning to use her make fun of her love and feelings....she can't take that pain again but things have changed isn't it? Then why she can't let go those feelings.
Becca left her chair and sit down with Sarah and touch her shoulder 'Sarah just let it out... I can see in your eyes the millions of emotions that you have stored....those pain that still hurt you....just let it out'
Sarah holds Becca hand...like she needs her to understand 'i don't know...i just become speechless when I try to say something about love... I knew it by heart what I feel but I can never say it aloud like something was stopping me to say it. When I stupidly confess my love to him before you know what he did to me ...it hurt me more than the physical pain. I just can't put myself there, please tell me what should I do' her eyes were totally filled with water and confusion
Becca kindly touch her hair 'sarah that's what I want you to do...to speak..to tell what you hesitant to do..what makes you angry or happy....can I tell you something?' Rebecca softly asked her
Sarah nodes keenly but Becca looks away 'i don't know how to say this but theo really don't need to go to rehab...he was already controlled and sober in his situation..he was fit to be here'
Becca stopped when she saw Sarah shocked expression 'what? why..why would you do that'
Becca replied 'because when I said that I was disgusted with the things he did to you. I only give him chance to see his regret and chance to change himself and most importantly checked him is he dangerous for you or not. Sarah, I just took your case because I wanted to save you... I got many millions of married couple coming to me to save their marriage but most of the time I try to save individuals first. I try to check their mindset. I told thousands of women to run away from their husbands when I see no improvement in their male counterpart but when I saw how Theo was changing how he was accepting things. How he was willing to do anything to help you to become a strong woman, give me hope for you guys,
Becca hold sarah hand to make her focus what she will say next
and now when I get to know about his determination to change for you...made me openly say that Sarah...he is a changed man and yes he deserves to be given a second chance. But I have no say in this only you because you know better
that made Sarah totally lost
in her chest and
wets her lips and said
her mouth ...'.i......I love him .....i think i love him
shoulder 'i knew the moment
feeling like she is free from everything that was stored in her heart...she said it all..she don't care what happens next all she
'this is my personal number. I will be away from the city..so you won't find me on next session but I have a feeling we are quite done here.....but you can call me if you felt you
the card and hugged him 'thank you
her 'that's my job
smiled when she sees herself in the car
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Theo
rubbed his five o clock shadow...damn he really needs to shave but this white room is killing him....although it's a room with some necessary stuff but he feel like its suffocating him..he remember when he put Sarah in the basement room just like this one how she was begging him and how he landed her in
his temper during intense work out and aggression class....he doesn't want to yell...he doesn't want to punch the punching bag ...but the fucking instructor yelled in his eras to do it...and he did it quite well but at the same time call the instructor to be a sadist bastard and other abusive words...so this is his time out... in the cold white room...where he has to write why he got angry at what he felt
Sarah and Ava. That's one of his thing here, he opens the draw an took out the picture of Sarah and his beautiful daughter Ava...he smiled when he saw how Ava was full of life in this picture and how Sarah smiled shyly at the camera, they are beautiful
he recalls that Sarah uses to take out the picture of her family when she was punished bad or when she was too sad....like he is.....god this is a pure torture he
fucking time...he saw the man wearing, of course, white uniform...'Mr. Theo its time for your
damn it ..it put a dagger in his heart when he tells how he let down his sister...according to them,
the bulky man. Another
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After a week ago
Sarah
the end of the story'
not say
wrong why you so quite'
I don't like this game... I want
a game and now you are sad so you know what daddy said..if you
shine 'when...when
blanket 'in very few weeks...hardly 15
looked confused what it was good enough for
to her bedroom and suddenly wanted the presence of theo...this room makes her feel more alone and depressed...she decided to send some emails to the
starts sending emails when she saw her inbox was filled with some message from banks. From the website she never knows and from the hospital...then it clicks 'oh the result of the report of
casually opens
doctor said it was a normal virus..she checked her vitals were normal even her sugar and blood too
'Fuck' she cursed
god...no no...no' she touches her
said....she
shaking...oh god, she can see the flashback when she gets to know she
and tries to control her beating 'its
for the phone she opens her draw but couldn't find it...she runs to the closet and looks for her
10 secs but felt
ok' Becca sleepy voice
the phone tight 'Becca...Becca..im...i just...find..oh god..i...email...i..'
sarah...im here...just listen to me...
shaking 'ok...but how you
the shiver in your voice...ok now take
a minute her
ok? ....ok now tell
'no...yes... I mean I
what that email
'its from my doctor ....you remember I
replied 'so whats wrong..is
immediately replied 'no no..she is fine...good..its
and Sarah
said 'ok...ok Sarah...just relax...and tell me why you are panicking...its a good news
eyes 'how can you say that
changed...this news is surprised but what you expect to have sex and not use protection it was quite obvious..and secondly Sarah if you can have a baby when your relationship with theo was toxic and
her shiver to be reducing..she digest
are
'yes ...yes I'm here. I'm sorry I
replied 'no problem I'm happy you called...so tell me why you react
I was expecting Ava...and it made me react like this.....I'm so sensitive. I don't know whats wrong with
then said 'Sarah just put
Sarah replied 'what?'
her 'just
her stomach
you did with Ava.....you will learn it from the past and try to make things better and this time you know your baby father
just feel it all.....a moment ago she wanted this news to be false and now she felt such immense love for this baby....like her heart
'good that good Sarah....you loved this child no matter how
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