Dear Sweetheart

Chapter 328 It Was Me First

“I lived for myself,” he mumbled, the desolation in his voice audible. “But I… I don’t have anything anymore. Everything’s just an illusion.”

My father’s words were an illusion, the letters were an illusion, and my mother’s gentleness was an illusion.

Those illusions had accompanied him for over twenty years, and they were what supported him to keep living. Those illusions were his courage, but now, he had lost everything. He was standing in the dark all alone.

No one needed him anymore.

“You do. You still have me.” His tone ached Rayna’s heart. “I’m not an illusion. I’m always by your side. Touch me if you don’t believe my words.”

She then grabbed his hands and placed them on her cheeks. The coldness of his skin made tears spring to her eyes.

Jefferson finally relaxed and turned around.

Even with the dim lights, Rayna could no longer find the light in his blue eyes. It seemed as if he had died on the inside.

She trembled as she held the man’s hand, and she parted her lips a few times before stammering, “Jefferson, don’t do this… Say something… Say anything… Don’t do this…”

She was frightened to see him like that.

He was young, and he should be full of life. He should be prideful and not have soulless eyes.

It was still raining heavily outside, and the raindrops pattered against the window rhythmically. The icy, humid air seeped into the attic through the half-opened door.

Rayna’s tearful and melancholic face was reflected in Jefferson’s eyes, and he stared at her for a long while.

The silence in the attic was deafening.

After what seemed like forever, the man gently moved his hand on Rayna’s face and whispered, “I was the one who met you first, and I was the one to fall for you first, so why did you end up falling for someone else?”

“I’m sorry… I’m sorry…” Rayna did not know what else to say but to keep repeating those three words. As she held his hands tightly, she said, “I’m right here. I won’t be going anywhere anymore.”

Rayna could see that he had not changed his bandages for a long time and that he had a deathly pallor. She did not know what would happen to him if she did not change his bandages and reapply his medication.

of leaving

thought of that

said, “I’ll get the doctor to come and treat your wound. Didn’t you say that you have

still

you gave to me, and I’ve kept them all

lying, he could not help but accept her words as

“Okay.”

the patient’s current condition and address. She also told him to come in an hour’s time and that she would

call, she continued coaxing Jefferson. She told him that the attic was too cold, so she draped the coat over their heads and led him into

the couch in silence, and his eyes lowered

Fearing that he would not be able to handle the situation alone, he brought a nurse

checkup for Jefferson. His expression turned grim as he said, “The wound has bled again, and it’s sticking with the gauze. I’m afraid it’ll be a little

upon Rayna’s face at

had already worn his glove and had instructed the nurse to prepare

bear with it for a while, okay? I’ll be right

head. “I can’t

of scissors and slowly cut away

It had turned into a dark shade of red, and it looked dirty. It

next second, a cold

“Don’t look.”

heart lurched painfully, but she tamped

not see anything, she knew it had to hurt when the doctor separated the gauze from the wound, for Jefferson’s arms were

what seemed like forever, the hand covering Rayna’s eyes moved away. It was then she saw that

report, the doctor passed the paper

severe than what you’ve described. Get these medications from the pharmacy tomorrow. Remember to change his gauze and check his wound every day, and

“Thank you.”

questions to ask.

the glass and the medicine

silently took

Right as she was about to turn on the lights,

I won’t turn

the room. Thus, without needing to turn on the lights, she navigated him to the bed