Dear Sweetheart

Chapter 328 It Was Me First

“I lived for myself,” he mumbled, the desolation in his voice audible. “But I… I don’t have anything anymore. Everything’s just an illusion.”

My father’s words were an illusion, the letters were an illusion, and my mother’s gentleness was an illusion.

Those illusions had accompanied him for over twenty years, and they were what supported him to keep living. Those illusions were his courage, but now, he had lost everything. He was standing in the dark all alone.

No one needed him anymore.

“You do. You still have me.” His tone ached Rayna’s heart. “I’m not an illusion. I’m always by your side. Touch me if you don’t believe my words.”

She then grabbed his hands and placed them on her cheeks. The coldness of his skin made tears spring to her eyes.

Jefferson finally relaxed and turned around.

Even with the dim lights, Rayna could no longer find the light in his blue eyes. It seemed as if he had died on the inside.

She trembled as she held the man’s hand, and she parted her lips a few times before stammering, “Jefferson, don’t do this… Say something… Say anything… Don’t do this…”

She was frightened to see him like that.

He was young, and he should be full of life. He should be prideful and not have soulless eyes.

It was still raining heavily outside, and the raindrops pattered against the window rhythmically. The icy, humid air seeped into the attic through the half-opened door.

Rayna’s tearful and melancholic face was reflected in Jefferson’s eyes, and he stared at her for a long while.

The silence in the attic was deafening.

After what seemed like forever, the man gently moved his hand on Rayna’s face and whispered, “I was the one who met you first, and I was the one to fall for you first, so why did you end up falling for someone else?”

“I’m sorry… I’m sorry…” Rayna did not know what else to say but to keep repeating those three words. As she held his hands tightly, she said, “I’m right here. I won’t be going anywhere anymore.”

Rayna could see that he had not changed his bandages for a long time and that he had a deathly pallor. She did not know what would happen to him if she did not change his bandages and reapply his medication.

never thought of

thought of that tightened

come and treat your wound. Didn’t you say

you still

gave to me, and I’ve kept them all properly. I love

lying, he could not help but accept her

“Okay.”

then contacted Hallsbay’s best doctor and informed him about the patient’s current condition and address. She also told him to come in an hour’s

him that the attic was too cold, so she draped the coat over their heads

in silence, and his eyes lowered the entire

doctor came. Fearing that he would not be able

expression turned grim as he said, “The wound

face at

and had instructed the nurse to prepare the medication. “But it’ll hurt, and he’ll have to bear with the pain

before muttering, “It’ll hurt a little, so bear with it for a while, okay? I’ll be right by your side,

shook his head. “I can’t bring myself to do

a sterilized pair of scissors and slowly

Rayna saw the innermost layer sticking to the wound. It had turned into a dark shade of red, and

the next second, a

“Don’t look.”

she tamped down the pain

when the doctor separated the gauze from the wound, for Jefferson’s arms were

the hand covering Rayna’s eyes moved away. It was then she saw that Jefferson had

report, the doctor

gauze and check his wound every day, and

“Thank you.”

and Rayna did not have any questions to ask. After paying the doctor, she escorted him

and the medicine to Jefferson. “Get a good

took the

to turn on the lights, Jefferson placed a hand on her hand

won’t turn them

light filtering through the windows, and Rayna could see all the pieces of furniture in the room. Thus, without needing to turn on the lights, she navigated him to the bed and tucked him