Dear Sweetheart

Chapter 328 It Was Me First

“I lived for myself,” he mumbled, the desolation in his voice audible. “But I… I don’t have anything anymore. Everything’s just an illusion.”

My father’s words were an illusion, the letters were an illusion, and my mother’s gentleness was an illusion.

Those illusions had accompanied him for over twenty years, and they were what supported him to keep living. Those illusions were his courage, but now, he had lost everything. He was standing in the dark all alone.

No one needed him anymore.

“You do. You still have me.” His tone ached Rayna’s heart. “I’m not an illusion. I’m always by your side. Touch me if you don’t believe my words.”

She then grabbed his hands and placed them on her cheeks. The coldness of his skin made tears spring to her eyes.

Jefferson finally relaxed and turned around.

Even with the dim lights, Rayna could no longer find the light in his blue eyes. It seemed as if he had died on the inside.

She trembled as she held the man’s hand, and she parted her lips a few times before stammering, “Jefferson, don’t do this… Say something… Say anything… Don’t do this…”

She was frightened to see him like that.

He was young, and he should be full of life. He should be prideful and not have soulless eyes.

It was still raining heavily outside, and the raindrops pattered against the window rhythmically. The icy, humid air seeped into the attic through the half-opened door.

Rayna’s tearful and melancholic face was reflected in Jefferson’s eyes, and he stared at her for a long while.

The silence in the attic was deafening.

After what seemed like forever, the man gently moved his hand on Rayna’s face and whispered, “I was the one who met you first, and I was the one to fall for you first, so why did you end up falling for someone else?”

“I’m sorry… I’m sorry…” Rayna did not know what else to say but to keep repeating those three words. As she held his hands tightly, she said, “I’m right here. I won’t be going anywhere anymore.”

Rayna could see that he had not changed his bandages for a long time and that he had a deathly pallor. She did not know what would happen to him if she did not change his bandages and reapply his medication.

thought of

of that tightened Rayna’s

and treat your wound. Didn’t you say that you have

still

gift you gave to me, and I’ve kept them all properly. I

she was probably lying, he could not help but

“Okay.”

Hallsbay’s best doctor and informed him about the patient’s current condition and address. She also told him to come in an

ending the call, she continued coaxing Jefferson. She told him that the attic was too cold, so she draped the coat over their heads and led him into the house before turning on the lights and

seated on the couch in silence, and his eyes

would not be able to handle

house, the doctor did a checkup for Jefferson. His expression turned grim as he said, “The wound has bled again, and it’s sticking with the gauze. I’m afraid it’ll be a little

face at

the doctor answered. By then, he had already worn his glove and had instructed the nurse to prepare the medication. “But it’ll hurt, and

a while,

head. “I can’t bring myself

of scissors and slowly cut away

Rayna saw the innermost layer sticking to the wound. It had turned

a cold hand covered

“Don’t look.”

painfully, but she tamped down

she could not see anything, she knew it had to hurt when the doctor separated the gauze from the wound,

eyes moved away. It was then she saw

the medical report, the doctor

medication according to the symptoms you’ve told me, but his condition is more severe than what you’ve described. Get these medications from the pharmacy tomorrow. Remember to change his gauze and check his wound every day, and make sure he takes

“Thank you.”

his explanation, and Rayna did not have any questions to ask. After paying the doctor, she escorted him

and

silently took

helped him to the bedroom. Right as she was about to turn on the lights, Jefferson placed a hand on her hand and said, “I don’t like

turn them on,

light filtering through the windows, and Rayna could see all the pieces of furniture in the room. Thus, without needing to turn on the lights, she navigated him to the bed and