The Howell’s
It was almost noon when I wake up. At first I thought that everything was as it was supposed to
be, but then everything comes crashing down on me. It wasn’t a bad dream like I had thought.
Ethan had really betrayed me.
I feel my tears well up. I cried myself to sleep yesterday and I was just so damn tired of crying. I
went to bed wishing that it would all change when I woke up. Praying for a miracle, but here I am.
Nothing’s changed. What I wanted to be nothing but a nightmare, was now my reality.
I slowly get out of bed. I had no energy to do anything, but I also knew I couldn’t sleep and wallow
in bed all day.
I take a long shower hoping it will make things better. It doesn’t. I don’t think anything can make
everything that happened better.
After dressing in a t–shirt and some yoga pants, I go to the kitchen for something to eat. I was just
taking out some eggs when my doorbell rang. I heave a sigh of defeat. I wasn’t in the mood to see
anyone. I just wanted to be left alone.
“Hi” Letty says with a small smile when I open the door.
She looks as tired and worn as I am. Hers is probably more physical unlike mine which is both
physical and psychological.
“Hi Letty” I stand awkwardly at the door.
I didn’t want to be rude but I also didn’t want anyone near me or around me. Like I said, I wanted to
be left alone to come to terms with all that I learned yesterday.
“I know you probably don’t to see anyone right now, but can I please come in?” she pleads.
It still surprises me how well we’ve come to know each other. It’s like we’ve known each other for
years, instead of months.
I let out a breath. “Yeah sure”
It as she walks in that I notice she has a couple of boxes with her.
“Food” she says and I nod.
I really didn’t feel like cooking even though
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go to the living room instead. Seating down on the big sofa, Letty joins me
boxes of food.
we eat. Both of us seemingly
you? I’m worried about you Ava. This can’t be
eating.
about lying to her that I was
to pretend most of
thought crosses my mind, I push it away. I needed to talk because I felt like I
drowning.
a hard time accepting that Ethan isn’t
the people I thought were my family aren’t really
harder to accept. I keep
life would have been great had I been raised
have saved me from ever meeting Rowan, but then I
had I not met Rowan, I turn back from
do everything all over again if it meant having my son
I miss him. Now more than ever I wish Noah was here with me. He
anchor.
can’t even begin to imagine all you must be
comfort” Letty says, pulling me back
her and smile a little. She really wasn’t good at
that though. Her realness was better than someone pretending
feel.
hard time. Not to mention that
know? I thought that I’d finally gotten a guy that would love me
from me” I blink away
anymore. Especially for a man that played and toyed
honestly don’t know who is worse. Rowan for using me
me for sex while
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as rude but I’m gonna hit you with the
what you were thinking the whole time, then I
are you talking
out without hurting you further
else. You
Rowan and you family
say anything
man that will love you then everything will fall into place. The only person who can fill that hole in your heart is you You alone can love yourself the way
back of the couch
at her feeling a
“Am 17”
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