Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 54

The Howell’s
It was almost noon when I wake up. At first I thought that everything was as it was supposed to

be, but then everything comes crashing down on me. It wasn’t a bad dream like I had thought.

Ethan had really betrayed me.

I feel my tears well up. I cried myself to sleep yesterday and I was just so damn tired of crying. I

went to bed wishing that it would all change when I woke up. Praying for a miracle, but here I am.

Nothing’s changed. What I wanted to be nothing but a nightmare, was now my reality.

I slowly get out of bed. I had no energy to do anything, but I also knew I couldn’t sleep and wallow

in bed all day.

I take a long shower hoping it will make things better. It doesn’t. I don’t think anything can make

everything that happened better.

After dressing in a t–shirt and some yoga pants, I go to the kitchen for something to eat. I was just

taking out some eggs when my doorbell rang. I heave a sigh of defeat. I wasn’t in the mood to see

anyone. I just wanted to be left alone.

“Hi” Letty says with a small smile when I open the door.

She looks as tired and worn as I am. Hers is probably more physical unlike mine which is both

physical and psychological.

“Hi Letty” I stand awkwardly at the door.

I didn’t want to be rude but I also didn’t want anyone near me or around me. Like I said, I wanted to

be left alone to come to terms with all that I learned yesterday.

“I know you probably don’t to see anyone right now, but can I please come in?” she pleads.

It still surprises me how well we’ve come to know each other. It’s like we’ve known each other for

years, instead of months.

I let out a breath. “Yeah sure”

It as she walks in that I notice she has a couple of boxes with her.

“Food” she says and I nod.

grateful. I really didn’t feel like cooking even though

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instead. Seating down on the big sofa, Letty joins

boxes of food.

dig in. We don’t talk as we eat. Both of us seemingly lost in

Ava. This can’t be easy for

eating.

moment I think about lying to her that I

easier to pretend most of the time

soon as that thought crosses my mind, I push it away. I needed to

drowning.

hard time accepting that Ethan isn’t the man I

the people I thought were my

the two was harder to accept. I

me. If life would have been great

saved me from ever meeting Rowan, but then I would never have had Noah.

of how things would be different had I not met

all over again if it meant having my son

I miss him. Now more than ever I wish Noah was here with me. He has always been

anchor.

must be feeling. I don’t even

says, pulling me

a little. She really wasn’t good at comforting

that though. Her realness was better than someone pretending to know

feel.

I’m just having a hard time. Not to mention that it hurts. I

know? I thought that I’d finally gotten a guy that would love me

ripped away from me” I

Especially for a man that played and toyed with

for using me for sex while

and still using me for sex

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“I don’t want to come out as rude but I’m gonna

what you were thinking the whole time, then I would have put a stop to

are you talking

out without hurting you further you went

you whole expectation on someone else. You can’t think that a man loving you

hole Rowan and you

don’t get to say anything before she

and I never saw it until now. You think when you find the man that will love you then everything will fall into place. The only person who can fill that hole in your heart is you You alone can love yourself the way you want to be loved. You have to love yourself first and judging from the way I see

back of the couch

wrong” I glare at her feeling

“Am 17”

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