Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 54

The Howell’s
It was almost noon when I wake up. At first I thought that everything was as it was supposed to

be, but then everything comes crashing down on me. It wasn’t a bad dream like I had thought.

Ethan had really betrayed me.

I feel my tears well up. I cried myself to sleep yesterday and I was just so damn tired of crying. I

went to bed wishing that it would all change when I woke up. Praying for a miracle, but here I am.

Nothing’s changed. What I wanted to be nothing but a nightmare, was now my reality.

I slowly get out of bed. I had no energy to do anything, but I also knew I couldn’t sleep and wallow

in bed all day.

I take a long shower hoping it will make things better. It doesn’t. I don’t think anything can make

everything that happened better.

After dressing in a t–shirt and some yoga pants, I go to the kitchen for something to eat. I was just

taking out some eggs when my doorbell rang. I heave a sigh of defeat. I wasn’t in the mood to see

anyone. I just wanted to be left alone.

“Hi” Letty says with a small smile when I open the door.

She looks as tired and worn as I am. Hers is probably more physical unlike mine which is both

physical and psychological.

“Hi Letty” I stand awkwardly at the door.

I didn’t want to be rude but I also didn’t want anyone near me or around me. Like I said, I wanted to

be left alone to come to terms with all that I learned yesterday.

“I know you probably don’t to see anyone right now, but can I please come in?” she pleads.

It still surprises me how well we’ve come to know each other. It’s like we’ve known each other for

years, instead of months.

I let out a breath. “Yeah sure”

It as she walks in that I notice she has a couple of boxes with her.

“Food” she says and I nod.

am grateful. I really didn’t feel like cooking even though I was

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on the big sofa, Letty joins me and sets

boxes of food.

dig in. We don’t talk as we eat. Both of us seemingly lost in our

how are you? I’m worried about you Ava. This can’t be easy

eating.

that I was okay.

easier to pretend most of

I push it away. I needed to talk because

drowning.

time accepting that Ethan isn’t the

I thought were my family

was harder to accept. I

life would have been great had I been raised by my real

ever meeting Rowan, but then I would never have

be different had I not met Rowan,

everything all over again if it meant having my son

miss him. Now more than ever I wish Noah was here

anchor.

to imagine all you must be feeling. I don’t even know where to

Letty says, pulling me

really wasn’t good at comforting

realness was better

feel.

time. Not to mention that it hurts.

I thought that I’d finally gotten a guy that

anything, it gets ripped away from me” I blink away the tears,

anymore. Especially for a man that played and toyed with

honestly don’t know who is worse. Rowan for using me for sex while he

me for sex

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to come out as rude but I’m gonna hit you with the truth. If I knew

were thinking the whole time, then I would have put

you talking

keep looking for men to love you” She sighs again. “How do I put this out without hurting you further you went into a relationship with Ethan wanting someone

whole expectation on someone else. You can’t think that a man loving you will

hole Rowan and you family

get to say anything before

never saw it until now. You think when you find the man that will love you then everything will fall into place. The only person who can fill that hole in your heart is you You alone can love yourself the way you want to be loved. You have

back of the couch

wrong” I glare at her feeling

“Am 17”

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