Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 54

The Howell’s
It was almost noon when I wake up. At first I thought that everything was as it was supposed to

be, but then everything comes crashing down on me. It wasn’t a bad dream like I had thought.

Ethan had really betrayed me.

I feel my tears well up. I cried myself to sleep yesterday and I was just so damn tired of crying. I

went to bed wishing that it would all change when I woke up. Praying for a miracle, but here I am.

Nothing’s changed. What I wanted to be nothing but a nightmare, was now my reality.

I slowly get out of bed. I had no energy to do anything, but I also knew I couldn’t sleep and wallow

in bed all day.

I take a long shower hoping it will make things better. It doesn’t. I don’t think anything can make

everything that happened better.

After dressing in a t–shirt and some yoga pants, I go to the kitchen for something to eat. I was just

taking out some eggs when my doorbell rang. I heave a sigh of defeat. I wasn’t in the mood to see

anyone. I just wanted to be left alone.

“Hi” Letty says with a small smile when I open the door.

She looks as tired and worn as I am. Hers is probably more physical unlike mine which is both

physical and psychological.

“Hi Letty” I stand awkwardly at the door.

I didn’t want to be rude but I also didn’t want anyone near me or around me. Like I said, I wanted to

be left alone to come to terms with all that I learned yesterday.

“I know you probably don’t to see anyone right now, but can I please come in?” she pleads.

It still surprises me how well we’ve come to know each other. It’s like we’ve known each other for

years, instead of months.

I let out a breath. “Yeah sure”

It as she walks in that I notice she has a couple of boxes with her.

“Food” she says and I nod.

am grateful. I really didn’t feel like

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Seating down on the big sofa, Letty joins me and sets

boxes of food.

as we eat. Both

are you? I’m worried about you Ava. This can’t be easy for you” she says after

eating.

I was okay.

pretend most of the time

my mind, I push it away. I needed to talk because I felt like I

drowning.

isn’t” I begin. “I’m still having a hard time accepting that Ethan

were my

the two was harder to accept. I keep

If life would have been great had I been raised by

have saved me from ever meeting Rowan, but then I would never have had

things would be different had I not

all over again if it meant

I miss him. Now more than ever I wish Noah

anchor.

can’t even begin to imagine all you must be feeling. I don’t

says, pulling me back

a little. She really wasn’t good at comforting

realness was better

feel.

Letty. I’m just having a hard time. Not to mention that it hurts. I was finally

thought that I’d finally gotten a guy that would love

away from me” I blink away the tears, not wanting

for a man

is worse. Rowan for using me for sex while he thought

and still using me for sex while

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out as rude but I’m gonna hit you with the truth.

whole time, then I would have put a

are you

put this out without hurting you further you went into

whole expectation on someone else. You can’t think that

and you

say anything

never saw it until now. You think when you find the man that will love you then everything will fall into place. The only person who can fill that hole in your heart is you You alone can love yourself the way you want to be loved. You have to love yourself first and judging from the way I see things, you have never loved yourself” She slumps

back of the couch

I glare at her feeling a bit attacked

“Am 17”

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