Ex-Husband's Regret

His Unbelievable words
Ava

“W–what?” I stammer, looking at Rowan in complete shock

I couldn’t have heard him correctly. The Rowan I knew would have done anything for Emma Including sacrificing me.

My heart beats wildly as I stare at his blank face.

“You heard me, Ava” he repeats. No trace of lying in his voice. “If it had to come to it, I would have

gladly let her die if it meant saving you”

At first I thought that he’d lied so I wouldn’t feel bad. After all, who likes knowing that the man

she spent almost a decade with would gladly save another woman?

I thought he was saying that just to spare my feelings. Looking at his face though, I realize that he

was telling the truth. It was written on his face and in his eyes. Besides, when has Rowan ever

spared my feelings? He’s never shied away from telling how it is so why would he start lying now?

I release a deep breath and untangle my hands from his. It felt too intimate. I already had so much

thoughts dancing in my head. I didn’t need his warm hands confusing me more.

“You don’t mean that” I tell him after a while. “Emma is the woman you’ve loved since the first

time you realized what love is. You’ve been in love with her for so many years, how then can you

so casually say you would sacrifice her for my sake?”

His brows draw into a frown. He goes to speak, but I interrupt him.

“I’m the one that has meant nothing to you from the start. Remember? You hate me Rowan. You’ve

hated me for years, so what the hell is going on? How can you just decide one day that I’m more

important than your precious Emma? Something is just not adding up. You just can’t unhate me

all of a sudden” 2

I fall back on the pillow in exhaustion. I knew what I said was the damn truth. There is just no way all the hate, resentment and bitterness he has had for me for the past nine years disappeared

into thin air.

You just don’t wake up one day a brand new person. Intense feelings are hard to get rid of. Hard to bury. I should know that. Didn’t I struggle with trying to kill and bury the love I had for Rowan?

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finally nd myself of it.

Ava

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am just done. I don’t want to hear it. I don’t want him to make up pretty little lies. I don’t want any new changes. I just want

they all hated and despised me.

such a

realize their mistake

with this new versions of their persona. It’s confusing

doesn’t trust their

trust their brand new feelings towards me. It feels like a game. A

thankful that you saved me, but please leave. You should be

always wanted to be.

Please don’t screw things up. What we had meant nothing. It was a mistake from the beginning. We both spent those

Yours has always been with Emma, and

eyes as the grey pools darken. Almost

inside. I still. Waiting for a fight, but it doesn’t

against his chair, before

I leave you alone…for now” he says in

instead of leaving immediately, he bends and the

or do anything. He

back. Wondering what the hell just happened.

to doing whatever the fuck he

could tell he didn’t

regain my energy, I think about what he told me. Of course it’s hard to believe

talking about. The same Rowan that told me I

or

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the hell is going on with him? I question but don’t

would have believed if he told me that he would give up Emms

him? For nine years he along with everyone else has told me that I am nothing. That I meant nothing to him. So how does he expect to flip things around out of nowhere and expect that

those questions were doing my head in, so I push them aside instead. Whatever was going on in Rowan’s head wasn’t my damn business. Him

meaning too, exhaustion takes over and

I wake up, it’s to find my parents in the room with me. They looked as exhausted as I felt Each of them was holding one of my hands and at that moment I’ve never

and the Sharps. The fact that I finally had

have made a sound, because they both look

her voice catching. “How are you

blink to try and push them back, but it does

love you guys so much. Thank you for being everything I’ve always imagined” My voice was so full of emotions that it was hard

imagine how I’ve been dying to hear you say that” mom says, her tears

baby girl. More than you

let the tears fall as I bask in their warm embrace.

the door opens and

you ready for discharge, Ava?” she asks smiling kindly at

they told me that my baby was doing fine.

the baby

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to see and hold my son* I

me that he was with his parents I planned

him because I

alive to see