Ex-Husband's Regret

His Unbelievable words
Ava

“W–what?” I stammer, looking at Rowan in complete shock

I couldn’t have heard him correctly. The Rowan I knew would have done anything for Emma Including sacrificing me.

My heart beats wildly as I stare at his blank face.

“You heard me, Ava” he repeats. No trace of lying in his voice. “If it had to come to it, I would have

gladly let her die if it meant saving you”

At first I thought that he’d lied so I wouldn’t feel bad. After all, who likes knowing that the man

she spent almost a decade with would gladly save another woman?

I thought he was saying that just to spare my feelings. Looking at his face though, I realize that he

was telling the truth. It was written on his face and in his eyes. Besides, when has Rowan ever

spared my feelings? He’s never shied away from telling how it is so why would he start lying now?

I release a deep breath and untangle my hands from his. It felt too intimate. I already had so much

thoughts dancing in my head. I didn’t need his warm hands confusing me more.

“You don’t mean that” I tell him after a while. “Emma is the woman you’ve loved since the first

time you realized what love is. You’ve been in love with her for so many years, how then can you

so casually say you would sacrifice her for my sake?”

His brows draw into a frown. He goes to speak, but I interrupt him.

“I’m the one that has meant nothing to you from the start. Remember? You hate me Rowan. You’ve

hated me for years, so what the hell is going on? How can you just decide one day that I’m more

important than your precious Emma? Something is just not adding up. You just can’t unhate me

all of a sudden” 2

I fall back on the pillow in exhaustion. I knew what I said was the damn truth. There is just no way all the hate, resentment and bitterness he has had for me for the past nine years disappeared

into thin air.

You just don’t wake up one day a brand new person. Intense feelings are hard to get rid of. Hard to bury. I should know that. Didn’t I struggle with trying to kill and bury the love I had for Rowan?

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finally nd myself of it.

Ava

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am just done. I don’t want to hear it. I don’t want him to make up pretty little lies. I don’t want any new changes. I just want to go back

hated and despised

I would want such a thing, right? After

to realize their mistake and crawl

this new versions of their persona. It’s confusing because a part of me wants to let

doesn’t trust their

from being rejected over and over again, but I can’t trust their brand new feelings towards me. It feels like a game. A game of waiting for the other

I cut him off. “I’m thankful that you saved me,

That’s where you’ve always wanted to be. Emma

screw things up. What we had meant nothing. It was a mistake from the beginning. We both spent those nine years in misery, it’s time

and mine…well mine is now with my

it in his eyes as the grey pools darken.

Waiting for a fight, but

his chair, before letting out

alone…for now” he says in a gruff voice before

but instead of

anything. He

Wondering what the hell just happened. It’s not that I am not

just Rowan is used to doing whatever the fuck he wants, yet

you could tell he

slowly regain my energy, I think about what he told me. Of course it’s hard to

Rowan we are talking about. The same Rowan that told me I could

or

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hell is going on with him? I question but don’t

believed if he told me that he would give up Emms

has told me that I am nothing. That I meant nothing to him. So how

many questions, but no answer. All those questions were doing my head in, so I push them aside instead. Whatever was going on in Rowan’s head wasn’t my damn business. Him and 1 were done. It wasn’t my place

exhaustion takes over

it’s to find my parents in the room with me. They looked as exhausted as I felt Each of

is what I had craved from Rowan and the Sharps. The fact that

a sound, because they both

mom calls, her voice catching. “How are you

try and push them

for being everything I’ve always imagined”

can’t imagine how I’ve been dying to hear you say that” mom says, her tears

you too baby girl. More than you could ever

bask in

separate as the door opens and a

discharge, Ava?” she

told me that my baby was doing fine. That

the baby in

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to see and hold my

he was with his parents I planned to pick him up on the way

a second away from him because I knew today would

alive