Ex-Husband's Regret

His Unbelievable words
Ava

“W–what?” I stammer, looking at Rowan in complete shock

I couldn’t have heard him correctly. The Rowan I knew would have done anything for Emma Including sacrificing me.

My heart beats wildly as I stare at his blank face.

“You heard me, Ava” he repeats. No trace of lying in his voice. “If it had to come to it, I would have

gladly let her die if it meant saving you”

At first I thought that he’d lied so I wouldn’t feel bad. After all, who likes knowing that the man

she spent almost a decade with would gladly save another woman?

I thought he was saying that just to spare my feelings. Looking at his face though, I realize that he

was telling the truth. It was written on his face and in his eyes. Besides, when has Rowan ever

spared my feelings? He’s never shied away from telling how it is so why would he start lying now?

I release a deep breath and untangle my hands from his. It felt too intimate. I already had so much

thoughts dancing in my head. I didn’t need his warm hands confusing me more.

“You don’t mean that” I tell him after a while. “Emma is the woman you’ve loved since the first

time you realized what love is. You’ve been in love with her for so many years, how then can you

so casually say you would sacrifice her for my sake?”

His brows draw into a frown. He goes to speak, but I interrupt him.

“I’m the one that has meant nothing to you from the start. Remember? You hate me Rowan. You’ve

hated me for years, so what the hell is going on? How can you just decide one day that I’m more

important than your precious Emma? Something is just not adding up. You just can’t unhate me

all of a sudden” 2

I fall back on the pillow in exhaustion. I knew what I said was the damn truth. There is just no way all the hate, resentment and bitterness he has had for me for the past nine years disappeared

into thin air.

You just don’t wake up one day a brand new person. Intense feelings are hard to get rid of. Hard to bury. I should know that. Didn’t I struggle with trying to kill and bury the love I had for Rowan?

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finally nd myself of it.

Ava

+15 BONUS

I am just done. I don’t want to hear it. I don’t want him to make up pretty little lies. I don’t want any new changes. I just want to go back to

hated and despised me.

know some might wonder why I would want such a thing, right? After all, isn’t this what

realize their

is, I am just so used to their cruelty that I don’t know how to deal with this new versions of their persona. It’s confusing because a part of me wants to let it all go and forgive them.

doesn’t trust their

can’t trust their brand new feelings towards me. It feels like a game.

him off. “I’m thankful that you saved me, but please leave. You should be

be. Emma is here and you have waited

we had meant nothing. It was a mistake from the beginning. We both spent

has always been with Emma, and mine…well mine is

argue. I see it in his eyes as the grey pools darken. Almost

for a

his chair, before letting

says in a gruff voice before standing

would be it, but instead of

can say or do anything. He leaves, closing the door gently

staring at his back. Wondering what the hell just

just Rowan is used to doing whatever the fuck he wants, yet he

tell

I slowly regain my energy, I think about what he told me. Of course it’s hard to

are talking about. The same

be like Emma or

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the hell is going on with him? I question but don’t

other man I would have believed if he told me that he would give up Emms But

he along with everyone else has told me that I am nothing. That I

head in, so I push them aside instead. Whatever was going on in Rowan’s head

meaning too, exhaustion takes over and

with me. They looked as exhausted as I felt Each of them was holding one of my hands and at that moment I’ve never felt more

Sharps. The fact that I finally had it, brought so many

sound, because they both look

voice catching.

to try and push them back, but

much. Thank you for being everything I’ve always imagined”

darling. You can’t imagine how I’ve been dying to hear you say that” mom says, her tears reflecting in the

baby girl. More than you could

tears fall as I bask in

the door opens and a

ready for discharge, Ava?”

me that my baby was doing

baby in any

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+15 BONUS

I’m dying to see and hold my son*

he was with his parents I planned to pick him up on

a second away from him because I knew today would have gone

alive to