Ex-Husband's Regret

His Unbelievable words
Ava

“W–what?” I stammer, looking at Rowan in complete shock

I couldn’t have heard him correctly. The Rowan I knew would have done anything for Emma Including sacrificing me.

My heart beats wildly as I stare at his blank face.

“You heard me, Ava” he repeats. No trace of lying in his voice. “If it had to come to it, I would have

gladly let her die if it meant saving you”

At first I thought that he’d lied so I wouldn’t feel bad. After all, who likes knowing that the man

she spent almost a decade with would gladly save another woman?

I thought he was saying that just to spare my feelings. Looking at his face though, I realize that he

was telling the truth. It was written on his face and in his eyes. Besides, when has Rowan ever

spared my feelings? He’s never shied away from telling how it is so why would he start lying now?

I release a deep breath and untangle my hands from his. It felt too intimate. I already had so much

thoughts dancing in my head. I didn’t need his warm hands confusing me more.

“You don’t mean that” I tell him after a while. “Emma is the woman you’ve loved since the first

time you realized what love is. You’ve been in love with her for so many years, how then can you

so casually say you would sacrifice her for my sake?”

His brows draw into a frown. He goes to speak, but I interrupt him.

“I’m the one that has meant nothing to you from the start. Remember? You hate me Rowan. You’ve

hated me for years, so what the hell is going on? How can you just decide one day that I’m more

important than your precious Emma? Something is just not adding up. You just can’t unhate me

all of a sudden” 2

I fall back on the pillow in exhaustion. I knew what I said was the damn truth. There is just no way all the hate, resentment and bitterness he has had for me for the past nine years disappeared

into thin air.

You just don’t wake up one day a brand new person. Intense feelings are hard to get rid of. Hard to bury. I should know that. Didn’t I struggle with trying to kill and bury the love I had for Rowan?

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finally nd myself of it.

Ava

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something, but I am just done. I don’t want to hear it. I don’t want him to make up pretty little lies. I don’t want

they all hated and

some might wonder why I would want such a thing, right? After all,

to realize their mistake and

to their cruelty that I don’t know how to deal with this new versions of their persona. It’s confusing because a part of

though, doesn’t trust

again, but I can’t trust their brand new feelings towards me. It feels like

you

you’ve always wanted to be. Emma is here and

with her. Please don’t screw things up. What we had meant nothing. It was a mistake from the beginning. We both

Yours has always been with Emma, and mine…well mine

eyes as the grey pools darken. Almost like there was

still. Waiting for

his chair, before letting out

leave you alone…for now” he says in

be it, but instead of leaving

I can say or do anything. He leaves, closing the door

staring at his back. Wondering what the hell just happened. It’s not that I am

I am. It’s just Rowan is used to doing whatever the fuck

tell he didn’t

he told me. Of

about. The same Rowan that told me

Emma or a woman

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him? I question but don’t

have believed if he told me that he would give up Emms But not Howan Never

expect me to believe him? For nine years he along with everyone else has told me that I am nothing. That I meant nothing to him. So how does he expect to flip things

were doing my head in, so I push them aside instead. Whatever was going on

meaning too, exhaustion takes

parents in the room with me. They looked as exhausted as I felt Each of them was holding one of my hands and at that moment I’ve never felt

I had craved from Rowan and the Sharps. The fact that I finally had it, brought so many emotions to

sound, because they

mom calls, her voice catching. “How are

to try and push

for being everything I’ve always imagined” My voice was so full of emotions that it was hard to

can’t imagine how I’ve been dying to hear you say that” mom says, her tears reflecting in the

girl. More

tears fall as I bask in their warm embrace. Surrounded by their

door opens

Ava?” she

so happy when they told me that my baby was doing fine. That the drugs

baby

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my son*

that he was with his parents I planned to pick

second away from him because I knew today would have

alive to