Ex-Husband's Regret

His Unbelievable words
Ava

“W–what?” I stammer, looking at Rowan in complete shock

I couldn’t have heard him correctly. The Rowan I knew would have done anything for Emma Including sacrificing me.

My heart beats wildly as I stare at his blank face.

“You heard me, Ava” he repeats. No trace of lying in his voice. “If it had to come to it, I would have

gladly let her die if it meant saving you”

At first I thought that he’d lied so I wouldn’t feel bad. After all, who likes knowing that the man

she spent almost a decade with would gladly save another woman?

I thought he was saying that just to spare my feelings. Looking at his face though, I realize that he

was telling the truth. It was written on his face and in his eyes. Besides, when has Rowan ever

spared my feelings? He’s never shied away from telling how it is so why would he start lying now?

I release a deep breath and untangle my hands from his. It felt too intimate. I already had so much

thoughts dancing in my head. I didn’t need his warm hands confusing me more.

“You don’t mean that” I tell him after a while. “Emma is the woman you’ve loved since the first

time you realized what love is. You’ve been in love with her for so many years, how then can you

so casually say you would sacrifice her for my sake?”

His brows draw into a frown. He goes to speak, but I interrupt him.

“I’m the one that has meant nothing to you from the start. Remember? You hate me Rowan. You’ve

hated me for years, so what the hell is going on? How can you just decide one day that I’m more

important than your precious Emma? Something is just not adding up. You just can’t unhate me

all of a sudden” 2

I fall back on the pillow in exhaustion. I knew what I said was the damn truth. There is just no way all the hate, resentment and bitterness he has had for me for the past nine years disappeared

into thin air.

You just don’t wake up one day a brand new person. Intense feelings are hard to get rid of. Hard to bury. I should know that. Didn’t I struggle with trying to kill and bury the love I had for Rowan?

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finally nd myself of it.

Ava

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say something, but I am just done. I don’t want to hear it. I don’t want him to make up pretty little lies. I

they all hated and despised me.

wonder why I would want such a thing, right? After all, isn’t this

wanted? For them to realize their

truth is, I am just so used to their cruelty that I don’t know how to deal with this new versions of their persona. It’s confusing because a part

doesn’t trust their

again, but I can’t trust their brand new feelings towards me. It feels like a game. A game of waiting for the other shoe to

you saved me,

side. That’s where you’ve always wanted to be.

Please don’t screw things up. What we had meant nothing. It was a mistake from the beginning. We both spent those nine

always been with Emma, and mine…well mine is now with my

it in his eyes as the grey pools darken. Almost like there

inside. I still. Waiting for a fight, but

he sags against his

you alone…for now” he says in a gruff voice

thought that would be it, but instead of leaving immediately, he bends and the

Before I can say or do anything. He leaves, closing the door gently

staring at his back. Wondering what the hell just happened. It’s not that I am not

just Rowan is used to doing whatever the fuck he wants, yet he left when I

tell he didn’t

regain my energy, I think about what he told me. Of course it’s

this is Rowan we are talking about. The same Rowan that told

or a woman he

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on with him? I question

he told me that he would give up Emms But not Howan Never

me to believe him? For nine years he along with everyone else has told me that I am nothing. That I meant nothing to him. So how does he expect to flip things around out of nowhere and expect that I would believe

I push them aside instead. Whatever was going on in Rowan’s head wasn’t my damn business. Him and 1 were done. It wasn’t my place to try

too, exhaustion takes over and

the room with me. They looked as exhausted as I felt Each

had craved from Rowan and the Sharps. The fact that I finally had it, brought so many

have made a sound, because they both

calls, her voice catching. “How are

to try and push them back,

guys so much. Thank you for being everything I’ve always imagined” My voice was so full of emotions

imagine how I’ve been dying to hear

love you too baby girl. More than you could ever imagine”

the tears fall as I bask in their warm embrace. Surrounded by their

as the door opens and a

Ava?”

happy when they told me that my baby

baby in

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dying to see and hold my son* I tell her smiling

told me that he was with his parents I planned to pick him up

from him because I knew today would

nave been alive