Ex-Husband's Regret

His Unbelievable words
Ava

“W–what?” I stammer, looking at Rowan in complete shock

I couldn’t have heard him correctly. The Rowan I knew would have done anything for Emma Including sacrificing me.

My heart beats wildly as I stare at his blank face.

“You heard me, Ava” he repeats. No trace of lying in his voice. “If it had to come to it, I would have

gladly let her die if it meant saving you”

At first I thought that he’d lied so I wouldn’t feel bad. After all, who likes knowing that the man

she spent almost a decade with would gladly save another woman?

I thought he was saying that just to spare my feelings. Looking at his face though, I realize that he

was telling the truth. It was written on his face and in his eyes. Besides, when has Rowan ever

spared my feelings? He’s never shied away from telling how it is so why would he start lying now?

I release a deep breath and untangle my hands from his. It felt too intimate. I already had so much

thoughts dancing in my head. I didn’t need his warm hands confusing me more.

“You don’t mean that” I tell him after a while. “Emma is the woman you’ve loved since the first

time you realized what love is. You’ve been in love with her for so many years, how then can you

so casually say you would sacrifice her for my sake?”

His brows draw into a frown. He goes to speak, but I interrupt him.

“I’m the one that has meant nothing to you from the start. Remember? You hate me Rowan. You’ve

hated me for years, so what the hell is going on? How can you just decide one day that I’m more

important than your precious Emma? Something is just not adding up. You just can’t unhate me

all of a sudden” 2

I fall back on the pillow in exhaustion. I knew what I said was the damn truth. There is just no way all the hate, resentment and bitterness he has had for me for the past nine years disappeared

into thin air.

You just don’t wake up one day a brand new person. Intense feelings are hard to get rid of. Hard to bury. I should know that. Didn’t I struggle with trying to kill and bury the love I had for Rowan?

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finally nd myself of it.

Ava

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to hear it. I don’t want him to make up pretty little lies. I don’t want any new changes. I just

they all hated and despised

such a thing, right?

to realize their mistake and crawl begging

that I don’t know how to deal with this new versions of their persona. It’s confusing because a part of me wants to let it

doesn’t trust their intentions.

from being rejected over and over again, but I can’t trust their brand new feelings towards me. It feels like a game. A game of

you saved

to be. Emma

from the beginning. We both spent those nine years in misery, it’s time each of us found

always been with Emma, and mine…well

to argue. I see it in his eyes as the

I still. Waiting for

sags against his chair, before letting

you alone…for now” he says in a gruff voice before

be it, but instead of leaving immediately, he bends and the

Before I can say or do anything.

staring at his back. Wondering what the hell just happened. It’s not that I am

Rowan is used to doing whatever the fuck he wants, yet he

though you could tell he

I slowly regain my energy, I think about what he told me. Of course it’s hard

is Rowan we are talking about. The same Rowan that

like Emma or a woman

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hell is going on with him? I question but

I would have believed if he told me that

him? For nine years he along with everyone else has told me that I am nothing. That I meant nothing to him. So how does he

questions, but no answer. All those questions were doing my head in, so I push them aside instead. Whatever was going on in Rowan’s head wasn’t my damn business. Him

exhaustion takes

I wake up, it’s to find my parents in the room with me. They looked as exhausted as I felt Each of them was holding one of my hands

from Rowan and the Sharps. The fact that I finally had it, brought so many emotions to

have made a sound, because they both look

mom calls, her voice catching. “How are you

to try and push

guys so much. Thank you for being everything I’ve always imagined” My voice was so full of

imagine how I’ve been dying to hear you say that” mom says, her tears

you too baby girl. More than you could

the tears fall as I bask

opens and a nurse walks

ready for discharge, Ava?” she asks smiling kindly

me that my baby was doing fine. That the

baby

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my son* I

that he was with his parents I planned to pick him up on the way home. I

him because I knew today would have gone differently. If it

nave been alive to see