Ex-Husband's Regret

His Unbelievable words
Ava

“W–what?” I stammer, looking at Rowan in complete shock

I couldn’t have heard him correctly. The Rowan I knew would have done anything for Emma Including sacrificing me.

My heart beats wildly as I stare at his blank face.

“You heard me, Ava” he repeats. No trace of lying in his voice. “If it had to come to it, I would have

gladly let her die if it meant saving you”

At first I thought that he’d lied so I wouldn’t feel bad. After all, who likes knowing that the man

she spent almost a decade with would gladly save another woman?

I thought he was saying that just to spare my feelings. Looking at his face though, I realize that he

was telling the truth. It was written on his face and in his eyes. Besides, when has Rowan ever

spared my feelings? He’s never shied away from telling how it is so why would he start lying now?

I release a deep breath and untangle my hands from his. It felt too intimate. I already had so much

thoughts dancing in my head. I didn’t need his warm hands confusing me more.

“You don’t mean that” I tell him after a while. “Emma is the woman you’ve loved since the first

time you realized what love is. You’ve been in love with her for so many years, how then can you

so casually say you would sacrifice her for my sake?”

His brows draw into a frown. He goes to speak, but I interrupt him.

“I’m the one that has meant nothing to you from the start. Remember? You hate me Rowan. You’ve

hated me for years, so what the hell is going on? How can you just decide one day that I’m more

important than your precious Emma? Something is just not adding up. You just can’t unhate me

all of a sudden” 2

I fall back on the pillow in exhaustion. I knew what I said was the damn truth. There is just no way all the hate, resentment and bitterness he has had for me for the past nine years disappeared

into thin air.

You just don’t wake up one day a brand new person. Intense feelings are hard to get rid of. Hard to bury. I should know that. Didn’t I struggle with trying to kill and bury the love I had for Rowan?

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finally nd myself of it.

Ava

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I don’t want him to make up pretty little lies. I don’t want any new changes. I just want to go back to how

hated and despised me.

want such a thing, right? After all, isn’t

wanted? For them to realize their mistake and crawl begging for

I am just so used to their cruelty that I don’t know how to deal with this new versions of their persona. It’s confusing because a part of me wants to let it all go

doesn’t trust

it’s the trauma from being rejected over and over again, but I can’t trust their brand new feelings towards me. It feels like a game. A game of waiting for

him off. “I’m thankful that you saved

be. Emma is here and you have

was a mistake from the beginning. We both spent those nine years in misery,

Emma, and mine…well mine is

in his eyes as the grey pools darken. Almost like there

inside. I still. Waiting for

when he sags against his

leave you alone…for now” he says in a gruff voice before

would be it, but instead of leaving immediately, he bends

gently. Before I can say or do anything. He leaves, closing the

left staring at his back. Wondering what the hell just happened. It’s not that I am not happy

Rowan is used to doing whatever the fuck he wants, yet he left when I

though you could tell he didn’t

energy, I think about what he told me. Of course it’s hard to believe him.

we are talking about. The same Rowan

like Emma or a woman he

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on with him? I question but don’t get any

if he told me that he would give up Emms But not Howan Never

For nine years he along with everyone else has told me that I am nothing. That I meant nothing to him. So how does he

doing my head in, so I push them aside instead. Whatever was going on in Rowan’s head wasn’t my damn business. Him and 1 were done. It wasn’t my place to try and figure him

exhaustion takes over

my parents in the room with me. They looked as exhausted as I felt Each of them was holding one of my

is what I had craved from Rowan and the Sharps. The fact that I

a sound,

voice

I blink to try and push them

much. Thank you for being everything I’ve always imagined” My voice was so full of

You can’t imagine how I’ve been dying to hear you say that”

love you too baby girl. More than you could ever imagine”

as I bask in

the door opens and a nurse

for discharge, Ava?”

me that my baby

baby in

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+15 BONUS

I’m dying to see and hold my son* I tell her

was with his parents I planned to pick him up on

because I knew

alive to