There’s just something…
Calvin had called immediately he got the missed call notification. He’d explained that the reason he didn’t pick up is because he was in a meeting and his phone had been silent.
He wanted to come home right away, but told him that everything was now fine. That I had taken
care of the situation and that Gunner was fine. He wasn’t crying anymore. Neither was he sad.
That was enough for me.
He was reluctant, but he finally agreed given that his meeting would run late.
Now here I was cooking dinner for us. With thousands of thoughts running through my head. It’s like I can’t get a break from my own thoughts. They’re constantly there and now there some that are added concerning Gunner.
“What are we having for dinner mom?” Noah asks sitting down at the counter.
“Yes, what? I am starving” Gunner adds smiling at me.
There it was again. That damn smile. It’s not that I hated it. I could never hate any smile Gunner gives me. It’s just that it fucking bothers me so much. There was something about it that I just couldn’t place my finger on.
“I’m not sure” I tell them. “Why don’t we see
what my craving will pick?”
Noah smiles wide and turns to Gunner. “Mom has insan
cravings. Sometimes they’re really great
and other times it’s totally disgusting”
Gunner nods his head. “Can I help?”
“Sure. Why don’t you flow the chicken?” I tell him.
Noah wasn’t really that helpful in the kitchen. In fact he was a complete disaster. That’s why he normally never helps unless it’s something he can actually do. Something he won’t mess up.
I got out the marinating sliced chicken breasts and the Ziploc bag of seasoned flour and handed them over to Gunner.
He took them willingly with a smile on his face. One thing I learned about him was that he loved food and he also loved cooking. He was going to make a very lucky woman happy one day if he continued like this.
“As for you, Noah, you can help with the dessert” I turn to him
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“At least that’s easy and I won’t mess it up” he says grinning, making both me and Gunner laugh
He was self–aware. I liked that about him.
“Now, if you get the buttermilk marinade on your fingers, don’t get it near your eyes. It’ll burn,
because of the Tabasco and salt that is in it I warn Gunner.
“Okay”
We get to work. Chatting and simply having fun. I was so glad that I could give this to Gunner. So happy that I was able to give him happiness. I couldn’t take away all his pain and sadness, but
this had to be enough for now.
He was a lovely boy. Shy at first, but when you got to know him, you realize how amazing he is. I
just couldn’t understand why his mother would do this to him.
From what little I gathered. She doesn’t want to be in his life. I don’t know if it’s by choice or
maybe forced circumstances, all I know is that it was hurting Gunner. The last thing I want is for
grow up with issues
for” his
“What?” Noah asks him.
before answering. “This. Having a mom
Don’t get me wrong,
never be
my heart shattering into pieces for this
not sible. Some things just aren’t possible. Like how Noah
I to get back
okay, honey?” I
“Yes. I have you, Noah and dad. That is
like a mom
I am doing and give him a hug
“Damn!” Noah groans.
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him and
for you and dad to get back together without realizing how lucky I am that
and he immediately steps into them. I close them around him
kissing his forehead too.
tell him while letting
but I’ll stop pushing so
“Thank you” I say
finish cooking. They both help
down to eat.
I put my foot down
cook something.
and then it is off to
they were asleep that the idea came to me. I had a five bedroom house. There was still an extra room even after turning one of them into a nursery. The last
Gunner’s room.
be his safe space while he was
what I would need.
to ask
helpful when it
know what he likes.
I was sure he’d agree. Well
He
list of essentials when the
will Calvin on the door.
“Hi” I tell him.
he says, giving
comes in. We move to
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quiet Are they asleep?”
“Yes”
what to say. I had so many question, but I was afraid of stepping out of
crying because of his mother” I
moment I say those words, his
abandons her son? I get and understand that she doesn’t love me and she never will, it hurts, but I learned to accept that. Turning her back on Gunner is
a bitch? I’ve suffered through it since I first fell for Rowan. I didn’t want my friend to
call and she refuses to come see Gunner kills me. He is amazing,
him. I tried hiding it from him, but as he got older he started to understand things. He started to understand that his mother doesn’t want
radiating from
give Gunner the world, but the one thing he wants is totally out of my reach. I regret ever falling in love with her. Regret ever meeting her. But the thing is, regretting her
and that is one
from my own lips. Didn’t I tell Rowan
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