Ex-Husband's Regret

Her side of the story
Mom collapses in the chair after my admission. The heartbroken look in her eyes was undoing

me. The disappointed look she gave me nearly made me crumble on the spot.
Travis, who had been holding me, lets go as if I had burned him. He backs away from me slowly

until he’s a few feet away.

I know the rest had varying degrees of shock, but they didn’t matter to me right now. Not when

my family was looking at me like they didn’t know me. Like I was a stranger.

“Please tell me you’re playing a sick joke on me,” Mom pleads. “Tell me you didn’t have a child and

kept him hidden from us all these years.”

I want to lie to them just so the heartbroken and disappointed look in their eyes will disappear. I

know that I can no longer do that. There was no hiding from this. There was no more running from

the truth.

“I’m sorry. So sorry,” I cry as I stumble towards her. “I wanted to tell you, but I was so ashamed.”

I go to take her hand, but she flinches and pulls it away.

This is what I’ve been so afraid of. Ava was right. I was the perfect daughter. The one who never

made any mistakes.

The one that thought things through before, except for that one time. Now their image of me is

tarnished. Now they know that I am just like them. Human. The Ace card I had over Ava was gone. 2

I was in the same boat as Ava. I made mistakes that are now hunting me. Sleeping with Calvin

remains the greatest mistak

y life.

“H–How did this happen? When did it happen…did dad now?” Travis asks as he paces, frustration

clear in his steps.

“Dad didn’t know. No one except Calvin and Molly knew.” I look at the ground, unable to face the

look on my mom’s face.

“Start from the beginning and don’t leave a single thing out. I want to know why the hell you’ve

kept my grandson a secret from his family,” Mom growls, her eyes turning fierce.

I didn’t want to rehash the past, but at this point, I don’t think I had any choice. If I didn’t want

them to be even madder than they were right now, then I had to spill it.

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“When Rowan married Ava, I was broken I tried not to let it show. Tried to make you, dad, and

Travis believe I was okay because you were all so worried about me. I felt like I was drowning,

been left with nothing. When I went

tell any of you,

as small as I did back then when I

with Ava.

was fading away. I didn’t eat, I didn’t sleep, and

noticed this. She started pushing, and when I refused to get

you guys to let you know. I didn’t want you to know how I was struggling. I didn’t

out how tough

lost in memory. I had so much bitterness

out how far I’d fallen, she would have been ecstatic. It was probably

been going through her

after that. Molly became my anchor. My grades

every second.” I take a

out we went to the same Uni and

assignment partner.” 2

After all, we

any remnants of the obsession

We co–existed. He stayed out

I wanted to stop, but now more than ever, I knew

were going well for some time. They

me to let me know that Ava had given birth to a baby

love with his son at first sight. Everything around me crumbled, and

I try to breathe through the pain

so fucking hard.

in pain, and I was really angry. Angry at myself for turning down Rowan’s proposal, angry

getting drunk and sleeping with Ava, angry

and angry at the

need to turn to know that it is from Rowan. I

the way I wanted it to, then he would

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way he crushed on me, so that night I approached Calvin and seduced him I knew word would probably get back to Rowan, and that would have hurt him. That’s why I slept with Calvin that night, because I counted on Rowan’s friend telling him. He would have been so hurt, I would have gotten my revenge, and maybe then

it for Rowan and in the end I gave it to the guy who kept

It had been foolish of me to sleep with a guy I didn’t even like just to get back at the man I loved. I told Calvin that it was a mistake and that he should forget about what happened between us. I snuck out of his room, and I thought that was that. That

hadn’t planned for what was to

to ignoring each other like the other didn’t exist, that is, until my period was late. A cheap test. and later, a doctor’s appointment confirmed that I was

I believed that one day Rowan and I would get back

my mistake to

you get an emergency pill the morning after?” mom asks, making

everything was new to me.

first time I’ve ever h–had s–sex so I didn’t really know that

to

have aused me to get one, but like I said, I was so ashamed, I

anyone to know.”

tell me that during all the years you dated Rowan,

still a virgin?” Travis

Before we started dating, which was at

anything that walked and had a vagina. When

We planned to wait till I was ready.

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a virgin. Anyway,” 1 paused. “I told Calvin about

I didn’t want the child and I wanted to get rid of it, but he

Mom asks, her voice ringing with

but nod my head. “Calvin threatened to tell you and