Ex-Husband's Regret

Her side of the story
Mom collapses in the chair after my admission. The heartbroken look in her eyes was undoing

me. The disappointed look she gave me nearly made me crumble on the spot.
Travis, who had been holding me, lets go as if I had burned him. He backs away from me slowly

until he’s a few feet away.

I know the rest had varying degrees of shock, but they didn’t matter to me right now. Not when

my family was looking at me like they didn’t know me. Like I was a stranger.

“Please tell me you’re playing a sick joke on me,” Mom pleads. “Tell me you didn’t have a child and

kept him hidden from us all these years.”

I want to lie to them just so the heartbroken and disappointed look in their eyes will disappear. I

know that I can no longer do that. There was no hiding from this. There was no more running from

the truth.

“I’m sorry. So sorry,” I cry as I stumble towards her. “I wanted to tell you, but I was so ashamed.”

I go to take her hand, but she flinches and pulls it away.

This is what I’ve been so afraid of. Ava was right. I was the perfect daughter. The one who never

made any mistakes.

The one that thought things through before, except for that one time. Now their image of me is

tarnished. Now they know that I am just like them. Human. The Ace card I had over Ava was gone. 2

I was in the same boat as Ava. I made mistakes that are now hunting me. Sleeping with Calvin

remains the greatest mistak

y life.

“H–How did this happen? When did it happen…did dad now?” Travis asks as he paces, frustration

clear in his steps.

“Dad didn’t know. No one except Calvin and Molly knew.” I look at the ground, unable to face the

look on my mom’s face.

“Start from the beginning and don’t leave a single thing out. I want to know why the hell you’ve

kept my grandson a secret from his family,” Mom growls, her eyes turning fierce.

I didn’t want to rehash the past, but at this point, I don’t think I had any choice. If I didn’t want

them to be even madder than they were right now, then I had to spill it.

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“When Rowan married Ava, I was broken I tried not to let it show. Tried to make you, dad, and

Travis believe I was okay because you were all so worried about me. I felt like I was drowning,

world had exploded, and I’d been left with nothing. When I went back

tell any of you, but I

I did back then when I

with Ava.

I didn’t sleep, and I didn’t attend classes. In

noticed this. She started pushing, and when I refused to get

didn’t want you to know how I

out how tough

lost in memory. I had so much bitterness and

would have

discovered she had been going through her

going well after that. Molly became

Rowan every second.” I take a deep breath “It was

out we went to the same Uni and he was

assignment partner.” 2

all, we weren’t friends. I tolerated

show any remnants of the obsession he

stayed out of my way and I stayed out

to stop, but now more

some time. They weren’t perfect, but they were

is, until the night m alled me to let me know that Ava had given

Rowan fell in love with his son at first sight. Everything around

the surface.” I try to breathe through the pain of the memories, but

so fucking hard.

and I was really angry. Angry at myself for turning down

sleeping with Ava, angry at

man I loved and angry at the baby

turn to know that it is from

gone the

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he crushed on me, so that night I approached Calvin and seduced him I knew word would probably get back to Rowan, and that would have hurt him. That’s why I slept with Calvin that night, because I counted on Rowan’s friend telling him. He would have been so hurt, I would have gotten

it’s also how I lost my virginity. I was saving it for Rowan and in the end I gave it to the guy who kept fighting

even like just to get back at the man I loved. I told Calvin that it was a mistake and that he should forget about what happened between us. I snuck out of his

planned for what was to come next. What destiny

went back to ignoring each other like the other didn’t exist, that is, until my period was

one day Rowan and I would get back together. I didn’t want an unwanted baby to hinder

of my mistake to always be in my

an emergency pill the morning after?” mom

complete mess, everything was new to me.

first time I’ve ever h–had s–sex so I didn’t really

to

to get one, but like I said, I was so

anyone to know.”

during all the years you dated Rowan, you never slept

virgin?” Travis

started dating, which was at seventeen, he’d previously

a vagina. When

I was ready. My

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we not talk about this? It was years

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answer your question, yes I was still a virgin. Anyway,”

want the child and I wanted to get rid of

abortion?” Mom asks, her voice ringing with horror and

nod my head. “Calvin threatened to tell you and dad if I went