Ex-Husband's Regret

Her side of the story
Mom collapses in the chair after my admission. The heartbroken look in her eyes was undoing

me. The disappointed look she gave me nearly made me crumble on the spot.
Travis, who had been holding me, lets go as if I had burned him. He backs away from me slowly

until he’s a few feet away.

I know the rest had varying degrees of shock, but they didn’t matter to me right now. Not when

my family was looking at me like they didn’t know me. Like I was a stranger.

“Please tell me you’re playing a sick joke on me,” Mom pleads. “Tell me you didn’t have a child and

kept him hidden from us all these years.”

I want to lie to them just so the heartbroken and disappointed look in their eyes will disappear. I

know that I can no longer do that. There was no hiding from this. There was no more running from

the truth.

“I’m sorry. So sorry,” I cry as I stumble towards her. “I wanted to tell you, but I was so ashamed.”

I go to take her hand, but she flinches and pulls it away.

This is what I’ve been so afraid of. Ava was right. I was the perfect daughter. The one who never

made any mistakes.

The one that thought things through before, except for that one time. Now their image of me is

tarnished. Now they know that I am just like them. Human. The Ace card I had over Ava was gone. 2

I was in the same boat as Ava. I made mistakes that are now hunting me. Sleeping with Calvin

remains the greatest mistak

y life.

“H–How did this happen? When did it happen…did dad now?” Travis asks as he paces, frustration

clear in his steps.

“Dad didn’t know. No one except Calvin and Molly knew.” I look at the ground, unable to face the

look on my mom’s face.

“Start from the beginning and don’t leave a single thing out. I want to know why the hell you’ve

kept my grandson a secret from his family,” Mom growls, her eyes turning fierce.

I didn’t want to rehash the past, but at this point, I don’t think I had any choice. If I didn’t want

them to be even madder than they were right now, then I had to spill it.

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“When Rowan married Ava, I was broken I tried not to let it show. Tried to make you, dad, and

Travis believe I was okay because you were all so worried about me. I felt like I was drowning,

and I’d been left with

any of you, but

grass, feeling as small as I did back then when I

with Ava.

away. I didn’t eat, I didn’t sleep, and I didn’t attend classes. In fact, I rarely left

when

guys to let you know. I didn’t want you to know how I was struggling. I didn’t want Ava

out how tough

was lost in memory. I had so much bitterness and resentment towards Ava back

I’d fallen, she would have been

discovered she had been going through her

were going well after that. Molly became my anchor. My grades were improving, and

think about Rowan every second.” I take a deep breath

that I met Calvin again. It turns out we went to the same Uni and he

assignment partner.” 2

didn’t really talk to him. After all, we weren’t

he didn’t show any remnants of the

weary of him. We co–existed. He stayed out of my way and I stayed out of

now more than

said, things were going well for some time. They

me to let me know that Ava had given birth

fell in love with his son at first sight. Everything around me crumbled,

came to the surface.” I try to breathe through the pain of the memories,

so fucking hard.

Angry at

getting drunk and sleeping with Ava, angry at Ava for getting pregnant and

angry at the baby for being

turn to know that it is from Rowan. I still

gone the way I wanted

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on me, so that night I approached Calvin and seduced him I knew word would probably get back to Rowan, and that would have hurt him. That’s why I

my virginity. I was saving it for Rowan and in the end I gave

even like just to get back at the man I loved. I told Calvin that it was a mistake and that he should forget about

had I been wrong. I hadn’t planned for what was to come next. What destiny had

ignoring each other like the other didn’t exist, that is, until my period was late. A cheap test. and later, a doctor’s appointment confirmed

news I’ve ever received. Deep in my heart, I believed that one day Rowan and I would get back together. I didn’t want an unwanted baby to hinder that. I didn’t

to always be in my

didn’t you get an emergency pill the morning after?” mom asks, making me blush a

to me. To put it plainly, I

ever h–had s–sex so I didn’t really know

n’t really enough to

she would have aused me to get one, but like I said, I was so ashamed,

anyone to know.”

the years you dated Rowan, you never slept

a virgin?” Travis asks

we started dating, which was at seventeen,

a vagina. When I’d told him I

I was ready. My biggest regret

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we not talk about this? It was years

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was still a virgin. Anyway,” 1 paused. “I told

wanted to get rid of it, but

wanted an abortion?” Mom asks, her voice ringing with

anything, but nod my head. “Calvin threatened to tell you and