Ex-Husband's Regret

Her side of the story
Mom collapses in the chair after my admission. The heartbroken look in her eyes was undoing

me. The disappointed look she gave me nearly made me crumble on the spot.
Travis, who had been holding me, lets go as if I had burned him. He backs away from me slowly

until he’s a few feet away.

I know the rest had varying degrees of shock, but they didn’t matter to me right now. Not when

my family was looking at me like they didn’t know me. Like I was a stranger.

“Please tell me you’re playing a sick joke on me,” Mom pleads. “Tell me you didn’t have a child and

kept him hidden from us all these years.”

I want to lie to them just so the heartbroken and disappointed look in their eyes will disappear. I

know that I can no longer do that. There was no hiding from this. There was no more running from

the truth.

“I’m sorry. So sorry,” I cry as I stumble towards her. “I wanted to tell you, but I was so ashamed.”

I go to take her hand, but she flinches and pulls it away.

This is what I’ve been so afraid of. Ava was right. I was the perfect daughter. The one who never

made any mistakes.

The one that thought things through before, except for that one time. Now their image of me is

tarnished. Now they know that I am just like them. Human. The Ace card I had over Ava was gone. 2

I was in the same boat as Ava. I made mistakes that are now hunting me. Sleeping with Calvin

remains the greatest mistak

y life.

“H–How did this happen? When did it happen…did dad now?” Travis asks as he paces, frustration

clear in his steps.

“Dad didn’t know. No one except Calvin and Molly knew.” I look at the ground, unable to face the

look on my mom’s face.

“Start from the beginning and don’t leave a single thing out. I want to know why the hell you’ve

kept my grandson a secret from his family,” Mom growls, her eyes turning fierce.

I didn’t want to rehash the past, but at this point, I don’t think I had any choice. If I didn’t want

them to be even madder than they were right now, then I had to spill it.

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“When Rowan married Ava, I was broken I tried not to let it show. Tried to make you, dad, and

Travis believe I was okay because you were all so worried about me. I felt like I was drowning,

left with nothing. When I went back to school,

you, but I fell

as I did back then when I learned

with Ava.

and I didn’t attend classes. In fact, I

noticed this. She started pushing, and when I refused to get

guys to let you know. I didn’t want you to know how

tough things

had so much bitterness and resentment towards Ava back

found out how far I’d fallen, she would have been ecstatic. It was probably a

had been going through her own kind of

were going well after that. Molly became my anchor. My grades were improving,

constantly cry or think about Rowan every second.” I take a deep breath “It

we went to the same Uni and he

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didn’t really talk to him. After all, we weren’t friends. I tolerated him because he was

when he didn’t show any remnants of the

weary of him. We co–existed. He stayed out of my way and I

This was hard. I wanted to stop, but now more than ever, I

some time.

m alled me to let me

in love with his son at first sight. Everything around me

hiding came to the surface.” I try to breathe through the pain of the memories, but

so fucking hard.

was in pain, and I was really angry. Angry at myself for

for getting drunk and sleeping with Ava, angry at Ava for getting pregnant and

loved and angry at

air. I don’t need to turn to know that

Noah because if everything had gone the way I wanted it

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approached Calvin and seduced him I knew word would probably get back to Rowan, and that would have hurt him. That’s why I slept with Calvin that night, because I counted on Rowan’s friend telling him. He would have been so

how I lost my virginity. I was saving it for Rowan and in

didn’t even like just to get back at the man I loved. I told Calvin that it was a mistake and that he should forget about what happened between us. I snuck out of his room, and I thought that was that. That it was a terrible one–night stand

been wrong. I hadn’t planned for what was

went back to ignoring each other like the other didn’t exist, that is, until my period was late. A cheap test. and later, a doctor’s appointment confirmed that I

in my heart, I believed that one day Rowan

mistake to always be in

pill the morning after?” mom asks, making me blush

being a complete mess, everything was new to me.

I didn’t really know that I should have. It

so I assumed tha‘ n’t really enough to get me pregnant. Looking

aused me to get one, but like I said, I was

anyone to know.”

to tell me that during all the years you dated

still a virgin?” Travis

we started dating, which was at seventeen, he’d previously

that walked and had a vagina. When I’d told him I wasn’t ready,

was ready. My biggest regret

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we not talk about this? It

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question, yes I was still a virgin. Anyway,” 1 paused. “I told Calvin

I wanted to get rid of it, but

her voice ringing with horror and

couldn’t do anything, but nod my head. “Calvin threatened to tell you and dad if