Ex-Husband's Regret

Her side of the story
Mom collapses in the chair after my admission. The heartbroken look in her eyes was undoing

me. The disappointed look she gave me nearly made me crumble on the spot.
Travis, who had been holding me, lets go as if I had burned him. He backs away from me slowly

until he’s a few feet away.

I know the rest had varying degrees of shock, but they didn’t matter to me right now. Not when

my family was looking at me like they didn’t know me. Like I was a stranger.

“Please tell me you’re playing a sick joke on me,” Mom pleads. “Tell me you didn’t have a child and

kept him hidden from us all these years.”

I want to lie to them just so the heartbroken and disappointed look in their eyes will disappear. I

know that I can no longer do that. There was no hiding from this. There was no more running from

the truth.

“I’m sorry. So sorry,” I cry as I stumble towards her. “I wanted to tell you, but I was so ashamed.”

I go to take her hand, but she flinches and pulls it away.

This is what I’ve been so afraid of. Ava was right. I was the perfect daughter. The one who never

made any mistakes.

The one that thought things through before, except for that one time. Now their image of me is

tarnished. Now they know that I am just like them. Human. The Ace card I had over Ava was gone. 2

I was in the same boat as Ava. I made mistakes that are now hunting me. Sleeping with Calvin

remains the greatest mistak

y life.

“H–How did this happen? When did it happen…did dad now?” Travis asks as he paces, frustration

clear in his steps.

“Dad didn’t know. No one except Calvin and Molly knew.” I look at the ground, unable to face the

look on my mom’s face.

“Start from the beginning and don’t leave a single thing out. I want to know why the hell you’ve

kept my grandson a secret from his family,” Mom growls, her eyes turning fierce.

I didn’t want to rehash the past, but at this point, I don’t think I had any choice. If I didn’t want

them to be even madder than they were right now, then I had to spill it.

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“When Rowan married Ava, I was broken I tried not to let it show. Tried to make you, dad, and

Travis believe I was okay because you were all so worried about me. I felt like I was drowning,

been left with nothing. When I went back to school,

tell any of you, but I fell

grass, feeling as small as I did back then when I learned that Rowan

with Ava.

I didn’t eat, I didn’t sleep, and I

She started pushing, and when I refused to get better, she threatened

you

out how tough things were

so much bitterness and resentment towards Ava back then.

she would have been ecstatic. It was probably

I discovered she had been going

going well after that. Molly became my anchor. My grades were improving, and

every second.” I take a deep breath “It was

I met Calvin again. It turns out we went to the same Uni and he was also

assignment partner.” 2

didn’t really talk to him. After all, we weren’t

when he didn’t show any remnants of the

him. We co–existed. He stayed out of my way and

but now more than

for some time. They weren’t perfect, but they

alled me to let me know that Ava had given birth to

Rowan fell in love with his son at first sight. Everything around me crumbled, and

I try to breathe through the pain of the

so fucking hard.

and I was really angry. Angry at

getting drunk and sleeping with Ava, angry at Ava for getting pregnant

man I loved and angry at the

a sharp intake of air. I don’t need to turn to know

around Noah because if everything had gone the way I wanted

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disliked Calvin for the way he crushed on me, so that night I approached Calvin and seduced him I knew word would probably get back to Rowan, and that would have hurt him. That’s why I slept with Calvin that night, because I counted on Rowan’s friend telling him. He would have been so hurt, I would have gotten my revenge, and maybe

them, but it’s also how I lost my virginity. I was saving it for Rowan and in the end I gave it to the guy who kept fighting for me

mistake and that he should forget about what happened between us. I snuck out of his room, and I thought

wrong. I hadn’t planned for what was to

like the other didn’t exist, that is, until my period was late. A cheap test. and

worst news I’ve ever received. Deep in my heart, I believed that one day Rowan and I would

of my mistake to always be in my

get an emergency pill the morning after?” mom asks,

being a complete mess, everything was new to me.

time I’ve ever h–had s–sex so I didn’t really

to get me pregnant.

aused me to get one, but like I said, I

anyone to know.”

that during all the years you dated Rowan, you never

virgin?”

Rowan wasn’t. Before we started dating, which

a vagina. When I’d told him I wasn’t ready,

planned to wait till I was ready. My biggest regret was holding out

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“Can we not talk about this? It was

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yes I was still a virgin. Anyway,”

want the child and I wanted to get rid of it, but he wouldn’t

an abortion?” Mom asks, her voice ringing with horror and

head. “Calvin threatened to tell you