Ex-Husband's Regret

Her side of the story
Mom collapses in the chair after my admission. The heartbroken look in her eyes was undoing

me. The disappointed look she gave me nearly made me crumble on the spot.
Travis, who had been holding me, lets go as if I had burned him. He backs away from me slowly

until he’s a few feet away.

I know the rest had varying degrees of shock, but they didn’t matter to me right now. Not when

my family was looking at me like they didn’t know me. Like I was a stranger.

“Please tell me you’re playing a sick joke on me,” Mom pleads. “Tell me you didn’t have a child and

kept him hidden from us all these years.”

I want to lie to them just so the heartbroken and disappointed look in their eyes will disappear. I

know that I can no longer do that. There was no hiding from this. There was no more running from

the truth.

“I’m sorry. So sorry,” I cry as I stumble towards her. “I wanted to tell you, but I was so ashamed.”

I go to take her hand, but she flinches and pulls it away.

This is what I’ve been so afraid of. Ava was right. I was the perfect daughter. The one who never

made any mistakes.

The one that thought things through before, except for that one time. Now their image of me is

tarnished. Now they know that I am just like them. Human. The Ace card I had over Ava was gone. 2

I was in the same boat as Ava. I made mistakes that are now hunting me. Sleeping with Calvin

remains the greatest mistak

y life.

“H–How did this happen? When did it happen…did dad now?” Travis asks as he paces, frustration

clear in his steps.

“Dad didn’t know. No one except Calvin and Molly knew.” I look at the ground, unable to face the

look on my mom’s face.

“Start from the beginning and don’t leave a single thing out. I want to know why the hell you’ve

kept my grandson a secret from his family,” Mom growls, her eyes turning fierce.

I didn’t want to rehash the past, but at this point, I don’t think I had any choice. If I didn’t want

them to be even madder than they were right now, then I had to spill it.

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“When Rowan married Ava, I was broken I tried not to let it show. Tried to make you, dad, and

Travis believe I was okay because you were all so worried about me. I felt like I was drowning,

exploded, and I’d been left with nothing. When I

tell any of you, but I fell into

as I did back then when I

with Ava.

I didn’t sleep, and I didn’t attend classes.

She started pushing, and when

know. I didn’t want you to

out how tough things

memory. I had so much

how far I’d fallen, she would have been ecstatic. It was probably

that I discovered she had been going through her own

were going well after that. Molly became my anchor. My grades were improving,

cry or think about Rowan every second.” I take a deep breath

met Calvin again. It turns out we went to the same Uni and he was also

assignment partner.” 2

really talk to him. After all, we weren’t friends. I tolerated him because he was

and when he didn’t show any remnants of the obsession he had for

We co–existed. He stayed out of my

to stop, but now more than ever, I

well for some time. They weren’t perfect,

me to let me know that Ava had given birth

in love with his son at first sight. Everything

been hiding came to the surface.” I try to breathe

so fucking hard.

pain, and I was really angry. Angry

for getting drunk and sleeping with Ava, angry at Ava for getting pregnant and

and angry at the

intake of air. I don’t need to turn to know that it is from Rowan.

around Noah because if everything had gone the

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night I approached Calvin and seduced him I knew word would probably get back to Rowan, and that would have hurt him. That’s why I slept with Calvin that night, because I counted on Rowan’s friend telling him. He would have been so hurt, I would have gotten my revenge, and maybe then it would no

but it’s also how I lost my virginity. I was saving it for Rowan and in the end I gave it to the guy who kept fighting

didn’t even like just to get back at the man I loved. I told Calvin that it was a mistake and that he should forget about what happened between us. I snuck out of his room,

had I been wrong. I hadn’t planned for what was to come next. What destiny had planned

is, until my period was late. A cheap test. and later, a doctor’s

one day Rowan and I would get back together. I didn’t want an unwanted baby to hinder that. I

mistake to always be

the morning after?”

was new to

time I’ve ever h–had s–sex so I

n’t really enough to get me pregnant. Looking back,

me to get one, but like I said, I was so

anyone to know.”

the years you dated Rowan, you never slept

virgin?”

Before we started dating, which

vagina. When I’d

ready. My biggest regret

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“Can we not

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question, yes I was still a virgin. Anyway,” 1

I wanted to

asks, her voice ringing

but nod my head. “Calvin threatened to tell you and dad