Ex-Husband's Regret

Her side of the story
Mom collapses in the chair after my admission. The heartbroken look in her eyes was undoing

me. The disappointed look she gave me nearly made me crumble on the spot.
Travis, who had been holding me, lets go as if I had burned him. He backs away from me slowly

until he’s a few feet away.

I know the rest had varying degrees of shock, but they didn’t matter to me right now. Not when

my family was looking at me like they didn’t know me. Like I was a stranger.

“Please tell me you’re playing a sick joke on me,” Mom pleads. “Tell me you didn’t have a child and

kept him hidden from us all these years.”

I want to lie to them just so the heartbroken and disappointed look in their eyes will disappear. I

know that I can no longer do that. There was no hiding from this. There was no more running from

the truth.

“I’m sorry. So sorry,” I cry as I stumble towards her. “I wanted to tell you, but I was so ashamed.”

I go to take her hand, but she flinches and pulls it away.

This is what I’ve been so afraid of. Ava was right. I was the perfect daughter. The one who never

made any mistakes.

The one that thought things through before, except for that one time. Now their image of me is

tarnished. Now they know that I am just like them. Human. The Ace card I had over Ava was gone. 2

I was in the same boat as Ava. I made mistakes that are now hunting me. Sleeping with Calvin

remains the greatest mistak

y life.

“H–How did this happen? When did it happen…did dad now?” Travis asks as he paces, frustration

clear in his steps.

“Dad didn’t know. No one except Calvin and Molly knew.” I look at the ground, unable to face the

look on my mom’s face.

“Start from the beginning and don’t leave a single thing out. I want to know why the hell you’ve

kept my grandson a secret from his family,” Mom growls, her eyes turning fierce.

I didn’t want to rehash the past, but at this point, I don’t think I had any choice. If I didn’t want

them to be even madder than they were right now, then I had to spill it.

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“When Rowan married Ava, I was broken I tried not to let it show. Tried to make you, dad, and

Travis believe I was okay because you were all so worried about me. I felt like I was drowning,

exploded, and I’d been left with nothing. When

any of you, but I fell into

on the grass, feeling as small as I did back then when I learned that Rowan

with Ava.

and I didn’t

and when I refused to get better,

know. I didn’t want you to

tough things were

memory. I had so much bitterness and

she ever found out how far I’d fallen, she would have been ecstatic. It was probably a year and

she had been going through her own

became my

cry or think about Rowan every second.” I take a deep breath “It

met Calvin again. It turns out we went to the same Uni and he

assignment partner.” 2

really talk to him. After all, we weren’t friends. I tolerated him because

and when he didn’t show any remnants of the obsession he

He stayed out of my way and

hard. I wanted to stop, but now

going well for some time. They

until the night m alled me to let me know that Ava had given

his son at first sight. Everything around me crumbled, and all the

to

so fucking hard.

and I was really angry. Angry at myself for

getting drunk and sleeping with Ava, angry at Ava for getting

angry at the baby for being

don’t need to turn to know that it is

had gone the way I wanted

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the way he crushed on me, so that night I approached Calvin and seduced him I knew word would probably get back to Rowan, and that would have hurt him. That’s why I slept with Calvin that night, because I counted on Rowan’s friend telling

it’s also how I lost my virginity. I was saving it for Rowan and in the end I gave

mistake and that he should forget about what happened between us. I snuck out of his room,

been wrong. I hadn’t planned for what was to come next. What destiny had planned

other like the other didn’t exist, that is, until my period was late.

that one day Rowan and I would get back together. I didn’t want an unwanted baby

to always

get an emergency pill the morning after?” mom asks,

mess, everything was new to me. To put it plainly, I was naive.

the–the first time I’ve ever h–had s–sex so I didn’t really know that I should have.

n’t really enough to get me pregnant. Looking back, maybe if I’d

one, but like I said, I

anyone to know.”

all the years you dated Rowan, you never slept together?

virgin?” Travis asks in

knew Rowan wasn’t. Before we started dating, which

had a vagina. When I’d told him I wasn’t

till I was ready. My biggest regret was

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we not talk about this? It

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was still a virgin. Anyway,” 1 paused.

child and I wanted to get rid of it, but he wouldn’t

Mom asks, her voice

threatened to tell you