Ex-Husband's Regret

Her side of the story
Mom collapses in the chair after my admission. The heartbroken look in her eyes was undoing

me. The disappointed look she gave me nearly made me crumble on the spot.
Travis, who had been holding me, lets go as if I had burned him. He backs away from me slowly

until he’s a few feet away.

I know the rest had varying degrees of shock, but they didn’t matter to me right now. Not when

my family was looking at me like they didn’t know me. Like I was a stranger.

“Please tell me you’re playing a sick joke on me,” Mom pleads. “Tell me you didn’t have a child and

kept him hidden from us all these years.”

I want to lie to them just so the heartbroken and disappointed look in their eyes will disappear. I

know that I can no longer do that. There was no hiding from this. There was no more running from

the truth.

“I’m sorry. So sorry,” I cry as I stumble towards her. “I wanted to tell you, but I was so ashamed.”

I go to take her hand, but she flinches and pulls it away.

This is what I’ve been so afraid of. Ava was right. I was the perfect daughter. The one who never

made any mistakes.

The one that thought things through before, except for that one time. Now their image of me is

tarnished. Now they know that I am just like them. Human. The Ace card I had over Ava was gone. 2

I was in the same boat as Ava. I made mistakes that are now hunting me. Sleeping with Calvin

remains the greatest mistak

y life.

“H–How did this happen? When did it happen…did dad now?” Travis asks as he paces, frustration

clear in his steps.

“Dad didn’t know. No one except Calvin and Molly knew.” I look at the ground, unable to face the

look on my mom’s face.

“Start from the beginning and don’t leave a single thing out. I want to know why the hell you’ve

kept my grandson a secret from his family,” Mom growls, her eyes turning fierce.

I didn’t want to rehash the past, but at this point, I don’t think I had any choice. If I didn’t want

them to be even madder than they were right now, then I had to spill it.

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“When Rowan married Ava, I was broken I tried not to let it show. Tried to make you, dad, and

Travis believe I was okay because you were all so worried about me. I felt like I was drowning,

my world had exploded, and I’d been left with nothing. When I went back to

you, but

as I did back then when I

with Ava.

was fading away. I didn’t eat, I didn’t sleep, and I didn’t attend classes. In fact, I rarely left

pushing, and when I refused to get better,

I didn’t want you to know how I was struggling. I didn’t want

out how tough things

much bitterness and

fallen, she would have been ecstatic. It was probably a year

she had been going through her

became my anchor. My grades were

second.” I take a deep

turns out we went to the same Uni and he

assignment partner.” 2

didn’t really talk to him. After all, we

when he didn’t show any remnants of the obsession he had

co–existed. He stayed out of

to stop, but now more than ever, I knew they wouldn’t

said, things were going well for some time. They weren’t

alled me to let me know that Ava

Rowan fell in love with his son at first sight. Everything

surface.” I try to

so fucking hard.

was really angry. Angry at myself

for getting drunk and sleeping with Ava, angry at Ava

loved and angry at the

need to turn to know that it is

had gone the way I

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always disliked Calvin for the way he crushed on me, so that night I approached Calvin and seduced him I knew word would probably get back to Rowan, and that would have hurt him. That’s why I slept with Calvin that night, because I counted on Rowan’s friend telling him. He would have been so hurt, I would have gotten my revenge, and maybe then it would no longer hurt

also how I lost my virginity. I was saving it for Rowan and in the end I gave it to the guy who kept fighting for me

man I loved. I told Calvin that it was a mistake and that he should forget about what happened between us. I snuck out of

had I been wrong. I hadn’t planned for what

like the other didn’t exist, that is, until my period was late. A cheap test. and later, a doctor’s appointment

my heart, I believed that one day Rowan and I would get back together. I didn’t want

to always be in

emergency pill the morning after?” mom asks, making

to me. To

time I’ve ever h–had s–sex so I didn’t really know that

really enough to get me pregnant. Looking back,

but like I said,

anyone to know.”

that during all the

still a virgin?” Travis

started dating, which was at seventeen, he’d

a vagina. When I’d told him

was ready. My biggest regret was holding out

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“Can we not talk about this? It was

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was still a virgin. Anyway,” 1 paused. “I told

I wanted to get rid of

an abortion?” Mom asks, her

my head. “Calvin threatened to tell you and dad if