Ex-Husband's Regret

His confession
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I’ve been obsessing for the last few days over the note. I just wanted to nail whoever this person is so

that I could move on peacefully with my life.

I hated that I was now jumpy and scared all the damn time. Noah has even noticed that I haven’t been

myself. Every time he asks, I just tell him that I am okay when I am clearly not.

My life was so simple back when I was married to Rowan as compared to now. The only thing I worried

about was whether or not he would come for dinner or if he would ever love me. I know I used to be in

constant pain, but I’d pick that over dying any day.

I haven’t had a moment of peace since I divorced Rowan. An attempt on my life was made three times.

My car was blown up, my house burned down, and I was kidnapped twice. After I agreed to Reaper being

in my life, I thought that things would settle down, but no… Now someone was after me. Again.

“Mom, can I go over at Gunner’s?” Noah asks, scaring the crap out of me.

I try to calm my heart down. See what I mean when I say I’m jumpy?

He looks at me funny, but I ignore it and force my lips into a semblance of a smile.

“Sure, use the back door, though, okay?”

He nods his head, and I stand up. I wanted to make sure that he crossed over to Calvin’s side safely and

that he got inside his house.

“Today we are going to play games. Last time I won, this time Gunner hopes that he wins,” he tells me as

we walk.

“That’s good”

I haven’t seen Calvin since that day in my kitchen. He has been avoiding me as much as he can. I’m not

sure if it’s because he’s embarrassed or because he was hurt by my rejection. Maybe it is both.

Anyway, I’ve been giving him space because I didn’t want things to be even more awkward than they

already were.

“See you later, mom,” Noah says as he crosses over to Cal’s.

their house, I turn back and head

a minute later, there is a knock on

wasn’t another

forgotten that we were supposed

the talk was the least of

his hands inside

something I wasn’t used to when it came to

I tell him while scanning

I needed was a note arriving while he was here

gives me a

“What?” I ask.

would put

want to come in or not?” I ask

one last look before he enters my house. Without waiting too long, I close

someone is

paranoid over the past few days that sometimes it terrifies me.

the better for my mental

seat in my recliner. I bought it a few weeks ago because it helped relieve my back pain. I even

mattress because it made my back

me about?” I stare into his eyes. “It sounded

Noah?”

breath before releasing. “No.

truly lost his mind. What the hell was he even talking about, for goodness

is no us, Rowan. You seem

with him. Not when

to me, please,” he pleads, his voice

voice stops me. I don’t know what it is, but I don’t want to put too much thought into it. Instead, I shut my mouth

to find the right words.

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you, he

at him like a fish out of water.

feel his forehead for a

Or

He grabs my hand, turns it,

know when I fell in love with you or how, all I know is that I love you, Ava. I didn’t see it back then. I was so overcome with bitterness and anger that I didn’t realize what a true gem I had married. In the last few months, it’s been hard to be without you. Seeing you in pain or hurt destroys me every time. It has taken me time to realize that I’m in love with you, but here I am, begging you to give me a chance to show you the

completely stunned, as he gets out of the chair and kneels before me. This all

start, trying to make my brain function. “You don’t love me. You’ve never loved me. Emma is your one and only love. She’s the one

and regret flash in his eyes. I feel bad for him, but I know that maybe he’s just confused about

be in

me Ava” he says as the pain changes to

me. You have hurt me more times than I can count, all in the

but I force it down. I

heartache.

and you’ll never know how much I regret hurting you, but