Ex-Husband's Regret

His confession
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I’ve been obsessing for the last few days over the note. I just wanted to nail whoever this person is so

that I could move on peacefully with my life.

I hated that I was now jumpy and scared all the damn time. Noah has even noticed that I haven’t been

myself. Every time he asks, I just tell him that I am okay when I am clearly not.

My life was so simple back when I was married to Rowan as compared to now. The only thing I worried

about was whether or not he would come for dinner or if he would ever love me. I know I used to be in

constant pain, but I’d pick that over dying any day.

I haven’t had a moment of peace since I divorced Rowan. An attempt on my life was made three times.

My car was blown up, my house burned down, and I was kidnapped twice. After I agreed to Reaper being

in my life, I thought that things would settle down, but no… Now someone was after me. Again.

“Mom, can I go over at Gunner’s?” Noah asks, scaring the crap out of me.

I try to calm my heart down. See what I mean when I say I’m jumpy?

He looks at me funny, but I ignore it and force my lips into a semblance of a smile.

“Sure, use the back door, though, okay?”

He nods his head, and I stand up. I wanted to make sure that he crossed over to Calvin’s side safely and

that he got inside his house.

“Today we are going to play games. Last time I won, this time Gunner hopes that he wins,” he tells me as

we walk.

“That’s good”

I haven’t seen Calvin since that day in my kitchen. He has been avoiding me as much as he can. I’m not

sure if it’s because he’s embarrassed or because he was hurt by my rejection. Maybe it is both.

Anyway, I’ve been giving him space because I didn’t want things to be even more awkward than they

already were.

“See you later, mom,” Noah says as he crosses over to Cal’s.

their house, I turn back and head into

and not even a minute later, there is a knock on my door. I approach

it wasn’t

the door and find Rowan Fuck I’d forgotten that we

happened, the talk was the least

shoving his hands inside his

was something I wasn’t

in,” I tell him

thing I needed was a note arriving while he

gives me a

“What?” I ask.

thought you would put

you want to come in or not?” I

gives me one last look before he enters my house. Without waiting too long, I

someone is

become so paranoid over the past few days that sometimes

the better for my

a few weeks ago because it helped relieve my

change my mattress because it made my back pain

to talk to me about?” I stare into his eyes.

Noah?”

before releasing. “No.

if he had truly lost his mind. What the hell was he

Rowan. You seem to be forgetting that

with him. Not when I had so

me, please,” he

desperation in his voice stops me. I don’t know what it is, but I don’t want to put too much thought into it.

while, as if he were struggling to find the right words. The more he

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love you, he finally

open, and I gape at him like a fish out of water. He wasn’t seated that

and feel his forehead for

a fever? Or maybe I just didn’t

me, but within seconds, his features soften. He grabs my hand,

I fell in love with you or how, all I know is that I love you, Ava. I didn’t see it back then. I was so overcome with bitterness and anger that I didn’t realize what a true gem I had married. In the last few months, it’s been hard to be without you. Seeing you in pain or hurt destroys me every time. It has taken me time to realize that I’m in love with you, but here I am, begging you to give me a chance to show you the love you

chair and kneels before me. This all seems like a dream.

make my brain function. “You don’t love me. You’ve never loved me. Emma is your one and only

eyes. I feel bad for him,

be in love with

he says as

months ago. You have proven over and over again how little you care for me. You have hurt me more times than I can count, all in the name of punishing me for ruining your relationship with Emma. You held on to her for years, and now all of a sudden, you want me to believe that you love

up, but I force it down. I have no time or energy to feel the

heartache.

you’ll never know how much I regret hurting you, but if you could only give me