Ex-Husband's Regret

His confession
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I’ve been obsessing for the last few days over the note. I just wanted to nail whoever this person is so

that I could move on peacefully with my life.

I hated that I was now jumpy and scared all the damn time. Noah has even noticed that I haven’t been

myself. Every time he asks, I just tell him that I am okay when I am clearly not.

My life was so simple back when I was married to Rowan as compared to now. The only thing I worried

about was whether or not he would come for dinner or if he would ever love me. I know I used to be in

constant pain, but I’d pick that over dying any day.

I haven’t had a moment of peace since I divorced Rowan. An attempt on my life was made three times.

My car was blown up, my house burned down, and I was kidnapped twice. After I agreed to Reaper being

in my life, I thought that things would settle down, but no… Now someone was after me. Again.

“Mom, can I go over at Gunner’s?” Noah asks, scaring the crap out of me.

I try to calm my heart down. See what I mean when I say I’m jumpy?

He looks at me funny, but I ignore it and force my lips into a semblance of a smile.

“Sure, use the back door, though, okay?”

He nods his head, and I stand up. I wanted to make sure that he crossed over to Calvin’s side safely and

that he got inside his house.

“Today we are going to play games. Last time I won, this time Gunner hopes that he wins,” he tells me as

we walk.

“That’s good”

I haven’t seen Calvin since that day in my kitchen. He has been avoiding me as much as he can. I’m not

sure if it’s because he’s embarrassed or because he was hurt by my rejection. Maybe it is both.

Anyway, I’ve been giving him space because I didn’t want things to be even more awkward than they

already were.

“See you later, mom,” Noah says as he crosses over to Cal’s.

he is in their house, I turn back and

a minute later, there is a knock on my door. I approach

it wasn’t

I’d forgotten that we were supposed

happened, the talk was the least of

his

this was something I wasn’t used to when it came

tell him while scanning the

thing I needed was a note

me

“What?” I ask.

you would put up

in or not?”

gives me one last look before he enters my house. Without

is

so paranoid over the past few days that sometimes

issue the better for

my recliner. I bought it a few

my mattress because it made my

did you want to talk to me about?” I

Noah?”

breath before releasing. “No.

stare at him, confused, wondering if he had truly lost his mind. What the hell was he even talking about, for goodness

Rowan. You seem to be

do this with him.

to me, please,” he pleads,

don’t know what it is, but I don’t

doesn’t talk for a while, as if he were struggling to find

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love you,

gape at him like a fish out of

his forehead for a

a fever? Or maybe I just didn’t hear you,

He grabs my hand, turns

bitterness and anger that I didn’t realize what a true gem I had married. In the last few months, it’s been hard to be without you.

out of the chair and kneels before me. This all seems like a dream. It’s like I am in a completely different world right

loved me. Emma

regret flash in his eyes. I feel bad for him, but I know that maybe he’s just confused about

just doesn’t make sense. How can he be in love with me when he hates me

listening to me Ava” he says as

How can you be in love with me now? You’ve hated me up until a few months ago. You have proven over and over again how little you care for me. You have hurt me more times than I can count, all in the name of punishing me for ruining your relationship with Emma. You held on to her for years, and

back up, but I force it down.

heartache.

hurting you, but if you could only give me