Ex-Husband's Regret

His confession
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I’ve been obsessing for the last few days over the note. I just wanted to nail whoever this person is so

that I could move on peacefully with my life.

I hated that I was now jumpy and scared all the damn time. Noah has even noticed that I haven’t been

myself. Every time he asks, I just tell him that I am okay when I am clearly not.

My life was so simple back when I was married to Rowan as compared to now. The only thing I worried

about was whether or not he would come for dinner or if he would ever love me. I know I used to be in

constant pain, but I’d pick that over dying any day.

I haven’t had a moment of peace since I divorced Rowan. An attempt on my life was made three times.

My car was blown up, my house burned down, and I was kidnapped twice. After I agreed to Reaper being

in my life, I thought that things would settle down, but no… Now someone was after me. Again.

“Mom, can I go over at Gunner’s?” Noah asks, scaring the crap out of me.

I try to calm my heart down. See what I mean when I say I’m jumpy?

He looks at me funny, but I ignore it and force my lips into a semblance of a smile.

“Sure, use the back door, though, okay?”

He nods his head, and I stand up. I wanted to make sure that he crossed over to Calvin’s side safely and

that he got inside his house.

“Today we are going to play games. Last time I won, this time Gunner hopes that he wins,” he tells me as

we walk.

“That’s good”

I haven’t seen Calvin since that day in my kitchen. He has been avoiding me as much as he can. I’m not

sure if it’s because he’s embarrassed or because he was hurt by my rejection. Maybe it is both.

Anyway, I’ve been giving him space because I didn’t want things to be even more awkward than they

already were.

“See you later, mom,” Noah says as he crosses over to Cal’s.

is in their house, I turn back and head into

there is a knock on my door. I approach it with trepidation. I

it wasn’t another

open the door and find Rowan Fuck I’d forgotten that we were supposed to talk.

was the least of my

asks, shoving his hands inside his

Again, this was something I wasn’t used to when it came

I tell him while scanning

thing I needed was a note arriving while he

gives me

“What?” I ask.

would put up

want to come in

last look before he enters my house. Without waiting too long, I close

someone is

over the past few days that sometimes it terrifies me.

the better for my

seat in my recliner. I bought it a few weeks ago

my mattress because it made my back pain

to talk to me about?” I stare into his eyes. “It sounded pretty

Noah?”

breath before releasing. “No. It’s about

truly lost his mind. What the hell was

no us, Rowan. You seem

him. Not when I had so

please,” he pleads, his voice

but I don’t want to put too much thought into it. Instead, I shut my mouth and focus

if he were struggling to find the right words. The more he takes

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love you, he

mouth drops open, and I gape at him like a fish out of water. He wasn’t seated that far from

feel his forehead for

Or maybe I just didn’t

He grabs my hand, turns it, and kisses

in love with you or how, all I know is that I love you, Ava. I didn’t see it back then. I was so overcome with bitterness and anger that I didn’t realize what a true gem I had married. In the last few months, it’s been hard to be without you.

of the chair and kneels before me. This all seems

to make my brain function. “You don’t love me. You’ve never loved me. Emma is your one and only love. She’s

feel bad for him, but I know that

just doesn’t make sense. How can he be in love with

he

over and over again how little you care for me. You have hurt me more times than I can count, all in the name of punishing me for ruining your relationship with Emma. You held on to her for

force it down.

heartache.

how much I regret hurting you,