Ex-Husband's Regret

His confession
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I’ve been obsessing for the last few days over the note. I just wanted to nail whoever this person is so

that I could move on peacefully with my life.

I hated that I was now jumpy and scared all the damn time. Noah has even noticed that I haven’t been

myself. Every time he asks, I just tell him that I am okay when I am clearly not.

My life was so simple back when I was married to Rowan as compared to now. The only thing I worried

about was whether or not he would come for dinner or if he would ever love me. I know I used to be in

constant pain, but I’d pick that over dying any day.

I haven’t had a moment of peace since I divorced Rowan. An attempt on my life was made three times.

My car was blown up, my house burned down, and I was kidnapped twice. After I agreed to Reaper being

in my life, I thought that things would settle down, but no… Now someone was after me. Again.

“Mom, can I go over at Gunner’s?” Noah asks, scaring the crap out of me.

I try to calm my heart down. See what I mean when I say I’m jumpy?

He looks at me funny, but I ignore it and force my lips into a semblance of a smile.

“Sure, use the back door, though, okay?”

He nods his head, and I stand up. I wanted to make sure that he crossed over to Calvin’s side safely and

that he got inside his house.

“Today we are going to play games. Last time I won, this time Gunner hopes that he wins,” he tells me as

we walk.

“That’s good”

I haven’t seen Calvin since that day in my kitchen. He has been avoiding me as much as he can. I’m not

sure if it’s because he’s embarrassed or because he was hurt by my rejection. Maybe it is both.

Anyway, I’ve been giving him space because I didn’t want things to be even more awkward than they

already were.

“See you later, mom,” Noah says as he crosses over to Cal’s.

in their house, I turn back and head into

inside, and not even a minute later, there is a knock on my door. I approach

wasn’t

door and find Rowan Fuck I’d forgotten that we were supposed to talk. With

happened, the talk was

he asks, shoving his hands

looked really nervous. Again, this was something I wasn’t used to when it

tell him

I needed was a note arriving while he was

gives me

“What?” I ask.

would put up

to come in or not?” I

he enters my house. Without waiting too long, I close the

is

so paranoid over the past few days that sometimes

the better

my recliner. I bought it a few weeks

change my mattress because it

you want to talk to me about?” I stare into his eyes. “It sounded pretty important. Is

Noah?”

deep breath before

wondering if he had truly lost his mind. What the hell was

seem to be

to do this with him. Not

me, please,” he pleads, his

don’t know what it is, but I don’t want to put too much thought into

if he were struggling to find the right

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you,

him like a fish out of water. He wasn’t

and feel his forehead

fever? Or

seconds, his features soften. He grabs my hand, turns it, and kisses my

I know is that I love you, Ava. I didn’t see it back then. I was so overcome with bitterness and anger that I didn’t realize what a true gem I had married. In the last few months, it’s been hard to be without you. Seeing you in pain or hurt destroys me every time. It has taken me time to realize that I’m in love with you, but here I am, begging you to give me

as he gets out of the chair and kneels before me. This all seems like a dream. It’s like I am in a

function. “You don’t love me. You’ve never loved me. Emma is your one and

and regret flash in his eyes. I feel bad for him, but

in love with me when he hates me so

to me Ava” he says as the

one that’s confused, Rowan. How can you be in love with me now? You’ve hated me up until a few months ago. You have proven over and over again how little you care for me. You have hurt me more times than I can count, all in the name of punishing me for ruining your relationship with Emma. You held on to her for years, and now all of a sudden,

up, but I force it down. I have

heartache.

hurting you, but if you could only give me a chance,