Ex-Husband's Regret

His confession
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I’ve been obsessing for the last few days over the note. I just wanted to nail whoever this person is so

that I could move on peacefully with my life.

I hated that I was now jumpy and scared all the damn time. Noah has even noticed that I haven’t been

myself. Every time he asks, I just tell him that I am okay when I am clearly not.

My life was so simple back when I was married to Rowan as compared to now. The only thing I worried

about was whether or not he would come for dinner or if he would ever love me. I know I used to be in

constant pain, but I’d pick that over dying any day.

I haven’t had a moment of peace since I divorced Rowan. An attempt on my life was made three times.

My car was blown up, my house burned down, and I was kidnapped twice. After I agreed to Reaper being

in my life, I thought that things would settle down, but no… Now someone was after me. Again.

“Mom, can I go over at Gunner’s?” Noah asks, scaring the crap out of me.

I try to calm my heart down. See what I mean when I say I’m jumpy?

He looks at me funny, but I ignore it and force my lips into a semblance of a smile.

“Sure, use the back door, though, okay?”

He nods his head, and I stand up. I wanted to make sure that he crossed over to Calvin’s side safely and

that he got inside his house.

“Today we are going to play games. Last time I won, this time Gunner hopes that he wins,” he tells me as

we walk.

“That’s good”

I haven’t seen Calvin since that day in my kitchen. He has been avoiding me as much as he can. I’m not

sure if it’s because he’s embarrassed or because he was hurt by my rejection. Maybe it is both.

Anyway, I’ve been giving him space because I didn’t want things to be even more awkward than they

already were.

“See you later, mom,” Noah says as he crosses over to Cal’s.

in their house, I turn back and

and not even a minute later, there is a knock on my door. I approach it with trepidation.

it wasn’t another

open the door and find Rowan Fuck I’d forgotten that

happened, the talk was the

his hands inside

was something I wasn’t used to when it came

in,” I tell him while scanning the

a note arriving while he

gives me

“What?” I ask.

would

come in or not?” I ask in

enters my house. Without waiting too

someone is watching

so paranoid over the past few days that sometimes it terrifies me. The sooner we

the better for my mental

in my recliner. I bought it a few weeks ago because it helped relieve my back pain.

because it

about?” I stare into his eyes. “It

Noah?”

a deep breath before releasing. “No. It’s about

stare at him, confused, wondering if he had truly lost his mind. What the hell was he even

Rowan. You seem

this with him.

please,” he pleads, his voice

stops me. I don’t know what it is, but I don’t want to put too much thought

he were struggling to find the right words. The more he

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love you, he finally

fish out

feel his forehead for

you high? Running a fever? Or maybe I

glares at me, but within seconds, his features soften. He grabs my

or how, all I know is that I love you, Ava. I didn’t see it back then. I was so overcome with bitterness and anger that I didn’t realize what a true gem I had married. In the last few months, it’s been hard to be without you. Seeing you in pain or hurt destroys me every time. It has taken me time to realize that I’m in love with you, but here I am, begging you to give me

as he gets out of the chair and kneels before me. This all

Rowan,” I start, trying to make my brain function. “You don’t love me. You’ve never loved me. Emma is your one and only love.

flash in his eyes. I feel bad for him, but I know that maybe he’s just confused

can he be in love with me when he hates

listening to me Ava” he says as the pain changes to

love with me now? You’ve hated me up until a few months ago. You have proven over and over again how little you care for me. You have hurt me

back up, but I force it down. I have no time or energy to feel

heartache.

hurting you, but