Anxious heart
Rowan
“Sir? Is there anything you need me to get for you from the restaurant?” My secretary asks, but I continue
staring outside my office window.
The view was really great. It was one of the reasons why I chose it, but today it didn’t offer me the
tranquility it usually does.
“No. Not today,” I answer without looking at her.
“Okay then, I’ll be back in thirty minutes”
I don’t answer her and after a few seconds I hear the door closing. I sigh in frustration. For some reason
the feeling of foreboding clung to me. It surrounded me in waves. Today more so than the previous days.
I don’t know what it is, but my heart is anxious. I can’t settle nor can I fucking focus. It’s like my soul is
trying to tell me something, but I can’t figure out what.
Trying to distract myself, I think about Ava and our talk. I get her. Damn do I get her hesitation. I’ve spent
more than ten years drilling into her that Emma was the only woman I’ll ever love.
I did everything in my power to show her just how little I cared for her. I’ve spent nine years punishing her
for something that was beyond her control. I drilled into her head that I hated her with every fiber of my
being.
How then could I turn around and claim to love her?
It’s frustrating as hell, but I understand her. I understand her reluctance to believe me. If the roles had
been switched I wouldn’t have believed it so easily.
Apart from all that, I also have to consider the pain I’ve caused her. Nine years of pain and mistreatment isn’t something you get over within a day or week. Hell. It will probably take years to heal the wounds i
inflicted. 2
remain with her though and considering the damage I caused, I can’t help
she’ll ever forgive me.
want to build a life with her. I crave that more than anything, but if she doesn’t take me back, then let it be so. I’ll have no
caused over
focus on her beautiful face and tactics
bad was going to happen. I try to assure myself,
crazy.
up, but I don’t fucking care. Not when I feel like my fucking
It was better than listening to my
to find Gabe. He looked like hell froze over. He was breathing heavily, his eyes looked bloodshot and there
anguish in them.
my tracks. Fuck. My brother is usually impeccable and not easily fazed. We share that trait as
it?” I ask as my heart
was it our parent’s?
but doesn’t finish his sentence.
Tell me what’s wrong. Is
him swallow, before
Ava” he
Ava when an unrecognizable voice mentions
in the direction
brother begs me, but I don’t pay attention
know what the hell the reporters
BREAKING NEWS.
written in
people. We are yet to know the state she’s in, but the gunman opened fire to what seems to be a hit targeted at her. The video you’re about to
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my knees weaken, but nothing could have prepared me to watching
multiple times
Ava as she was walking out of an
Whoever took the video captured a black
her direction. Just before the drove past her, a masked person, rolled
before shooting several times. They sped past her, leaving Ava to crumble on
pool of blood
ends, and the presenter comes
why these gangsters would shoot a pregnant woman, but stay tuned as
find out.”
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