Anxious heart
Rowan

“Sir? Is there anything you need me to get for you from the restaurant?” My secretary asks, but I continue

staring outside my office window.

The view was really great. It was one of the reasons why I chose it, but today it didn’t offer me the

tranquility it usually does.

“No. Not today,” I answer without looking at her.

“Okay then, I’ll be back in thirty minutes”

I don’t answer her and after a few seconds I hear the door closing. I sigh in frustration. For some reason

the feeling of foreboding clung to me. It surrounded me in waves. Today more so than the previous days.

I don’t know what it is, but my heart is anxious. I can’t settle nor can I fucking focus. It’s like my soul is

trying to tell me something, but I can’t figure out what.

Trying to distract myself, I think about Ava and our talk. I get her. Damn do I get her hesitation. I’ve spent

more than ten years drilling into her that Emma was the only woman I’ll ever love.

I did everything in my power to show her just how little I cared for her. I’ve spent nine years punishing her

for something that was beyond her control. I drilled into her head that I hated her with every fiber of my

being.

How then could I turn around and claim to love her?

It’s frustrating as hell, but I understand her. I understand her reluctance to believe me. If the roles had

been switched I wouldn’t have believed it so easily.

Apart from all that, I also have to consider the pain I’ve caused her. Nine years of pain and mistreatment isn’t something you get over within a day or week. Hell. It will probably take years to heal the wounds i

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scars will remain with her though and considering the damage I caused,

she’ll ever forgive me.

want her in my life. I want to build a life with her. I crave that more than anything, but if she doesn’t take me back, then let it be so. I’ll have no one to blame but myself. It will be my penance for

I’ve caused over the

focus on her beautiful face and tactics I could use to

way before. Never had this unshakable feeling like something bad was going to happen. I try to

crazy.

but I don’t fucking care. Not when I feel like my

other people’s voices will help me calm down. It was better than listening to my own since it was distorted, jumbled and confused the hell

how long I stood pacing through the room when my door opened. I turn to find Gabe. He

anguish in them.

My brother is usually impeccable and not easily fazed. We share that trait as twins. If he looks anything

I ask as my heart rate picks

it our parent’s?

his sentence.

Tell me what’s wrong. Is

see him swallow, before

Ava” he

wrong with Ava when an unrecognizable voice mentions her

in the direction

me” My brother begs me, but I

to know what the hell the reporters have to say

BREAKING NEWS.

headlines written in big,

The Hope Foundation was today gunned down by unknown people. We are yet to know the state she’s in, but the gunman opened fire to what seems to be

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prepared

multiple times

she was walking out of

her face. Whoever took the video captured

direction. Just before the drove past her, a masked person, rolled the window down

They sped past her, leaving Ava to crumble

pool of blood

ends, and the presenter comes back

establish why these gangsters would shoot a pregnant woman, but

find out.”

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