Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 0282

Rowan.

I still can’t get Letty’s words out of my head. When I came home early that day, I expected to spend some alone time with Ava. What I didn’t expect was to hear Letty telling Ava that she’d been falling in love with

Ethan.

The pain that shot through my fucking heart had almost blinded me. Even though I hated the relationship Ava had with Ethan, I always thought it was purely physical. That it was nothing more than sex.

The fact that s

she’d been falling for him hurt more than knowing that she had slept with him. It nearly killed

me to know that she had started seeing a future with the man.

I had masked my pain with anger. I didn’t know how to tell her that the possibility that she had felt a fraction of love for Ethan had crashed my soul into a bloody pulp. It had been too painful for me to voice.

it out.

The “what ifs‘ kept playing in my head. Refusing to give me peace of mind. I couldn’t help but wonder what would have happened if Ethan hadn’t turned out to be the bad guy. Would she be with him right

now? Would the love she had for me be replaced with the one for Ethan? Would she have been

completely over me right now?

It was driving me insane knowing that the only fucking reason that I had a chance with her was because

Ethan fucked up.

“Rowan!” The shout jolts me back to the present.

I stare at my brother in confusion, wondering when the hell he got into my office. I was so lost in thought

that I didn’t hear him enter my office.

“What?” I shuffle the papers that were in front of me before pushing them aside.

He walks across the room and sits before my desk. “I’ve been trying to get your attention for more than

five minutes.”

I don’t say anything. What was there to say? I’ve been distracted these past couple of days, and it’s all

because of Ava. She is on my fucking mind every second of every day.

Damn it. I was married to the woman for almost a decade, and she has never had this effect on me. Now

I’m addicted to her like and addict’s favorite drug.

She’s embedded to deeply inside me that I couldn’t fish her out even if I wanted. I wouldn’t even do it:

mine, and there is no fucking way I’m leaving her

“I can see you have a lot on your mind,” he looks at me in that scrutinizing way I hate. “Mind sharing?”

This is so fucking hard. How do I tell him that I am so fucking insecure now about Ava’s feelings towards Ethan? I’ve never been the insecure kind, but with Ava, I am. I’m not ashamed to admit that to myself.

Unable to sit still, I stand up and walk to the floor to ceiling window. I stare outside. One of the reasons I chose this building and office was because of the view.

My office was located on the fifteenth floor. I could practically see the whole city from here. There is also the fact that I could easily see the sun setting over a nearby lake.

“Rowan”

Sighing, I turn to face my brother. “I don’t even know where to begin.”

I’m going to take a guess and assume this about Ava?” he asks

I run my hand through my hair, messing it up in the process.

“Yes”

you can tell me anything…

before I tell him everything.

me to the brink

he always does, he sits patiently and listen

until I’m finished.

I’m fucking dying to hear what he has to say. What

me like you still jealous

dirtiest glare I can master. “That’s already

and you’re with Ava. Shouldn’t

Exhaling. I try explaining it

but I also know Ava. One way or another she’s going to insist on seeing Ethan because she’ll not only want iris to know her dad, but she’ll also want

he finally figures out where my issue is stemming

she’ll fall for Ethan all over again, aren’t

slate has been wiped clean. There is no hidden agenda and Ava knows the truth about him. What’s stopping her from falling in love with him all over again? He may have betrayed her, but he didn’t hurt her

scares me so much because I

she would wait for him to be released. Twenty

love and loyalty knows no bounds. I mean come on, she continued to love me even when I treated her like shit, do you think if she

because he’s in prison?”

head and sighs.

I exhale in disappointment.

one day at a time and focus on showing her your heart.

he was right. Whether she stays with me or not, it’s her choice. Right now the only thing I can do is

from my heart. Feeling like a

shoulders.

I was starting to relax until my phone started

looking at the

been an

recognize Theo’s voice immediately and begin to

“What happened?”

he says instead. “Ava has been

I am going to kill

Chapter 0282

Rowan

home early that day, I expected to spend some alone time with Ava. What I didn’t expect was to hear Letty telling Ava that she’d been

Ethan.

had almost blinded me. Even though I hated the relationship Ava had with Ethan, I always thought it was purely physical. That it

that she’d been falling for him hurt more than knowing

she had started seeing a future with the

her that the possibility that she had felt a

it out.

in my head. Refusing to give me peace of mind. I couldn’t help but wonder what would have happened if Ethan hadn’t turned out to be the bad guy. Would she be with him

me

the only fucking reason that I had a

Ethan fucked up.

shout jolts me back to the

when the hell he got into my office.

I didn’t hear him enter

papers that were in

across the room and sits before my desk. “I’ve

five minutes.”

don’t say anything. What was there to say? I’ve been distracted these past couple of days, and it’s all because of Ava. She is on my fucking mind every second of

to the woman for almost a decade, and she has never had this effect on me.

her like

deeply inside me that I couldn’t fish her

and there is

see you have a lot on your mind,” he looks

so fucking hard. How do I tell him that I am so fucking insecure now about Ava’s feelings towards Ethan? I’ve never been the insecure kind, but with Ava, I am. I’m not ashamed to

still, I stand up and walk to the floor to ceiling window. I stare outside. One of the reasons I chose this building and office was because of

fifteenth floor. I could practically see the whole city from here. There is also the fact that I could easily see the

“Rowan”

brother. “I don’t even know where

going to take a guess and assume this about

my hair,