Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 0282

Rowan.

I still can’t get Letty’s words out of my head. When I came home early that day, I expected to spend some alone time with Ava. What I didn’t expect was to hear Letty telling Ava that she’d been falling in love with

Ethan.

The pain that shot through my fucking heart had almost blinded me. Even though I hated the relationship Ava had with Ethan, I always thought it was purely physical. That it was nothing more than sex.

The fact that s

she’d been falling for him hurt more than knowing that she had slept with him. It nearly killed

me to know that she had started seeing a future with the man.

I had masked my pain with anger. I didn’t know how to tell her that the possibility that she had felt a fraction of love for Ethan had crashed my soul into a bloody pulp. It had been too painful for me to voice.

it out.

The “what ifs‘ kept playing in my head. Refusing to give me peace of mind. I couldn’t help but wonder what would have happened if Ethan hadn’t turned out to be the bad guy. Would she be with him right

now? Would the love she had for me be replaced with the one for Ethan? Would she have been

completely over me right now?

It was driving me insane knowing that the only fucking reason that I had a chance with her was because

Ethan fucked up.

“Rowan!” The shout jolts me back to the present.

I stare at my brother in confusion, wondering when the hell he got into my office. I was so lost in thought

that I didn’t hear him enter my office.

“What?” I shuffle the papers that were in front of me before pushing them aside.

He walks across the room and sits before my desk. “I’ve been trying to get your attention for more than

five minutes.”

I don’t say anything. What was there to say? I’ve been distracted these past couple of days, and it’s all

because of Ava. She is on my fucking mind every second of every day.

Damn it. I was married to the woman for almost a decade, and she has never had this effect on me. Now

I’m addicted to her like and addict’s favorite drug.

She’s embedded to deeply inside me that I couldn’t fish her out even if I wanted. I wouldn’t even do it:

mine, and there is no fucking way I’m leaving her

“I can see you have a lot on your mind,” he looks at me in that scrutinizing way I hate. “Mind sharing?”

This is so fucking hard. How do I tell him that I am so fucking insecure now about Ava’s feelings towards Ethan? I’ve never been the insecure kind, but with Ava, I am. I’m not ashamed to admit that to myself.

Unable to sit still, I stand up and walk to the floor to ceiling window. I stare outside. One of the reasons I chose this building and office was because of the view.

My office was located on the fifteenth floor. I could practically see the whole city from here. There is also the fact that I could easily see the sun setting over a nearby lake.

“Rowan”

Sighing, I turn to face my brother. “I don’t even know where to begin.”

I’m going to take a guess and assume this about Ava?” he asks

I run my hand through my hair, messing it up in the process.

“Yes”

can tell me

second before I tell him everything. I couldn’t fucking hold it

to the brink

listen until I’m done. He

until I’m finished.

back on my chair after I’m done while staring at him. His face is contemplative. I’m fucking dying to hear what he has to say. What advice he has to give because I’m at my

still jealous of Ethan,”

the dirtiest glare I can master.

I don’t understand… Ethan is in prison and you’re with Ava. Shouldn’t that be enough? Shouldn’t that give you a bit of consolation?”

try explaining it to him without losing my

also know Ava. One way or another she’s going to insist on seeing Ethan because she’ll not only want iris to know her dad, but she’ll also want to know the man who

figures out

she’ll fall for Ethan all over

the truth about him. What’s stopping her from falling in love with him all over again? He may have betrayed her, but he didn’t hurt her as

no fucking idea what I would do if that happens. That possibility scares me so much because I

her, is the fact that Ethan is in prison. I don’t think she would wait for him

to love me even when I treated her like shit, do you think if she falls for him, she’ll

because he’s in prison?”

and sighs. “You’re

I exhale in disappointment.

this” he continues. “Just take it one day at a time and focus on showing her your

nothing else I could do, so he was right. Whether she stays with me or not, it’s her choice. Right now the only thing I

the worry from my heart. Feeling like

shoulders.

to relax

without looking at

been

recognize Theo’s voice immediately and

“What happened?”

hospital?” he says instead. “Ava has been

I am going to kill

Chapter 0282

Rowan

day, I expected to spend some alone time with Ava. What I didn’t expect was to hear Letty telling Ava that she’d been

Ethan.

had almost blinded me. Even though I hated the relationship Ava had with Ethan, I always thought it was purely physical. That it

than knowing

she had started seeing a

masked my pain with anger. I didn’t know how to tell her that the possibility that she had felt a fraction of love for Ethan had

it out.

me peace of mind. I couldn’t help but wonder what would have happened if Ethan hadn’t turned out to be

me

insane knowing that the only fucking reason that I had a chance with her

Ethan fucked up.

shout jolts me

my brother in confusion, wondering when the hell he got into my

hear him

that were in front of me before pushing them

my desk. “I’ve been trying to get your attention

five minutes.”

couple of days, and it’s all because

the woman for almost a decade, and she has never had

addicted to her like and addict’s favorite

I couldn’t fish her out even if I wanted. I wouldn’t

there is no fucking way I’m leaving

can see you have a lot on your mind,” he looks at

am so fucking insecure now about Ava’s feelings towards

to ceiling window. I stare outside. One of the reasons I

the whole city from here. There

“Rowan”

brother. “I don’t even

guess and assume this

hand through my hair, messing it