Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 0282

Rowan.

I still can’t get Letty’s words out of my head. When I came home early that day, I expected to spend some alone time with Ava. What I didn’t expect was to hear Letty telling Ava that she’d been falling in love with

Ethan.

The pain that shot through my fucking heart had almost blinded me. Even though I hated the relationship Ava had with Ethan, I always thought it was purely physical. That it was nothing more than sex.

The fact that s

she’d been falling for him hurt more than knowing that she had slept with him. It nearly killed

me to know that she had started seeing a future with the man.

I had masked my pain with anger. I didn’t know how to tell her that the possibility that she had felt a fraction of love for Ethan had crashed my soul into a bloody pulp. It had been too painful for me to voice.

it out.

The “what ifs‘ kept playing in my head. Refusing to give me peace of mind. I couldn’t help but wonder what would have happened if Ethan hadn’t turned out to be the bad guy. Would she be with him right

now? Would the love she had for me be replaced with the one for Ethan? Would she have been

completely over me right now?

It was driving me insane knowing that the only fucking reason that I had a chance with her was because

Ethan fucked up.

“Rowan!” The shout jolts me back to the present.

I stare at my brother in confusion, wondering when the hell he got into my office. I was so lost in thought

that I didn’t hear him enter my office.

“What?” I shuffle the papers that were in front of me before pushing them aside.

He walks across the room and sits before my desk. “I’ve been trying to get your attention for more than

five minutes.”

I don’t say anything. What was there to say? I’ve been distracted these past couple of days, and it’s all

because of Ava. She is on my fucking mind every second of every day.

Damn it. I was married to the woman for almost a decade, and she has never had this effect on me. Now

I’m addicted to her like and addict’s favorite drug.

She’s embedded to deeply inside me that I couldn’t fish her out even if I wanted. I wouldn’t even do it:

mine, and there is no fucking way I’m leaving her

“I can see you have a lot on your mind,” he looks at me in that scrutinizing way I hate. “Mind sharing?”

This is so fucking hard. How do I tell him that I am so fucking insecure now about Ava’s feelings towards Ethan? I’ve never been the insecure kind, but with Ava, I am. I’m not ashamed to admit that to myself.

Unable to sit still, I stand up and walk to the floor to ceiling window. I stare outside. One of the reasons I chose this building and office was because of the view.

My office was located on the fifteenth floor. I could practically see the whole city from here. There is also the fact that I could easily see the sun setting over a nearby lake.

“Rowan”

Sighing, I turn to face my brother. “I don’t even know where to begin.”

I’m going to take a guess and assume this about Ava?” he asks

I run my hand through my hair, messing it up in the process.

“Yes”

can tell me anything… So

a second before I tell him everything. I

the brink of

listen until I’m done. He doesn’t

until I’m finished.

dying to hear what he has to say. What advice he has to give because I’m

to me like you still jealous

I

and you’re with Ava. Shouldn’t that be enough? Shouldn’t that give you a bit of

fist my hand in frustration. Exhaling. I try explaining

to insist on seeing Ethan because she’ll not only want

eyes pin mine as he finally figures out

fall for Ethan all over again, aren’t

“The slate has been wiped clean. There is no hidden agenda and Ava knows the truth about him. What’s stopping her from falling in love with him all over again? He may have betrayed

honestly have no fucking idea what I would do if that happens. That possibility scares me so much because I love her so fucking much.’m just afraid of losing

in prison. I don’t think she would wait for him to be released.

knows no bounds. I mean come on, she continued to love me even when

because he’s in prison?”

head and

I exhale in disappointment.

he continues. “Just take it one day at a time and focus on

Whether she stays with me or not, it’s her choice. Right now

myself relax and ease the worry from my heart.

shoulders.

relax

answer without looking at the

been

voice immediately and

“What happened?”

us at the hospital?” he says instead. “Ava has been

going to kill

Chapter 0282

Rowan

get Letty’s words out of my head. When I came home early that day, I expected to spend some alone time

Ethan.

almost blinded me. Even though I hated the relationship Ava had with Ethan, I always thought it was purely physical. That it was

for him hurt more than knowing that she had slept with him. It nearly

started seeing a future with

pain with anger. I didn’t know how to tell her that the possibility that she had felt a fraction of love for Ethan had

it out.

Refusing to give me peace of mind. I couldn’t help but wonder what would have happened if Ethan hadn’t turned out to be the bad guy. Would she be with him right now? Would the love she had for me be replaced with the one for Ethan?

over me

fucking reason that I had a chance

Ethan fucked up.

shout jolts me back to the

brother in confusion, wondering when the hell he got into my office. I was so lost

I didn’t hear

in front

room and sits before my desk. “I’ve been trying to get your attention

five minutes.”

What was there to say? I’ve been distracted these past couple of days, and it’s all because

married to the woman for almost a decade, and she has never had this

to her like and addict’s

that I couldn’t fish her out even if I wanted. I wouldn’t even

and there is no fucking

have a lot on your mind,” he looks at me in that scrutinizing way I hate. “Mind

so fucking insecure now about Ava’s feelings towards Ethan? I’ve

window. I stare

city from here. There is also the fact that I could easily see the

“Rowan”

I turn to face my brother. “I

to take a guess and assume this about Ava?” he

my hand through my hair, messing it up in