Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 0282

Rowan.

I still can’t get Letty’s words out of my head. When I came home early that day, I expected to spend some alone time with Ava. What I didn’t expect was to hear Letty telling Ava that she’d been falling in love with

Ethan.

The pain that shot through my fucking heart had almost blinded me. Even though I hated the relationship Ava had with Ethan, I always thought it was purely physical. That it was nothing more than sex.

The fact that s

she’d been falling for him hurt more than knowing that she had slept with him. It nearly killed

me to know that she had started seeing a future with the man.

I had masked my pain with anger. I didn’t know how to tell her that the possibility that she had felt a fraction of love for Ethan had crashed my soul into a bloody pulp. It had been too painful for me to voice.

it out.

The “what ifs‘ kept playing in my head. Refusing to give me peace of mind. I couldn’t help but wonder what would have happened if Ethan hadn’t turned out to be the bad guy. Would she be with him right

now? Would the love she had for me be replaced with the one for Ethan? Would she have been

completely over me right now?

It was driving me insane knowing that the only fucking reason that I had a chance with her was because

Ethan fucked up.

“Rowan!” The shout jolts me back to the present.

I stare at my brother in confusion, wondering when the hell he got into my office. I was so lost in thought

that I didn’t hear him enter my office.

“What?” I shuffle the papers that were in front of me before pushing them aside.

He walks across the room and sits before my desk. “I’ve been trying to get your attention for more than

five minutes.”

I don’t say anything. What was there to say? I’ve been distracted these past couple of days, and it’s all

because of Ava. She is on my fucking mind every second of every day.

Damn it. I was married to the woman for almost a decade, and she has never had this effect on me. Now

I’m addicted to her like and addict’s favorite drug.

She’s embedded to deeply inside me that I couldn’t fish her out even if I wanted. I wouldn’t even do it:

mine, and there is no fucking way I’m leaving her

“I can see you have a lot on your mind,” he looks at me in that scrutinizing way I hate. “Mind sharing?”

This is so fucking hard. How do I tell him that I am so fucking insecure now about Ava’s feelings towards Ethan? I’ve never been the insecure kind, but with Ava, I am. I’m not ashamed to admit that to myself.

Unable to sit still, I stand up and walk to the floor to ceiling window. I stare outside. One of the reasons I chose this building and office was because of the view.

My office was located on the fifteenth floor. I could practically see the whole city from here. There is also the fact that I could easily see the sun setting over a nearby lake.

“Rowan”

Sighing, I turn to face my brother. “I don’t even know where to begin.”

I’m going to take a guess and assume this about Ava?” he asks

I run my hand through my hair, messing it up in the process.

“Yes”

can tell

debate for only a second before I tell him everything. I couldn’t fucking hold it inside. Not when

me to the brink

he always does, he sits patiently and listen until I’m done. He

until I’m finished.

dying to hear what he has to say. What advice he has to give because I’m at my

jealous

him the dirtiest glare I can

prison and you’re with Ava. Shouldn’t that be enough? Shouldn’t that give you a bit of consolation?” he

fist my hand in frustration. Exhaling. I try explaining it to him without losing

that, but I also know Ava. One way or another she’s going to insist on seeing Ethan because she’ll not only want iris to know her dad, but she’ll

eyes pin mine as he finally figures out where

fall for Ethan all over again, aren’t

been wiped clean. There is no hidden agenda and Ava knows the truth about him. What’s stopping her from

honestly have no fucking idea what I would do if that happens. That possibility scares me so much because I love

in prison. I don’t think she would wait for

Ava we are talking about…her love and loyalty knows no bounds. I mean come on, she continued to love me even when

because he’s in prison?”

his head and sighs.

I exhale in disappointment.

day at a time and focus on showing her your heart. Love her so much, that the thought of leaving you breaks

right. Whether she stays with me or not, it’s her choice. Right now the only thing I

the worry from my heart. Feeling like a fucking boulder has been lifted from

shoulders.

to relax until my

I answer without looking at the caller

been an

immediately and begin

“What happened?”

us at the hospital?” he says instead. “Ava has been

am going to kill

Chapter 0282

Rowan

spend some alone time with

Ethan.

that shot through my fucking heart had almost blinded me. Even though I hated the relationship Ava had with Ethan, I always thought it was purely physical. That it was nothing

falling for him hurt more than knowing that she had slept with him.

she had started seeing a

that the possibility that she had felt a fraction of love for Ethan had crashed my soul into a

it out.

to give me peace of mind. I couldn’t help but wonder what would have happened if Ethan hadn’t turned out to be the bad guy. Would she be with him right

over me

knowing that the only fucking reason that

Ethan fucked up.

The shout jolts me back

the hell

I didn’t hear

in front of me before pushing

and sits before my desk. “I’ve been trying to get your attention for

five minutes.”

What was there to say? I’ve been distracted these past couple of days, and it’s all because of Ava. She is on my

to the woman for almost a decade, and she has never had this effect on

addicted to her like and addict’s favorite

deeply inside me that I couldn’t fish her out even if I wanted. I wouldn’t even do

is no fucking way I’m

you have a lot on your mind,” he looks at me

now about Ava’s feelings towards Ethan? I’ve never been the insecure kind, but with Ava,

walk to the floor to ceiling window. I stare outside. One of the

here. There is also the fact that I could easily see the sun setting over a nearby

“Rowan”

face my brother. “I don’t even know

to take a guess and assume this

run my hand through my hair, messing it up