Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 0282

Rowan.

I still can’t get Letty’s words out of my head. When I came home early that day, I expected to spend some alone time with Ava. What I didn’t expect was to hear Letty telling Ava that she’d been falling in love with

Ethan.

The pain that shot through my fucking heart had almost blinded me. Even though I hated the relationship Ava had with Ethan, I always thought it was purely physical. That it was nothing more than sex.

The fact that s

she’d been falling for him hurt more than knowing that she had slept with him. It nearly killed

me to know that she had started seeing a future with the man.

I had masked my pain with anger. I didn’t know how to tell her that the possibility that she had felt a fraction of love for Ethan had crashed my soul into a bloody pulp. It had been too painful for me to voice.

it out.

The “what ifs‘ kept playing in my head. Refusing to give me peace of mind. I couldn’t help but wonder what would have happened if Ethan hadn’t turned out to be the bad guy. Would she be with him right

now? Would the love she had for me be replaced with the one for Ethan? Would she have been

completely over me right now?

It was driving me insane knowing that the only fucking reason that I had a chance with her was because

Ethan fucked up.

“Rowan!” The shout jolts me back to the present.

I stare at my brother in confusion, wondering when the hell he got into my office. I was so lost in thought

that I didn’t hear him enter my office.

“What?” I shuffle the papers that were in front of me before pushing them aside.

He walks across the room and sits before my desk. “I’ve been trying to get your attention for more than

five minutes.”

I don’t say anything. What was there to say? I’ve been distracted these past couple of days, and it’s all

because of Ava. She is on my fucking mind every second of every day.

Damn it. I was married to the woman for almost a decade, and she has never had this effect on me. Now

I’m addicted to her like and addict’s favorite drug.

She’s embedded to deeply inside me that I couldn’t fish her out even if I wanted. I wouldn’t even do it:

mine, and there is no fucking way I’m leaving her

“I can see you have a lot on your mind,” he looks at me in that scrutinizing way I hate. “Mind sharing?”

This is so fucking hard. How do I tell him that I am so fucking insecure now about Ava’s feelings towards Ethan? I’ve never been the insecure kind, but with Ava, I am. I’m not ashamed to admit that to myself.

Unable to sit still, I stand up and walk to the floor to ceiling window. I stare outside. One of the reasons I chose this building and office was because of the view.

My office was located on the fifteenth floor. I could practically see the whole city from here. There is also the fact that I could easily see the sun setting over a nearby lake.

“Rowan”

Sighing, I turn to face my brother. “I don’t even know where to begin.”

I’m going to take a guess and assume this about Ava?” he asks

I run my hand through my hair, messing it up in the process.

“Yes”

you can tell

I tell him everything. I couldn’t fucking hold it inside. Not when it

the

does, he sits patiently and listen until I’m done. He doesn’t

until I’m finished.

staring at him. His face is contemplative. I’m fucking dying to hear what he

still jealous of Ethan,”

I can master. “That’s already fucking

Ava. Shouldn’t that be enough? Shouldn’t that give you a bit of consolation?” he

in frustration. Exhaling. I try explaining it to him without

Ava. One way or another she’s going to insist on seeing Ethan because she’ll not only want iris to

eyes pin mine as he finally figures out where my

afraid she’ll fall for Ethan

once again and start pacing. “The slate has been wiped clean. There is no hidden agenda and Ava knows the truth about him. What’s stopping her from falling in love with him all over

if that happens. That possibility scares me so much because I

I don’t think she

to love me

because he’s in prison?”

and

I exhale in disappointment.

worry too much about this” he continues. “Just take it one day at a time and focus on showing her your

I could do, so he was right. Whether she stays with me or not, it’s her

let myself relax and ease the worry from my heart. Feeling like a

shoulders.

relax until my phone started

I answer without looking

there’s been

immediately and begin to

“What happened?”

the hospital?” he says instead. “Ava has been rushed

am going to

Chapter 0282

Rowan

out of my head. When I came home early that day, I expected to spend some alone time with Ava. What I didn’t expect was to hear Letty telling

Ethan.

shot through my fucking heart had almost blinded me. Even though I hated the relationship Ava had with Ethan, I always thought it was purely physical. That it

falling for him hurt more than knowing that she had slept with him.

to know that she had started

possibility that she had felt a

it out.

I couldn’t help but wonder what would have happened if Ethan hadn’t turned out to be the bad guy. Would she be with him right now? Would

over me right

that the only fucking

Ethan fucked up.

me back to

stare at my brother in confusion, wondering when the hell he got into

didn’t hear him

the papers that were in

my desk. “I’ve been trying

five minutes.”

anything. What was there to say? I’ve been distracted these past couple of days, and it’s all because of Ava. She is on

the woman for almost a

like and addict’s

me that I couldn’t fish her out even if I wanted. I wouldn’t

is

your mind,” he looks

about Ava’s feelings towards

to the floor to ceiling window. I stare outside. One of the reasons

see the whole city from here. There is also the fact that I

“Rowan”

my brother. “I don’t even know where to

and assume this

run my hand through my hair, messing it up in the