Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 0282

Rowan.

I still can’t get Letty’s words out of my head. When I came home early that day, I expected to spend some alone time with Ava. What I didn’t expect was to hear Letty telling Ava that she’d been falling in love with

Ethan.

The pain that shot through my fucking heart had almost blinded me. Even though I hated the relationship Ava had with Ethan, I always thought it was purely physical. That it was nothing more than sex.

The fact that s

she’d been falling for him hurt more than knowing that she had slept with him. It nearly killed

me to know that she had started seeing a future with the man.

I had masked my pain with anger. I didn’t know how to tell her that the possibility that she had felt a fraction of love for Ethan had crashed my soul into a bloody pulp. It had been too painful for me to voice.

it out.

The “what ifs‘ kept playing in my head. Refusing to give me peace of mind. I couldn’t help but wonder what would have happened if Ethan hadn’t turned out to be the bad guy. Would she be with him right

now? Would the love she had for me be replaced with the one for Ethan? Would she have been

completely over me right now?

It was driving me insane knowing that the only fucking reason that I had a chance with her was because

Ethan fucked up.

“Rowan!” The shout jolts me back to the present.

I stare at my brother in confusion, wondering when the hell he got into my office. I was so lost in thought

that I didn’t hear him enter my office.

“What?” I shuffle the papers that were in front of me before pushing them aside.

He walks across the room and sits before my desk. “I’ve been trying to get your attention for more than

five minutes.”

I don’t say anything. What was there to say? I’ve been distracted these past couple of days, and it’s all

because of Ava. She is on my fucking mind every second of every day.

Damn it. I was married to the woman for almost a decade, and she has never had this effect on me. Now

I’m addicted to her like and addict’s favorite drug.

She’s embedded to deeply inside me that I couldn’t fish her out even if I wanted. I wouldn’t even do it:

mine, and there is no fucking way I’m leaving her

“I can see you have a lot on your mind,” he looks at me in that scrutinizing way I hate. “Mind sharing?”

This is so fucking hard. How do I tell him that I am so fucking insecure now about Ava’s feelings towards Ethan? I’ve never been the insecure kind, but with Ava, I am. I’m not ashamed to admit that to myself.

Unable to sit still, I stand up and walk to the floor to ceiling window. I stare outside. One of the reasons I chose this building and office was because of the view.

My office was located on the fifteenth floor. I could practically see the whole city from here. There is also the fact that I could easily see the sun setting over a nearby lake.

“Rowan”

Sighing, I turn to face my brother. “I don’t even know where to begin.”

I’m going to take a guess and assume this about Ava?” he asks

I run my hand through my hair, messing it up in the process.

“Yes”

know you can tell me anything… So

him everything. I couldn’t fucking hold it inside. Not

the brink

does, he sits patiently and listen until I’m

until I’m finished.

I’m done while staring at him. His face is contemplative. I’m fucking dying to hear what he has to say. What advice he has

still jealous of Ethan,” he

I can

what’s the problem? I don’t understand… Ethan is in prison and you’re with Ava. Shouldn’t that be enough? Shouldn’t that give you a bit of

try explaining it to him without

that, but I also know Ava. One way or another she’s going to insist on seeing Ethan because she’ll not only want iris to know her dad, but she’ll also want to know the

figures out where my issue

Ethan

truth about him. What’s stopping her from falling in

do if that happens. That possibility scares me so much because I love

Ethan is in prison. I don’t think she would wait for him to be released. Twenty

she continued to love me even when I treated her like shit, do you think if she falls for

because he’s in prison?”

head and sighs. “You’re

I exhale in disappointment.

take it one day at a time

she stays with me or not, it’s her choice. Right now the only thing I can do is love

and ease the worry from my heart.

shoulders.

was starting to relax until

looking

been

Theo’s voice immediately and begin

“What happened?”

at the hospital?” he says instead. “Ava

am going

Chapter 0282

Rowan

spend some alone time with Ava. What I didn’t expect was to hear Letty telling Ava that she’d

Ethan.

my fucking heart had almost blinded me. Even though I hated the relationship Ava had with

that she’d been falling for him hurt more than knowing that she had slept

started seeing a future

anger. I didn’t know how to tell her that the possibility that she had felt a fraction of love for Ethan had crashed my soul into a

it out.

give me peace of mind. I couldn’t help but wonder what would have happened if Ethan hadn’t turned out to be the bad guy. Would she be with him right now? Would the love she had for me be replaced with the one for Ethan? Would she

me right

fucking reason

Ethan fucked up.

The shout jolts me back to

hell he got

hear him enter my

the papers that were in front of me before pushing

desk. “I’ve been trying

five minutes.”

What was there to say? I’ve been distracted these past couple of days, and it’s all because of Ava. She is on my fucking mind every second of

the woman for almost a decade, and she has never had this effect on

her like

embedded so deeply inside me that I couldn’t fish her out even if I wanted. I

and there is no fucking way I’m

lot on your mind,” he looks at

hard. How do I tell him that I am so fucking insecure now about Ava’s feelings towards Ethan? I’ve never been the insecure kind, but

the floor to ceiling window. I stare outside. One of the reasons I chose this building and office was

the fifteenth floor. I could practically see the whole city from here.

“Rowan”

I turn to face my brother. “I don’t

and assume this about Ava?”

hand through my hair, messing it