Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 0325

My heart stops as fear that she’s remembered everything crashes into me.

“Tell me what’s wrong, Ava; I can’t help you if I don’t know what’s wrong,” I plead with her.

More tears continue falling down her face. Pain and hurt shadow her eyes. It literally breaks my fucking heart to see her like this.

“I had a memory,” she begins before she starts laughing like she’s insane. “You know, I wanted to fuck you; I wanted to sleep with you; I even talked myself into talking to you about it because I wanted you so much. When I saw you jerking off in the shower, I wanted to join you. I even imagined myself giving you a blow job while you cummed on my chest.”

I frown, but stay quiet. Something told me that something had happened. That I wasn’t going to like what she had to say next.

“Here, I was horny for you, craving you, when my mind had to remind me of something that you said,” she hiccups. “You want to know what it was?”

would destroy the small progress we had made,

being a decent fuck, but you weren’t even good at that. Every time I was inside you, it’s Emma I wanted,”

words that I flung at her because I wanted to hurt her

really want me. I’m nothing but a slut to be used as a substitute. Why did you sleep with me if you didn’t want me, Rowan? You could have gone and gotten yourself a mistress; it would have hurt, but I would have preferred

undoing. I knew those words would come back to bite me in the ass, but when I yelled them at her, I was so pissed that it didn’t hit me that I’d said them until it was too late and I couldn’t

not able to look into her eyes. I was ashamed of saying those words. I

the one who said them? Not once did I point a gun at your head and force you to sleep with me. Hell, when we got married, I didn’t expect us to have a sexual relationship, and I told you that. You’re the one who always came to me. You’re the one that sought me out. If you knew that you didn’t want me, then why sleep with me? Why use me? Why degrade me like that? You should

go to touch her, to wipe her tears away, but she flinches away

say something and explain it to her, but I don’t know how to

at you or be anywhere near you. If I’d known what you thought of me,