Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 0330

“I didn’t use Ava; I wanted you,” he says as he pockets the key. I guess I wasn’t leaving the room.

“You wanted me? Then how come you took a shower the moment you pulled out of me? How come you never took me raw without wearing a condom first? How come you always held back? Hell, you rarely even kissed me on the mouth! And you say you wanted me? You could have fooled me.”

All the things I’ve tried burying came to the surface, and I hated how vulnerable they made me feel, so instead, I replaced them with anger.

“One of the memories I had after our date was sleeping with Ethan. It was everything sex should be. Passion and heat. With him, I felt wanted and desired, while with you, it felt like I was just an obligation. A chore. You say you wanted me, but that’s a lie. Ethan showed me what it truly means to be desired by a man.”

The memory of having sex with Ethan had come unexpectedly, just like the others. It had also shown me what had been missing in my sexual life with Rowan. I didn’t want to compare both experiences, but he had to see that I wasn’t a fool to believe that he’d wanted me

and see the pain that flashes in his eyes when I tell him about sex with Ethan. I didn’t care, though; I was way past the point of caring.

with Ethan. There was just no feeling. Nothing close to what

was when we first slept

never do anything unless I want to. Tell me, would I have slept with you if I didn’t want to? If some part of

He was right. Rowan never does anything he doesn’t want to. He’s not one to be swayed to do things he

You’re right, I could have gotten a mistress, but I preferred you even though I thought I hated you. I preferred sleeping with

at him. “If that’s the case, why did

to want you. You’d destroyed what I believed were my chances with

I say things without thinking when I’m angry. It’s not an excuse, but I want you to understand me. Emma had said that you hurt her and that you’d told her some pretty hurtful things. I didn’t know she’d lied, so I came to confront you. I wanted to hurt