Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 0330

“I didn’t use Ava; I wanted you,” he says as he pockets the key. I guess I wasn’t leaving the room.

“You wanted me? Then how come you took a shower the moment you pulled out of me? How come you never took me raw without wearing a condom first? How come you always held back? Hell, you rarely even kissed me on the mouth! And you say you wanted me? You could have fooled me.”

All the things I’ve tried burying came to the surface, and I hated how vulnerable they made me feel, so instead, I replaced them with anger.

“One of the memories I had after our date was sleeping with Ethan. It was everything sex should be. Passion and heat. With him, I felt wanted and desired, while with you, it felt like I was just an obligation. A chore. You say you wanted me, but that’s a lie. Ethan showed me what it truly means to be desired by a man.”

The memory of having sex with Ethan had come unexpectedly, just like the others. It had also shown me what had been missing in my sexual life with Rowan. I didn’t want to compare both experiences, but he had to see that I wasn’t a fool to believe that he’d wanted me

him and see the pain that flashes in his eyes when I tell him

feel anything when I remembered having sex with Ethan. There was just no feeling.

wanted was when we first slept together and we both know we were drunk

his eyes before opening them again. “You know me, Ava; you know I never do anything unless I want to. Tell

Rowan never does anything he doesn’t

believe the way things ended with Emma is what held me back. I never got closure, and neither did she. You’re right, I could have gotten a mistress, but I preferred you even though I thought I hated you. I preferred

“If that’s the case, why did you hold

believed it’s wrong to want you. You’d destroyed what I believed were my chances with the love of my life, how then could I want you?

said in a fit of anger. You know me, Ava, and you know I say things without thinking when I’m angry. It’s not an excuse, but I want you to understand me. Emma had said that you hurt her and that you’d told her some pretty hurtful things. I didn’t know she’d lied, so I came to confront you. I wanted to hurt you just like you hurt her. I