Ex-Husband's Regret

I am in a trance as pick up the mug and bring it to my lips. Well, that is until its taste hits my mouth and I end up spitting the liquid out.

"That's disgusting. How do you even stand it?" I question, wiping my mouth.

For the first time, I hear Gabriel laugh. It's a deep and sultry laugh that does things to my body. The kind of laugh that makes you forget your name. Am I the only one who finds laughs attractive? He shrugs his shoulders, "It's something you acquire a taste for over time. It's not for everyone."

It's like I've lost my damn voice, so instead I just nod my head. I'm still stuck on the fact that Gabriel laughed. His laugh then turns into a beautiful genuine smile. One that I have never seen before. It's captivating and part of me hates that it captivated me.

"Are you okay?" he pushes himself close. "You look awestruck."

"You have a beautiful laugh and smile"

The moment those words are out of my mouth, I feel like punching myself. Why would I say that? Why would I let those words slip from my lips? The last thing I wanted was for him to think that I still had something for him.

"What?"

to wipe the small droplets that fell on the counter when I spit the coffee

my head fall, so my hair could hide my

was different.

starting to affect me. Part of me liked this new him, but the other was desperate

calls my name, but I continue wiping the counter,

seconds. I needed to get my head straight. Keep myself focused and my head back in the game. There was no time for old

one-woman kind of man. There was also so much history between us. So much pain and hate for us to ever work

me to go through that a second time. I had Lilly to think of, and she deserved a mother who was not nursing