Molly's words keep ringing in my ears even after we have eaten. We were now on to our dessert. I loved ice cream, but today I couldn't enjoy it. Not when she had managed to make me doubt everything I've believed for the last few years.

"Why are you so quiet?" she asked as she set her milkshake down. "Are you thinking about what I just told you?"

The last sentence was said with a smirk as she leaned back against her chair.

"Of course not," I lied, "I am just wondering how I'm going to get Calvin and Gunner to forgive me. No matter which angle I look at it, there is no silver lining."

As a lawyer, I'm used to looking at things from different angles when I'm defending my clients. It's what made me good at what I did. I left no stone unturned and I went through every possible outcome. I did that with my case and I see no hope.

I may not have loved Calvin, but I knew him very well. He had given me countless chances and opportunities to get my priorities right. I didn't. Calvin is the kind of man who, once he's had enough, that's the end of it. There is no going back. There are no more chances. There is no forgiveness.

I could sit here and lie to myself, but I won't. I didn't have any hope of Calvin forgiving me. I treated him and Gunner like shit for years, how am are they supposed to get over that?

calls, pulling me back

had been firmly fixed

I'm going to say is cliché but you have to listen to me," she began. "You will never truly make any progress until you forgive yourself. You're carrying

her, but what she was saying was

them? What I put them through? I wasn't

I did to them time and time again brings this sharp pain to my heart. I can barely breathe and tears start filling my eyes. The weight of my mistakes have shredded me to

them mistake? A mistake is when you accidentally dial the wrong number or knock on the wrong door. What I did wasn't a mistake; it was the annihilation of Gunner and Calvin's

whispers all over sudden while tapping

"What is it?"

in

help it, I

The Novel will be updated daily. Come back and continue reading tomorrow, everyone!

Comments ()

0/255