Ex-Husband's Regret

Fuck! Why me? Why now? Why today, of all days? Fate has already established that she hates me, but this is too much even for that bitch. Why the hell did she loathe me so much?

To be honest, I'm afraid of looking up. Afraid of looking at both Gabriel and Lilly. I try my best to calm down my erratic, beating heart, but it's no use. I felt like I was going to have a damn heart attack. I could literally feel the sweat running down my back.

My anger at Gabriel was already gone, and in its place was pure, undiluted fear. When I woke up, I never imagined that this would happen. That Gabriel would suddenly come to my house out of the blue. That he and Lilly would meet.

At first, I was careful because I knew Lilly was asleep due to her cold, but after what Gabriel revealed, I completely forgot and blew up. That was my fucking fault. I didn't have anyone to blame for this cluster fuck.

"Mom?" her sweet voice calls me, and I look up, unable to deny my daughter.

Looking at her, I'm unable to form a sentence.

When I don't answer, she turns to Gabriel and asks, "Who are you, and why are you fighting with my mom?"

Their eyes clash and I see my Lilly take a step back as if something has just rammed into her. That pulls me out of a trance.

"Lilly, go to your room," I say unsteadily, and she turns when she hears my voice.

I can see the questions running through her mind. She was a sharp girl, and I know there is no escaping the curiosity that she's sure to hit me with.

"But mom..."

but shout. I've never shouted at her before, but I was frustrated. "Go

to argue, I can tell, but she also knows not to argue with me.

Gabriel and drag him outside. We lived on the last floor, and we had a rooftop area, so that's where I take him. I needed to get

my lungs constricting.

Gabriel, but he looks unbothered. Maybe he didn't notice anything, right? If he had, he would be giving me shit right now. He would be spitting fire, ready to destroy.

proposal..." he

thing that's on his mind is the damn proposal really surprises me. I mean, how

my answer, Gabriel," I tell him after I've gotten myself under

a chance to come back into the

him. Nothing to do with the life I left behind, especially knowing that those same people turned

forget that Gabriel ever sought me out with his

hell not?" He was beginning

would make you seek me out years after our divorce?" I was really curious. Something drove him to want this, and I want to know what it is, so I continue to question him. "What brought you running to my doorstep, Gabriel? If I remember correctly, you couldn't stand me. You couldn't wait to divorce me. So why

I see it in his eyes and in the way his jaw clenches. I was right, there is a reason why he wants me to agree to his proposal, and it's something big. Something he can't escape. "That's not your fucking concern. What I want is for you to agree," he evades the question

me to know, then that's okay. It's not like it would change my mind. I had already made my decision, and there's no way I'm going to change it. "Then I think we are done talking. You can show yourself out of the building."

wouldn't notice?" His deep voice sends shivers down my back, but not in a

turn around, but I

giveaway, Harper," A muscle ticks in his jaw, and