Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 0439

Emma.

I was in the kitchen having breakfast, but my food wouldn’t go down easily. Every I time tried to swallow it would get stuck because of how nervous and anxious I was.

“Are you okay?” my mother asks when I finally give up and let the fork and knife drop from my hands.

“I don’t know mom, I’m nervous,” my voice sounds shaky even to my own ears.

God. What was I thinking? Was this even a good idea to begin with? Was I even ready for this or am I just trying to stall? The questions keep pounding in my head as I look at my food in disgust. My appetite was severely lacking, and it’s been that way for months, but today it’s so much worse.

Mom grabs my hand in hers, before rubbing them gently. Her face softens as she looks at me.

“I know it’s scary sweetheart, but you have to do this,” she tells me gently with a small smile. “It’s for your own good.

to move on until you heal your wounds.” I hear her. I know she’s right,

couple of days ago, but

promised that I'd give it a try, so I couldn’t back out now. I didn’t

fighting back the tears that threatened to fall. “I’m afraid that my therapist will confirm just how much of a bad person I am.” Mom kisses my hand, and I

that. “Her work isn't to judge you, and she won't. Her work is to help you heal and that’s what she'll do if you only let her.” Right now, I feel young again. I feel like the girl who would always run to her I mother for reassurance when she was doubting herself or feeling insecure. I did love my dad. I love him so fucking much, and

I sigh in contentment before lifting her hand

me, and even though it’s genuine, I still see the sadness in them. 1 know she still feels horrible about how she treated Ava. Just like me, mom and Travis are battling

has completely cut them off. 1 know it pains them, but I also don’t know what to do to help them. Ava completely embraced her biological parents and left

pulls her hand away. “I don’t know what you mean, Emma.” I release a sigh, not really surprised by her reaction. My mother is stubborn I guess I get that trait from her. She would never willingly accept that she needs

You need to talk things out with a therapist. You need to let go of the guilt and regrets you are holding on to. You need this just as

in a few days, but not right now. Guilt and regret are strong emotions. Ones that can freeze you in the

toast and eggs, I eat my banana and drink my coffee. When I'm done, I