Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 0474

Like I'd said, I'd forgiven Gabriel, so why was I still holding on to the past? Why was I still comparing him to the man that he was? It is obvious that he has changed, yet my brain still doubted him.

You know the saying 'if he wanted to, he would have?' that is exactly what is happening with Gabriel right now. Back then he didn't want to. He didn't want to love me. He didn't want to care about me. Hell, he simply didn't want me... And because he didn't want me, he didn't treat me like I mattered.

Deep down I do get him though. If my calculations are correct, he married me one and a half year after that girl broke his heart. Knowing Andrew, he must have blackmailed him or something to get Gabriel to marry me.

I didn't think about it when we were married. In fact, I didn't want to think about it because it would shatter my illusion that he had married me because he felt something for me. It was only years later that I'd accepted that Gabriel married me because he had been coerced into it. Not because he wanted to.

I can only imagine what he felt. He had probably not gotten over the betrayal of his ex-girlfriend. He was angry and bitter, and probably thought all women were the same. Then he is forced to marry me. In his head, he probably thought that Andrew and I wanted to use him. To use his family's name to save our company. Just like Ashley had used him.

On top of all that, there was the issue with Rowan at that time. Rumors had it that he wasn't doing all that well after messing up with Ava... And then there was Ava. Ava was probably the other woman who reinforced Gabriel's belief that women were vicious, because she slept with her sister's boyfriend and broke them up because she wanted him to herself.

I'm not justifying what he did. How he treated me is wrong, but I get him. I mean, didn't I do the same? Because of how badly he hurt me, I refused to have anything to do with love. Hell, I got married to a man that loved someone else just so I didn't risk getting hurt again.

We approached our heart breaks differently, but the thing is, the result of that is that we tried stopping it from happening ever again.

I'm shaken from my thoughts when the car comes to a stop. After thanking the driver, I get out and head up.

the thought of giving Gabriel a chance didn't send me into panic like it usually did. Instead, peace washed over me. I was tired of fighting what I feel

get to our floor and get out of the elevator. I punch in the code and

our Nanny who was in the kitchen having some

"Hi Harper."

need to, she gets

setting everything where it's supposed to be, I walk to Lilly's room

Lilly," I say after opening the

up from underneath the bed, she

you can meet Sierra!" she is literally bouncing with

is some shuffling, and then a beautiful blonde girl dashes out from

Sierra!" she greets cheerfully, her eyes

Sierra. It's nice

stop her, she wraps her hands around me and gives me a hug. I can now