Falling For The Man I Married

It's four in the afternoon and it's time for my boss -slash- husband, the third coffee of the day. But before I make him coffee, I need his signature first on some important documents which I also need to pass to Sandy for dismissal to its designated department.

I carried the documents and was about to knock on his office door when it instantly opened before my face and Gabriel's hasty gaze looked at me. 

"Oops! I'm sorry, are you in a hurry, Sir?"

Do I really need to ask that--- when I already know the answer?

"Yes, someone called me---"

"Stacey called you, right, Sir?"

"Madi---"

"Oh, it's okay Sir. I just need your signatures for some documents here, can I?" I smiled like it wasn't a big deal to me and that I wasn't affected.

"Yeah, in my office." he opened the door and walked in again. He didn't bother to take a seat. He just took the files and signed each one of them.

"Are you not going to read the contents?"

-'Do you really can't wait to see and fuck your ex again? No... your girlfriend again?'- I asked him just in my mind.

But he just smiled and handed me all the papers.

"I don't need to. I know I can trust you, Madi."

I raised an eyebrow and tried to make a joke. "Really, what if it's a part of my way of earning a few million from your account?"

But instead of being alarmed... "It's okay. You can have as much as you want and don't worry, I can give you anything you want, Madi."

I laughed inside... -'Yeah, you can give me everything I want, except your heart.'-

And much to my surprise, he kissed me quickly on the lips.

"What the---" I uttered, but he's already exited the door. I gulped and laughed bitterly as I touched my lips.

We've been married for two weeks, but we barely see each other at his house. You can only count on your fingers the nights he sleeps in that huge but empty house. We're just seeing each other in the office, but after that, we can have our own precious time at night.

And with that, I'm really starting to think if he still needs me in his plan, because it's been two weeks that he hasn't mentioned it. And because it's once in a blue moon when he shows up at his house at night, he didn't notice the time I got home every night. There's one time, I didn't come home and slept in my old apartment, but he didn't notice it.

He continued his plan of chasing her and I continued to become invisible in his eyes. Every day, I need to smile and show him I'm fine and everything around me was just fine.

But every day, smiling feels like wearing a mask, a lonely mask that keeps my real feelings inside. But do I have a choice? I chose this, right? So feel free to endure the pain of my stupidity.

*****

"Madi, are you ready?"

"Yeah, I'm just going to change my clothes at Gabriel's house." 

It's Friday night and we'll be celebrating tonight in a night bar, along with her, Nancy, Greg and two of Greg's friend. And since Gabriel took an early out this afternoon, for sure he's enjoying the night between Stacey's legs too.

"Why do you keep calling it 'Gabriel's house'? Why don't you just call it 'our house?"

"Because it's not my house!"

"But you're married, that means it's marital property."

"Sandy, I don't have an interest with all the things and properties he has----''

"Yeah, because your only interest is to win his heart."

I didn't say anything, because it's true. And it just hurts me more to think that my love for him grows every day, but I can't do anything about it.

"You don't have to go home, Madi." I looked at her and she smiled. "I have a lot of dress, you know. You can borrow any of it."

"It's okay, you don't need to do that."

"But what if you find your husband at home?"

"And so?"

"What if he stopped you from going out tonight?"

"Oh, he can't do that! I didn't ask his whereabouts, so he has no right to question me!"

Oh my, the brave Madi version

'brave Madi version

*****

no time going home

I missed

which ended on my mid-thigh. And take note, it's in a strapless style and fits all my

God, Madi! You're so fucking

I already know that, but

laughed at the way I

husband could see you in that killing outfit tonight, I'm sure he will immediately drop his revenge plan

my turn to

Sandy," I said popping my lips after applying my favorite shade of

know? But anyway Madi, you really look confident and

just smiled at her. They are actually my tags

myself again in the mirror. I sighed and smiled at my reflection. I don't remember when was the last time I wore that smile and confidence in myself. But I promise I'll be myself again tonight.

waiting in the living room when I decided to come

for a long time. Do I have to say welcome back or congratulations on your return?"

on, Greg. I'm still here. Nothing's

-'except my heart'-

put it on his arm as we headed for

opened the passenger, not before he opened the door for Sandy in the

at the bar. You know, flirting

head and smiled. Nancy's original plan was to stay with us at Gabriel's house, but when she met Lawrence, one of Greg's friend,

evening. Sandy and I didn't wait for Greg to open our

me?" Greg asked me frowning when he's already in front of us.

ourselves," I said placing my hand on his right

looked down at me. "And that

and winked at him.

"Tsk.Tsk. Fine!"

Gregy. You're so cute." I pinched

You don't know--- it's

leaning from the expert, huh!" I

You're my best teacher." and he also winked at me. I just

music was starting to rock the nightclub when we entered the entrance. Greg took us to the VVIP section and that's

are Nancy and

ask when I noticed the two were missing. And he pointed them through his mouth. We followed his gesture and found the two

She's now rocking the night!" I said shaking

said and sat down next to me. "What

question. "You don't need to ask, anything is fine with

he shrugged and stood up to get our drinks.

to alcohol. I can drink the whole bucket of beers without being drunk. We took the same course in college and

rocking herself on the dancefloor,

she hugged me and kissed my cheek. I can smell the

Nancy," I said

"How are

I replied,

Don't worry, the wheels know how to

two glasses of devil spring vodka in his hands. My smile widened as he handed me

that?" Nancy asked

vodka." I smiled as

"Is that strong?"

"Hmm... 80% of alcohol."

that, Sissy?" her eyes turned

I can even drink the whole bucket of beer without being

how can you

types of alcoholic beverages can make you immune, Nancy. And Madi has a strong tolerance when it comes to that." Greg answered next to me.

I see how you drink the whole bucket, Sissy?" she squealed beside me, but Greg glared at

"Nancy!" 

just

"I have an idea!"

thing she did really surprised us all. She

any of you who can fight her in a bottoms-up competition?" she screamed loudly and the crowd begin to make their choice. "I'm willing to give ten thousand dollars

his teeth as he watched his cousin gathering some

okay, Greg. I'm used to this." I

"But Madi---"

I missed this." I stood up and winked at