Falling For The Man I Married

It's four in the afternoon and it's time for my boss -slash- husband, the third coffee of the day. But before I make him coffee, I need his signature first on some important documents which I also need to pass to Sandy for dismissal to its designated department.

I carried the documents and was about to knock on his office door when it instantly opened before my face and Gabriel's hasty gaze looked at me. 

"Oops! I'm sorry, are you in a hurry, Sir?"

Do I really need to ask that--- when I already know the answer?

"Yes, someone called me---"

"Stacey called you, right, Sir?"

"Madi---"

"Oh, it's okay Sir. I just need your signatures for some documents here, can I?" I smiled like it wasn't a big deal to me and that I wasn't affected.

"Yeah, in my office." he opened the door and walked in again. He didn't bother to take a seat. He just took the files and signed each one of them.

"Are you not going to read the contents?"

-'Do you really can't wait to see and fuck your ex again? No... your girlfriend again?'- I asked him just in my mind.

But he just smiled and handed me all the papers.

"I don't need to. I know I can trust you, Madi."

I raised an eyebrow and tried to make a joke. "Really, what if it's a part of my way of earning a few million from your account?"

But instead of being alarmed... "It's okay. You can have as much as you want and don't worry, I can give you anything you want, Madi."

I laughed inside... -'Yeah, you can give me everything I want, except your heart.'-

And much to my surprise, he kissed me quickly on the lips.

"What the---" I uttered, but he's already exited the door. I gulped and laughed bitterly as I touched my lips.

We've been married for two weeks, but we barely see each other at his house. You can only count on your fingers the nights he sleeps in that huge but empty house. We're just seeing each other in the office, but after that, we can have our own precious time at night.

And with that, I'm really starting to think if he still needs me in his plan, because it's been two weeks that he hasn't mentioned it. And because it's once in a blue moon when he shows up at his house at night, he didn't notice the time I got home every night. There's one time, I didn't come home and slept in my old apartment, but he didn't notice it.

He continued his plan of chasing her and I continued to become invisible in his eyes. Every day, I need to smile and show him I'm fine and everything around me was just fine.

But every day, smiling feels like wearing a mask, a lonely mask that keeps my real feelings inside. But do I have a choice? I chose this, right? So feel free to endure the pain of my stupidity.

*****

"Madi, are you ready?"

"Yeah, I'm just going to change my clothes at Gabriel's house." 

It's Friday night and we'll be celebrating tonight in a night bar, along with her, Nancy, Greg and two of Greg's friend. And since Gabriel took an early out this afternoon, for sure he's enjoying the night between Stacey's legs too.

"Why do you keep calling it 'Gabriel's house'? Why don't you just call it 'our house?"

"Because it's not my house!"

"But you're married, that means it's marital property."

"Sandy, I don't have an interest with all the things and properties he has----''

"Yeah, because your only interest is to win his heart."

I didn't say anything, because it's true. And it just hurts me more to think that my love for him grows every day, but I can't do anything about it.

"You don't have to go home, Madi." I looked at her and she smiled. "I have a lot of dress, you know. You can borrow any of it."

"It's okay, you don't need to do that."

"But what if you find your husband at home?"

"And so?"

"What if he stopped you from going out tonight?"

"Oh, he can't do that! I didn't ask his whereabouts, so he has no right to question me!"

the brave Madi version

at her idea... 'brave

*****

Sandy's suggestion. I wasted no time going home to change my clothes. I just borrowed one

I missed this!"

tight red and fitted dress which ended on my mid-thigh. And take note, it's

You're

I already know that, but thanks anyway."

way I

in that killing outfit tonight, I'm sure he will immediately drop his revenge plan on

that's my

I said popping my lips after applying my

would know? But anyway Madi, you really look confident and beautiful

They are actually my tags to myself. The ever beautiful, confident and

I don't remember when was the last time I wore that smile and confidence in myself. But I promise I'll be myself again

the living room when I decided to come out. He stood up immediately and smiled at

in that kind of dress for a long time. Do I have to say welcome back or congratulations

Greg. I'm still

-'except my heart'-

my hand and put it on his arm as we headed

he opened the passenger, not before he opened the door for Sandy in

You know,

stay with us at Gabriel's house, but when she met Lawrence, one of Greg's friend, she decided to

I didn't wait for Greg to open our car door. Once we parked at the parking lot, we immediately jumped

wait for me?" Greg asked me frowning when he's already in front of us. But we just laughed at him and started walking towards the

I said placing my hand on his right arm. "But there's one

at me. "And

winked at him. He laughed

"Tsk.Tsk. Fine!"

Gregy. You're so cute."

it's

from the expert, huh!"

also winked at

to rock the nightclub when we entered the entrance. Greg took us to the

Nancy and Lawrence?"

help but ask when I noticed the two were missing. And he pointed them

now rocking the night!" I said

Greg said and sat down next to me. "What would you

at his question. "You don't need to ask, anything

stood up to get

my tolerance is when it comes to alcohol. I can drink the whole bucket of beers without being drunk. We

the dancefloor, Nancy

my cheek. I can smell the alcohol on

Nancy," I said patting

at me. "How are you

same," I replied, avoiding her

know how to

spring vodka in his hands. My

Nancy asked curiously

I smiled as

"Is that strong?"

"Hmm... 80% of alcohol."

Sissy?" her eyes turned wide but Greg

I can even drink the whole

But how can you do

all types of alcoholic beverages can make you immune, Nancy. And Madi has a strong tolerance when it comes to that." Greg answered next to me. Actually, I'm sitting between

see how you drink the whole bucket, Sissy?" she squealed beside me, but Greg glared at

"Nancy!" 

just ignored

"I have an idea!"

thing she did really surprised us all. She ran towards the stage and spoke

have a friend over there. She's actually my sister-in-law." She pointed to where we were sitting. "She has a high tolerance to alcohol. Now, is there any of you who can fight her in a bottoms-up competition?" she screamed loudly and the crowd begin to make their choice. "I'm willing to give ten thousand dollars to anyone who can defeat my sister-in-law!

he watched his cousin

Greg. I'm used to this." I

"But Madi---"

fine. In fact, I missed this."