Forever in the Past and Forever in the Future

Forever in the Past and Forever in the Future by Neener Beener chapter 20

Kas’s POV

Bronx looks like a swamp monster as he walks towards me with a cigarette hanging out of his mouth. I stand up when I see him, putting my hands over my mouth with a little gasp.

We make eye contact. With all the mud, I can’t read his expression, but I can feel his pain. Not physical pain, emotional pain.

“I need you, ” he growls as he walks past Milo and Lenora. He leans over, wraps his muddy arms around my waist, and picks me up. He doesn’t even break his stride. He just keeps walking. There’s a squishing sound where his skin contacts my clothes.

Welp, I guess this outfit is done for.

After listening to everything Milo and Lenora just told me, I had no idea what reaction to expect when Bronx got back, but it certainly wasn’t being thrown over the shoulder of a swamp monster.

“Uh, bye guys. Thanks for the talk,” I wave at Milo and Lenora. They wave back with confused looks on their faces.

“Want to tell me what’s going on, Bronx? ” I ask as he climbs the stairs.

He just grunts as he carries me, wrapping his arms around my legs in a tight bear hug up the stairs to the fifth floor. Instead of going to my suite, he opens the door to his apartment and kicks it closed behind him. He carries me all the way to his bedroom and sits me on the edge of the bed. Instead of sitting up and looking at me, he lays his muddy head next to my hip, his heavy, muddy chest is in my lap, and his arms still tightly around my waist.

I smooth his muddy hair as he silently holds on to me as if his life is depending on it. I can feel his emotions, he feels tormented.

Maybe his life does depend on it? I feel helpless seeing him like this.

Whatever it is, I’ll listen, ” I soothe

unexpected thing happens next, silent sobs

what? He’s crying? Now I definitely don’ t know what

as he whimpers and tries to catch his breath. We sit like this for some time until he starts to calm down. It’s clear this

it’s my turn to wipe tears away. Well, tears and mud, but you get the idea. I press on his chin gently, pushing his face down so he is

I’ve seen him with no eyepatch. At first glance, it was a bit jarring to see a long vertical scar where an eye should be. The thought of his scar is fleeting as I look into his eye and see

going on? ” I use a gentle tone as I caress his cheek, “Please don’t hide from me. I can take care of you just as much as

and mine alone. I just -I don’t know what to do with it. The biggest threat I’ve ever sworn to protect my pack from is witchcraft. After what I went through when

safe.”

is exactly what I have fought so hard against for years, ” his voice is shaky as his lip trembles, ” I don’t know what to do Kas. I need to do what’s best for you but I also need to do what’s best for the pack, and right now those things are conflicting. I’m not just an Alpha, I’m an Alpha Regent. The word of my decision will get out and everyone will judge

of what I

squishes his muddy head into the crook of my neck and takes a deep shaky breath. I let him stay like that until his

mud, ” I joke, trying to lighten the mood. I ‘m also

fresh rain and lilacs. Oh, what do I smell like to you?” The sounds of

it’s almost like a mochaccino, ” I giggle. He laughs a little

the eye, ” Bronx, next time, just talk to me. Especially if you or Saint are mad. I ‘m your mate. I’m not as fragile as you think I ann. We’re supposed to be in this together, right? This

team. I’m here to support you in all things and if I’m going to be Luna someday, it’s also my responsibility to keep the pack safe. We can talk through these sorts of things if you just speak to me instead of walking away. Besides, I would never want you to make a decision that would be bad for the pack. More importantly, it’s not up to you to make decisions like this on my behalf. We can talk through the pros

you away or make you think you did something wrong, ” he looks me in

still have a lot of healing to do, but I ‘m working on it. Who knows, maybe I’ll never be fully over all the crap

and look him straight in the eye as I slowly pull him toward me until our lips touch. Lex is going bonkers in my mind as I

between us as the kiss becomes more passionate. He adjusts his arms so my entire body was pressed closer to him.