Forever in the Past and Forever in the Future

Chapter 59

Kas’s POV

Things have been so uncomfortable since the fire. At first I thought it had to do with being in a different packhouse and everyone being in closer quarters than we are used to, but I think it‘s more than that. Bronx is like a man possessed. He has moments where he is very sweet like he always has been, but it‘s few and far between. He‘s generally grumpy and rude to everyone, even me. That‘s if I even see him. People scurry away when they see him coming, hoping to avoid his wrath. H e spends long hours at MasonCo and when he isn‘t there, he spends his time with Milo locked in the conference room.

Most nights he doesn‘t get back to our apartment until the early hours of the morning. I pretend to be asleep but I can feel the bed sag when he gets in. He always wraps his arms around me and deeply breathes in my scent. I hear him whisper how much he loves me and how much he misses me. The gross smell of cigarettes mixes in with his coffee and dark chocolate scent more and more

k chocolate scent more and more every night. And I don‘t know how he manages to do it but he gets up at five a.m. to train with the rest of the warriors. Leaving my on my own. 3

Lenora is hardly around because she is busy securing international contracts for the security company, while Ashley is also busy with work and dealing with pack matters. I offer to help her every day, but she politely declines, telling me she doesn‘t have time to explain how to d o everything and usually rushes away giving me an apologetic smile. Ashley does get me a laptop though, which is a relief. I don‘t have to worry about bugging her to print things out for me anymore.

Everyone is stressed out and no matter what I try to do to help, I‘m in the way or ignored. I almost feel like people are avoiding me. Even Mrs. Miller tells me the kitchen in the old packhouse is too small for me to be in there while she and her staff are working. She is so busy, I can‘t even get her to sit down between meals to discuss food for the wedding reception. So, I stay out of the way. I don‘t want to add to her stress. I will

don‘t want to add to her stress. I will figure it out myself. That is what the internet and all those bridal magazines are for, I guess.

Delilah and I spend time in a much smaller kitchen off the ballroom, perfecting the recipes for our bakery. Well, if it ever actually happens. The one time I brought it up to Bronx, he said ‘not now, Kas‘ and rushed away to meet up with Milo. I mean Delilah is great and other than Lex, she‘s my best friend but she has a mate of her own and she can‘t b e there every second of the day. I try not t o complain, but I think she can tell I‘m feeling down. I don‘t let on how much the way I am being treated by everyone is really bothering me. I don‘t want to guilt her into spending more time with me.

Lex on the other hand is super excited about getting married. She‘s been helping me with wedding planning. I know that sounds weird, the wolf in my head is my wedding planner, but honestly, she has good taste and she has helped me with it i n previous lives. Today, for example, I don‘t want to feel like I am in everyone‘s way, so she and I are going to look through websites for food option ideas

don‘t want to add to her stress. I will figure it out myself. That is what the internet and all those bridal magazines are for, I guess.

Delilah and I spend time in a much smaller kitchen off the ballroom, perfecting the recipes for our bakery. Well, if it ever actually happens. The one time I brought it up to Bronx, he said ‘not now, Kas‘ and rushed away to meet up with Milo. I mean Delilah is great and other than Lex, she‘s my best friend but she has a mate of her own and she can‘t b e there every second of the day. I try not t o complain, but I think she can tell I‘m feeling down. I don‘t let on how much the way I am being treated by everyone is really bothering me. I don‘t want to guilt her into spending more time with me.

Lex on the other hand is super excited about getting married. She‘s been helping me with wedding planning. I know that sounds weird, the wolf in my head is my wedding planner, but honestly, she has good taste and she has helped me with it i n previous lives. Today, for example, I don‘t want to feel like I am in everyone‘s way, so she and I are going to look through websites for food option ideas

through websites for food option ideas for the reception. I call Delilah to let her know I‘m going to focus on wedding planning and I won‘t be able to meet up with her. She sounds tentative but as always, she is understanding.

“Don‘t forget to call the dress boutique and make an appointment!” Lex reminds me.

“Oh, good call!”

I flip my binder with ideas and notes to the page with the bridal shop number. The woman on the phone is so nice. She makes my appointment for tomorrow afternoon. They‘re going to be slow because it‘s Valentine‘s day. I‘m sure Bronx will be working, so he won‘t even notice, but I‘ll still have plenty of time to make a romantic dinner for him. I sent him a text message about it. Hopefully, h e remembers.

I hang up the phone and hear a drip of water in the sink

from the leaky pipes splashing against the dungeon floor. I‘m on

1.

Ryan is holding my face, getting ready to smash my eyes out of my head. Oh Goddess no! Please, please don‘t let him blind me! The pressure of his thumbs against my lower

in the dress shop. Wow. What a weird, terrible memory to have while I‘m trying on wedding dresses. It felt so real, I think to myself. I shake it off. Now is

on the hanger. They turn the

from outside the large bay window.

and a giant gray wolf with piercing gray eyes comes crashing through. Everyone i n the store starts screaming and running. I‘m planted to the spot in shock. The wolf grabs a human running away by the neck and rips their throat out. Blood spatters everywhere defiling

into Lex and run. The woman who was helping me is now crawling on the floor trying to get away but the wolf grabs her and tears her

*

Shit.

backwards off the platform. Fuck it. I‘ll find another

Screw the dress!” I yell at

close! Hold on, Kas! I need to stop time but

draining,” she whimpers.

waiting for?!

and stop time simultaniously, so everything starts moving as soon

a tme!” Bronx is on his knees,

feel tears falling down my face but I don‘t know

out of that vision for twenty minutes. Are you alright?” He

was awful.” I can‘t help myself, I start sobbing and fall into his arms. It‘s the first time I‘ve seen

Kas,” he soothes me as

do need you to tell me before you forget. Can you d o that

listens. That‘s right. Patient.

Bronx,” I feel

dresses? How much time before this is

“Tomorrow afternoon.”

for next week, so I can have extra security

ask him why he‘s home in the middle of the day when I look

confused, “What time

at him confused, “What time is