Forever in the Past and Forever in the Future

Forever in the Past and Forever in the Future by Neener Beener chapter 33

“I think the one thing I still don’t understand is when you talk about our lives that haven’t happened yet. You’re a goddess so you are going to keep being reincarnated. I just have a regular old human spirit, ” I try to justify when she is done talking.

“Actually…you’re not just a regular human spirit. Just like my spirit is tied to Lex, yours is tied to Saint.

I’ve just been attached to her longer. Your spirit had to come into existence before it could be linked to Saint’s. Can you believe we’ve been together before? In our previous lives. Which means, so have Saint and Lex, ” she talks excitedly as she piles the food in layers in a ceramic dish.

She looks up to see me looking at her in disbelief. I am trying to connect the dots of what she’s saying. I swear I’m not usually this dense.

“Pick your jaw up off the floor, Sweetheart. I’m not the only one who’s been reincarnated here, Bronx. You have been too. Lots of times. It’s easier for Saint and Lex to remember for some reason. Ask Saint, he’ll tell you.“

“Saint, is that true? Do you remember being connected to me for eight hundred years?“

“Yeah, of course, ” his tone is so matter of fact that you would think he has told me all this before.

“Do you remember being with Lex before?“

“Why do you think I miss her when we don’t get to see her? I was made for her and I have loved every minute of it. She’s amazing, ” he swoons over his mate, “You have Kas, I have Lex. We were mates for the first time eight hundred years ago. We have never had another mate. You and Kas’s names change, but it’s always your essences, your spirits. You’ve been mates with Kas at least fifteen times, I think. I don’t know for sure. I’ve lost track.”

My eyes widened at the realization, ” So we were actually made for Kas and Lex?”

” That’s a good way to put it. The Goddess made us extra strong since Kas is a goddess. It’s the only way we can be with her and not get hurt. That’s why you’re an Alpha. Anything less and she could accidentally destroy us and if she did, poof, our spirits’ journey would be over.”

“Why are you just now telling me this, Saint?”

“I tell you all the time that she is our mate. It’s not my fault you’re a dummy and don’t understand.

Imagine if I was going on and on about past lives. You would never have believed me.”

Kas watches me patiently while I have my internal conversation with Saint. When I ‘in finished, I pull her closer to me

together basically forever? Since the beginning of my

” Kas cocks her head to the side slightly and smiles softly as she searches my eye for

In that moment, that bit of knowledge made me feel even more

and Lex have been connected over three thousand years longer than

Saint chides, “You. Didn’t. Exist. Let it

right. I let the thought extinguish at his words and let myself breathe in Kas’s scent deeply

meant, ” I break the comfortable silence. Letting everything Kas has just told me marinate has given me a minute to come to a

who meant?” Kas asks

that happens when

know. That’s our connection strengthening,” Kas

embrace it when that happens. I think her exact words were ‘lean into

say but she is right. That is the time our spirits are the

pulls away from me to clean up the dishes from prepping the meal. She washes while I dry

is sitting in front of me. Just like anything Kas

pull her close to me and whisper in her ear,

bites her bottom lip, looking up

say we go see how bright we can

without a word, Kas grabs my hand and pulls

Lex a few hours to spend together in the woods, then head back to

Lady Camille while I get James and Delilah so we can tell them about our decision. I knock on James’s door and hear some shuffling and whispering from inside. James cracks the door open with a little growl for whoever

me. He opens the door wider and stands at

meet me, Luna Iokaste, and Lady Camille in the front sitting room. We need

I don’t alert

hard with a worried look. I

having lemonade. Since James is one of my warriors,

finally come to the room holding hands, looking very nervous. Delilah looks like

why don’t you lead this conversation?