Forever in the Past and Forever in the Future

Forever in the Past and Forever in the Future by Neener Beener chapter 33

“I think the one thing I still don’t understand is when you talk about our lives that haven’t happened yet. You’re a goddess so you are going to keep being reincarnated. I just have a regular old human spirit, ” I try to justify when she is done talking.

“Actually…you’re not just a regular human spirit. Just like my spirit is tied to Lex, yours is tied to Saint.

I’ve just been attached to her longer. Your spirit had to come into existence before it could be linked to Saint’s. Can you believe we’ve been together before? In our previous lives. Which means, so have Saint and Lex, ” she talks excitedly as she piles the food in layers in a ceramic dish.

She looks up to see me looking at her in disbelief. I am trying to connect the dots of what she’s saying. I swear I’m not usually this dense.

“Pick your jaw up off the floor, Sweetheart. I’m not the only one who’s been reincarnated here, Bronx. You have been too. Lots of times. It’s easier for Saint and Lex to remember for some reason. Ask Saint, he’ll tell you.“

“Saint, is that true? Do you remember being connected to me for eight hundred years?“

“Yeah, of course, ” his tone is so matter of fact that you would think he has told me all this before.

“Do you remember being with Lex before?“

“Why do you think I miss her when we don’t get to see her? I was made for her and I have loved every minute of it. She’s amazing, ” he swoons over his mate, “You have Kas, I have Lex. We were mates for the first time eight hundred years ago. We have never had another mate. You and Kas’s names change, but it’s always your essences, your spirits. You’ve been mates with Kas at least fifteen times, I think. I don’t know for sure. I’ve lost track.”

My eyes widened at the realization, ” So we were actually made for Kas and Lex?”

” That’s a good way to put it. The Goddess made us extra strong since Kas is a goddess. It’s the only way we can be with her and not get hurt. That’s why you’re an Alpha. Anything less and she could accidentally destroy us and if she did, poof, our spirits’ journey would be over.”

“Why are you just now telling me this, Saint?”

“I tell you all the time that she is our mate. It’s not my fault you’re a dummy and don’t understand.

Imagine if I was going on and on about past lives. You would never have believed me.”

Kas watches me patiently while I have my internal conversation with Saint. When I ‘in finished, I pull her closer to me

” So we’ve been together basically forever? Since the beginning of my human

her head to the side slightly and smiles softly as she searches my eye for

linger in my mind, I hold her close. I was made for her. In that moment, that bit of knowledge made me feel even more protective of her. Someone would have to get through me first and

been connected over three thousand years longer than I have existed sinks in. I bristle at

a dummy, Bronx,” Saint chides, “You. Didn’t. Exist.

let the thought extinguish at his words and let myself breathe in Kas’s scent

silence. Letting everything Kas has just told me marinate has

meant?”

happens when we’re together?” I

I know. That’s our connection strengthening,”

here, Lady Camille told me I should embrace it when that

a very Lady Camille thing to say but she is right. That is the time

me to clean up the dishes

serving of shepherd’s pie is sitting in front of me. Just like anything Kas cooks, it’s the best I’ve

and whisper in her ear, “So, the

” she bites her bottom

we

her face and without a word, Kas grabs my hand

can give Saint and Lex a few hours to spend together in the woods, then

knock on James’s door and hear some shuffling and whispering from inside. James cracks the door open with a little growl for whoever

see me. He opens the door wider and stands at attention, with a towel covering his

me, Luna Iokaste, and Lady Camille in the front sitting room. We need to speak with the two

” I use my best poker face so I don’t alert him about what is about to

with a worried look. I nod and turn away to go

Camille already sitting having lemonade. Since James

nervous. Delilah looks like she could

Bronx, why don’t you lead this conversation? ”