Forever in the Past and Forever in the Future

Forever in the Past and Forever in the Future by Neener Beener chapter 33

“I think the one thing I still don’t understand is when you talk about our lives that haven’t happened yet. You’re a goddess so you are going to keep being reincarnated. I just have a regular old human spirit, ” I try to justify when she is done talking.

“Actually…you’re not just a regular human spirit. Just like my spirit is tied to Lex, yours is tied to Saint.

I’ve just been attached to her longer. Your spirit had to come into existence before it could be linked to Saint’s. Can you believe we’ve been together before? In our previous lives. Which means, so have Saint and Lex, ” she talks excitedly as she piles the food in layers in a ceramic dish.

She looks up to see me looking at her in disbelief. I am trying to connect the dots of what she’s saying. I swear I’m not usually this dense.

“Pick your jaw up off the floor, Sweetheart. I’m not the only one who’s been reincarnated here, Bronx. You have been too. Lots of times. It’s easier for Saint and Lex to remember for some reason. Ask Saint, he’ll tell you.“

“Saint, is that true? Do you remember being connected to me for eight hundred years?“

“Yeah, of course, ” his tone is so matter of fact that you would think he has told me all this before.

“Do you remember being with Lex before?“

“Why do you think I miss her when we don’t get to see her? I was made for her and I have loved every minute of it. She’s amazing, ” he swoons over his mate, “You have Kas, I have Lex. We were mates for the first time eight hundred years ago. We have never had another mate. You and Kas’s names change, but it’s always your essences, your spirits. You’ve been mates with Kas at least fifteen times, I think. I don’t know for sure. I’ve lost track.”

My eyes widened at the realization, ” So we were actually made for Kas and Lex?”

” That’s a good way to put it. The Goddess made us extra strong since Kas is a goddess. It’s the only way we can be with her and not get hurt. That’s why you’re an Alpha. Anything less and she could accidentally destroy us and if she did, poof, our spirits’ journey would be over.”

“Why are you just now telling me this, Saint?”

“I tell you all the time that she is our mate. It’s not my fault you’re a dummy and don’t understand.

Imagine if I was going on and on about past lives. You would never have believed me.”

Kas watches me patiently while I have my internal conversation with Saint. When I ‘in finished, I pull her closer to me

” So we’ve been together basically forever? Since the beginning of

Kas cocks her head to the side slightly and smiles softly as she

wrap my mind around but I love the idea of it. As her words linger in my mind, I hold her close. I was made for her. In that moment, that bit of knowledge made me feel even more protective of her. Someone would have

I’m holding her, the thought that she and Lex have been connected over three thousand years longer than I have existed sinks in. I bristle at the thought of who she was connected to before

really being a dummy, Bronx,” Saint chides, “You. Didn’t. Exist. Let

I let the thought extinguish at his words and let myself

must be what she meant, ” I break the comfortable silence. Letting everything Kas has just told me marinate has given me a minute

meant?” Kas asks

thing that happens when we’re together?” I look

yeah, I know. That’s our connection strengthening,” Kas says with a little

I was here, Lady Camille told me I should embrace it when that

Camille thing to say but she is right. That is the time our spirits are the most open

as she pulls away from me to clean up the dishes from prepping the meal. She washes while

in front of me.

to me and whisper in her ear, “So, the purple

” she bites her bottom lip, looking

we can make it?“

word, Kas grabs my hand and pulls me to the

too soon. We wake up early so we can give Saint and Lex a few hours to spend together in the woods, then head

Delilah so we can tell them about our decision. I knock on James’s door and hear some shuffling and whispering from inside.

opens the door wider and

You and your mate get freshened up, meet me, Luna Iokaste, and Lady Camille in the front sitting room. We

poker face so I don’t alert him about what is about to

” he gulps hard with a worried look. I nod and turn away to

sitting room to see Kas and Lady Camille already sitting having lemonade. Since James is one of my warriors, I choose to remain standing to

room holding hands, looking very nervous. Delilah looks like she could cry at any

why don’t you lead this conversation? ” Lady