His Dark Obsession

A Dreary Night

ZEDKIEL.

This day is one that I will always remember.

The threat she held over me she meant it.

It was sickening to watch her take on Evangeline’s coy demeanour, to see her fit in with all her ways, and only when I told Kash what happened did he believe me.

Night has now fallen, and she is asleep by my side. No matter how fucking angry I am, my woman is inside there somewhere.

I regret that the last words we exchanged were ones of anger. Hers hurt like a fucking knife in the chest, but to hold on to my sanity I tell myself that she was not herself when she spoke those words.

My Evangeline knows she means the fucking world to me. No one else matters, only her. I will do anything for her. Anything.

‘But if you weren’t so nice to that woman! Then our mate wouldn’t have been hurt!’ Zerachiel snarls menacingly.

His wrath burns me like poison and guilt rips through me.

I know I messed up, I never meant for this to happen. I was just fucking trying to do the right thing.

I sit there, leaning against the headboard as I look at her sleeping form.

I feel hollow… there’s a gaping hole inside of me that needs Evangeline back. Her somewhat of

a rejection has numbed me but at the same time, I can’t explain the crushing pain that now festers inside of me.

If I can turn back time I’d change that, but I can’t help but let the doubts eat at me. Being alone most of my life has made it hard to feel as if I am good enough… Am I?

What have I really done for her?

Nothing.

She didn’t want anything to do with me. How was she able to so easily cast me aside?

‘Stop it! Remember, we are doomed to fail; you must do the right thing…’ Zerachiel growls, cutting me off.

How do I fix this?

The anger inside of me is bubbling, rising with each passing moment, and I know it’s not Zerachiel’s but mine. It’s growing and the hatred for the woman that lay there in my woman’s body is only getting stronger.

My heart is thundering, my eyes blazing red as I glare out at the moon.

What does it mean to be the goddess?

What power does Evangeline have that she was so easily thrown into the abyss of her mind?

Where is the power of the Moon Goddess when we need it?

‘Zerachiel… tell me why does Evangeline have visions of me killing her… why do I even kill her? Because I can’t see myself ever being able to do that… even if it’s Evelyn in her body. I can’t hurt her.’ I ask him, trying to make sense of it.

that this isn’t the end, that I’ve

feel that festering rage bleeding through me and slowly cracking the hold I have upon my anger. Anger won’t get me anywhere. I’m trying to fucking keep

end up killing her… perhaps because she is no longer there… but still, she is our mate, they are our mates… you cannot kill them for the sake of others.” His voice is full of anguish, tied with

struggle, and soon the pain

Evangeline was going to sacrifice herself

His

the sting

just not enough to keep her… She never wanted

seems to be spreading, but I realise that she’s been trying

curse… or curses.

need to

eyes,

pondering

the answer.’ Zerachiel

I go there and

see. There

frown, but I don’t say anything. Right now I’m fucking grateful I at least have him on my side. Someone to help keep my sanity intact. I hope he can genuinely see

but you are both foolish! Impulsive!

mess up, but if you had told me from the start or fucking warned me, things could have been handled better. Don’t you feel that you made matters worse? Instead of guiding me and helping me, all my life you have

this shit blame game, but he’s meant

I feel a heaviness settle inside, weighing

‘Do

you are bound by these

I frown slightly.

bound…. A prisoner who sees your stupidity lifetime and lifetime

curse has been having. When Evangeline had pushed me, when she released that anger, there

She didn’t.

to tell myself that repeatedly because

falling and a part of me wants

to

can do to a person as pure as Evangeline. ‘Why do

always ruins everything!’ He

you ever

when it comes to Evelyn, who has done nothing but ruin everything. She is the

likes of her!’ He spits and I fall silent,

you kill

it gives

and it’s why he hates me, for being

not entirely, as Evangeline had

decide to try to get some sleep as much as I don’t want to be in her presence. I also know she’s the only

turn my back on her, trying to think of a way to reach

I ask

to

vampires will know a way. There are

that mean I should attempt

left on the stand by the entrance to our quarters. Two were regarding vampires and I know she’s been looking for answers for Kash and with Evelyn here, I had given him the books to check through. But if there’s no answer, for him I will have to go

had hoped there was something in there to help