His Dark Obsession

A Dreary Night

ZEDKIEL.

This day is one that I will always remember.

The threat she held over me she meant it.

It was sickening to watch her take on Evangeline’s coy demeanour, to see her fit in with all her ways, and only when I told Kash what happened did he believe me.

Night has now fallen, and she is asleep by my side. No matter how fucking angry I am, my woman is inside there somewhere.

I regret that the last words we exchanged were ones of anger. Hers hurt like a fucking knife in the chest, but to hold on to my sanity I tell myself that she was not herself when she spoke those words.

My Evangeline knows she means the fucking world to me. No one else matters, only her. I will do anything for her. Anything.

‘But if you weren’t so nice to that woman! Then our mate wouldn’t have been hurt!’ Zerachiel snarls menacingly.

His wrath burns me like poison and guilt rips through me.

I know I messed up, I never meant for this to happen. I was just fucking trying to do the right thing.

I sit there, leaning against the headboard as I look at her sleeping form.

I feel hollow… there’s a gaping hole inside of me that needs Evangeline back. Her somewhat of

a rejection has numbed me but at the same time, I can’t explain the crushing pain that now festers inside of me.

If I can turn back time I’d change that, but I can’t help but let the doubts eat at me. Being alone most of my life has made it hard to feel as if I am good enough… Am I?

What have I really done for her?

Nothing.

She didn’t want anything to do with me. How was she able to so easily cast me aside?

‘Stop it! Remember, we are doomed to fail; you must do the right thing…’ Zerachiel growls, cutting me off.

How do I fix this?

The anger inside of me is bubbling, rising with each passing moment, and I know it’s not Zerachiel’s but mine. It’s growing and the hatred for the woman that lay there in my woman’s body is only getting stronger.

My heart is thundering, my eyes blazing red as I glare out at the moon.

What does it mean to be the goddess?

What power does Evangeline have that she was so easily thrown into the abyss of her mind?

Where is the power of the Moon Goddess when we need it?

‘Zerachiel… tell me why does Evangeline have visions of me killing her… why do I even kill her? Because I can’t see myself ever being able to do that… even if it’s Evelyn in her body. I can’t hurt her.’ I ask him, trying to make sense of it.

isn’t the end, that I’ve not lost her yet. That

through me and slowly cracking the hold I have upon my

you always end up killing her… perhaps because she is no longer there… but still, she is our mate, they are our mates… you cannot kill them for the sake of others.” His voice is full of anguish, tied with an

feel his struggle, and

that Evangeline was going to sacrifice herself

His

flares up as the sting

keep her… She never wanted this or

realise that she’s been

curse… or curses.

to fight

close my eyes, trying

pondering over what I can

the answer.’ Zerachiel mutters with

to fucking go to the realm of gods. How do I go there and

just anyone, let’s see. There must be a way, use your

my side. Someone to help keep my sanity intact. I hope he can genuinely see that I want Evangeline back. Not only want… but

you are both foolish!

me from the start or fucking warned me, things could have been handled better. Don’t you feel

we can both play this shit blame game, but he’s meant to be a part of

and I feel a heaviness settle

‘Do

you are bound

I frown slightly.

sees your stupidity lifetime

pushed me, when she released that anger,

She didn’t.

have to tell myself that repeatedly because I’m about to lose

woman who sleeps by my side; her breasts rising and falling and a part

wants to

it can do to a person as pure as Evangeline. ‘Why do

ruins everything!’ He

frown, ‘Have you ever shown

especially when it comes to Evelyn, who has done nothing but ruin everything. She is the damn reason Evangeline isn’t here, but I also know the

there is no hope for the likes of her!’ He spits and I fall silent,

you

and it gives me my

can’t and it’s why he hates me, for being able to kill our mate

like Evangeline… well, not entirely, as Evangeline

decide to try to get some sleep as much as I don’t want to be in her presence. I also know she’s the only link I have to Evangeline, and for that reason, I have to keep her close. I don’t need

turn my back on her, trying to think

I

to hesitate before

the vampires will know a way. There are ancient arts that they excel

I should attempt to

seen the books she had left on the stand by the entrance to our quarters. Two were regarding vampires and I know she’s been looking for answers for Kash and with Evelyn here, I had given him the books to check through. But if there’s no

there was something in there to help him, but