His Dark Obsession

A Dreary Night

ZEDKIEL.

This day is one that I will always remember.

The threat she held over me she meant it.

It was sickening to watch her take on Evangeline’s coy demeanour, to see her fit in with all her ways, and only when I told Kash what happened did he believe me.

Night has now fallen, and she is asleep by my side. No matter how fucking angry I am, my woman is inside there somewhere.

I regret that the last words we exchanged were ones of anger. Hers hurt like a fucking knife in the chest, but to hold on to my sanity I tell myself that she was not herself when she spoke those words.

My Evangeline knows she means the fucking world to me. No one else matters, only her. I will do anything for her. Anything.

‘But if you weren’t so nice to that woman! Then our mate wouldn’t have been hurt!’ Zerachiel snarls menacingly.

His wrath burns me like poison and guilt rips through me.

I know I messed up, I never meant for this to happen. I was just fucking trying to do the right thing.

I sit there, leaning against the headboard as I look at her sleeping form.

I feel hollow… there’s a gaping hole inside of me that needs Evangeline back. Her somewhat of

a rejection has numbed me but at the same time, I can’t explain the crushing pain that now festers inside of me.

If I can turn back time I’d change that, but I can’t help but let the doubts eat at me. Being alone most of my life has made it hard to feel as if I am good enough… Am I?

What have I really done for her?

Nothing.

She didn’t want anything to do with me. How was she able to so easily cast me aside?

‘Stop it! Remember, we are doomed to fail; you must do the right thing…’ Zerachiel growls, cutting me off.

How do I fix this?

The anger inside of me is bubbling, rising with each passing moment, and I know it’s not Zerachiel’s but mine. It’s growing and the hatred for the woman that lay there in my woman’s body is only getting stronger.

My heart is thundering, my eyes blazing red as I glare out at the moon.

What does it mean to be the goddess?

What power does Evangeline have that she was so easily thrown into the abyss of her mind?

Where is the power of the Moon Goddess when we need it?

‘Zerachiel… tell me why does Evangeline have visions of me killing her… why do I even kill her? Because I can’t see myself ever being able to do that… even if it’s Evelyn in her body. I can’t hurt her.’ I ask him, trying to make sense of it.

that this isn’t the end, that I’ve not lost her yet. That there

me and slowly cracking the hold I have upon my anger. Anger won’t get me anywhere. I’m trying to fucking keep that in

but you always end up killing her… perhaps because she is no longer there… but still, she is our mate, they are our mates… you cannot kill them for the sake of others.” His voice is full of anguish, tied with an excruciating pain that is

his struggle, and soon the

was going

His

up as the sting of betrayal twists in my

keep her… She

to be spreading, but I realise that

curse… or curses.

need to fight

heavily, I close my eyes, trying

forehead, pondering over what I

answer.’

what she wants? She wants to fucking go to the realm of gods. How do I go there and what about her? What will happen to her with Evelyn in charge? I don’t

Not just anyone, let’s see. There must be

I at least have him on my side. Someone to help

know that, but you are both foolish! Impulsive! Stupid!’ He

up, but if you had told me from the start or fucking warned me, things could have been handled better. Don’t you feel that you made matters worse? Instead of guiding me and helping me,

game, but he’s meant to

I feel a heaviness settle inside, weighing me

‘Do

think that only you

I frown slightly.

sees

had pushed me, when she released that anger, there was

She didn’t.

repeatedly because

and a part of me wants to hate her entirely, but

wants to

can do to a person

always ruins everything!’

frown, ‘Have you ever shown her

I’m the one who is saying this, especially when it comes to Evelyn, who has done nothing but ruin everything. She is the damn reason Evangeline isn’t here, but I also know the truth.

no hope for the likes of

you

it

hates me, for being able to

like Evangeline… well, not entirely, as

also know she’s the only link I have to

on her, trying to

ideas?’ I

seems to hesitate

a way. There are ancient arts that they excel in.’ Zerachiel mutters

frown. Does that mean I should attempt to

been looking for answers for

was something in there to help him, but he hasn’t said