His Dark Obsession

A Dreary Night

ZEDKIEL.

This day is one that I will always remember.

The threat she held over me she meant it.

It was sickening to watch her take on Evangeline’s coy demeanour, to see her fit in with all her ways, and only when I told Kash what happened did he believe me.

Night has now fallen, and she is asleep by my side. No matter how fucking angry I am, my woman is inside there somewhere.

I regret that the last words we exchanged were ones of anger. Hers hurt like a fucking knife in the chest, but to hold on to my sanity I tell myself that she was not herself when she spoke those words.

My Evangeline knows she means the fucking world to me. No one else matters, only her. I will do anything for her. Anything.

‘But if you weren’t so nice to that woman! Then our mate wouldn’t have been hurt!’ Zerachiel snarls menacingly.

His wrath burns me like poison and guilt rips through me.

I know I messed up, I never meant for this to happen. I was just fucking trying to do the right thing.

I sit there, leaning against the headboard as I look at her sleeping form.

I feel hollow… there’s a gaping hole inside of me that needs Evangeline back. Her somewhat of

a rejection has numbed me but at the same time, I can’t explain the crushing pain that now festers inside of me.

If I can turn back time I’d change that, but I can’t help but let the doubts eat at me. Being alone most of my life has made it hard to feel as if I am good enough… Am I?

What have I really done for her?

Nothing.

She didn’t want anything to do with me. How was she able to so easily cast me aside?

‘Stop it! Remember, we are doomed to fail; you must do the right thing…’ Zerachiel growls, cutting me off.

How do I fix this?

The anger inside of me is bubbling, rising with each passing moment, and I know it’s not Zerachiel’s but mine. It’s growing and the hatred for the woman that lay there in my woman’s body is only getting stronger.

My heart is thundering, my eyes blazing red as I glare out at the moon.

What does it mean to be the goddess?

What power does Evangeline have that she was so easily thrown into the abyss of her mind?

Where is the power of the Moon Goddess when we need it?

‘Zerachiel… tell me why does Evangeline have visions of me killing her… why do I even kill her? Because I can’t see myself ever being able to do that… even if it’s Evelyn in her body. I can’t hurt her.’ I ask him, trying to make sense of it.

the

I have upon my

mate, they are our mates… you cannot kill them

struggle, and soon

that Evangeline was going to

His

as the sting

keep her… She never wanted this

spreading, but I realise that

curse… or curses.

need to fight

close my eyes, trying to

forehead, pondering over what

the answer.’ Zerachiel mutters with

we do what she wants? She wants to fucking go to the realm of gods. How do I go there and what about her? What will

just anyone, let’s see. There must be

on my side. Someone to help keep my sanity intact. I hope he can genuinely see that I want Evangeline back. Not

that, but you are both foolish! Impulsive! Stupid!’

You hate that we mess up, but if you had told me from the start or fucking warned me, things could have been handled better. Don’t you feel that you made matters worse? Instead of guiding me and helping me, all my life you have just shut me out.’

both play this shit blame game, but

a heaviness settle inside, weighing me

‘Do

you are bound by these

I frown slightly.

bound…. A prisoner who sees your stupidity lifetime and lifetime

been having. When Evangeline had pushed me, when she released that anger, there was fear and surprise in her eyes… almost as if she didn’t

She didn’t.

because I’m about

a part of me wants to hate her entirely, but one thing

to

a person as pure as Evangeline. ‘Why

ruins everything!’ He

‘Have you ever shown

is saying this, especially when it comes to Evelyn, who has done nothing but

the likes of

can you

and it gives me

he hates me, for being able to kill our mate in

not entirely, as Evangeline had the habit of

sleep as much as I don’t want to be in her presence. I also know she’s the only link I have to Evangeline, and for that reason, I

trying to think of a way to reach

I ask

to

are ancient arts that they excel in.’

that mean I should attempt

had seen the books she had left on the stand by the entrance to our quarters. Two were regarding vampires and I know she’s been looking for answers for Kash and with Evelyn here,

something in there to help him, but he hasn’t said anything