His Dark Obsession

A Dreary Night

ZEDKIEL.

This day is one that I will always remember.

The threat she held over me she meant it.

It was sickening to watch her take on Evangeline’s coy demeanour, to see her fit in with all her ways, and only when I told Kash what happened did he believe me.

Night has now fallen, and she is asleep by my side. No matter how fucking angry I am, my woman is inside there somewhere.

I regret that the last words we exchanged were ones of anger. Hers hurt like a fucking knife in the chest, but to hold on to my sanity I tell myself that she was not herself when she spoke those words.

My Evangeline knows she means the fucking world to me. No one else matters, only her. I will do anything for her. Anything.

‘But if you weren’t so nice to that woman! Then our mate wouldn’t have been hurt!’ Zerachiel snarls menacingly.

His wrath burns me like poison and guilt rips through me.

I know I messed up, I never meant for this to happen. I was just fucking trying to do the right thing.

I sit there, leaning against the headboard as I look at her sleeping form.

I feel hollow… there’s a gaping hole inside of me that needs Evangeline back. Her somewhat of

a rejection has numbed me but at the same time, I can’t explain the crushing pain that now festers inside of me.

If I can turn back time I’d change that, but I can’t help but let the doubts eat at me. Being alone most of my life has made it hard to feel as if I am good enough… Am I?

What have I really done for her?

Nothing.

She didn’t want anything to do with me. How was she able to so easily cast me aside?

‘Stop it! Remember, we are doomed to fail; you must do the right thing…’ Zerachiel growls, cutting me off.

How do I fix this?

The anger inside of me is bubbling, rising with each passing moment, and I know it’s not Zerachiel’s but mine. It’s growing and the hatred for the woman that lay there in my woman’s body is only getting stronger.

My heart is thundering, my eyes blazing red as I glare out at the moon.

What does it mean to be the goddess?

What power does Evangeline have that she was so easily thrown into the abyss of her mind?

Where is the power of the Moon Goddess when we need it?

‘Zerachiel… tell me why does Evangeline have visions of me killing her… why do I even kill her? Because I can’t see myself ever being able to do that… even if it’s Evelyn in her body. I can’t hurt her.’ I ask him, trying to make sense of it.

that this isn’t the end, that I’ve not lost her yet. That

can feel that festering rage bleeding through me and slowly cracking the hold I have upon my

you cannot kill them for the sake of others.” His voice is full of

his struggle,

said that Evangeline was going

His

the sting

keep her… She never wanted

spreading, but I realise that she’s

curse… or curses.

to fight

eyes, trying to focus on remaining

forehead, pondering over what

given us the answer.’ Zerachiel mutters with obvious

do what she wants? She wants to fucking go to the realm of gods. How do I go there and

anyone, let’s see. There must be a way, use your brain.’ Zerachiel replies

least have him on my side. Someone to

but you are both foolish! Impulsive!

that we mess up, but if you had told me from the start or fucking warned me, things could have been handled better. Don’t you feel that you made matters worse? Instead of guiding me and

we can both play this shit blame game, but he’s meant to

and I feel a heaviness settle inside,

‘Do

you

I frown slightly.

am bound…. A prisoner who sees your stupidity

she released that anger, there was fear and surprise in her eyes… almost as if she didn’t mean to

She didn’t.

have to tell myself that repeatedly because I’m

and falling and a part of me wants to hate her entirely,

to free

can do to a person as

always ruins everything!’

you ever shown her

it comes to Evelyn, who has done nothing but ruin everything. She is the damn reason Evangeline isn’t here, but I also know the truth. She’s

the likes of

you

and it

me, for

her sleep, she looks just like Evangeline… well, not entirely, as

I don’t want to be in her presence. I also know she’s the

my back on her, trying to think of a way to reach

I

to hesitate

will know a way. There are ancient

I should attempt

seen the books she had left on the stand by the entrance to our quarters. Two were regarding vampires and I know she’s been looking for answers for Kash and with Evelyn here, I had given him the books to check through. But if there’s no answer, for him I will

in there to help