His Lost Lycan Luna

Hook? Me Found Lycon Line Chapter 53

Azalea POV

Nothing felt real, yet the pain in my heart was proof it was. My mind felt numb, like it was refusing to feel, it’s amazing how one’s mind can forfeit and leave to protect you from caring. I welcomed it yet also hated it. I was irrevocably undeniably numb. Seeing Kyson though, I was worried. He drank so much, copious amounts but he never left my side. I knew he was hurting because I could feel that through the bond. His pain was something I could feel, but I disassociated with it, knew it wasn’t my pain though I also knew it was the same pain. Only now I was adding to his torment.

Yet I didn’t care, didn’t care about anything, I didn’t care about living, I didn’t care about dying, I just merely existed. Numb to everything but also numb to nothing. However, as the days passed, I was still stuck trying to remain anchored to this unfeeling place, yet I also knew I couldn’t stay here. Withdrawing more and disappearing into myself couldn’t be permanent

As I watched life pass in my silence I wondered, is this it? Is this all it will ever be and will I always be this way?

I reached a point where I no longer identify myself with the man who is my mate or identify as anyone really, maybe because for so long I had no identity and yet what our child would have offered was one. Maybe that is why, maybe that is

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why it hurt so much to lose something I never had a chance to love, maybe because along with losing it, I also lost another piece of an identity I couldn’t keep. Mum.

I thought I found myself, and then I lost it all over again and I suddenly wanted to know why. Why did he pretend to be my friend only to literally stab me? How could he Harbor so much anger for someone he would hurt them like that? Why did he take the one thing that was mine from me?

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I returned to my surroundings, I wasn’t sure if I had slept or was already awake the entire time, the room came into

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had answers. I needed to understand, needed it to move on, I needed to know what I did to deserve it, I needed to know it wasn’t my fault. Though some part of me did know that, doubt still nagged at me, like! was to blame

under Kyson’s heavy arm that was draped over my waist. Moving across the room, grabbed his robe, I needed the comfort

him, he remained asleep.

changed and yet remained the same. Though I had seen yet another side of Kyson, multiple in fact

I never realized its true extent until I was locked in a room with him for so long, it made me wonder if

feel the tremors of his hands as he touched me when he went without it, feeling the frustration as he fought the urge to find himself in the bottom of another bottle,

handle and stepped out the doors to find Trey. He looked at me as if he was seeing a ghost as I slipped out the door and closed it gently. He appeared hesitant when I moved toward

god,” he whispered before holding me at arms

King?” He glances at the

my face, his eyes sparkled with sadness, endless hazel depths of worry stared back

I said, though my throat hurt to use my voice

shake my head. Kyson needed sleep, I knew how little he had, knew how exhausted he was, also knew he would feel like shit after how much he drank last night before

have a favor to ask

need,” he answers swiftly, while

He opens his mouth no doubt to deny me but I hold my hand up

won’t let me, and believe he is doing it to protect me, but I need this,” I plead,