Hot Revenge Box Set 2

After clearing up the breakfast dishes, I go looking for Klempner. I find him outside, on the terrace. The fog is clearing and leaning with both hands on the wall, he stares out over the valley, watching wreaths of silver mist twine over the lake.

I take a place beside him. “You okay?”

He turns. “Yes,” he smiles, “I'm extraordinarily okay.”

He looks away, then looks back, meeting my eye. “But we both know I fit in there like a giraffe in a wet suit. However, my thanks for the invitation. I appreciate it. I really do...” He picks at a bit of lichen growing on the stonework.

“But you're not ready to settle down with the carpet slippers and the chocolate Labrador by the hearth?”

“No. And as you said, there are things I need to do, dealing with Baxter being the priority.” He blows air. “Do you think Mitch will handle that? For some fairly obvious reasons, I can't stay here long. But even if I could stay, it wouldn’t work. Not long term.”

“I think you should ask her yourself…”

“But…”

“… But… I suspect that for both of you, simply knowing that the other is there will count for a lot. And besides, if you're careful, you can visit from time to time. See your daughter, your grand-daughter.”

He looks at his feet, scuffing at the ground. “I suppose.”

“Does it occur to you that for Mitch, a… um… part-time relationship, might appeal?”

His forehead furrows. “Run that by me again.”

“Mitch has had men controlling her all her life. Or trying to. She’s enjoying her freedom, especially now she’s earning money… Real money… in her own right. Living a life of her own but having a partner… you… there occasionally might just work, for both of you. The two of you would simply spend quality time together.”

He rubs the back of his neck. “Would that work?”

“It might. It wouldn’t be for everyone. But for Mitch… And for you… Who knows? Wouldn’t it be worth a try?”

His head sways, slowly, up and down. “Do you think Jenny will want to see me?”

“I think so, yes. It might be a bit of a rocky road for a while, but it will be good for her.”

“And you? Will I be welcome here?”

“For me, yes, you’ll be welcome. But for now, will you stay for Christmas? I’m sure Mitch would like that.”

“Yes…” He scuffs at the ground. “I think I will. In any case, there are things I need to do here too.”

“And after that? Back to Thailand?”

He flashes me a startled glance, then his smile twists into humour. “Um... Nooo… Not Thailand. It's not a very healthy environment for me just now. No, it’s South America for me next.”

“Will you keep me informed on that? Anything you learn.”

“Of course. I’ll set something up so we can stay in contact this time… without you having to rig up my old wiretap again.”

*****

Klempner

At the door, standing ajar, I hesitate, my stomach suddenly dropping away.

Have I done enough?

With muscles oddly reluctant to move, I tap on the door, very quietly.

“It’s open.”

I push, and too slowly, the door swings wider.

Jenny’s sitting in a rocking chair by the window. Her hair, so like her mother’s spills over a thick shawl pulled around her shoulders. A warm blanket covers her lap. And her face, while pale, has lost that sheen she had when Michael and I found her.

And held in her arms, wrapped in layers of knitted woollens…

Cara…

Your daughter.

My granddaughter.

I want to say something. Something appropriate, but I’m not sure what it should be.

I abused you…

Mistreated you…

Took my revenge on you…

you had

rises to me,

ever think to

“May I come in?”

“Of course you can.”

her position, fiddles with the layers of blankets and then, in

Oh, God…

She’s feeding her…

“My apologies. I didn’t intend to interrupt my granddaughter's

to me. Even seeing Jenny giving birth to the

Breast-feeding?

Too personal…

I spin, trying to find somewhere

Anywhere else…

my

to look at: unicorns charge around the walls in a multicoloured herd accompanied by a kind of rainbowed Pegasus above them. A mermaid

myself easing one way then the other,

It moves…

see someone let your mother loose with a paintbrush

it?

touch, yes. She's still using that trick I see.

smiles. It’s almost the loveliest smile I’ve ever seen. “You've seen it

again watching the thing nod in agreement with the mermaid. “It was a

don’t know how

me she’d seen something about cave paintings; how they were intended to be seen by firelight, to give

opens a little. “Will you tell me more

“Like what?”

you met. How

at me. “You’re

“I think so, yes.”

say. Small talk has never been my strong suit, and now, here;

room. She watches me,

wish I could change

the past. What’s happened, has happened. But you can change the future…” She tilts her chin. “You’ve already

to say. Inside I’m tight, cold, but heat rises up

Long seconds pass.

blankets and her clothes as the rocker moves slightly, to and fro. Absently, I notice that the chair also has

two towards me, the baby still in her arms. “Would you like to

me

granddaughter. Don’t you want to

and the heat in my chest disperses

me the cooing,

her eyes slide past me and I turn to see James, Michael and Mitch, all gathered in

He raises brows, lips twitching.

Michael steps forward, a hand under

offering her

My granddaughter…

and wrinkled, as though protesting the indignity of the world. The features are soft and unformed. A drop of milk dribbles from her mouth… She

what do I

What’s expected?

extend a finger into

than the end of my thumb, takes hold of my

Such tiny fingernails.

to me. “You want to.

never done this

fuck’s sake don’t

I cradle her

this.” She takes my hand, slipping it under the head. “Her neck muscles

Then she steps away.

I think not quite focussed on me. A

Dark-haired like her father?

there a touch of

…

What to say?

“Hello, Cara.”

says, “It’s not

Crap…

can I fucking fuck it

even get

“It’s not? I thought…”

close, a hand on her arm “Charlotte? I thought…” There’s hurt in his voice. And confusion. “I thought it was decided? She was

Even James is frowning.