The Gang picks up my mood, milling around. Archie bounces about, yapping excitedly until Meg snaps at him and he sheers off. Then as the four play at rough-and-tumble under the table, Scruffy joins them and I snap. “Quiet! All of you!”
The dogs subside and assemble under the desk, panting. Ryan stares at me. “Kirstie?”
I shouldn’t have done that.
They’re only enjoying themselves…
Too much wine...
That’s what I tell myself anyway. “I’ll be back in a while. I’m taking the dogs out.”
He starts to rise from the chair. “I’ll keep you company.”
I shake my head. “No, it’s alright.” He stares after me as I exit the study.
Wrapping a thick scarf around my neck and tugging mittens onto hands, I call the dogs and once more they bounce jubilantly after me as I head outdoors.
I gasp at the frigid wall of air as I open the door. The Gang don’t seem to notice, tumbling out into the snow as I carefully pull the door closed behind me.
The icy air and brilliant sunshine are an instant antidote to my ill mood. Around me lies a vast sparkling snowscape, covering grass and shrub and tree, rolling down the mountain to where even the lake lies as a single glistening sheet.
What do I have to be miserable about?
Really?
I pace up and down in the snow, watching the dogs playing, racing around in silly circles, barking joyously.
What’s wrong with me?
Just nerves?
Self-analysis isn’t easy. Sometimes one must face unpleasant truths.
Is it just nerves?
Just anxiety about the biggest purchase I’m ever likely to make?
Or is it more?
Ryan…
I was single for years. Happily so.
And then Ryan appeared in my life.
I love you.
to be bound
excavates a hole, spraying snow backwards and covering Meg and Archie. They’re so
catch that
prickles at the back of my
I’m being watched…
…
Don’t be ridiculous…
Cautiously, I scan around.
said Baxter is
Is he watching us?
the freakingly fucking obvious strikes
why Klempner’s still
of my
me, is Charlotte’s father. His face impassive, Klempner stands at the back of
feel a complete idiot. “Oh, sorry. I didn't mean to
disturbing me. I just wanted some
bit…” I wave my hands uselessly, not knowing how
My what?
I don’t know.
me for a moment then, “Is
out of sorts.” His brows rise, as though waiting for me to keep speaking. For some reason,
pursing his lips. “So
me that perhaps there’s a reason I’m not the only
he out here by
“Are you alright?”
“No, I'm good. It's just that when I accepted the invitation to Christmas, I didn't really know what to expect. I thought all that…” He waves back in towards the house… “… stuff just came out of movies. Holly and trees and mulled wine… I never believed it was real.” He sips at his drink. “The whole Christmas family thing… is wonderful and they're making me
the truth, I find it all
important to Charlotte, certainly. I don't think she's had very many good
stares down into his mug. “No,
silent man, is Lawrence
he seems civilised
he’s someone
who’s not too
“What happened?” I ask.
blinks. “James invited me to stay for Christmas.
whoever they want. But it's not what I meant. I meant, what happened to you? I mean, you’re Lawrence Klempner…” His lips quirk… “… And
ill-manners of my question and the
I’ve started, so I finish… “…like what
voice is mild, tinged with amusement. “What you expected? Yes, in
My cheeks burn…
mention that you're apt to let your mouth run
Oh… Jeez…
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