The Gang picks up my mood, milling around. Archie bounces about, yapping excitedly until Meg snaps at him and he sheers off. Then as the four play at rough-and-tumble under the table, Scruffy joins them and I snap. “Quiet! All of you!”
The dogs subside and assemble under the desk, panting. Ryan stares at me. “Kirstie?”
I shouldn’t have done that.
They’re only enjoying themselves…
Too much wine...
That’s what I tell myself anyway. “I’ll be back in a while. I’m taking the dogs out.”
He starts to rise from the chair. “I’ll keep you company.”
I shake my head. “No, it’s alright.” He stares after me as I exit the study.
Wrapping a thick scarf around my neck and tugging mittens onto hands, I call the dogs and once more they bounce jubilantly after me as I head outdoors.
I gasp at the frigid wall of air as I open the door. The Gang don’t seem to notice, tumbling out into the snow as I carefully pull the door closed behind me.
The icy air and brilliant sunshine are an instant antidote to my ill mood. Around me lies a vast sparkling snowscape, covering grass and shrub and tree, rolling down the mountain to where even the lake lies as a single glistening sheet.
What do I have to be miserable about?
Really?
I pace up and down in the snow, watching the dogs playing, racing around in silly circles, barking joyously.
What’s wrong with me?
Just nerves?
Self-analysis isn’t easy. Sometimes one must face unpleasant truths.
Is it just nerves?
Just anxiety about the biggest purchase I’m ever likely to make?
Or is it more?
Ryan…
I was single for years. Happily so.
And then Ryan appeared in my life.
I love you.
do I want to be
a hole, spraying
catch that
of my neck
I’m being watched…
…
Don’t be ridiculous…
Cautiously, I scan around.
Baxter is still out
Is he watching us?
freakingly fucking
why Klempner’s
of my
His face impassive, Klempner stands at the back of the terrace, leaning against the wall, cradling a steaming mug as he watches the canine
complete idiot. “Oh, sorry. I didn't
smiles pleasantly. “You're not disturbing me. I just
wave my hands uselessly, not knowing how to
My what?
I don’t know.
for a moment then,
rise, as though waiting for me to keep speaking. For some reason, I want to fill the silence. “There’s a lot happening all of a
nods slowly, pursing his
me that perhaps there’s a reason I’m not the only one
he out here
“Are you alright?”
his smile turning brighter. “No, I'm good. It's just that when I accepted the invitation to Christmas, I didn't really know what to expect. I thought all that…” He waves back in towards the house… “… stuff just came out of movies. Holly and trees and mulled wine… I never believed it was real.” He sips
sips again. “To tell the truth, I find it all
Charlotte, certainly. I don't
into his
remember who I'm talking to. That this solitary, silent man, is Lawrence
seems
someone to talk
not
“What happened?” I ask.
“James invited me to stay for Christmas. You
you? I mean, you’re Lawrence Klempner…” His lips quirk… “… And yet here you are helping to decorate a tree with Christmas bunnies. You don't seem
I realise both the gross ill-manners of my
started, so I finish… “…like what I
amusement. “What you expected? Yes, in
My cheeks burn…
a laugh. “James did mention that you're apt
Oh… Jeez…
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