I Am The Luna

SEBASTIAN. The first words my son says to me are of my failure to my family, a reminder that no matter what, this is a time period they will always look back on and know I was not here.

The intense emotions I’m feeling being in the same room as them for the first time make me want to pull the three of them into my arms and never let go.

I want to hug them, kiss them, apologise to them, make them laugh, play with them, wipe away their tears and promise I’ll always take care of them. Is this the love of a father? I don’t know how to explain what I’m feeling.

I love them; I love them so damn much. For the first time since they were born, we’re together, but I can’t simply pull them into my arms and promise them that from this day on everything will be alright. I am going to do my best to make up for the lost time.

They may only be three years old, but they are still old enough to understand everything. Zion’s question is proof of that. Zaia instantly moves forward, kneeling beside Zion as she holds our daughter.

“Zion, that’s because-” she begins, but I cut her off, placing a hand on her arm. Her heart skips a beat as our eyes meet, a questioning one in hers.

“I’m sorry son, but I hurt your Mommy and made her sad, so she decided to go away and take care of you where she knew you would be safe and happy,” ,”I explain, that lump in my throat going.

Zaia looks at me sharply, and I know she’s about to argue with me when I give her a look and shake my head.

“Let me handle this,” I say quietly. I know it’s been on her mind, but I can’t let the kids blame her for this. I was the one who messed everything up. The way I handled things was wrong.

Zion’s looking at me as he tries to remain brave and I reach out for his hands again and as much as I want to pull them into my arms and hug them both, I need them to be the ones to take the step willingly.

I clear my throat as silently as possible as I watch my son observe my hands.

“What did you do?” He asks curiously. His blue eyes remind me of mine, and I can’t help but smile faintly.

one, he gets

won’t do that anymore. Ever. I will always take care of all three of you. From here on

I’ll regret. There is no way I can forgive myself for that, even

refuse to, knowing it’ll only mess with my emotions even more. I want her so damn much, but

want her in my arms. I want to wake up to her by my side and fall asleep with her in my

still struggling with the past and I am willing to give her the time she needs. I just

look at Zion, who is deep in thought as he ponders over what I have said. My arms are throbbing from being stretched out for this long. The jarring pain up my back and in my leg threatens to

at Zaia once more before he turns to me and

steps forward and flings his

beating strongly, and I close my eyes, trying to hold myself together as

I wrap my arms around him

This is my son.

I will protect the three of you with

mind. The feel of his hold, the rhythm of his heartbeat. Zion Toussaint-King

an Alpha ready to

look across at Zaia, who’s crying silently as she hugs Sia, wanting to wipe those tears from her cheek. My gaze dips to the back of our daughter’s little

My princess.

and she nods slowly as she begins to move Sia

“Sia? I say softly.

her thumping heart reaches my ears, but a flicker of worry rushes through me when I hear her heart rate

It’s irregular…

and I remember Zaia

as she kisses her cheek softly.” Sia… Baby, look, it’s Daddy,” Zaia whispers gently, placing her on

I reach over, brushing it back. She looks up at me, her heart skipping a beat, but this moment is not ours – it’s

both turn back to Sia, who has her head

still holds onto me as he looks at his sister, who

grey eyes. She’s beautiful. The innocence on her face makes me want

say softly, my eyes stinging as I try to contain my own emotions. Her lips quiver before she bursts into

I reach for her, pulling her into my arms and hug her tightly, kissing the top of her head and rubbing

Zion and between her sobs, she gasps

around, Princess. Always. So, no tears, alright?” I say, trying to control my

overwhelmed me far more

at me and nods as she struggles to calm herself. I plant a soft kiss on her

exclaims softly, making Zion and

face lighting up my world and I realise this is it;

These two.

adjusting my position and sitting on the floor. I lean back against the bed as