I Am The Luna

SEBASTIAN. The first words my son says to me are of my failure to my family, a reminder that no matter what, this is a time period they will always look back on and know I was not here.

The intense emotions I’m feeling being in the same room as them for the first time make me want to pull the three of them into my arms and never let go.

I want to hug them, kiss them, apologise to them, make them laugh, play with them, wipe away their tears and promise I’ll always take care of them. Is this the love of a father? I don’t know how to explain what I’m feeling.

I love them; I love them so damn much. For the first time since they were born, we’re together, but I can’t simply pull them into my arms and promise them that from this day on everything will be alright. I am going to do my best to make up for the lost time.

They may only be three years old, but they are still old enough to understand everything. Zion’s question is proof of that. Zaia instantly moves forward, kneeling beside Zion as she holds our daughter.

“Zion, that’s because-” she begins, but I cut her off, placing a hand on her arm. Her heart skips a beat as our eyes meet, a questioning one in hers.

“I’m sorry son, but I hurt your Mommy and made her sad, so she decided to go away and take care of you where she knew you would be safe and happy,” ,”I explain, that lump in my throat going.

Zaia looks at me sharply, and I know she’s about to argue with me when I give her a look and shake my head.

“Let me handle this,” I say quietly. I know it’s been on her mind, but I can’t let the kids blame her for this. I was the one who messed everything up. The way I handled things was wrong.

Zion’s looking at me as he tries to remain brave and I reach out for his hands again and as much as I want to pull them into my arms and hug them both, I need them to be the ones to take the step willingly.

I clear my throat as silently as possible as I watch my son observe my hands.

“What did you do?” He asks curiously. His blue eyes remind me of mine, and I can’t help but smile faintly.

little one, he gets that

hurt her feelings. I lied about things, and I broke her heart, but I promise I won’t do that anymore. Ever. I will always take care of all three of you. From here on I will

always be something I’ll regret. There is no way I can forgive myself for that, even though I hope one

to, knowing it’ll only mess with my emotions even more. I want her so damn much, but I don’t understand what she truly

wake up to

time she

said. My arms are throbbing from being stretched out for this long. The jarring pain up my back and in my

before

He says before he steps forward and flings his arms around

heart beating strongly, and I close my eyes, trying to hold myself together as I catch

my arms around him tighter, rocking

This is my son.

the side and top of his head. I promise I will protect the three of you with all

his hold, the rhythm of his heartbeat. Zion Toussaint-King future Alpha of

Alpha ready to protect

crying silently as she hugs Sia, wanting to wipe those tears from her cheek.

My princess.

meet Zaia’s and she nods slowly as she begins

“Sia? I say softly.

The sound of her thumping heart reaches my ears, but a flicker of worry rushes through

It’s irregular…

remember

her cheek softly.” Sia… Baby, look, it’s Daddy,” Zaia whispers gently, placing her on the floor. Her gorgeous hair slips from behind her

She looks up at me,

to Sia, who has her head bent

he still holds onto me as he

beautiful. The innocence on her face makes

say softly, my eyes stinging as I try to contain my own emotions. Her lips quiver before she bursts

into my arms and hug her tightly, kissing the top of her

than Zion and between her sobs, she gasps a few times, as if trying to get

right here, and I’m always going to be around, Princess. Always. So, no tears, alright?”

has overwhelmed me far more than I could ever have

and nods as she struggles to calm herself. I plant a soft kiss on her forehead, and

She exclaims softly,

can’t help but smile at that and she looks up at me, the smile on her face lighting up

These two.

adjusting my position and sitting on the