I Am The Luna

SEBASTIAN. The first words my son says to me are of my failure to my family, a reminder that no matter what, this is a time period they will always look back on and know I was not here.

The intense emotions I’m feeling being in the same room as them for the first time make me want to pull the three of them into my arms and never let go.

I want to hug them, kiss them, apologise to them, make them laugh, play with them, wipe away their tears and promise I’ll always take care of them. Is this the love of a father? I don’t know how to explain what I’m feeling.

I love them; I love them so damn much. For the first time since they were born, we’re together, but I can’t simply pull them into my arms and promise them that from this day on everything will be alright. I am going to do my best to make up for the lost time.

They may only be three years old, but they are still old enough to understand everything. Zion’s question is proof of that. Zaia instantly moves forward, kneeling beside Zion as she holds our daughter.

“Zion, that’s because-” she begins, but I cut her off, placing a hand on her arm. Her heart skips a beat as our eyes meet, a questioning one in hers.

“I’m sorry son, but I hurt your Mommy and made her sad, so she decided to go away and take care of you where she knew you would be safe and happy,” ,”I explain, that lump in my throat going.

Zaia looks at me sharply, and I know she’s about to argue with me when I give her a look and shake my head.

“Let me handle this,” I say quietly. I know it’s been on her mind, but I can’t let the kids blame her for this. I was the one who messed everything up. The way I handled things was wrong.

Zion’s looking at me as he tries to remain brave and I reach out for his hands again and as much as I want to pull them into my arms and hug them both, I need them to be the ones to take the step willingly.

I clear my throat as silently as possible as I watch my son observe my hands.

“What did you do?” He asks curiously. His blue eyes remind me of mine, and I can’t help but smile faintly.

little one, he gets that

Ever. I will always take care of all three of you. From here on I will never

will always be something I’ll regret. There is no way I can forgive myself

only mess with my emotions even more. I

everything I have. I want her in my arms. I want to wake up to her by my

past and I am willing to give her the time she needs. I just wish I understood what is going on in that mind of hers a

as he ponders over what I have said. My arms are throbbing from being stretched out for this long. The jarring pain up my back and in my leg threatens to topple me over at any minute, but I am not about

before

flings his arms around my neck, almost sending me

onto me tightly, his heart beating strongly, and I close

wrap my arms around him

This is my son.

of

The feel of his hold, the

Alpha ready to protect his mother

those tears from her cheek. My gaze dips to the back of our daughter’s little head of

My princess.

nods slowly as she

“Sia? I say softly.

sound of her thumping heart reaches my ears, but a flicker

It’s irregular…

remember Zaia telling me about

as she kisses her cheek softly.” Sia… Baby, look, it’s Daddy,” Zaia whispers gently, placing her on the floor. Her gorgeous hair slips from behind her ear, curtaining her

tuck it back, but I reach over, brushing it back. She looks up at me, her heart skipping a beat, but this moment is

to Sia, who has her head bent

onto me as

eyes. She’s beautiful. The innocence on her face makes me want to shield her away from the

eyes stinging as I try to contain my own emotions. Her lips

her eyes. I reach for her, pulling her into my arms and hug her tightly, kissing the top of her

Zion and between her sobs, she gasps

Always. So, no tears, alright?” I say,

one to cry, but this moment has overwhelmed me far more than I could

a soft kiss on her forehead, and she begins giggling,

exclaims softly, making Zion and

but smile at that and she looks up at me, the smile on her face lighting up my world and I realise this is it; this is how Zaia has had the strength

These two.

sitting on the