Please say this is a lie…
His words through the phone echo in my mind, making everything else fade away. “Zaia!” Annette’s distant shout echoes in my mind as I fall to my knees, broken.
Sebastian left me.
Tears stream down my cheeks as I clutch my chest. The pain I feel is far worse than anything I have felt in my life. Far more excruciating than when he rejected me years ago.
It hurts so much… my heartbeat is ringing in my ear, along with the shrill whistling sound that makes my head want to explode.
I cannot breathe.
Sebastian…
“Why!” I scream as I stare ahead, unseeing.
Flashes of our moments together flood my mind but all I can focus on is him. The signs were there, the way he was behaving… how long had he been planning to do this?
I thought we were a team. I told him I needed him. Why?
Will I never just be enough to keep him happy? Sobs wrack my body and I feel like I’ve lost everything. The threads of my life had begun to come undone, yet I still held on… still hoped for something more.
Mom… Dad… Sebastian…
way I am failing Sia
goddess doing this
out there… why would you do this?”
was the wrong person for this. I’ve tried… tried to do my
was to rip us apart and crush my strength? Despite everything, he gave me the strength to continue. Why did I allow myself to fall for him
was the one who I had learned to forgive and not only did
don’t want to feel this
clamp my hands over my mouth, rocking myself as I try to pull myself together, but I can’t. He’s
around me, pulling me against a firm chest. “He left me… again,” I whisper, a fresh wave of tears
We’re going
How?
felt like he was saying
he was
Mom… she’s gone too.
Dad…
squeezes in pain. My claws
Zaia, look
and I think it’s Atticus, but it’s becoming dark. “Sebastian, I want to talk to him. He needs to know that there are other options.” I plead through my tears. One last
you can hear me, please
met with nothing but a wall and I cry out
fades away as my vision begins to spin and
to sleep, in pain yet unable to feel it.
How do I recover?
showing the kids how I feel, but today I was unable to hold my tears back as I hugged and
are my strength; they are the only strength I need, but how do
despite being alone, my thoughts don’t relent. Self-doubt,
only thing I know is, I failed.
Sebastian is truly gone.
Mom is dead.
Dad is missing.
that keep hammering
I’m a failure…
was the one to find me and bring me home… once again, he’s the one who was there
exist when it
My heart hurts…
door, and I don’t move when it opens. There are three of them, and Valerie
placing the tray down and kissing my forehead. I turn away, my eyes stinging as
open a crack, murmuring something about the children being asleep. He sits on the floor beside the bed, stretching his
from anyone. Even my babies. I am an awful mother. I can’t even give them the best life they deserve and Sebastian… I wasn’t
but I don’t want anyone to touch me. I just want to
but I refuse to let myself fall into an endless abyss of pain and doom. “Come on, where’s that beautiful smile
it’ll show through soon. Here
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