Please say this is a lie…
His words through the phone echo in my mind, making everything else fade away. “Zaia!” Annette’s distant shout echoes in my mind as I fall to my knees, broken.
Sebastian left me.
Tears stream down my cheeks as I clutch my chest. The pain I feel is far worse than anything I have felt in my life. Far more excruciating than when he rejected me years ago.
It hurts so much… my heartbeat is ringing in my ear, along with the shrill whistling sound that makes my head want to explode.
I cannot breathe.
Sebastian…
“Why!” I scream as I stare ahead, unseeing.
Flashes of our moments together flood my mind but all I can focus on is him. The signs were there, the way he was behaving… how long had he been planning to do this?
I thought we were a team. I told him I needed him. Why?
Will I never just be enough to keep him happy? Sobs wrack my body and I feel like I’ve lost everything. The threads of my life had begun to come undone, yet I still held on… still hoped for something more.
Mom… Dad… Sebastian…
I failed. Just the way
goddess doing
“If you really cared… if you’re really out there… why would you do this?” My voice breaks as I hug
I’ve tried… tried to do my best, but I’m not
he gave me the strength to continue. Why did I allow myself to fall for him again? Why
forgive and not only
don’t want to feel
He’s destroyed me… Destroyed the trust I had in him. Sobbing, I clutch at my aching heart,
chest. “He left me… again,” I whisper, a
be ok. We’re going to figure
How?
I felt like
was saying
Mom… she’s gone too.
Dad…
it squeezes in pain. My claws
look
think it’s Atticus, but it’s becoming dark. “Sebastian, I want to talk to him. He needs to know that there are other options.”
hear me,
with nothing but a wall
Atticus’s voice fades away as my vision begins
and I’m sitting on my bed, exhausted yet unable to sleep, in pain yet unable to feel it.
How do I recover?
I feel, but today I was unable to hold my
my strength; they are the only strength I need, but how do I tell them their
the darkness of my bedroom, despite being alone, my thoughts don’t relent. Self-doubt, self-blame, guilt, sorrow, pain,
despite the storm within me, the only thing I know
Sebastian is truly gone.
Mom is dead.
Dad is missing.
facts that
I’m a failure…
me home… once again, he’s the one who
exist? Why does the mate bond exist when it
My heart hurts…
a knock on the door, and I don’t move when it opens. There are
down and kissing my forehead. I turn away, my eyes stinging as I stare out through the open window at the moon above. Nothing can
door open a crack, murmuring something about the children being asleep. He sits on the floor beside
emotions from anyone. Even my babies. I am an awful mother. I can’t even give them the best life they deserve and Sebastian…
me, wrapping his arms around me, but I don’t want anyone to touch me. I just want to
to let myself fall into an endless abyss of pain and doom. “Come on, where’s that
for a bit, but it’ll show through soon. Here Zaia.” she offers me a chocolate muffin but I shake my head, refusing
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