Please say this is a lie…
His words through the phone echo in my mind, making everything else fade away. “Zaia!” Annette’s distant shout echoes in my mind as I fall to my knees, broken.
Sebastian left me.
Tears stream down my cheeks as I clutch my chest. The pain I feel is far worse than anything I have felt in my life. Far more excruciating than when he rejected me years ago.
It hurts so much… my heartbeat is ringing in my ear, along with the shrill whistling sound that makes my head want to explode.
I cannot breathe.
Sebastian…
“Why!” I scream as I stare ahead, unseeing.
Flashes of our moments together flood my mind but all I can focus on is him. The signs were there, the way he was behaving… how long had he been planning to do this?
I thought we were a team. I told him I needed him. Why?
Will I never just be enough to keep him happy? Sobs wrack my body and I feel like I’ve lost everything. The threads of my life had begun to come undone, yet I still held on… still hoped for something more.
Mom… Dad… Sebastian…
failed. Just the way
goddess doing this
chose the wrong one! Why?!” I scream. “If you really cared… if you’re really out there… why would you do this?” My voice breaks as I hug myself. I feel
person for this. I’ve tried… tried to do my
us for one another if your only aim was to rip us apart and crush my strength? Despite everything, he gave me the strength to continue. Why did I allow myself to fall for him again?
who I had learned to forgive and not
to feel
my mouth, rocking myself as I try to pull myself together, but I can’t. He’s destroyed me… Destroyed the trust I had in him. Sobbing, I
me, pulling me against a firm chest. “He left me… again,” I whisper, a
be ok. We’re going
How?
felt like
he was saying goodbye,
Mom… she’s gone too.
Dad…
pain. My claws are out and
look at
think it’s Atticus, but it’s becoming dark. “Sebastian, I want to talk to him. He needs to know that there are other
If you can hear me,
with nothing but a wall and
as my vision begins
fallen and I’m sitting on my bed, exhausted yet unable to sleep, in pain yet
How do I recover?
kids how I feel, but today I was unable to
strength I need, but how do I tell them their dad has left
darkness of my bedroom, despite being alone, my thoughts don’t relent. Self-doubt, self-blame, guilt, sorrow, pain,
storm within me, the only thing I know is, I
Sebastian is truly gone.
Mom is dead.
Dad is missing.
facts that keep hammering at my
I’m a failure…
find me and bring me home… once again, he’s the one who was there to pick me
exist when it only gives
My heart hurts…
move when it opens. There
down and kissing my forehead. I turn
the door open a crack, murmuring something about the children being asleep. He sits on the
my babies. I am an awful mother. I can’t even give them the best life they deserve and Sebastian… I wasn’t good enough
arms around me, but I don’t
me, but I refuse to let myself fall into an endless abyss of pain and doom. “Come on, where’s that beautiful smile that we all melt over?”
but it’ll show through soon.
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