Please say this is a lie…
His words through the phone echo in my mind, making everything else fade away. “Zaia!” Annette’s distant shout echoes in my mind as I fall to my knees, broken.
Sebastian left me.
Tears stream down my cheeks as I clutch my chest. The pain I feel is far worse than anything I have felt in my life. Far more excruciating than when he rejected me years ago.
It hurts so much… my heartbeat is ringing in my ear, along with the shrill whistling sound that makes my head want to explode.
I cannot breathe.
Sebastian…
“Why!” I scream as I stare ahead, unseeing.
Flashes of our moments together flood my mind but all I can focus on is him. The signs were there, the way he was behaving… how long had he been planning to do this?
I thought we were a team. I told him I needed him. Why?
Will I never just be enough to keep him happy? Sobs wrack my body and I feel like I’ve lost everything. The threads of my life had begun to come undone, yet I still held on… still hoped for something more.
Mom… Dad… Sebastian…
Just the way I am failing
is the goddess
really cared… if you’re really out there… why would you do this?” My voice breaks as I hug myself.
tried to do my best, but
if your only aim was to rip us apart and crush my strength? Despite everything, he gave me the strength to continue. Why did I allow myself to fall for
forgive and not only did I fall for him again; I fell for him all
to feel this
hands over my mouth, rocking myself as I try to pull myself together, but I can’t. He’s destroyed me… Destroyed the trust I had in him. Sobbing, I
me, pulling me against a firm chest. “He left me… again,” I whisper, a fresh wave of tears running down my cheeks. “I can’t tired…” cope anymore. I’m tired, I’m
ok. We’re
How?
times I felt like he was
was saying goodbye, wasn’t
Mom… she’s gone too.
Dad…
grip my head as it squeezes in pain. My claws are out and my eyes
look
think it’s Atticus, but it’s becoming dark. “Sebastian, I want to talk to him. He needs to know that there are other options.” I plead through my
If you can hear me, please please
with nothing but a wall and I
Atticus’s voice fades away as my vision begins
bed, exhausted yet unable to sleep, in pain yet unable to feel it. Betrayed, yet unable
How do I recover?
but today I was unable to hold my tears back as I hugged and kissed my babies,
are my strength; they are the only strength I need, but how
my bedroom, despite being alone, my
the only thing I know
Sebastian is truly gone.
Mom is dead.
Dad is missing.
that keep hammering at
I’m a failure…
me home… once again, he’s the one who was there to pick me up after the man
exist when it
My heart hurts…
move when it opens. There are three of them, and
placing the tray down and kissing my forehead. I turn away, my eyes stinging as I stare out through the open window at the moon
children being asleep. He sits on the floor beside the bed, stretching his
my babies. I am an awful mother. I can’t even give them
sits beside me, wrapping his arms around me, but I don’t want anyone to touch me. I just want
to let myself fall into an endless abyss of pain and doom. “Come on, where’s that beautiful smile that
laughs gently. “It’s hiding for a bit, but it’ll show through soon. Here Zaia.” she offers me a chocolate muffin
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