Please say this is a lie…
His words through the phone echo in my mind, making everything else fade away. “Zaia!” Annette’s distant shout echoes in my mind as I fall to my knees, broken.
Sebastian left me.
Tears stream down my cheeks as I clutch my chest. The pain I feel is far worse than anything I have felt in my life. Far more excruciating than when he rejected me years ago.
It hurts so much… my heartbeat is ringing in my ear, along with the shrill whistling sound that makes my head want to explode.
I cannot breathe.
Sebastian…
“Why!” I scream as I stare ahead, unseeing.
Flashes of our moments together flood my mind but all I can focus on is him. The signs were there, the way he was behaving… how long had he been planning to do this?
I thought we were a team. I told him I needed him. Why?
Will I never just be enough to keep him happy? Sobs wrack my body and I feel like I’ve lost everything. The threads of my life had begun to come undone, yet I still held on… still hoped for something more.
Mom… Dad… Sebastian…
way I am failing Sia and my
goddess doing this
chose the wrong one! Why?!” I scream. “If you really cared… if you’re really out there… why would you do this?” My voice breaks as I hug myself.
tried to do my best, but
my strength? Despite everything, he gave me the strength to continue. Why did I allow myself to
was my strength… he was the one who I had learned to forgive and not
want to feel
can’t. He’s destroyed me… Destroyed the trust I had in him. Sobbing, I clutch at my aching heart, hurting so
against a firm chest. “He left me… again,” I whisper,
to be ok. We’re going to figure
How?
felt like
night… he was saying goodbye, wasn’t
Mom… she’s gone too.
Dad…
it squeezes in pain. My claws are out and
Zaia, look at
He needs to know that there are other options.” I plead through my tears. One last try… because I didn’t give
you can hear me, please please
met with nothing but a wall and I cry out
voice fades away as my vision begins to spin
fallen and I’m sitting on my bed, exhausted yet unable to sleep, in pain yet unable to feel it. Betrayed, yet unable to comprehend
How do I recover?
unable to hold my tears back as I hugged
I need, but how do I tell them their dad has left
of my bedroom, despite being alone, my thoughts don’t relent. Self-doubt, self-blame, guilt, sorrow, pain,
despite the storm within me, the only thing I know is,
Sebastian is truly gone.
Mom is dead.
Dad is missing.
are the facts that keep hammering
I’m a failure…
again, he’s the one who was there to
exist? Why does the mate bond exist when it only gives others
My heart hurts…
a knock on the door, and I don’t move when it opens. There are three of them, and Valerie is holding
pick me up.” She says softly as she comes over, placing the tray down and kissing my forehead. I turn away, my eyes stinging as I stare out through the
murmuring something about the children being asleep.
my emotions from anyone. Even my babies. I am an awful mother. I can’t even give them the best life they deserve and
me, but I don’t want anyone to touch me. I just
clawing inside of me, but I refuse to let myself fall into an endless abyss of pain
but it’ll show through soon. Here Zaia.” she offers me a chocolate muffin but
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