I Am The Luna

A week has passed, and I feel… empty.

The moment Atticus mentioned it, there were so many emotions that I was left to deal with.

Anger, betrayal, regret, pain, guilt and sadness.

My emotions became an ocean I was drowning in, struggling to stay afloat… but I let go, allowing the emotions to consume me… until I no longer felt anything.

When your emotions are no longer blinding you, things become clearer. Just as I now paid attention to what Sebastian had said before he left. That he had something to do. If I paid.

enough attention, I would have realised before I overrode security. He had already locked himself out of the pack.

He had warned us too about the rogues, just as Atticus had mentioned. The cryptic remarks, the way he looked at me, the fear that something would happen it was all valid.

And then, our little Sia, I should have realised he’d do anything for her. I just wish he told me so I would understand. Did breaking my heart help him?

But I can’t be selfish. My feelings are not important in comparison to our daughter’s health. I would do anything for her and if he succeeds in getting that cure, I will be forever in his debt.

Sebastian’s and my trust have never been perfect and I realise that we are just not compatible. Our relationship just isn’t at that level where we could not live without one another.

Perhaps I was too stupid, but to Sebastian, this was just a relationship, not his world. I thought this time around I wasn’t so clingy, but I clearly don’t love right.

Where do I lack?

That is a question I’ll always ask myself, but never voice.

For our children, I hope he makes it and that he accomplishes what I have never been able to do. Heal Sia… that thought brings me hope.

Even the moon cannot heal things that are man made. I glance up as a sharp wind blows and observe Dad, who now turns away from Mom’s grave.

Mom’s funeral was held a few days ago and seeing Dad’s state, the way he’s hiding what he’s truly feeling breaks me a little more.

He was cheated on by Mom… but he still loved her, just as Sebastian has hurt me, yet I can’t help but love him. But that doesn’t mean I can’t forgive him, it just means I will never be able to accept him back into my life.

But I can relate to Dad in a way. The pain our mates caused us would always remain, despite the love we feel too.

If we make it out of this alive…

gently, holding my hand

me and once again I’m hit with the painful

I need you, Dad…

I can’t lose him.

asks, glancing around the graveyard of The Dark Hollow Falls

years. I think she’ll be fine… besides,

away from The Crystal Shadow Pack. That she refuses to be buried in a pack where her

but I couldn’t ignore that order

“Well, what

is still a way that the Sable are listening in on our conversations. We have been intercepted twice on trips

disappointment. Atticus has found something, and I am going to meet him later since

over the phone.

it, but

head

I have some work to attend to.” I say, kissing his

if

and shake my

to take care of your mental and physical health.” I remind

are you doing that?”

that, and I motion for my guards to take

Atticus depending on who was available and although I am getting better, I also know it’s not enough time to become

Valerie, finding out that Atticus is her brother made her

I also can’t tell anyone openly in case

Sebastian is alive- no I know he’s alive. He wouldn’t die so easily, not when he had a mission to accomplish. I hope he’s safe and that we havé not given him

take me to the Toussaint business

to Harrison. This act of mine is a painful reminder that the world carries on even when things are rough. For those on the outside,

and wants to give us the go-ahead. Yet again another reminder that I

the papers, and he’s ready for the official proposal

I gave this project to you, Ms Toussaint, and I will look forward

Mr Harrison. I do appreciate it. We will not disappoint.” I reply gracefully, as

the hard part. Bringing the project

we have all the details finalised, I think this part will be fairly smooth and if

“I do like your confidence! Ah, before I forget, the files… Here.” He rummages in his

He didn’t need to

jacket and slips out of the room before I can

empty office. I’m in the Toussaint building, but we all agreed it would be the safest place for a meeting considering all that has

back to the

old proposal for this project. Why

I flip

How strange…

stare down at the file, thinking there has to be more to it. Did someone put him up to this and

poison on

sniff it

Is it a warning?

a knock

up to see the door open to reveal Atticus standing there, briefcase in hand. “Ah, perfect.” My

his face, I am certain

“Afternoon Ms Toussaint.”

I reply as I sit

you call me that.” He says, sauntering over to my desk

and people will think we

bad thing.” He winks

I stand up. “Mr Harrsion gave me these and I don’t know what to make of them. It’s Sebastian’s plan for

give it to you… have you