I Am The Luna

A week has passed, and I feel… empty.

The moment Atticus mentioned it, there were so many emotions that I was left to deal with.

Anger, betrayal, regret, pain, guilt and sadness.

My emotions became an ocean I was drowning in, struggling to stay afloat… but I let go, allowing the emotions to consume me… until I no longer felt anything.

When your emotions are no longer blinding you, things become clearer. Just as I now paid attention to what Sebastian had said before he left. That he had something to do. If I paid.

enough attention, I would have realised before I overrode security. He had already locked himself out of the pack.

He had warned us too about the rogues, just as Atticus had mentioned. The cryptic remarks, the way he looked at me, the fear that something would happen it was all valid.

And then, our little Sia, I should have realised he’d do anything for her. I just wish he told me so I would understand. Did breaking my heart help him?

But I can’t be selfish. My feelings are not important in comparison to our daughter’s health. I would do anything for her and if he succeeds in getting that cure, I will be forever in his debt.

Sebastian’s and my trust have never been perfect and I realise that we are just not compatible. Our relationship just isn’t at that level where we could not live without one another.

Perhaps I was too stupid, but to Sebastian, this was just a relationship, not his world. I thought this time around I wasn’t so clingy, but I clearly don’t love right.

Where do I lack?

That is a question I’ll always ask myself, but never voice.

For our children, I hope he makes it and that he accomplishes what I have never been able to do. Heal Sia… that thought brings me hope.

Even the moon cannot heal things that are man made. I glance up as a sharp wind blows and observe Dad, who now turns away from Mom’s grave.

Mom’s funeral was held a few days ago and seeing Dad’s state, the way he’s hiding what he’s truly feeling breaks me a little more.

He was cheated on by Mom… but he still loved her, just as Sebastian has hurt me, yet I can’t help but love him. But that doesn’t mean I can’t forgive him, it just means I will never be able to accept him back into my life.

But I can relate to Dad in a way. The pain our mates caused us would always remain, despite the love we feel too.

If we make it out of this alive…

say gently, holding my

hit with the

I need you, Dad…

I can’t lose him.

asks, glancing around the graveyard of The Dark Hollow Falls

here for some years. I think she’ll be fine… besides, she’s closest to the children here …she wanted

once told me, she wished to be buried away from The Crystal Shadow Pack.

what stood any longer, but I couldn’t ignore that order of hers from

“Well, what

There is still a way that the Sable are listening in on our conversations. We have been intercepted twice on trips and I’ve grown tired of watching

it’s not all a disappointment. Atticus has found something, and I am going to meet him later since neither of

over the phone.

admit it, but I

should rest, and head to the safe

some work to attend to.”

if

smile and shake

that you need to take care of your mental and physical health.” I

are you doing that?”

to that, and I motion for

although I am getting better, I also know it’s not enough time to become a master of the arts, but every little

for Valerie, finding out that Atticus is her brother made her warm up

Sebastian, but I also can’t tell anyone openly in case we’re being

hope Sebastian is alive- no I know he’s alive. He wouldn’t die so easily, not when he had a mission to accomplish. I hope he’s safe and that

take me to the Toussaint business headquarters as I need to attend to

on even

go-ahead. Yet again another reminder that I have to

the papers, and he’s ready for the official proposal to go

Ms Toussaint, and I will look forward to

I do appreciate it. We will not disappoint.” I reply

is what I call the hard part. Bringing

part will be fairly smooth and if there are any

before I forget, the files… Here.” He rummages in his briefcase

need to

Ms Toussaint!” He fastens the button of his suit jacket and slips out of the room

office. I’m in the Toussaint building, but we all agreed it would

to the desk and open the

this project. Why would

I flip through

How strange…

thinking there has to be more to

poison on the

sniff it

Is it a warning?

there’s a

see the door open to reveal Atticus standing there, briefcase in hand. “Ah, perfect.” My secretary knew to

face, I am certain that the briefcase he is carrying contains

“Afternoon Ms Toussaint.”

Mr Payne,” I reply as I

call me that.” He says, sauntering over to my desk as the door slowly thuds

people

a bad thing.” He winks at

shake my head as I stand up. “Mr Harrsion gave me these and I don’t know what to make of them. It’s Sebastian’s plan for Mr

it to you… have you