I Am The Luna

A week has passed, and I feel… empty.

The moment Atticus mentioned it, there were so many emotions that I was left to deal with.

Anger, betrayal, regret, pain, guilt and sadness.

My emotions became an ocean I was drowning in, struggling to stay afloat… but I let go, allowing the emotions to consume me… until I no longer felt anything.

When your emotions are no longer blinding you, things become clearer. Just as I now paid attention to what Sebastian had said before he left. That he had something to do. If I paid.

enough attention, I would have realised before I overrode security. He had already locked himself out of the pack.

He had warned us too about the rogues, just as Atticus had mentioned. The cryptic remarks, the way he looked at me, the fear that something would happen it was all valid.

And then, our little Sia, I should have realised he’d do anything for her. I just wish he told me so I would understand. Did breaking my heart help him?

But I can’t be selfish. My feelings are not important in comparison to our daughter’s health. I would do anything for her and if he succeeds in getting that cure, I will be forever in his debt.

Sebastian’s and my trust have never been perfect and I realise that we are just not compatible. Our relationship just isn’t at that level where we could not live without one another.

Perhaps I was too stupid, but to Sebastian, this was just a relationship, not his world. I thought this time around I wasn’t so clingy, but I clearly don’t love right.

Where do I lack?

That is a question I’ll always ask myself, but never voice.

For our children, I hope he makes it and that he accomplishes what I have never been able to do. Heal Sia… that thought brings me hope.

Even the moon cannot heal things that are man made. I glance up as a sharp wind blows and observe Dad, who now turns away from Mom’s grave.

Mom’s funeral was held a few days ago and seeing Dad’s state, the way he’s hiding what he’s truly feeling breaks me a little more.

He was cheated on by Mom… but he still loved her, just as Sebastian has hurt me, yet I can’t help but love him. But that doesn’t mean I can’t forgive him, it just means I will never be able to accept him back into my life.

But I can relate to Dad in a way. The pain our mates caused us would always remain, despite the love we feel too.

If we make it out of this alive…

say gently, holding my hand

at me and once again I’m hit with the painful reminder

I need you, Dad…

I can’t lose him.

here was ideal?” he asks, glancing around the graveyard of The Dark

besides, she’s closest to the children

to be buried away from The Crystal Shadow

stood any longer, but I couldn’t ignore that order

“Well, what

the Sable are listening in on our conversations. We have been intercepted twice on

I am going to meet him

over the phone.

admit it, but I barely trust

and head to the safe

some work

me as if

smile and shake

to take care of your mental and physical health.”

doing

I motion for

I am getting better, I also know it’s not enough time to

for Valerie, finding out that Atticus is her brother made her warm

haven’t told them about Sebastian, but I also can’t tell anyone openly in case we’re being watched, even

so easily, not when he had a mission

my car telling my driver to take me to the Toussaint business headquarters as I

of mine is a painful reminder that the world carries on even when things are rough. For those on the outside, no

go-ahead. Yet again another reminder that I have

after we have both signed the papers, and he’s ready for the official proposal

this project to you, Ms Toussaint, and I

appreciate it. We will

the hard part. Bringing the project

that we have all the details finalised, I think this part will be fairly smooth and if there are

before I forget, the files… Here.” He rummages

need to give

have a good day Ms Toussaint!” He fastens the button of his suit jacket and slips out of the room before I can ask him, leaving me with

we all agreed it would be the safest place for a meeting considering all that has

to the

for this project. Why would he

uneasy, I

How strange…

the file, thinking there has to be more to it. Did someone put him up

poison on the

it but

Is it a warning?

a knock

looking up to see the door open to reveal Atticus standing there, briefcase in hand. “Ah, perfect.” My secretary knew to let him

I am certain that the

“Afternoon Ms Toussaint.”

Payne,” I reply as I sit

that.” He says, sauntering over to my desk as the door

at that and people will think we

thing.” He winks

these and I don’t know what to make of them. It’s Sebastian’s

to give it to you… have you handled