I Am The Luna

A week has passed, and I feel… empty.

The moment Atticus mentioned it, there were so many emotions that I was left to deal with.

Anger, betrayal, regret, pain, guilt and sadness.

My emotions became an ocean I was drowning in, struggling to stay afloat… but I let go, allowing the emotions to consume me… until I no longer felt anything.

When your emotions are no longer blinding you, things become clearer. Just as I now paid attention to what Sebastian had said before he left. That he had something to do. If I paid.

enough attention, I would have realised before I overrode security. He had already locked himself out of the pack.

He had warned us too about the rogues, just as Atticus had mentioned. The cryptic remarks, the way he looked at me, the fear that something would happen it was all valid.

And then, our little Sia, I should have realised he’d do anything for her. I just wish he told me so I would understand. Did breaking my heart help him?

But I can’t be selfish. My feelings are not important in comparison to our daughter’s health. I would do anything for her and if he succeeds in getting that cure, I will be forever in his debt.

Sebastian’s and my trust have never been perfect and I realise that we are just not compatible. Our relationship just isn’t at that level where we could not live without one another.

Perhaps I was too stupid, but to Sebastian, this was just a relationship, not his world. I thought this time around I wasn’t so clingy, but I clearly don’t love right.

Where do I lack?

That is a question I’ll always ask myself, but never voice.

For our children, I hope he makes it and that he accomplishes what I have never been able to do. Heal Sia… that thought brings me hope.

Even the moon cannot heal things that are man made. I glance up as a sharp wind blows and observe Dad, who now turns away from Mom’s grave.

Mom’s funeral was held a few days ago and seeing Dad’s state, the way he’s hiding what he’s truly feeling breaks me a little more.

He was cheated on by Mom… but he still loved her, just as Sebastian has hurt me, yet I can’t help but love him. But that doesn’t mean I can’t forgive him, it just means I will never be able to accept him back into my life.

But I can relate to Dad in a way. The pain our mates caused us would always remain, despite the love we feel too.

If we make it out of this alive…

say gently, holding my hand out to

I’m hit with the painful reminder that he looks

I need you, Dad…

I can’t lose him.

he asks, glancing around the

lived here for some years. I think she’ll be fine… besides,

she wished to be buried away from The Crystal Shadow Pack. That she refuses to

longer, but I couldn’t ignore that order of hers from long

nods. “Well,

are listening in on our conversations. We have been intercepted twice on trips and I’ve grown

has found something, and I am going to meet him

over the phone.

admit it, but I barely

should rest, and head to the safe

some work to attend to.” I say, kissing his

me as if I’m

and

to take care of your mental and physical health.”

you doing that?” Dad asks

answer to that, and I motion for

Justin, Jai and Atticus depending on who was available and although I am getting better, I also know

her brother made her warm

tell anyone openly in

I know he’s alive. He wouldn’t die so easily, not when he had

take me to the Toussaint business headquarters as I need to attend

talking politely to Harrison. This act of mine is a painful reminder that the world carries on even when things are rough.

go-ahead. Yet again another reminder that I have to keep my chin

file after we have both signed the papers, and he’s ready for the official proposal to

to you, Ms Toussaint, and I will look forward to the work getting

I do appreciate it. We will not disappoint.” I

now is what I call the hard part. Bringing the project

if there are any blips, then that is my job to handle,” I

files… Here.” He rummages in his briefcase and takes out

need to give

Ms Toussaint!” He fastens the button of his suit jacket and slips out of the

empty office. I’m in the Toussaint building, but we all agreed it would be

walk back to the desk and open the file, scanning

proposal for this project. Why would he give me

I flip through

How strange…

there has to be more to it. Did someone put him up

there poison on the

it but

Is it a warning?

then, there’s a knock on the

up to see the door open to reveal Atticus standing there, briefcase in hand.

on his face, I am certain

“Afternoon Ms Toussaint.”

reply as

sauntering over to my desk as

and people will think

bad thing.”

what to make of them. It’s Sebastian’s plan for Mr Harrison’s project. Why

to give it to you… have you handled