I Am The Luna

A week has passed, and I feel… empty.

The moment Atticus mentioned it, there were so many emotions that I was left to deal with.

Anger, betrayal, regret, pain, guilt and sadness.

My emotions became an ocean I was drowning in, struggling to stay afloat… but I let go, allowing the emotions to consume me… until I no longer felt anything.

When your emotions are no longer blinding you, things become clearer. Just as I now paid attention to what Sebastian had said before he left. That he had something to do. If I paid.

enough attention, I would have realised before I overrode security. He had already locked himself out of the pack.

He had warned us too about the rogues, just as Atticus had mentioned. The cryptic remarks, the way he looked at me, the fear that something would happen it was all valid.

And then, our little Sia, I should have realised he’d do anything for her. I just wish he told me so I would understand. Did breaking my heart help him?

But I can’t be selfish. My feelings are not important in comparison to our daughter’s health. I would do anything for her and if he succeeds in getting that cure, I will be forever in his debt.

Sebastian’s and my trust have never been perfect and I realise that we are just not compatible. Our relationship just isn’t at that level where we could not live without one another.

Perhaps I was too stupid, but to Sebastian, this was just a relationship, not his world. I thought this time around I wasn’t so clingy, but I clearly don’t love right.

Where do I lack?

That is a question I’ll always ask myself, but never voice.

For our children, I hope he makes it and that he accomplishes what I have never been able to do. Heal Sia… that thought brings me hope.

Even the moon cannot heal things that are man made. I glance up as a sharp wind blows and observe Dad, who now turns away from Mom’s grave.

Mom’s funeral was held a few days ago and seeing Dad’s state, the way he’s hiding what he’s truly feeling breaks me a little more.

He was cheated on by Mom… but he still loved her, just as Sebastian has hurt me, yet I can’t help but love him. But that doesn’t mean I can’t forgive him, it just means I will never be able to accept him back into my life.

But I can relate to Dad in a way. The pain our mates caused us would always remain, despite the love we feel too.

If we make it out of this alive…

come,” I say gently, holding

looks at me and once again I’m hit with the painful

I need you, Dad…

I can’t lose him.

he asks, glancing around the graveyard of

years. I think she’ll be fine… besides, she’s closest to the children here …she wanted that.” I say

Mom once told me, she wished to be buried away from The Crystal Shadow Pack. That she refuses to be buried in a pack where her mate’s

sure what stood any longer, but I couldn’t ignore that order of hers

nods. “Well,

a way that the Sable are listening in on our conversations. We have been

all a disappointment. Atticus has found something, and I am going to meet

over the phone.

hate to admit it, but

rest, and head to the

I have some work to attend to.”

if I’m old.” He

smile and shake my

need to take care of your mental and physical health.” I

you doing

answer to that, and I motion for my

and Atticus depending on who was available and although I am getting better, I also know it’s not enough time to

her warm up to him a little

I also can’t tell anyone openly in

risked it that day, and I hope Sebastian is alive- no I know he’s alive. He wouldn’t die so easily, not when he had a

car telling my driver to take me to the Toussaint business headquarters as I need to attend

world carries on even when things

the go-ahead. Yet again another reminder that I have

the file after we have both signed the papers, and he’s ready for the official proposal

happy that I gave this project to you, Ms Toussaint, and I will look forward to the

I do appreciate it. We will not disappoint.”

now is what I call the hard part. Bringing the

the details finalised, I think this part will be fairly smooth and if there are any blips, then that is my job to handle,” I say as I

chuckles. “I do like your confidence! Ah, before I forget, the files… Here.” He rummages in his briefcase and takes

didn’t need to give me any

a good day Ms Toussaint!” He fastens the button of his suit jacket and slips out of the

building, but we all agreed it would be

the door, I walk back to the desk and open the

this project. Why

uneasy, I

How strange…

thinking there has to be more to it.

there poison

sniff it but there’s

Is it a warning?

then, there’s a

the door open to reveal Atticus standing there, briefcase in hand. “Ah,

his face, I am certain that the briefcase

“Afternoon Ms Toussaint.”

I reply as I

says, sauntering over to my desk as the door slowly thuds shut

people will think we

not a bad thing.” He winks at

me these and I don’t know what to make of them. It’s Sebastian’s

told him to give it to you…