I Am The Luna

A week has passed, and I feel… empty.

The moment Atticus mentioned it, there were so many emotions that I was left to deal with.

Anger, betrayal, regret, pain, guilt and sadness.

My emotions became an ocean I was drowning in, struggling to stay afloat… but I let go, allowing the emotions to consume me… until I no longer felt anything.

When your emotions are no longer blinding you, things become clearer. Just as I now paid attention to what Sebastian had said before he left. That he had something to do. If I paid.

enough attention, I would have realised before I overrode security. He had already locked himself out of the pack.

He had warned us too about the rogues, just as Atticus had mentioned. The cryptic remarks, the way he looked at me, the fear that something would happen it was all valid.

And then, our little Sia, I should have realised he’d do anything for her. I just wish he told me so I would understand. Did breaking my heart help him?

But I can’t be selfish. My feelings are not important in comparison to our daughter’s health. I would do anything for her and if he succeeds in getting that cure, I will be forever in his debt.

Sebastian’s and my trust have never been perfect and I realise that we are just not compatible. Our relationship just isn’t at that level where we could not live without one another.

Perhaps I was too stupid, but to Sebastian, this was just a relationship, not his world. I thought this time around I wasn’t so clingy, but I clearly don’t love right.

Where do I lack?

That is a question I’ll always ask myself, but never voice.

For our children, I hope he makes it and that he accomplishes what I have never been able to do. Heal Sia… that thought brings me hope.

Even the moon cannot heal things that are man made. I glance up as a sharp wind blows and observe Dad, who now turns away from Mom’s grave.

Mom’s funeral was held a few days ago and seeing Dad’s state, the way he’s hiding what he’s truly feeling breaks me a little more.

He was cheated on by Mom… but he still loved her, just as Sebastian has hurt me, yet I can’t help but love him. But that doesn’t mean I can’t forgive him, it just means I will never be able to accept him back into my life.

But I can relate to Dad in a way. The pain our mates caused us would always remain, despite the love we feel too.

If we make it out of this alive…

say gently, holding my hand

at me and once again I’m hit with the painful reminder that he

I need you, Dad…

I can’t lose him.

burying her here was ideal?” he asks,

lived here for some years. I think she’ll be fine… besides, she’s closest

from The Crystal Shadow Pack. That she refuses to be buried in a pack where her mate’s mistress

longer, but I couldn’t ignore

nods. “Well,

don’t reply. There is still a way that the Sable are listening in on our conversations. We

has found something, and I am going to meet him later since neither of us trusted

over the phone.

to admit it, but I

rest, and head

some work to attend to.” I say,

me as if I’m old.” He

and shake my

need to take care of your mental and physical health.” I remind

are you doing

have no answer to that, and I motion for my guards to take

training with Justin, Jai and Atticus depending on who was available and although I am getting better,

made her warm up to him a little more, much to Jai’s

them about Sebastian, but I also can’t tell anyone openly in

hope Sebastian is alive- no I know he’s alive. He wouldn’t die so easily, not when he had a

driver to take me to the

of mine is a painful reminder that the world carries on even when things are rough.

with the final draft and wants to give us the go-ahead. Yet again another reminder

both signed the papers, and

this project to you, Ms Toussaint, and I will

appreciate it. We will not disappoint.” I reply gracefully,

now is what I call the hard part. Bringing

be fairly smooth and if there are any blips, then that is my job to handle,”

I forget, the files… Here.” He rummages in his briefcase and takes out a

He didn’t need to

day Ms Toussaint!” He fastens the button of his suit jacket and slips out of the room before I can ask him, leaving me with the

building, but we all agreed it would be the safest place for a meeting considering all that

to the desk and open

Sebastian’s old proposal for this project. Why

uneasy, I flip through

How strange…

down at the file, thinking there has to be more to it.

poison

sniff it but

Is it a warning?

there’s a knock on the

open to reveal Atticus standing

on his face, I am certain that the briefcase he is carrying contains

“Afternoon Ms Toussaint.”

I reply

sauntering over to my desk

at that and people will think we are

bad thing.” He

up. “Mr Harrsion gave me these and I don’t know what to make of them. It’s Sebastian’s plan for Mr Harrison’s project. Why would Mr Harrison give

to give it to you… have