I Am The Luna

A week has passed, and I feel… empty.

The moment Atticus mentioned it, there were so many emotions that I was left to deal with.

Anger, betrayal, regret, pain, guilt and sadness.

My emotions became an ocean I was drowning in, struggling to stay afloat… but I let go, allowing the emotions to consume me… until I no longer felt anything.

When your emotions are no longer blinding you, things become clearer. Just as I now paid attention to what Sebastian had said before he left. That he had something to do. If I paid.

enough attention, I would have realised before I overrode security. He had already locked himself out of the pack.

He had warned us too about the rogues, just as Atticus had mentioned. The cryptic remarks, the way he looked at me, the fear that something would happen it was all valid.

And then, our little Sia, I should have realised he’d do anything for her. I just wish he told me so I would understand. Did breaking my heart help him?

But I can’t be selfish. My feelings are not important in comparison to our daughter’s health. I would do anything for her and if he succeeds in getting that cure, I will be forever in his debt.

Sebastian’s and my trust have never been perfect and I realise that we are just not compatible. Our relationship just isn’t at that level where we could not live without one another.

Perhaps I was too stupid, but to Sebastian, this was just a relationship, not his world. I thought this time around I wasn’t so clingy, but I clearly don’t love right.

Where do I lack?

That is a question I’ll always ask myself, but never voice.

For our children, I hope he makes it and that he accomplishes what I have never been able to do. Heal Sia… that thought brings me hope.

Even the moon cannot heal things that are man made. I glance up as a sharp wind blows and observe Dad, who now turns away from Mom’s grave.

Mom’s funeral was held a few days ago and seeing Dad’s state, the way he’s hiding what he’s truly feeling breaks me a little more.

He was cheated on by Mom… but he still loved her, just as Sebastian has hurt me, yet I can’t help but love him. But that doesn’t mean I can’t forgive him, it just means I will never be able to accept him back into my life.

But I can relate to Dad in a way. The pain our mates caused us would always remain, despite the love we feel too.

If we make it out of this alive…

I say gently, holding my hand

me and once again I’m hit with the painful reminder that

I need you, Dad…

I can’t lose him.

ideal?” he asks, glancing around the graveyard

years. I think she’ll be fine… besides, she’s closest to the children here

wished to be buried away from The Crystal Shadow Pack. That she refuses to be buried in a

I couldn’t ignore that order of hers from

“Well,

listening in on our conversations. We have been intercepted twice on

has found something, and I am going to meet him later since neither of us trusted

over the phone.

to admit it, but I barely trust

and head to

have some work to attend to.”

if I’m

and shake my

just that you need to take care of your mental and physical health.” I

doing

and I motion for

who was available and although I am getting better, I also know it’s not enough time to become a master of the arts,

brother made her warm up to him a little more, much to Jai’s

them about Sebastian, but I also can’t tell anyone openly in case we’re

it that day, and I hope Sebastian is alive- no I know he’s alive. He wouldn’t die so easily, not when he had a

my car telling my driver to take me to the Toussaint business headquarters as I need to attend to

act of mine is a painful reminder that the world carries on even when things are rough. For those on the outside, no one knows

final draft and wants to give us the go-ahead. Yet again another reminder that

have both signed the papers, and he’s ready for the official proposal

you, Ms Toussaint, and I will look forward to the work

will not disappoint.”

this now is what I call the hard part. Bringing the project

I think this part will be fairly smooth and if there are any blips, then that

do like your confidence! Ah, before I forget, the files… Here.” He rummages in his

He didn’t need to give me

the button of his suit jacket and slips out of the

Toussaint building, but we all agreed it would be the safest place for a meeting considering all that has happened before, like the

back to the desk and open the file, scanning it

Sebastian’s old proposal for this project. Why would

I flip

How strange…

be more to it. Did someone put him up to this and

poison on the

sniff it but there’s

Is it a warning?

a knock on the

see the door open to reveal Atticus standing there, briefcase in hand. “Ah, perfect.” My secretary

smug expression on his face, I am certain that

“Afternoon Ms Toussaint.”

Mr Payne,” I reply as I sit

says, sauntering over to my desk as the door slowly thuds shut behind

that and people

thing.” He winks at

“Mr Harrsion gave me these and I don’t know what to make of them. It’s Sebastian’s plan for

to give it to you… have you